We found someone to sneak is in for a doppler check. I'm nervous we won't hear anything because A. I'm only 9w5d and B. I have a retroverted uterus which I have heard can make it hard to find. We want to tell the rest of our family (only my mom and 1 brother know) this weekend (we live 3.5 hours away and won't be going home again for a while) but I really really really want confirmation Cletus is fine before we do. I managed to get squeezed in to see my new OB on Monday so I'll get to see him then but I just can't get the vision out of my head of celebrating with everyone Saturday and having to call everyone after Monday if we get bad news. And I feel like hearing a good heartbeat today would make me feel more comfortable telling the family.
Uuggghh I just hate that missed miscarriages are actually a thing and I hate that my body has fooled me twice. I wish I could just believe this time is different.
@ceclarlinetlo I sure hope that you get to hear a heart beat on the doppler! I'm assuming you're going today? Don't freak out if you don't hear anything, my doppler at 10w only flashed a heartbeat for like 2 seconds and the dr. said that was nothing to worry about. I'll be thinking of you!
@ceclarlinetlo I also have a retroverted uterus. When I'm big and bloated, I can find it suuuuuuper easily. This morning, no dice. Best of luck. Mmc are a big ole dick. Absolutely terrifying on a daily basis. I found it for the first time on 10+2 (the day I received it). How far along were you when you miscarried?
@ceclarlinetlo I really hope you get to hear the heartbeat today. Maybe if they can't hear the heart beat (as it is a little early for the Doppler) they can squeeze you in for an ultrasound with another doc today. I would totally ask while you are there - having had a MMC makes this not knowing extra stressful. Big (creepy internet) hugs. When is your appointment?
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
me 38 DH 39. TTC#1 since July 2014 AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
2 Natural IVF cycles, 3 full IVF cycles, 4 transfers, 1 BFP - heard heartbeat at 6w5d
Diagnosed MMC at 9w1d on 11/30/15
Headed back home to Colorado 12/12/15
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis. Headed to Prague April 30 3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
2 embryo's transferred (from 2 different donors) on 5/10/16 BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
Beta 1 = 81 at 8dp5dt, Beta 2 = 295 at 10dp5dt, Beta 3 = 891 at 12dt5dt. Beta 4 = 2114 at 14dp5dt, Beta 5 = 4916 at 16dp5dt, Beta 6 = 13252 at 19dp5dt
@ceclarlinetlo good luck!!! Drink a lot of water before hand. I understand your anxiety about telling and having to take it back. I thought about telling a few people this weekend, but I have an appt on Monday and now I'm just too scared. I feel like this feeling will never go away!
Thanks so much everyone!! Our friend actually just went ahead and did an abdominal ultrasound - we heard his heartbeat and saw him jiggle and wave. He is measuring at 10w (right on track with how he measured 2 weeks ago, 2 days ahead of his first measurement). I feel like I can breathe now. Thanks again for your support it really means a lot.
@ceclarlinetlo good luck today! MMC absolutely suck and unfortunately all of us can relate to the anxiety of telling family and friends too early. I'm feeling good today and still don't want to tell anyone. Hopefully you will hear a heartbeat to help ease some of the anxiety.
I had a appointment today and was excited when my Dr. pulled out the ultrasound. We didn't get to hear the heartbeat but did see it and got to see her moving around which was pretty amazing! My husband took a video today so I can watch it and see everything is all right until our next appointment which isn't for another month.
@aca12017 yay for seeing baby squirm! It's so surreal to know baby is moving around but we can't feel it yet! I'm also glad you were able to get a video too - Cletus was wiggling like crazy til DH got his phone to video but we did manage to capture a little wave. I've watched it atleast 10 times today.
Today was a relief. I went in for a better dating scan and saw the baby moving and it had a strong heartbeat at 180. I feel much more at ease now! I'll get the panorama in two weeks and my next scan on the 9th.
Sorry for posting late again >.< I work weekends and I have some uninterrupted time to type.
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms) Ok, nausea has hit a lot harder this week and my boobs are killing me. But I am at the 9 week mark today when 1st tri symptoms peak so hopefully it will calm down soon. I keep getting really crampy and brown spotting but as long as it's not red I am trying not to freak out.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) Pretty calm surprisingly DS has been keeping me busy and I have been too tired to be stressed lately. I had the u/s on the 9th and another one on Tuesday the 21st. After that we shall see, I will be 9w3d on that day and that is when I MC'd last time although I didn't find out until 10w3d soo I am not sure how I feel I almost wish it was later in the week to be sure I made it past that point.... that sounds silly though.
4. When is your first or next appointment? 6/21
5. Rants/raves/whatever I wish DS would actually sleep through the night I would lurve just one night of uninterrupted sleep between DS, dogs, and DH I am probably screwed though.
6. GTKY: what's you favorite holiday? Thats a toss up between Halloween and Christmas. I love dressing up and Halloween is right near my birthday so that's a plus. But I love Christmas because I like the family dinners and the time spent with them it's also why I enjoy Thanksgiving. It's so hard to choose! Christmas is really fun because it's great to see DS open up and have so much fun he'll be 2+ this year so I can;t wait to see his reaction to whats going on around him!!
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms) Ughhh. M/S is kicking my butt so hard. I've lost 7lbs in the last two weeks.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) anxious, out of sorts. I am also having some weird mental things, like constant deja vu and even more odd, dissociative reactions to things I KNOW I've seen before. I have a ferret who has one very specific squeaky toy. I only ever bought him the one, and it looks like a hedgehog. I am very familiar with it because I dig it out from under the dresser for him daily. Today I found it three separate times, but somehow thought it was a completely separate toy each time. I remember thinking "I don't remember getting one that looked like this" all three times. Another instance, my aunt posted a photo of a poster she got from my uncle and through the course of the day I saw it a few times. Each time I looked, it looked like a very different poster. The deja vu is even more pronounced though, ugh ugh ugh.
4. When is your first or next appointment? I still haven't scheduled one. MMCs really mess me up and I just can't handle the thought of going in yet. I've been doing all the right things, but I want to wait until 10 weeks for the ultrasound. And I'll probably cover my eyes until hubby sees and tells me it's okay to look (or... not...)
5. Rants/raves/whatever Mostly just the deja vu. I can't shake the feeling that I'm dreaming, and can hardly tell the difference between dreams and real life right now. Seriously messing with my head. I don't know how much of that is hormones and how much is just generalized stress, but it's stupid.
6. GTKY: what's you favorite holiday? Halloween! I love the spookiness, dressing up, the candy, the decorations. All of it.
Re: Weekly PGAL check in 6.13.16
Uuggghh I just hate that missed miscarriages are actually a thing and I hate that my body has fooled me twice. I wish I could just believe this time is different.
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
———
Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
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BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
———
Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
———
BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
Team Blue ~ Jan. 20
DS born 9/4/12
MMC July 2015
MMC January 2016
@ceclarlinetlo I really hope you get to hear the heartbeat today. Maybe if they can't hear the heart beat (as it is a little early for the Doppler) they can squeeze you in for an ultrasound with another doc today. I would totally ask while you are there - having had a MMC makes this not knowing extra stressful. Big (creepy internet) hugs. When is your appointment?
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
———
Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
———
BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
BFP#4- 9/26 edd 6/5/18
Team Blue ~ Jan. 20
DS born 9/4/12
MMC July 2015
MMC January 2016
I had a appointment today and was excited when my Dr. pulled out the ultrasound. We didn't get to hear the heartbeat but did see it and got to see her moving around which was pretty amazing! My husband took a video today so I can watch it and see everything is all right until our next appointment which isn't for another month.
***TW****MC mentioned & BFP mentioned***
TTC#1 since July 2014
AMH 0.1, DOR, Poor responder
Moved to Prague, Czech Republic for IVF
DE attempt in Czech Republic!!
March trip to Prague canceled due to Pancreatitis.
Headed to Prague April 30
3 different donors resulted in 1 PGS tested embryo and 1 fresh embryo
BFP on 5/15/16 at 5dp5dt
My blog: www.wearethehammitts.blogspot.com
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
———
Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
———
BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
@ceclarlinetlo
BFP1 12/24/14 - EDD 09/07/15 (D/C 8w1d)
BFP2 6/12/15 - EDD 2/22/16 (D/C 10w3d)
———
Diagnoses and Treatments
PCOS (myo-inositol, excercize)
Indeterminant levels of APS IgM antibodies (baby aspirin)
Sub-septate uterus (hysteroscopic septoplasty 12/18/15)
———
BFP3 05/02/16 EDD 01/09/17 DS born 01/05/17
BFP4 01/28/19 EDD 10/?/19 🤞🙏
2. How are you feeling (pregnancy symptoms)
Ok, nausea has hit a lot harder this week and my boobs are killing me. But I am at the 9 week mark today when 1st tri symptoms peak so hopefully it will calm down soon. I keep getting really crampy and brown spotting but as long as it's not red I am trying not to freak out.
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise)
Pretty calm surprisingly DS has been keeping me busy and I have been too tired to be stressed lately. I had the u/s on the 9th and another one on Tuesday the 21st. After that we shall see, I will be 9w3d on that day and that is when I MC'd last time although I didn't find out until 10w3d soo I am not sure how I feel I almost wish it was later in the week to be sure I made it past that point.... that sounds silly though.
4. When is your first or next appointment?
6/21
I wish DS would actually sleep through the night I would lurve just one night of uninterrupted sleep between DS, dogs, and DH I am probably screwed though.
6. GTKY: what's you favorite holiday?
Thats a toss up between Halloween and Christmas. I love dressing up and Halloween is right near my birthday so that's a plus. But I love Christmas because I like the family dinners and the time spent with them it's also why I enjoy Thanksgiving. It's so hard to choose! Christmas is really fun because it's great to see DS open up and have so much fun he'll be 2+ this year so I can;t wait to see his reaction to whats going on around him!!
Me: 26 DH: 29 Married 8/4/2012
BFP #1 8/20/2013 | EDD 5/4/2014 | MMC 10/2/2013 9w3d | D&C 10/8/2013
BFP #2 2/8/2014 (kinda) EDD 10/29/2014 | DS Born 10/8/2014
TTCAL 11/2015 BFP #3 5/12/16 | EDD Jan 2017
3. How are you feeling (anxiety wise) anxious, out of sorts. I am also having some weird mental things, like constant deja vu and even more odd, dissociative reactions to things I KNOW I've seen before. I have a ferret who has one very specific squeaky toy. I only ever bought him the one, and it looks like a hedgehog. I am very familiar with it because I dig it out from under the dresser for him daily. Today I found it three separate times, but somehow thought it was a completely separate toy each time. I remember thinking "I don't remember getting one that looked like this" all three times. Another instance, my aunt posted a photo of a poster she got from my uncle and through the course of the day I saw it a few times. Each time I looked, it looked like a very different poster. The deja vu is even more pronounced though, ugh ugh ugh.
4. When is your first or next appointment?
I still haven't scheduled one. MMCs really mess me up and I just can't handle the thought of going in yet. I've been doing all the right things, but I want to wait until 10 weeks for the ultrasound. And I'll probably cover my eyes until hubby sees and tells me it's okay to look (or... not...)
Mostly just the deja vu. I can't shake the feeling that I'm dreaming, and can hardly tell the difference between dreams and real life right now. Seriously messing with my head. I don't know how much of that is hormones and how much is just generalized stress, but it's stupid.
6. GTKY: what's you favorite holiday? Halloween! I love the spookiness, dressing up, the candy, the decorations. All of it.