Hello, let me introduce myself first..
For the first 30 years of my life, everything was smooth and worry-free. I was my parents’ most beloved child, found my true love in college, and happily married him after graduation.
At work, I was my boss’s most valued employee. Whenever I was in charge of a project, colleagues would inevitably say, “Oh, then I’m totally at ease.” I was constantly named “Employee of the Year,” with generous bonuses every year.
Later, I started my own business. Within just three months, I had broken into the market and started making money. By the fifth month, I was earning twice my previous salary. Growth was steady month after month. Right when the business needed more hands, I serendipitously met an amazing partner, and the company reached a whole new level.
Really, it seemed like at every step, whatever I needed, a pair of hands would always place it right in front of me, just in time.
My Two Girls: Ellie & Mia
Meet Ellie, My Firstborn
In 2020, my husband and I decided to have a child. After trying for over a year, we finally got the news in 2021 that a little one was on the way. In 2022, we welcomed our first child, Ellie. She made me a mother.
She is utterly adorable—big eyes, rosy skin, chubby little hands. Every time I look at her, I can’t help but give her a kiss. She is pure joy, and I love her more each day.
But as a first-time mom, I faced unprecedented difficulties. The postpartum tearing wouldn’t heal, and the pain was excruciating. Clogged milk ducts made my breasts hard as rocks. The severe sleep deprivation… And what was even more crushing was that, with zero parenting experience, I was clueless when faced with her unexplained wailing, night terrors, refusal to nurse, constipation, diarrhea, fevers… I desperately searched online, longing for one accurate, truly useful answer!
It was during this time that I thought, once I make it through this “dark” path, I must leave a light on for other new moms.
And Then Came Mia
Ellie had just turned one when I got pregnant again. In 2024, we welcomed our second daughter, Mia.
Completely different from Ellie, Mia is a great eater and sleeper. Although she had her fussy moments in the first two months, starting almost from month three, she became super easygoing. She feeds on schedule, gradually sleeps through the night, loves her solid foods, and adapted quickly when I had to stop breastfeeding due to mastitis.
This made me realize just how vastly different babies can be! It made me even more determined to write about my experiences.
Why I Had to Start This Blog
The Catalyst: A Life Pivoted
After Mia was born, my business also began to decline sharply. I had no choice but to close it and become a full-time mom. My work no longer involves Excel and Word, but instead revolves around changing diapers, washing bottles, making baby food, and managing household chores…
This has been a monumental challenge for me. All my past achievements seem irrelevant now. Managing two young children has brought me a sense of frustration I’ve never known before.
The Daily Reality
They are always fighting over things. When one is in my arms, the other immediately demands to be held too. When I try to cook, Ellie wants me to read her a book. When I attempt to load the washing machine, Mia has a diaper blowout, and I must drop everything to change her…
By the time I finish all that, I see the cup of hot coffee on the table has gone cold again. And it’s not until evening that I remember, “Oh my goodness, the clothes are still in the hamper, unwashed!”
Of course, being a mom is filled with happiness, but that doesn’t negate how hard it is.
My Promise to You
Because I’ve walked this path myself, I won’t just tell you how joyful motherhood is, like many websites do. I want to share my real, unfiltered experiences so every new mom can find a “companion” here.
I want to tell you: you are not alone. What you’re going through, I’ve been there too. Your breakdowns, your helplessness, your moments of losing control—I’ve had them all. You don’t need to feel guilty. This is just a small, necessary stretch of the journey for every mom.
My Hope for This Space
I really want to share my parenting experiences—not just the warm, glowing moments, but to honestly document the pitfalls I’ve stumbled into, the tears I’ve shed, and the “survival wisdom” I’ve scraped together in utter exhaustion.
The Goal: A Mom’s Toolkit
I hope this blog becomes a “mom’s toolkit,” filled not with vague theories, but with:
- Practical Tips: Like how to quickly figure out why a baby is crying, tried-and-true methods for dealing with clogged ducts, or how to efficiently manage the daily grind with twins (or two under two) solo.
- Pitfall Avoidance Guides: Sharing the baby products I regret buying the most, and those “game-changer” parenting hacks. Letting you know which parenting anxieties you can let go of, and which principles are worth holding onto.
- A Community for Moms: I hope my stories connect me with more moms like you. We can cheer each other on in the comments, share our own tricks, turning the storms we face alone into a journey we walk together.
The Bigger Vision
My previous career taught me to analyze data, solve problems, and optimize processes. Now, I’m applying all those skills to this new “position” of Mom. I want to prove that a mom’s value is absolutely not confined to the home. The mindset, resilience, and creativity we built in our careers can shine just as brightly—perhaps even brighter—in this more complex, long-term “project” of raising humans, and can even be transformed into a force that helps others.
My hope is simple: that every mom who opens this blog can let out a sigh of relief and say, “So it’s not just me.” Then, she can find a bit of practical info, a dose of comforting solidarity, and return to her sweet, chaotic mom-life with a little more confidence and a little less weight on her shoulders.
This road? Let’s walk it together.
mylittleversailles
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Re: TTCAL Check-In Week of June 20th
3. Rants/raves: rant - work is so stressful and exhausting! I don't seem to have time to get anything done and am still so tired after the weekend. Two days off just isn't enough. I'm really worried that my work stress is making it harder for me to get KU and I really don't know what I can do about it.
4. GTKY: Everyone has quirks! Tell us about some of yours? I know I have a few quirks but now that I'm being asked about them in drawing a blank. I'm sure DH could write a list, lol. I do love to organize and label things. Nothing makes me feel better than knowing that I have a place for everything and that it is organized.
2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): I am about 7 days into my stim cycle for IVF.
3. Rants/raves: Just moving along here, taking my meds and hopefully growing lots of eggs. I'm a tad uncomfortable, but nothing horrible. I'm feeling hopeful that we are doing something proactive, but still sad that it's come to this. I hope I don't feel this grief/regret forever.
Positives are that the injections don't hurt at all. Totally painless. Also, it's summer and I've been enjoying being outside and being warm again.
4. GTKY: Everyone has quirks! Tell us about some of yours? I talk a lot with my hands and have very distinct mannerisms. Luckily, I work with kids who point out everything quirky I do! I also compulsively hydrate and bring food with me wherever I go. I have water glasses all over my house and am always finding random food/snacks in my pockets.
3. Rants/raves: So FF says that I'm 16 DPO, but I'm pretty sure I'm 13 DPO. I was going to test this morning, but since I tossed and turned all night from sleeping poorly and sweating, and then taking puppy out to potty, I was exhausted this morning and it was only while washing my hands after using the toilet myself that I remembered testing. *sigh* So my plan is to see if AF comes today and if not, then test.
4. GTKY: Everyone has quirks! Tell us about some of yours? I'm definitely an organizer. I like lists and schedules and details, which drives my 'go with the flow' husband crazy!
@MooFish2364 I am with you on the 2 days off not being enough! I feel like there are a million things I'm trying to get done at home and I just don't have time to do it all and relax.
@BornReady Good luck with the IVF. I'm sending lots of "grow good eggs" vibes your way!
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
1. Introduce yourself (if you're new): I'm not new but will re-introduce also. TTC #1- had a missed miscarriage at 9 weeks in March. This is my 3rd cycle post loss- first cycle TTCAL (I was benched the first cycle, NTNP the second cycle)
2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): TWW- 5DPO
3. Rants/raves: Crazies haven't hit me yet- DH keeps asking to see my chart and asking me questions, like what's my temp doing etc. The cycle I got KU I didn't really have that many symptoms prior to my BFP so just trying to be zen. I will be testing on Sunday/Monday if AF doesn't show.
Had a really good weekend, being back home and seeing my family and my best friends always improve my spirits. Fathers Day wasn't as hard as I thought, DH seemed fine- I didn't really talk to him about it and he didn't really bring anything up so I just left it alone. My mom did say something like- DH will next! I know she is just trying to be positive- I hope it is true.
4. GTKY: Everyone has quirks! Tell us about some of yours? Apparently I make weird facial expressions when I'm concentrating- reading, on the computer, watching TV. I'm also pretty OCD- not extremely but definitely if there is something off like a picture frame is crooked or something around the house isn't in the right place, I can't forget about until its fixed. I am for sure a control freak and want everything to be as perfect as possible- which has been really hard for me with TTC because obviously none of this is in my control!
3. Rants/raves: Rant: The biggest downfall about being open with friends and family about our struggles to conceive is the 150% completely unsolicited advice. I swear if I hear one more time that we just need to stop trying or "relax" I'm going to lose it. We tried NTNP for 4ish months, that didn't work. We tried OPKs and charting and timing and lo and behold, that's when we got KU (mind you it was 15 months later...). Why can't people get it through their heads that some people need help getting pregnant??? Also, the timing just naturally happens with DHs work schedule 90% of the time anyway. Urg.
Rave: Despite the fact that I got heat exhaustion yesterday from way too much heat and sun this weekend, I had such a good weekend. Saturday I sat outside reading all day and Sunday I visited with a close friend. I haven't had a full day to myself in too long, it was nice.
4. GTKY: Everyone has quirks! Tell us about some of yours? I have a few but I would say my biggest quirk is how particular I am about my books. I can't stand when books get dog eared, or the pages get wrinkly when someone reads in a bath, or the spines get bent, or a book gets bent up from not being supported properly on a shelf, or when they are written in....oh the anxiety it gives me lol. I never lend my books and actually while I love having an actual book to read, purchasing an e-reader has been life changing in my reading department lol!
Edit: I can't do words
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
@roper2617 YES to the dog-earring pages. I lent a book a long time ago to a friend who took it to her grandmother's house and she's a smoker. Actually a weird quirk of mine is to 'sniff' the pages of my book before I begin reading. Anyway, the book got this awful smell and was gross and she wrinkled it all up, and that was pretty much the end of loaning out a book to anyone ever for me.
And I agree with the unsolicited advice. My skating coach has 2 daughters who are multiplying like rabbits, and every week she tells me how I just need to relax because "that's how her daughters did it, and they just keep having unplanned pregnancies" so clearly my focus on it is what's causing the issue. *sigh* I love her as a coach, but am desperately afraid I'm going to just punch her in the face one of these weeks... (if you have any coping mechanisms or great phrases to say back, I'm ALL ears!)
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
3. Rants/raves: No rants, feeling all right for the most part!
My bff is coming for lunch on his work break, so I'm making Thai 'beef' salad and mixed green salad with a Thai basil dressing - so much of which is coming from my garden!! I've got a special wine that goes with Asian and spicy food, which I'm so excited to serve to him (he's one step away from sommelier). DH and I started wine tasting and this was our first crack. It'll be nice to talk to someone in the middle of the day. I have my internal ultrasound afterwards, which I'm relieved to kick off this next part of TTC.
4. GTKY: Everyone has quirks! Tell us about some of yours? Just call me a Wes Anderson film because I am a serious weirdo. I collect academic texts on hip hop and fruit and vegetable shaped plates. I divide everything in threes in my mind and serve all my guests choices in multiples of three. If I hear an earworm song, I might not sleep for days because I'll get one horrible, nattering, annoying line stuck in a loop in my brain. Sometimes that will happen with incidental instrumental music, too. If I listen to a Simon and Garfunkel record (or one or the other) I have to listen to it twice all the way through with no stops. I don't do that with anyone else. I definitely talk to myself. I bake obsessively but don't have a sweet tooth at all and will rarely even taste what I make, unless it's something new I'm developing.
@MooFish2364 Boo, work stress! Do you have something you retreat into after work? Aggressively separating work day from the rest of the day was always really helpful to me when I had stressful jobs. It's so hard when you're pooped, though.
@BornReady I, too, am a compulsive hydrater. If I don't have water, a hot beverage and an iced beverage on the go at all times, you know I am not feeling like myself.
@dpjennifer DH and I are both list-makers! We share and edit ours together on Google Keep. I'm an organized person and he's not, but we both love lists.
@Spartanrd4 I am absolutely a perfectionist.
@roper2617 I worked in antique books (still dip my toes in it actually), so I love it when people take care of their books! DH has an ereader and I love it for non-fiction but can't manage to concentrate if it's fiction on it. We have hundreds of books and I swear just as many bookmarks in strategic places around the house so as to never leave the book open to keep our place.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!
3. Rant. It's been a rough few days. I'm feeling pretty down and wonder if it's the higher dosage of letrolzole that's effecting me. This cycle I'm just feeling burned out on everything and I know DH feels the same. I think the disappointment every month takes a toll after a while.
Rave. Despite feeling down and being a bit weepy DH and I had a good weekend and even going up to the in laws yesterday wasn't too bad.
4. GTKY. Quirks: I am a bit absent-minded and am always looking for my keys or my phone. DH jokes that he is going to make me a velcro jacket so I can stick things on me so I stop losing them.
@roper2617 I hate it when people tell me to relax. I'm almost 38 and am doing fertility treatments- I don't have that luxury.
@BornReady glad the stims are going well.
@MooFish2364 sorry work is stressful. I'm right there with you and yes 2 days isn't enough.
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
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TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w 2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger= BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our own**
12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!!
Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!
3. Rants/raves: Doing ok. I had a small meltdown yesterday but pulled myself together. The emotional rollercoaster of TTC/TTCAL is real. I am so glad DH stays by my side through all this crazy because I think I would feel so alone if I had to tip toe around him too. I always start each cycle upbeat and feeling like it's a fresh start...and that is how today feels. I am sure by the time I am reach O or the TWW, all the craziness will be back.
4. GTKY: Everyone has quirks! Tell us about some of yours? I can't really think of any off the top of my head. I am really anal about my refrigerator. I like things in certain places and I line up the drinks...that may be a tad OCD, but I love it that way.
@MooFish2364 ooFish2364 I LOVE to make lists, on my phone, on a pad of paper, you name it! I also love my label maker which is broken.
@BornReady I'm glad your injections don't hurt! I had my first one in the butt two weeks ago and was shocked at how I barely felt it.
@roper2617 UGH YES! I hate unsolicited advice. It just adds more stress to an already stressful situation.
2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): Benched for the summer
3. Rants/raves: Not much this week actually. I'm 5 weeks post D&C and still waiting for my first post-D&C AF. I think I may have ovulated on Saturday morning. If what I felt was actually ovulation, it would mean that CD 3 should be July 3rd and CD 4 will be July 4th- both days that the lab is closed. So much for getting my ovarian reserve testing done this month. It's not the hugest deal since I'm not planning on TTC again until September, but it would be nice to know what we are dealing with. If it looks like I have DOR- we would probably jump straight to IVF. If the results are good, we have a lot to think about- do we try stims in an effort to get better eggs or do we try naturally and take our risks?
*****Update******
Apparently that was not ovulation cramping, because it seems like AF is rearing her head. I haven't had a normal period in 9 months so I can't be sure, but I'm spotting and cramping pretty badly today. I guess it's time to make some decisions about testing.
***End Update****
Here is a question- Do any AMA TTCAL-ers hang out over at TTC after 35? I've always had a hard time over there, maybe because it seems like I am the ONLY 35+ TTC who doesn't have kids. I don't think I have ever seen many of us over there?
4. GTKY: Everyone has quirks! Tell us about some of yours?
My hair is long, but I have an impossible time wearing it down. It drives me crazy. I wear my hair up in a ponytail every day. I used to me a terrible pen chewer until I realized that I have probably ingesting enough BPA to kill my ovaries and I stopped cold turkey. It's crazy how decades-old habits can be cured immediately by one miscarriage.
edit: gah! I had such good replies to everyone and it didn't post! Grrrrrrrr mobile AGAIN!
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
3. Rants/raves: Started using Wondfos for the first time this weekend (have used CBAD in the past) and got my first positive this morning!! TIME TO START HIO.
4. GTKY: Everyone has quirks! Tell us about some of yours?
I often hear I'm quirky, but I don't know what it is that makes me? If I had to guess: I "moo" when I don't know what else to say. I use humor when I'm uncomfortable, shy, confused, or I feel like I'm getting too dark/serious/emotional. I'm known for giving amusing, expressive facial expressions (I'm the Jim Halpert in almost every social situation.) I'm not ashamed to admit I like kid stuff: Harry Potter, Legos, Marvel comic books, etc. Honestly, I feel like these traits just make me - not a robot? - lol, but I get good-naturedly teased about these things from peers. Whatever. Moo.
@reneeannemm If you're a Wes Anderson movie, then I'm watching you twice with no stops.
@Spartanrd4 Seconded on being a control freak!
@BornReady I work with kids too. I swear, they're the only audience that gets me sometimes!
@dpjennifer I hope the witch stays away!
@roper2617 I'm that way with books too. I make people uncomfortable sometimes when they're paging through one of my books. I peer over their shoulder, and when they look back at me, I say, "Take it easy with that thumb. It's not an ink pad. Don't leave a mark."
@reneeannemm GL with your ultrasound
@dubcompanion yay for a positive OPK!
Me (39) DH (40)
From my first marriage DD: 03/04 CP:01/06 DS:12/06
DH- no kids
******************
TTC: since 2/15, RE Consult 9/15
IUI #1 10/15: Letrozole = BFN
IUI #2 11/15: Letrozole + trigger = BFN
1/08/16: Surprise- BFP!! 2/16/16: MMC @10w 2days, D&C: 2/17/16
TTCAL: May 2016
IUI #3 5/27/16: Letrozole+trigger=BFN
IUI #4 06/24/16: 7.5mg Letrozole+trigger= BFN
IUI#5 08/24/16 Menopur+trigger = BFN
IUI #6 09/19/16 5 mg Letrozole +Menopur + Trigger= BFN
**10/2016: No more medicated cycles, TTCAL on our own**
12/03/16: BFP!! EDD: 08/12/17 It's a girl!!
Eleni was born on 8/14/17!!
@roxgibbons sending good eggy vibes your way! I also find TTC depressing. I guess we have all had so much disappointment that we are really sensitive to it. I know TTC is hard for people how haven't ever had a loss but possibly even harder for us that have.
@Aera11I love my label maker! DH though I was crazy when I said that's what I wanted for Christmas. Now that we've been married longer he doesn't even blink at my strange gift requests. Lol
@chloe97 I have has long hair almost my entire life and I still struggle with keeping it down. When I was in middle school I used to wear it up every single day. My friends would beg me to wear it down because they had never seen it before. I could make it an hour or so and back up it went. It's only been in the last few years that I have enjoyed wearing it down.
@dubcompanion I love kid stuff too! Harry Potter is my fav and if I had Legos in front of me right now I could probably play with them for hours! I love that I have a niece that I can spend time doing kid stuff with so I don't look like a total dork. Oh, and by the way...my nickname is Moo. I totally love that and Lol'd when you closed your post with "moo" ...so awesome!
But yeah, so far my response has been "Well, I'm not trying TOO hard and I'm as relaxed as I can be. But it must be nice that they can get PG so easily, it's not the same for all of us."
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
@roxgibbons I'm not a fan of the vibe over there either. It's hard to explain, but I feel like it's more depressing? Maybe it's just me. I'm not actively TTC yet so it doesn't make sense for me to post over there anyway.
I forgot the ask this in my post- How did everyone's DHs do yesterday with Fathers Day? My H avoided FB like the plague. Somehow I'm the one with the thicker skin these days, which is new. We were at my ILs last night and my MIL started going on and on about how some kid of a friend of theirs was going to be a father with some girl he barely knew and H shut her up quickly by telling her he didn't want to hear about how other people can get knocked up and carry a pregnancy while we can't because it wasn't fair. I was surprised because H usually doesn't let his parents or anyone know how much this stuff is bothering him. It was kind of upsetting too that my ILs didn't bother to ask him how he was doing and just acted like nothing was wrong. They dote on our new puppy like its the only grandchild they will ever have and it's pretty heartbreaking to watch.
2. WTO CD2. Nothing like getting AF in the middle of Father's Day. Though the last time I got pregnant AF came on Christmas. So maybe holiday AFs are good luck for me? Im grasping at anything right now, lol.
3. Rants - Had a breakdown last night. Really thought I could have been KU last cycle so AF was a blow. This was the first cyle we tried after the mc so it just really sucks to be back feeling this way again. Feeling better now like @aera11 Im currently all zen like. And determined to have more of a positive attitude this cycle.
4. Quirks - I talk to myself, lol Sometimes I think I am just thinking out loud other times Im reminding myself of what I have to do. My DH has caught me talking to myself in the shower. And at work people have been like I thought someone else was in your office bec I heard talking. lol
@moofish2364 _ im sorry work is so stressful for your right now. My work is stressful right now as well and I am just stressed in general and I worry that it may be interfering with me getting pregnant.
@Bornready - so glad the injections were not painful!
@spartanrd4 - my DH seemed fine with Father's Day as well. He even texted his brothers and all his friends that are dads and wished them a happy day. He is such a good person and would make such a great Dad.
@reneeannemm - that salad sounds delicious! My DH and I love wine tasting - visiting wineries is one of our favorite things to do together. Need to start pairing wine with food that sounds fun and delicious!
@roper2617 - I totally get the relax and it will happen thing. When we first started trying DH was still finishing nursing school/ trying to pass Boards so I wasn't paying attention to my cycle or anything but we were both like if it happens its fine. Of course nothing happened. My second cycle of using OPKS I got KU - this is over a year later. And I feel like im still learning about my cycle and this process. Having a bottle of wine and then winding up pregnant does not happen for everyone.
@roxigibbons - Im always looking for my keys and phone too!
Love all the book quirks - I love to read so I completely understand all of them!
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
Me: 26 DH: 28
TTC #1 since 06/2014
BFP #1 09/23/15. MMC discovered 11/24/2015
BFP #2 08/24/16 EDD 05/08/17
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
Status: WTO, CD 11.
Rant: It's going to be 113 degrees today(!). How am I supposed to be productive at work when I keep dreaming of being at the beach?
Rave: I've decided to have a throwback 90s themed slumber party for my 30th birthday later this year. I'm keeping it a surprise for my girlfriends until the invitations go out, but I'm so excited! There are so many fun details.
GTKY: I'm a ball of quirks, but the most blatant ones are my food/drink habits. I don't share food or drinks with anyone - not even DH. I don't mind sharing something like fries or appetizers (as long as I can be sure the other person's hands are clean). But I will never put my mouth where someone else's mouth has been. It gets annoying when people who don't know me well say something like, "This drink is so good! Here, try it." I always nicely explain that I prefer not to share, which is usually met with their offended response of, "I don't have germs!" Uh, 1) Yes, you do. And 2) I don't share with my own husband, I'm certainly not sharing with you. (I don't even share with myself, actually. If I drink out of a glass, I rotate it each time so my lips never touch the same place on the rim, and when I get all the way around, I wipe it down with a napkin or get a new glass.)
@dpjennifer @roper2617 I always smell my books too. I can't even check out books from the library because I just imagine that someone else read it while sitting on the toilet, or that there might be boogers on the pages. I have issues.
Me: 29, DH: 34
Rants / raves- not much. Finding Dory was really cute. I thought it was darker in tone than Finding Nemo.
GTKY: quirks. Where do I start?
1. All doors must be locked. I frequently lock my husband out on accident.
2. If I'm in the car and going over a bridge, I roll down the windows so if we wreck and the car goes under water I can swim out.
3. I'm also a list maker.
4. I'm a clean freak
5. I'm a germ freak.
@iceandsnowflakes29 I enjoyed Finding Dory too. I feel like it was mostly adults there- I mean I did go to a later show but most kids weren't even born when the first one came out so are they even into it?
I always double check if the house is locked too- and when I lock the car I have to hear 2 beeps or I don't believe its really locked.
MC #1: D&C Oct 23, 2015 (7.5 weeks)
MC #2: July 1, 2016 (5.5 weeks)
MC #3: October 17, 2016 (CP)
RE #1: RPL testing November 2016-January 2017
MC #4: Feb. 28, 2017 (CP)
RE #2: Additional RPL testing March-November 2017
MC #5: January 2019 (6.5 weeks)
RE #3: More testing 2023.
Egg Retrieval Sept/Oct 2023, 2 good embryos after PGT-A testing.
Surgery for endometriosis January 2024
Lupron Depo March 2024. Benched 3 months.
FET #1: June 3, 2024 (failed)
Lupron Depo June 2024. Benched 3 months again before next FET.
FET #2: September 2024 (failed)
FET #3: December 2024 (failed)
#BitterHagPartyOf1
If if anyone ever touches my belly when in not pregnant I'm either gonna curl up into the fetal position right there and start bawling or punch them in the face! How could they!!?!?
And yes I'm pretty certain if alcohol was all it took to conceive fertility issues would be a thing of the past. We are hosting DHs coworkers for a BBQ at the end of July and I already told him that he better warn them to keep those comments to themselves or they may see a heavy dose of BSC!!
Married 7/13
TTC #1 since 10/13
BFP 2/4/15, MC twin boys at 18w3d 5/15
IUI #1 2/25/16
I work with kids, and they are into Finding Nemo for sure. We talk about "just keep swimming" all the time when a work task sucks. (I'm not afraid to let them know I have stuff I have to do that I hate too. Just gotta get through it and problem-solve.)
2. Status (WTO, TWW, Benched, etc.): Guy, I think I'm benched. (See rants)
3. Rants/raves: I've had awful stabby penetrating back pains for the past four days that I think is either reflux or pancreatitis. I've already had my gall bladder out, so it's not that. I have a doctor appointment tomorrow. I'm due to ovulate on Friday I believe, and I really don't want to skip out this cycle. I feel absolutely awful and can't eat a meal without having terrible pain. And I'm on day 3 of a total of 7 days of work straight...I'm miserable. I'm sorry if my presence here is not as supportive as I usually am.
4. GTKY: Everyone has quirks! Tell us about some of yours? I cannot wear a shirt of any kind (tee or long sleeve) without a tank top underneath. I feel weird with a shirt right over a bra. Is that weird? I also have to check my alarm on my phone at least three times before bed to make sure it's set properly. I can't sleep otherwise.
I'm going to check back in later today and catch up on things. If you're the praying type, I would appreciate them now. I'm hoping this is just some bad, weird heartburn. DH is so upset that we may be benched and that this may be serious.
Eta if it is pancreatitis don't eat anything. I've had it once and basically I just had to go the hospital where they made me fast for like 3 days (I had an IV). my mom mentioned muffins and I straight up busted into tears.
Anyway, that is literally all they did. And some pain meds at first. Try switching to a clear liquid diet for a day or two (if you're like me and won't go to the ER).
I am more likely to you tube how to care for a gun shot wound than go to a hospital. Lmao.
Anyway. I digress. Hope you feel better soon !
Thinking of you.. I can pray for you, and I can also do some sort of reverse voodoo thing where I make a straw effigy and summon healing powers. I'll do what I can either way!
@Wishilivedinflorida _ i will keep you in my prayers and hopefully you aren't benched this month!
@SoonToBeMommaHowe YES to the carpet lines! In our last house I vacuumed every day... now we only have carpet in a few bedrooms but I do those in even lines, haha.
TTC 09/15
*TW Loss mentioned*
BFP 12/15/15 EDD: 08/26/16
MMC discovered 1/25/16 at 9 +3
TTCAL 3/2016
Acupuncture 11/16
Dx December 2016: unexplained
January 2017: 50 mg Clomid + TI =
BFP #2 01/30/17 Please be a sticky baby!
EDD: 10/15/17 Measuring ahead! 10/12/17
Ambrose born on his due date!