Happy tears, but I totally cried watching the vaginal birth delivery video at our Preparing for Baby class Tuesday night. It was beautiful and I don't think I've ever seen one!
We had a retirement party today for someone on staff, and while I wasn't very close to him, it was great to see the staff family loving on one of their own, and made me think about how since I'm not returning after baby is here I'm going to miss them all very much. It's really been the best and healthiest workplace I've ever worked in and the people have made a big impact on me in the two years I've been here. Wahh!
On my way to work this morning, some guy ran a stop sign and almost hit my car while doing so. He then proceeded to roll down his window to flip me off and scream at me to watch where I'm going. Bleh.
DH went on a work trip to the town we moved away from a year and a half ago. It's a little Dutch town. We went to school there and lived there for 3 years after. Anyway, they have the most amazing bakery and I used to stop and get donuts every Friday morning to treat myself for surviving another week. Anytime we go back to visit (which was a lot last year because we got married there in July) we would stop, eat, and stock up.
So, I send him with a list to pick me up approximately 10 dozen donut holes (not joking) of two different varieties so I can put them in little baggies and freeze them. He calls me this morning and tells me "they don't make buttermilk donut holes in the winter". I almost lost my cool. In 8 years of weekly donut binging they have never NOT had these donut holes. Whyyyyyyy do they stop making them now that I'm out of town and pregnant. I cried a little after he told me that because I have no idea when we will be back again to get more donuts And then I went from crying to raging inside because I was so mad at those stupid people for their discontinued "winter" donuts.
I just really love food. And donuts. And this bakery. And so that's why my pregnant self is crying.
My cat peed on the couch again. I have two cats that I've had for 10 years... they don't seem to be adjusting well to the pregnancy and the idea that they aren't going to be the center of attention. Vet says they are perfectly healthy but probably just stressed and that's why they might be acting out. I don't know how to fix it and for a moment I thought about having to get rid of them. Then I cried so hard I started coughing and then my RLP nearly killed me.
Today I cried because I got a notice from Amazon that my welcome box was going to be late. And that wouldn't bother me on its own, but it was the straw that broke the camel's back, because my nursery art prints are STILL stuck in a USPS shippinf center in Nashville, TEN days later than their promised day of delivery, and while I've been talking to the seller, I haven't heard any updates. Plus, I thought this was the weekend DH might actually get STARTED on the nursery but he went and got sick, and I'm just sitting here all pregnant and tired and without any hint of a nursery, and with all of one diaper bag, one onesie, and two pairs of socks for this baby due in less than three months and I'm trying not to freak out.
I plan things in advance. Way in advance. If I hadn't broken my foot the nursery would be painted already. If my best friend who's throwing my shower wasn't a CPA in the thick of tax season I would ask her if she had any plans for when my shower was going to be. It is a weird, weird position for a planner like me to be in, to have nothing ready for this child. I'm genuinely thinking of buying several things and keeping the receipts to return them if I get them at my shower. At least I'll feel better! Lol. Rant over.
**TW** My coworker that has had two losses, struggles getting pregnant, and now is 19 weeks pregnant had her gender reveal today. They had only invited family but did a Facebook live video and I got all teary watching them cut into their cake and find out they are having the little girl she and her husband have been praying for!!
I watched one movie today where all of the main character's kids died and then watched another where a little girl's mom died. I probably would have cried before pregnancy, too, but it was much more intense.
DD #1: April 2017 DD #2: May 2020 Baby #3: EDD May 2023; MC October 2022
I cried today thinking about how much I love DSS#2. His 6th birthday is tmrw (Sunday). I've been in his life for 5.5 years, so basically his whole life. He is the sweetest boy with the sweetest soul. He cares so much for other people. He is the first person to give me a hug and kiss when I come home from work. He went to a trampoline place with his mom today and when she dropped him off, the first words out of his mouth was "where's Kirstin?" Then he came and found me to tell me how much fun he had. I had tears in my eyes today as I was thinking of him, how amazing he is, and how blessed I am that he is my son!
I spent 7 hours scrubbing glue off the hallway walls yesterday and then last night we had to go to a hockey game. On our way home from the hockey game I cried because I was so tired (it was 1045) and sore from getting up and down the ladder all day. Needless to say I felt pathetic lol
I was cleaning my house yesterday and I was listening to a playlist I put together of songs I want to listen to with the boys and I just stood there, scrubbing the stove top, with tears welling in my eyes, thinking about how I'm really only like 8 weeks away!
Also, I had terribly restless legs last week - just couldn't get comfortable. Now, normally I HATE massages, I'm super awkward about being touched, haha. I asked my DH to just come over and massage my legs. He goes "how am I doing?" I told him to look at my face. I was tearing up because IT FELT SO FREAKING GOOD! Hahaha! Is this what I've been missing?!?!?! Haha!
TTC Numero uno since 01/13 Me 31, DH 32, Married 08/08 02/13/15-HSG-All Clear
07/25/15-50mg Clomid CD3-7+IUI #1 cd14-3 Follicles; SA 21Mill- BFN
08/19/15-25mg Clomid CD3-7+IUI #2 cd15-just ovulated, SA 42Mill- BFN
09/10/15-25mg Clomid CD3-7+IUI #3 cd14-2 Follicles; SA 45Mill- BFN
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Re: Why my pregnant self is crying 1/19
So, I send him with a list to pick me up approximately 10 dozen donut holes (not joking) of two different varieties so I can put them in little baggies and freeze them. He calls me this morning and tells me "they don't make buttermilk donut holes in the winter". I almost lost my cool. In 8 years of weekly donut binging they have never NOT had these donut holes. Whyyyyyyy do they stop making them now that I'm out of town and pregnant. I cried a little after he told me that because I have no idea when we will be back again to get more donuts
I just really love food. And donuts. And this bakery. And so that's why my pregnant self is crying.
I plan things in advance. Way in advance. If I hadn't broken my foot the nursery would be painted already. If my best friend who's throwing my shower wasn't a CPA in the thick of tax season I would ask her if she had any plans for when my shower was going to be. It is a weird, weird position for a planner like me to be in, to have nothing ready for this child. I'm genuinely thinking of buying several things and keeping the receipts to return them if I get them at my shower. At least I'll feel better! Lol. Rant over.
My coworker that has had two losses, struggles getting pregnant, and now is 19 weeks pregnant had her gender reveal today. They had only invited family but did a Facebook live video and I got all teary watching them cut into their cake and find out they are having the little girl she and her husband have been praying for!!
DD #2: May 2020
Baby #3: EDD May 2023; MC October 2022
Married: 5/30/2013
DSS #1: 5/25/2007
DSS #2: 1/22/2011
DS #3: 7/8/2012
BFP: 3/14/2016 ~ MC: 3/19/2016
DS #4: 4/21/17
Also, I had terribly restless legs last week - just couldn't get comfortable. Now, normally I HATE massages, I'm super awkward about being touched, haha. I asked my DH to just come over and massage my legs. He goes "how am I doing?" I told him to look at my face. I was tearing up because IT FELT SO FREAKING GOOD! Hahaha! Is this what I've been missing?!?!?! Haha!
Me 31, DH 32, Married 08/08
02/13/15-HSG-All Clear
ER 02/05-20 Retrieved - 11 Matured, 9 Fertilized, ET 2/10 (1 Transferred, 4 Frz) - BFP 2/19, M/C-3/5-Trisomy 16
ER 07/14-14 Retrieved,11 Matured, 10 Fertilized, ET 07/19 (2 Transferred, 6 Frz), BFP 7/28, 8/16 U/S-TWINS!
Due Date - April 6, 2017 UPDATED March 23, 2017!