June 2017 Moms

*TW* I'm not in limbo anymore

After seeing baby on u/s on Sunday happily bouncing around,  baby passed away Monday or Tuesday at 9w0d and I had a large, heavy bleed last night with lots of cramping.  Went to the ER, had an u/s this morning, and they confirmed there is no heartbeat. I'm sitting in surgery admissions waiting for a D&C because after the rollercoaster of the last 5 weeks, I have no desire to pass everything naturally. At the very least,  I am relieved that I at least have a final answer and can move on from here. I don't know what that necessarily involves in terms of trying again, but for now I'm hoping to have some peace in my life and enjoy my kids and the holiday season. 

I truly wish all of you healthy, take-home babies in June.
Me: 35 I DH: 38
*TW loss and children mentioned*
DD:2006 | Dx: Unexplained Secondary Infertility | DS: 2011

TFAS since 2012

Oct 16: Spontaneous BFP | m/c @ 9w1d (massive SCH) | D&C
Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen  
Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = cancelled due to missed ovulation
Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = BFP! Beta 1: 201  Beta 2: 585 Beta 3: 3254 Beta 4: 9715 U/S 19May - one bean measuring on track with a HB of 125!
EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019 <3 

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Re: *TW* I'm not in limbo anymore

  • So so sorry for your loss.  Praying for you. 
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  • I'm so sorry. Peace to you. 
  • No! :( I'm so sorry, tosh. I will be praying for a successful surgery and for peace and healing in the coming months for you.
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  • @tosh24 I will truly miss seeing you on the boards, and I am thinking of you. I am sorry.
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  • So sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself.
  • So incredibly sorry for your loss. 
    Me 37, DH 40
    BFP #1 6/13 DD 3/14
    Mirena 10/14-5/16
    BFP #2 9/2/16, CP confirmed 9/8/16
    BFP #3 10/10/16 EDD 6/22/17
  • I'm sooo sorry!! Prayers for you!!
  • Ah I am so so sorry for your loss
  • mamaelle27mamaelle27 member
    edited November 2016
    I'm so sorry for your loss. We'll miss you here. Be well. 
  • I am so sorry.  You are in my thoughts.  
                                                                              Married 12/17/2011
                                                                                  K born 8/31/12                                 
                                                                                  C born 1/11/14
                                                                  BFP #3 Nov 2014: D&C January 2015
                                                                  BFP #4 Sept 2016: Due May 31 2017


  • I'm so sorry for the the pain you mus be going through. Be kind to yourself. Best wishes for a smooth physical and emotional recovery.
  • So sorry for your loss, take care of yourself  <3
    Me: 23  |  DH: 25  | Married: 28.3.14  |  Together Since: 28.07.10
    MC#1 o:) : April 15  |  MC#2 o:) : Aug 15  |  MC#3 o:) : Jan 16  | MC#4  o:) : April 16
  • @tosh24  I pray your angel watches over you and your family, Im so sorry 
  • Damn, Tosh, I am so sorry! So many hugs to you! <3
  • Oh no, Tosh. I am so sorry for your loss. 
    Me: 28  DH: 30
    Married 5/8/2011
    TTC #1 since 9/2015
    BFP #1 1/14/16, MC 3/23/16
    BFP #2 9/21/2016, EDD 5/30/2017
  • Oh no, I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm glad you finally have an answer, I just wish it was a happier one. :( I'm sorry for your loss; be good to yourself.
  • I'm so incredibly sorry. I'm glad you at least finally have some closure so you can start the grieving process. I remember feeling with my miscarriage that limbo was the worst part with the exception of the first day or so after getting a definitive answer. But living in limbo but worse than having closure and being able to start moving forward, as painful as it was.

    Thoughts and prayers with you and your family in this time of grief.
    Me: 28 Husband: 31
    TTC#1: January 2015- September 2016
    Infertility, Recurrent Pregnancy Loss
    Rainbow baby born June 6, 2017  ❤️

    Baby #2 due June 12, 2018
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  • So sorry!  Praying for you!
  • I'm so sorry for your loss. 
  •  :'( 
    so sorry to hear this



  • I'm so sorry for your loss :cry: this stuff just isn't fair!
    ***BFP & Child Warning***

    Me: 34, DH: 38 ~ TTC since 2014
    IUI #1-3 (Nov 2015, Feb 2016, May 2016) = BFNs
    IVF ER (July 2016) = 7 PGS normal embryos
    FET #1 (Sept 2016) = BFP! DD born 5/30/17
    FET #2 (April 2019) = BFN
    FET #3 (July 2019) = BFP! DS born 3/27/20
  • I'm so sorry for your loss  :'(
  • I'm so sorry to hear this. Take care of yourself. ❤️
  • I am so very sorry for your loss.
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  • So sorry to here this, Tosh. Sending you thoughts and prayers!
  • Heliumgirl717Heliumgirl717 member
    edited November 2016
    I am so sorry for your loss hun :(
  • So sorry for you loss thoughts are with you
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  • I'm so sorry to read this heartbreaking news.  All my love during this extremely difficult time. <3<3<3
  • I'm so sorry to hear this. In my T&Ps
  • After the rollercoaster I feel like you have had, I am just so saddened by this news... I was so glad to see you back recently and to see this thread this morning... I'm just so, so sorry for your loss!  ::hugs::
  • I am so sorry for your loss.  Prayers for peace and healing.
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss.  Sending Ts&Ps
  • Oh no, I am so sorry to see this. Take care of yourself, you will be in our t&ps!


    Me: 36;  DH: 38
    DD: 7; DS1: 4; DS2 due 6-21-17!
    **TW**
    MMC & D&C Aug 2016
  • Thank you ladies for all your thoughts and love. The u/s showed that a sizable SCH had developed and a large blood clot had formed between the placenta and the uterine wall which probably killed the baby. I have adenomyosis and I don't know if that had anything to do with this miscarriage since, as the condition progresses, it damages the uterus. I think I might request an MRI to help determine how far gone my uterus is and if it's even possible to have another baby. I'm trying not to overwhelm myself and think about all that stuff right now since it makes my heart sink into my stomach, but it's hard. D&C went well and I'm taking the next few days off of work to rest and heal. Much love and luck to you all <3
    Me: 35 I DH: 38
    *TW loss and children mentioned*
    DD:2006 | Dx: Unexplained Secondary Infertility | DS: 2011

    TFAS since 2012

    Oct 16: Spontaneous BFP | m/c @ 9w1d (massive SCH) | D&C
    Apr 17: IUI #1 = BFN
    May 17: IUI #2 = BFN
    Jun 17: IUI #3 = Late BFP (18 DPO) | NMC 17Jul17 @ ~6w
    Aug 17: IUI #4 = Cancelled due to premature ovulation | TI = BFN
    Sep 17: IUI #5 = Cancelled due to overstimulation (10+ follies)
    Nov 17: IVF #1 = Cancelled due to non-IF related health issue | TI = BFN
    Dec 17: IVF #1 = Puregon 200, Menopur 75, Orgalutran, Suprefact trigger due to OHSS risk | 22R, 18M, 16F, 10B frozen  
    Feb 18: FET #1 (medicated) = BFN
    Mar 18: FET #2 (natural cycle) = CP (beta 1: 54; beta 2: 0)
    Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = cancelled due to missed ovulation
    Apr 18: FET #3 (natural cycle) = BFP! Beta 1: 201  Beta 2: 585 Beta 3: 3254 Beta 4: 9715 U/S 19May - one bean measuring on track with a HB of 125!
    EDD: 07Jan2019 Team Green
    My Rainbow Baby Boy born 03Jan2019 <3 

  • so sorry for your loss 
                  
                                       \

                                                                DS #1 born 05/25/2012   
                                                         BFP#2:  06/12/2013 ---- loss
     
                                                                DS #2 born 4/08/2014
          BPF#4: 2/1/2016 --- 2/23/2016 suspected molar pregnancy--- 3/15/2016 D&E - diagnosis MM
                                                                   BFP#5 - 9/22/2016
                        
                                                                                                                                     * formally bornmommy

  • So sorry about your loss. T&Ps for you and your DH during this time.

    Me: 31
         DH: 34
    Married 11/09/2013

    LO#1: LMP 09/14/2014  BFP 10/15/2014  EDD 06/24/2015  DS Born 06/14/2015
    LO#2: LMP 09/18/2016  BFP 10/19/2016  EDD 06/27/2017 DD Born 06/27/2017
    LO#3: LMP 05/16/2018  BFP 06/18/2018  EDD 02/20/2019

      
  • I'm so sorry for your loss  :( 

    DH: 35 | Me: 29
    BFP #1- 07.25.12, EDD: 03.24.13, DD born 03.26.13
    Surprised BFP #2- 02.25.15, EDD: 10/29/15 |*m/c 7w4d, D&C 04.02.2015 
    BFP #3- 01.21.16, EDD: 09.29.26 |*m/c-blighted ovum 2.19.16 8w1d, D&C 03.04.16 
    BFP #4- 05.24.16, EDD: 02.04.17 |*natural m/c-  07.08.16, 9w1d
    BFP #5- 09/25/16, EDD: 06.07.17 GROW
    , BABY, GROW! 

  • I'm so very sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself, mama. 
  • So hoping nothing serious has happened to prevent future rainbows. Sending you healing vibes. So sorry this has happened!
  • I am so sorry for your loss.  I will keep you in my thoughts <3
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    DD #1 born 4/1/2012
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