I heard a zumba song in the car the other day and lost it. I usually zumba 3-4x a week. I miss it so much but every time I move I almost lose my cookies. Forget shaking it to Pitbull right now
DD1- Aug11 Angel Baby- June13, said goodbye Oct12 DD2- Aug13 DD3- due Feb17
I overate tonight. I know better- anytime I eat a normal size meal these days, the bloating, gas and cramping are so awful. I cried because the misery I was in was my own damn fault, and because H was out of town and I'd have to handle a hyper 3 year old at bedtime alone, despite feeling like an over inflated balloon.
I cried for two hours tonight while cuddling my dogs because DH said he'd start leaving work earlier to finish our remodel before baby is due, and today he didn't leave earlier. I have no faith we'll have a room for baby (or us) come February after three years of missed deadlines and excuses for delays.
I am crying because of this damn heightened sense of smell. I can't stand the smell of my husband, or my dog, or my couch, or anything in this damned house. I am so close to rampaging through the place and kicking everything slightly stinky outside. Oddly enough my ferret smells kinda skunky and skunky smells good. I know he needs a bath too, but I kind of just want to hold him under my nose for forever to drown out everything else. How pathetic and ridiculous is that?
I wanted to go on a mini beach vacation with DH and DD as a one last trip just the three of us. DH said no for money reasons. DD has never been to the beach and over the 4 years that we've been married, DH and I have never gone either. I am sad bc I feel like DD is missing out on all these fun life experiences as a single child! I know it sounds ridiculous but I am starting to freak out about her not being the only one in our lives and it gets me all weepy.
I cried yesterday because I remembered I have Pumpkin Spice coffee creamer in the fridge for my decaf coffee (found it at walmart a few days ago)....I love pumpkin so much it literally brought me to tears. Super embarrassing. DH couldn't help but laugh at me, while at the same time trying to reassure me there was much more pumpkin to come lol!
I'm more emotionally stable now but the day we took the pregnancy test the positive line was a little faint and DH wasn't a believer. There was an Italian festival going on nearby so we went over there to grab some lunch. I had the most amazing calzone. As I ate my little piece of Heaven there was a woman on a stage singing and people were dancing and clapping their hands and singing along. I started crying "because I want to be Italian too." DH was then convinced that I was preggers for real.
I think all of my breakdowns since have been much more logical... an Ebola documentary for example.
Three times before leaving the house today. Two before I even got out of bed. First because I felt so awful when I woke up that crying was the only logical thing to do, second because after that I fell back asleep and when I woke up it was later than I planned on going to work, and the third time because my husband never emptied the dishwasher before he left for work for the week yesterday morning. Three. Flipping. Times. All before 8:30. Before this I hadn't cried yet, so apparently my mind thought lets catch up! Amazingly there wasn't a 4th time today (yet) because I really thought there would be. I bought a bottle of cherry pepsi after lunch (because its my favorite thing in the world and sometimes I just neeeed it) and my very first sip was flat. Almost instant tears. Ironically it worked out better anyways, it didn't taste as good but at least I didnt have to burp after every sip.
Hubby was just talking to my belly and telling baby all about the great things on "this side of the uterus" like bacon and popcorn and campfires. Then he was like "Nope on second thought you don't need to know about all that yet. You stay in there and get cooked up real good!" It just struck me as the sweetest thing ever and I'm so glad he's letting the guard down a bit, I think we both feel 1000% better after the good scan yesterday. But yeah I started sobbing a bit because awww.
I watched Americas Got Talent last night and the guy at the end sang Creep (really emotionally, imo), and it just put me in absolute shambles! I cried for like a solid 3 minutes.
Does it count if I blame legit crying on pregnancy crying? I had to do that at work today after my manager laid into me. Apparently my productivity was lacking despite the fact that I worked eight hours with no break. Sorry if I come off as bitter, but her comments really cut into me... so I start ugly crying and when my co-workers asked I just said, "ah, I'm just pregnant, it's gotta be the hormones!" I mean I'm sure it wasn't fully a lie, I am a little extra sensitive due to the pregnancy, but I really needed a scapegoat.
I revived the zombie because I couldn't find a newer one
But yesterday I ran out to grab a few groceries. I walked down the ice cream Isle to torture myself I guess. I happened to see a box of ice cream cones that have 3 flavors. Chocolate, chocolate with a fudge center, and white chocolate with a fudge center. I have been wanting to try them all summer but still haven't because they are kind of expensive for icecream and I'm cheap. Sooo again I decided to not buy them, but as I walked away, I started crying!! I thought to myself what the hell?! Pull it together you look crazy. So then last night I thought it was kind of funny and was telling my husband about it, but I started to cry again!!! He was like "seriously??" Lol then told me to just go buy them, but it was 11 last night and I didn't feel like going out, so I decided I'll just hopefully get them today. (And my husband would have gone for me, but his gout flared up yesterday, so he's not budging unless he's got to pee)
The other night DH and I were watching a TV show and the daughter was applying to colleges and I just burst into tears telling DH I wasn't ready for our baby to go to college. He did comfort me but once I got it back together he started laughing and was like you realize there are a few steps in between right like pre-school and birth...
Me: 33 | DH: 34 Married: October, 19, 2015 EDD 2/22/17 DS1 born on 3/2/17 EDD 3/8/20 DS2 born on 3/10/20 EDD 11/24/23 (Formerly Marriedhamstermom Feb ‘17)
DH had to go to work the other day instead of having a coffee date with me. Then he wasn't in his office when I wanted to stop by later because he was with a patient.
I was watching Sports Center this morning and they were highlighting the Cubs road to the World Series. I started crying and told H I just want them to win so badly...I'm not even a Cubs fan (but I guess it's part sympathetic because I know how it is as a Red Sox fan).
Awwww @CurlyCupcake21. That's so sweet. I'm not a Cubs fan either (White Sox) but ya, I'm totally rooting for them. I feel so bad for the fans, especially the really old ones. It was crazy here last night. And I was reading some of the stories describing how their late parents or grandparents had waited their whole lives for this day.....if I wasn't a cold hearted bitch, I would have been bawling reading their stories.
@AfKash it was the stories that got me! I just kept thinking about how amazing it was when the Red Sox won in 2004 and the energy in Boston was crazy. It's so sad to see your team not get there!
@AfKash it was the stories that got me! I just kept thinking about how amazing it was when the Red Sox won in 2004 and the energy in Boston was crazy. It's so sad to see your team not get there!
Ahhh that's okay. They won in 2005, so I'm still reeling from that. Plus, I don't have time to keep up, anymore. And I imagine I'll have even less time next season..
I was at the hospital for a breastfeeding basics class and the little lullaby came on the speakers to announce that a baby was just born... I wish my baby was already in my arms!!
Subaru commercials. Every single time. Also, Property Brothers when they see the finished house and random moments in time. But I watched 5 episodes of Grey's tonight and didn't shed a single tear! Weird, man.
If I don't cry at least when my baby is born, I'm going to feel like the worst mom.
I didn't cry when mine was born because I was like holy crap what just happened to my body that was insane. I was still so unbelievably happy and relieved to have my daughter in my arms. Don't worry if you don't cry. My husband, on the other hand, was indeed crying. Only time I've ever seen him do that.
Re: Why my pregnant self is crying??
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Started TTC #1 November 2015
BFP 6/10/2016 - EDD 2/22/2017
ME: 25, DH: 27
TTC #1 since 09/2015
Miscarriage @ 10 wks 02/28/2016
BFP 05/28/2016!
I started crying "because I want to be Italian too."
DH was then convinced that I was preggers for real.
I think all of my breakdowns since have been much more logical... an Ebola documentary for example.
ME: 25, DH: 27
TTC #1 since 09/2015
Miscarriage @ 10 wks 02/28/2016
BFP 05/28/2016!
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Me: 31+ H: 32
TTC Since 11/2015
#1 - MMC 6.5 weeks (2/16); #2 - MC due to cystic hygroma at 20 weeks (10/16); #3 CP (2/17); #4 - Due 12.16.17
But yesterday I ran out to grab a few groceries. I walked down the ice cream Isle to torture myself I guess. I happened to see a box of ice cream cones that have 3 flavors. Chocolate, chocolate with a fudge center, and white chocolate with a fudge center. I have been wanting to try them all summer but still haven't because they are kind of expensive for icecream and I'm cheap. Sooo again I decided to not buy them, but as I walked away, I started crying!! I thought to myself what the hell?! Pull it together you look crazy. So then last night I thought it was kind of funny and was telling my husband about it, but I started to cry again!!! He was like "seriously??" Lol then told me to just go buy them, but it was 11 last night and I didn't feel like going out, so I decided I'll just hopefully get them today. (And my husband would have gone for me, but his gout flared up yesterday, so he's not budging unless he's got to pee)
Married: October, 19, 2015
EDD 2/22/17
EDD 3/8/20
EDD 11/24/23
(Formerly Marriedhamstermom Feb ‘17)
TTC #1: 3/2016
Me 39 - DH 44
BFP 5/27/16 EDD 1/30/17
DD born 2/3/17
And I was reading some of the stories describing how their late parents or grandparents had waited their whole lives for this day.....if I wasn't a cold hearted bitch, I would have been bawling reading their stories.
I'm actually from Cincy and don't really care. H is an Indians fan and I live up this way. But, they deserve some love too!!
And @kswiger06 I agree!! I would be at the bars enjoying the atmosphere if it were me. And if I could drink of course
Also, I finally finished Parenthood. The last episode was beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time. It was beautifully done.
Big Bro 7/14/13
Little Bro 2/6/17