@DaniBanani16 I feel similar to you because the exact thing happened to me. I told my parents, DH's parents and my 2 best friends all in one weekend. Then literally days later I found out about our MMC. It was just so sad to have to tell everyone- my other best friend I never even got to tell, I just was like well hey guess what I was pregnant but now I am miscarrying and have to have surgery on Friday. It sucked. I still have not told anyone except my mom and step-dad....and I just told one of my best friends. Since I am pretty much almost past my loss date, I feel a little better but probably won't tell anyone else until we have a successful NT ultrasound.
If telling random strangers makes you feel better than go for it! I can't wait for everyone else to know and be able to share in my happiness- I'm so bad at keeping secrets. It just sucks that we have to feel this way- being PGAL is the worst
@DaniBanani16 strangers are the BEST! They usually get really excited for you and it is usually the time when I feel the least PGAL because they don't instantly get that worried look in their eye like I am a ticking time bomb. I feel ya, girl.
Married DH 12/31/13 BFP#1 1/21/14 ended in loss DNC 3/5/14 BFP#2 7/2014 Baby Girl born 4/15/15 BFP#3 2/10/2016 natural mc 2/27/2016 BFP#4 6/25/2016 Due 3/2/2017
Hmm maybe I should start with strangers.. I didn't even tell my dentist today when I went in for a routine teeth cleaning partly for fear of jinxing anything and I dread having to explain another miscarriage to anyone. The sympathy was rather nice at times the first time around but I think I'll be more embarrassed than anything if it happens again and I'd rather not let anyone know. I really wish there wasn't all this stigma around this topic.
2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? Harmony test next Tues
3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: PGAL brain has caught up with me again. I was doing well for awhile but the longer I go, the more I wonder if everything is okay in there. I have an OB appt next week, but I'm not scheduled for a US that day (had one at 6 wks) and I'm not sure they'll be able to hear a heartbeat on Doppler, so I'm not sure that appt is going to bring any reassurance.
4. GTKY: It's August already and I can't believe how summer is flying by- Fall is right around the corner (which is my favorite season btw)! What is your favorite fall activity?
Football! Both college and NFL!
Married: 7/9/15 Me: 37, DH: 36 Started TTC #1: 9/2015 Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016 BFP: 6/22/2016 EDD 3//6/2017
@PattersRN I have an appointment on Monday with my OB and I will be 9 weeks 6 days. I dont think they'll be able to hear the HB with a Doppler either especially because my uterus is tipped. I don't even know if I want them to try because it it will just make me anxious. I probably won't have another US until 12 weeks for the NT. I had a US at almost 8 weeks and all looked good so just trucking along but agree wish I had reassurance that things are ok between then and now. FX your harmony tests has good results!
2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? Next appointment is 8/31. I'll be just past my previous loss date so if all goes well then maybe I'll be able to relax
3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: I wasn't really on the bump this past week. We were out of town at a family wedding at my MS went away. I was sure I had lost the baby as that's what happened last time. So I just tried to pretend that all was well around family around family that doesn't know I'm pregnant. After we got back, the MS started up again and I had an appointment yesterday and saw the heartbeat on the ultrasound. I feel like maybe I can be excited again.
4. GTKY: It's August already and I can't believe how summer is flying by- Fall is right around the corner (which is my favorite season btw)! What is your favorite fall activity? I'm so looking forward to the cooler weather. I don't really have a favorite activity but it's so nice to be able to enjoy being outside again.
@Spartanrd4 Just out of curiousity, what is your appointment on Monday for? Do they do more bloodwork or anything? It's just interesting to see how different OB practices operate. Mine doesn't do anything between the initial prenatal appointment and 12 weeks. The first appointment is for bloodwork, and the only reason I had an US was to follow up for spotting. I don't think my office even does routine dating US's.
@Wishilivedinflorida my OB practice usually goes: you have the first appt at 8 weeks and then an appointment every 4 weeks until you are further along...then you have an appointment every 2 weeks then every week until delivery. Since I had a loss my OB wanted me to be seen earlier so I had my first appointment at 6 weeks where I had bloodwork, had a dating ultrasound at almost 8 weeks (I never had one with the pregnancy I lost) and now I'm seeing the OB at 10 weeks instead of 12. So I'm just a little off schedule that's all. I assume I will have the NT at 12 weeks and then see her again at 14 weeks, 18 weeks etc. But I plan to clarify with her what she wants my schedule to be going forward.
Interesting @Spartanrd4. My office is kind of cold about loss stuff. They don't see you with any more frequency unless you are having symptoms of another loss (cramping, spotting, etc). I get where they are coming from, as in there's nothing they can do to stop an early loss, so extra monitoring is just more costly, but it doesn't help PGAL anxiety. In fact, they didn't even want to check early labs, so I had my PCP do that for me. Oh well, I guess I just have to stomp through these next few weeks until NT with confidence that all is well!
@wishilivedinflorida Yeah I don't know if they do that with everyone who has had a loss...probably not but I love my OB/GYN and she really understands me and how anxiety ridden being PGAL can be. She knows that being more closely monitored makes me feel better and it makes me happy that she cares about her patients this way....like I'm getting special treatment or something The sad part is I probably won't always get to see her for all my appointments but hope to at least see her during these most crucial ones. Will let you know what happens at my appointment!
How far along are you? 6 weeks today! Looking forward to my first ultra sound next Friday! Cautiously happy, and by cautious also TERRIFIED. Praying everything looks good.
2. Next milestone is this 7 week ultra sound. Then the 10'week appt for heartbeat.. Then finally the 12 week ultra sound. I'll relax once I hit that point for a little and then the 20 week grand finale. Once I get past that point God willing I will relax because at that point you'd be past miscarriage and have to delivery a baby if anything did occur.
3. Rants/Raves: I have a problem. I'm so jealous of the blissfully unaware people who have never had a miscarriage and don't know what it really means to worry and grieve and really go through the fucking ringer with this whole being a mom thing. They announce super early, they don't stress that anything will happen because it never has, I'm just straight up jealous of their blissfully unaware positive attitude.
4. I love love love fall. I'm looking forward to Halloween and pumpkins and having a wonderful time doing all the fun fall stuff. Both kids start pre-school next year, looking forward to them being in the same school together and meeting their new teachers etc.
@KyCade3013 interesting you feel that way. I actually feel the exact opposite because I wouldn't want anyone to go through what I went through. But I also made it a point to stop worrying. I had to stop being so paranoid about things that beyond my control and trust that what is meant to be will be and be thankful to have a strong support system that I know will be there to get me through anything.
I had my 10 week appointment today, and they were able to find the heartbeat on the doppler! I was so excited, because I wasn't expecting that (I thought it was just a new ob exam visit). It's finally starting to feel real!
** December BMB Siggy Challenge - Animals in Pools **
Me: 31+ H: 32 TTC Since 11/2015 #1 - MMC 6.5 weeks (2/16); #2 - MC due to cystic hygroma at 20 weeks (10/16); #3 CP (2/17); #4 - Due 12.16.17
OMG I'm having such a tough time lately! I don't want to selfishly rant but I have to share somewhere so thank you for putting up with me.
I'm 10w2d and yesterday I didn't get sick in the morning...that of course made me a worry wart all day and I kinda had a breakdown when my husband got home, I soaked the shoulder of his T-shirt bawling my eyes out. I think I'm not just worried about feeling better too early and that being a bad sign but I think I need to acknowledge that my first child was due next week...I think I'm still grieving...I really honestly handled the miscarriage well and was able to process it but now that I'm in the time between when my last bean was lost and when I miscarried (9w - 12w) I feel so in shambles!! I check Bean's heartbeat on doppler every few days and he's still thumping in there, I'm just so afraid for him but more so I think I'm really thinking about my lost bean...on our due date DH and I plan to light a candle and say kaddish (Jewish prayer of mourning a death but which is really about exalting G-d)...it is going to hurt so bad but I think right now thats a good thing. Then the following week I have my 13w midwife appt and will officially be pregnant longer than last time.
Wow sorry that was so long but I gotta get these things out. Thanks for bearing with me.
And @DaniBanani16 I totally complain to store clerks LOL I am bad at not telling people even in light of a possible loss
Re: PGAL Check In 8/1
If telling random strangers makes you feel better than go for it! I can't wait for everyone else to know and be able to share in my happiness- I'm so bad at keeping secrets. It just sucks that we have to feel this way- being PGAL is the worst
BFP#1 1/21/14 ended in loss DNC 3/5/14
BFP#2 7/2014 Baby Girl born 4/15/15
BFP#3 2/10/2016 natural mc 2/27/2016
BFP#4 6/25/2016 Due 3/2/2017
1. How far along are you? 9 weeks, 2 days
2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? Harmony test next Tues
3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: PGAL brain has caught up with me again. I was doing well for awhile but the longer I go, the more I wonder if everything is okay in there. I have an OB appt next week, but I'm not scheduled for a US that day (had one at 6 wks) and I'm not sure they'll be able to hear a heartbeat on Doppler, so I'm not sure that appt is going to bring any reassurance.
4. GTKY: It's August already and I can't believe how summer is flying by- Fall is right around the corner (which is my favorite season btw)! What is your favorite fall activity?
Football! Both college and NFL!
Me: 37, DH: 36
Started TTC #1: 9/2015
Preliminary labs/testing @ 6 months: TSH, A1c, progesterone, prolactin, SA, HSG all normal
BFP: 5/19/2016, M/C: 5/29/2016
BFP: 6/22/2016 EDD 3//6/2017
2. Next milestone you're looking forward to? Next appointment is 8/31. I'll be just past my previous loss date so if all goes well then maybe I'll be able to relax
3. Rant/Rave/Positive Vibes: I wasn't really on the bump this past week. We were out of town at a family wedding at my MS went away. I was sure I had lost the baby as that's what happened last time. So I just tried to pretend that all was well around family around family that doesn't know I'm pregnant. After we got back, the MS started up again and I had an appointment yesterday and saw the heartbeat on the ultrasound. I feel like maybe I can be excited again.
4. GTKY: It's August already and I can't believe how summer is flying by- Fall is right around the corner (which is my favorite season btw)! What is your favorite fall activity? I'm so looking forward to the cooler weather. I don't really have a favorite activity but it's so nice to be able to enjoy being outside again.
I hope these next few weeks fly by for you
2. Next milestone is this 7 week ultra sound. Then the 10'week appt for heartbeat.. Then finally the 12 week ultra sound. I'll relax once I hit that point for a little and then the 20 week grand finale. Once I get past that point God willing I will relax because at that point you'd be past miscarriage and have to delivery a baby if anything did occur.
3. Rants/Raves: I have a problem. I'm so jealous of the blissfully unaware people who have never had a miscarriage and don't know what it really means to worry and grieve and really go through the fucking ringer with this whole being a mom thing. They announce super early, they don't stress that anything will happen because it never has, I'm just straight up jealous of their blissfully unaware positive attitude.
4. I love love love fall. I'm looking forward to Halloween and pumpkins and having a wonderful time doing all the fun fall stuff. Both kids start pre-school next year, looking forward to them being in the same school together and meeting their new teachers etc.
** December BMB Siggy Challenge - Animals in Pools **
Me: 31+ H: 32
TTC Since 11/2015
#1 - MMC 6.5 weeks (2/16); #2 - MC due to cystic hygroma at 20 weeks (10/16); #3 CP (2/17); #4 - Due 12.16.17
I'm 10w2d and yesterday I didn't get sick in the morning...that of course made me a worry wart all day and I kinda had a breakdown when my husband got home, I soaked the shoulder of his T-shirt bawling my eyes out. I think I'm not just worried about feeling better too early and that being a bad sign but I think I need to acknowledge that my first child was due next week...I think I'm still grieving...I really honestly handled the miscarriage well and was able to process it but now that I'm in the time between when my last bean was lost and when I miscarried (9w - 12w) I feel so in shambles!! I check Bean's heartbeat on doppler every few days and he's still thumping in there, I'm just so afraid for him but more so I think I'm really thinking about my lost bean...on our due date DH and I plan to light a candle and say kaddish (Jewish prayer of mourning a death but which is really about exalting G-d)...it is going to hurt so bad but I think right now thats a good thing. Then the following week I have my 13w midwife appt and will officially be pregnant longer than last time.
Wow sorry that was so long but I gotta get these things out. Thanks for bearing with me.
And @DaniBanani16 I totally complain to store clerks LOL I am bad at not telling people even in light of a possible loss