I am looking for help in finding someone to deliver my baby. I actually live in Vero Beach but I want to deliver at Holmes because I have a better chance of having a VBAC. I had a csection with my son 3 1/2 years ago after being in labor for 38 hours. I also had pregnancy induced hypertension from 20 weeks on which was controlled well with bed rest. After giving birth to my son, I developed preeclampsia. For all of these reasons, I cannot find a midwife to take me. I really wanted to go with Hibiscus woman care midwives but they said u was too high risk.
I just got the call from them and I am literally sitting here in tears because I'm terrified that my birth will be like my last one. Im not surprised I had a csection. I was given pitocin and an epidural the second I walked in. I couldn't move around or walk or anything. I was so traumatized by the whole experience that I actually considered not having any other kids. I couldn't bond with my son until he was 6 months old. I had terrible post-partum depression and spent most of my time in the first 3 months thinking about suicide. It was that bad! I blame a lot of it on that terrible experience I had and I'm determined not to let that happen again.
Does anyone have any suggestions or help they can offer, please? I