I had to dredge up an old thread because my hormones are FUN today already! Curses to the morning radio show I listen to!!!!!!! They had a bunch of kids on who were raising money for different charities they like, and I couldn't help but cry like a baby in my car thinking of how awesome they were.
Flash forward to me getting to work 10 minutes later...So I work on the 19th floor, and the elevators can take forever to get there if there are too many people on them. I have a lot of elevator-related anger. Imagine my joy when I got on an elevator with only one other person! She then proceeds to push buttons for THREE FLOORS!!!!!!! And she got off on the first floor. So I got to stop at her two unnecessary additional floors, while cursing her and her idiocy under my breath the whole time.
And I'm not in a good mood because my boss has decided to schedule patients back to back from 9 to 5 with no breaks. It's only me and her here today, so I'm staring at the prospect of no lunch. She just has no boundaries and can't say no to patients. When I questioned her about the lack of lunch, she just said, "Oh but those people needed to get in to see me." Well if you'd stop taking in so many new patients that you can't care for as ONE provider, then we wouldn't have emergency patients who need to get squeezed in! I feel like quoting labor laws to her, but she genuinely doesn't care. No boundaries.
Okay, so most of my post isn't about crying, but I am very angsty today! Grrrrrrrrrr...
@LinziLoo09- elevators can be disasters. And I feel like your boss is jeopardizing your health. You should march into an appt with a drumstick of fried chicken and be like "WHAT?! MAMA GOTTA EAT!"
I'm crying because I'm irrational. We have a wedding to attend in 10 days. I told DH I wanted to plan to sleep in the back of our RAV4 (something non-sick me would do in a heartbeat) so we didn't plan a hotel. Well he tried to take us on a low key family adventure this weekend and I spent almost the entire time in the hotel bed... scrambling to the hotel sink to barf... and back to the bed. He wisely booked us a hotel... but now that so much time had passed all the rates went up and he couldn't use miles like he was going to. All because I am a dumb dumb that every day thinks that the next week will bring relief. I have to think this otherwise I can't face the day. BUT COME ON GIRL. You're going to need a bed and a toilet. You can't handle being gritty right now. And 10 days from now will be the same. Probably 10 weeks from now. But definitely not because I will definitely feel better by July. RIGHT?! I'm just glad that DH is thinking clearly.
Woke up last night absolutely bawling my eyes out because of what happened in a dream. DH didn't know what was going on after he woke up from a dead sleep to me in hysterics. I dreamt that the waitress at an Indian restaurant we were eating at told me DH was planning on leaving me, that he never loved me, and that he had an overseas bank account in England where he was putting all the money to escape. It was so vivid that I can remember seeing the £7,000 in the bank account info. It took a good 15 minutes for me to be convinced DH was not leaving me to go to Europe lol
@slartybartfast I totally went on a hangry rage at noon and just left clinic to go eat. She was cool...she knows I get feisty when I'm food-deprived. I just wish it was a more supportive environment where lunch breaks were the rule rather than the exception.
I totally get overestimating myself in pregnancy too. Last time I was teaching a class and working two part time jobs through third trimester. I assumed I'd work right up to delivery. ...until I fell on my butt and landed in the hospital for three days with a partial placental abruption. And stuck on modified bedrest for the rest of the pregnancy. Now I just assume that I can't predict whatever this spawn of doom is going to bring my way. I'm more inclined to assume I'll be incapacitated rather than functional. Setting a super low bar has actually been pretty good for me...I always meet my goals.
@LinziLoo09 Setting the bar low is how I roll these days.
Also, can't listen to Kelly Clarkson's song Piece by Piece without getting teary. My father was an a**hole, my DH is great and the line "I'll never leave her like you left me." just breaks my heart every time. Normally I'm not a crier but man this song. I almost want to change it when it comes on but then I can't and listen to it and sing through the tears. Wow - I'm kind of lame.
Also, can't listen to Kelly Clarkson's song Piece by Piece without getting teary. My father was an a**hole, my DH is great and the line "I'll never leave her like you left me." just breaks my heart every time. Normally I'm not a crier but man this song. I almost want to change it when it comes on but then I can't and listen to it and sing through the tears. Wow - I'm kind of lame.
Yes! That song just brings on the water works every time. It isn't like it strikes a chord with me either - my Dad and I are super close. But it doesn't matter.
My students did a "readers theater" presentation today for their parents and I got misty eyed thinking about my future 5th grader doing things like that.. I'm such a sap.
1. I read an article on a mom who was breastfeeding at a restaurant and a woman came over to cut her food for her.
2. I watched people hit the buzzer on American Ninja Warrior. They were happy.
3. I'm currently watching What to Expect When You're Expecting, and I teared up when Elizabeth Banks went on her complaint rant and everyone supported her for it.
4. I felt nauseous so I ate, but that made me more nauseous and I puked.
5. I watched Jurassic Park earlier, and I teared up when they first saw the dinosaurs were real.
In response to the @LinziLoo09list - 1 - if someone tried to do that for me I'm sure I'd assume they were trying to steal my food and would fork their hand. 2 - ANW also makes me teary and my life's ambition is to be one. After DS was born I freaked out about "losing myself to being only a mom" and started taking breakdancing classes. Turns out my joints aren't very springy.. 3 - yes to that movie while pregnant 4 - story of my life 5 - Put a john williams soundtrack to literally anything and I'm all emotion.
Speaking of elevators, it has been bugging me when people make small talk, random strangers.
1. Had to step out and shed a few tears because as I was getting ready to walk to the cafeteria to get a snack I was handed a new patient chart in the clinic. And my coworker wasn't seeing a patient. Lame, yes.
I cried this morning because my boss added that one straw that broke the camel's back and just pissed me off! I was trying to be nice and help him out, and he was a complete ass about it. After all the crap he's put me through this week, I tried to be the nice person that I am and I get a lecture. So over it.
Married 4/12/13 TTC since 6/13 Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016 SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
I was watching America's Got Talent and there was a 13 year old girl who starting sing opera and was truly amazing and then one of the judges gave her a golden ticket and I began balling. DH goes "yup you're definitely pregnant"
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I got a speeding ticket and couldn't think fast enough to say that I'm pregnant and having morning sickness and was about to ralph (because I'm a bad liar and it would have only been half true). I just took the ticket and then when I drove away I started sobbing uncontrollably and literally could not stop for over 20 minutes.
I teared up while driving to work today and for some reason was thinking about the movie Legally Blonde. That scene where Elle is just ready to give up and her stern teacher tells her that if she does then she just isn't the girls she thought she was. Then I started thinking about her graduation speech. i have no idea why this got to me. i haven't seen this movie in years and not sure why I was even thinking about it. but yes, me totally welling at the memory. Of a dumb movie!
I'm still not allowed to watch TV. Now I can't listen to my show tunes station on Pandora. Fantines Death came up today and I was singing along bawling my eyes out. The dog was like, are you kidding me? DH changed it to another station and just shook his head. It's a very emotional scene, okay?
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I watched Sleepless in Seattle...cried the whole time. How 1990s of me. My cousin also got married but I couldn't go since I barf every few steps or so, I mean who needs that in their wedding life? So I you tubed canon in d and cried while looking at the instagram photos everyone was posting. Also, the ducks in the pond outside of my backyard had ducklings, teeny, tiny ducklings. I sobbed over ducklings.
Oh here's a good one- DD woke up screaming bloody murder around 430 then again around 6 so I slammed the bedroom door and brought her downstairs after getting only a few hrs of sleep myself. I anticipated that my H would hear and come to relieve me but wound up passing back out. Anyway, while he was blissfully unaware and getting in his 8 hours, I was crying on the living room floor cleaning up DDs diarrhea that exploded out of her diaper and on to the new carpet.. And then the ungodly amount of urine that also managed to explode out of her diaper and on to my leg and couch and throw pillow... As I sat there crying, 2 year old DD came over to stroke my face, hug me and say "love you, momma." So, cue more crying. My H felt awful, but little does he know the poop diaper is sitting in the bathroom waiting for him to dunk and swish (cloth diapers).
I'm watching a Micheal Jackson 30th anniversary special. I got emotional watching when it aired in 2001, and now I'm sobbing because he's gone and I'll never be able to experience him live.
I'm still not allowed to watch TV. Now I can't listen to my show tunes station on Pandora. Fantines Death came up today and I was singing along bawling my eyes out. The dog was like, are you kidding me? DH changed it to another station and just shook his head. It's a very emotional scene, okay?
@phoenix870509That one will get me teary eyed sans hormones!
DH tried to be helpful and moved my clothes from washer to dryer... only he didn't realize about half the things in the wash are line dry or lay flat. I cried because it was sweet that he was trying to be helpful and because he might have ruined a bunch of my clothes in the process. I'm scared to check to see what all shrunk.
I just started crying while showing DD Taylor Swift's Shake It Off video to see if she wanted to dance. There is nothing remotely inspirational about that video...except maybe the twerking ladies.
The short film about the birds that they show before Finding Dory. Also just Finding Dory on its own made me cry. It was an emotional movie experience.
The short film about the birds that they show before Finding Dory. Also just Finding Dory on its own made me cry. It was an emotional movie experience.
Yes to both of these! DH and I took DD to see it yesterday. I was bawling, and DH was like"seriously, what's got you crying now?" I cry at the drop of a hat these days.
My husband said to pick what I wanted for dinner and when I did he shot the idea down. He asked what was wrong and I started crying hysterically because I wanted a buffalo chicken wrap.
Side note: I got my wrap but gagged because the inside of the chicken looked weird.
Ice cream. I just had to throw out a brand new carton of Rocky Road because DH smashed it into the freezer and the kid was all out of shape - I couldn't even get it open.
@dmontgo - is your husband playing Destiny? Mine is, it's been the cause of much trouble. But it's his thing, like reading is my thing. But I can put my damn book down in 2 seconds.
Re: Why my pregnant self is crying...
TTC since 6/13
Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change
BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016
SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
I had to dredge up an old thread because my hormones are FUN today already! Curses to the morning radio show I listen to!!!!!!! They had a bunch of kids on who were raising money for different charities they like, and I couldn't help but cry like a baby in my car thinking of how awesome they were.
Flash forward to me getting to work 10 minutes later...So I work on the 19th floor, and the elevators can take forever to get there if there are too many people on them. I have a lot of elevator-related anger. Imagine my joy when I got on an elevator with only one other person! She then proceeds to push buttons for THREE FLOORS!!!!!!! And she got off on the first floor. So I got to stop at her two unnecessary additional floors, while cursing her and her idiocy under my breath the whole time.
And I'm not in a good mood because my boss has decided to schedule patients back to back from 9 to 5 with no breaks. It's only me and her here today, so I'm staring at the prospect of no lunch. She just has no boundaries and can't say no to patients. When I questioned her about the lack of lunch, she just said, "Oh but those people needed to get in to see me." Well if you'd stop taking in so many new patients that you can't care for as ONE provider, then we wouldn't have emergency patients who need to get squeezed in! I feel like quoting labor laws to her, but she genuinely doesn't care. No boundaries.
Okay, so most of my post isn't about crying, but I am very angsty today! Grrrrrrrrrr...
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I'm crying because I'm irrational. We have a wedding to attend in 10 days. I told DH I wanted to plan to sleep in the back of our RAV4 (something non-sick me would do in a heartbeat) so we didn't plan a hotel. Well he tried to take us on a low key family adventure this weekend and I spent almost the entire time in the hotel bed... scrambling to the hotel sink to barf... and back to the bed. He wisely booked us a hotel... but now that so much time had passed all the rates went up and he couldn't use miles like he was going to. All because I am a dumb dumb that every day thinks that the next week will bring relief. I have to think this otherwise I can't face the day. BUT COME ON GIRL. You're going to need a bed and a toilet. You can't handle being gritty right now. And 10 days from now will be the same. Probably 10 weeks from now. But definitely not because I will definitely feel better by July. RIGHT?! I'm just glad that DH is thinking clearly.
I totally get overestimating myself in pregnancy too. Last time I was teaching a class and working two part time jobs through third trimester. I assumed I'd work right up to delivery. ...until I fell on my butt and landed in the hospital for three days with a partial placental abruption. And stuck on modified bedrest for the rest of the pregnancy. Now I just assume that I can't predict whatever this spawn of doom is going to bring my way. I'm more inclined to assume I'll be incapacitated rather than functional. Setting a super low bar has actually been pretty good for me...I always meet my goals.
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Also, can't listen to Kelly Clarkson's song Piece by Piece without getting teary. My father was an a**hole, my DH is great and the line "I'll never leave her like you left me." just breaks my heart every time. Normally I'm not a crier but man this song. I almost want to change it when it comes on but then I can't and listen to it and sing through the tears. Wow - I'm kind of lame.
I'm such a sap.
2. I watched people hit the buzzer on American Ninja Warrior. They were happy.
3. I'm currently watching What to Expect When You're Expecting, and I teared up when Elizabeth Banks went on her complaint rant and everyone supported her for it.
4. I felt nauseous so I ate, but that made me more nauseous and I puked.
5. I watched Jurassic Park earlier, and I teared up when they first saw the dinosaurs were real.
It's been an emotional day...
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1 - if someone tried to do that for me I'm sure I'd assume they were trying to steal my food and would fork their hand.
2 - ANW also makes me teary and my life's ambition is to be one. After DS was born I freaked out about "losing myself to being only a mom" and started taking breakdancing classes. Turns out my joints aren't very springy..
3 - yes to that movie while pregnant
4 - story of my life
5 - Put a john williams soundtrack to literally anything and I'm all emotion.
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1. Had to step out and shed a few tears because as I was getting ready to walk to the cafeteria to get a snack I was handed a new patient chart in the clinic. And my coworker wasn't seeing a patient. Lame, yes.
TTC since 6/13
Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change
BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016
SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
TTC #2 starting 9/2019
BFP 7/13/2020!
Due 3/18/2021
TTC #1 since 2/2015
Diagnosis: Unexplained Infertility 9/2015
Moving to IVF with ICSI and PGS 5/2016-6/2016 Just kidding, BFP 4/4/2016!
Spencer Elliott born 12/7/2016
Also, I found a single Vernors in our vending machine today. I was so happy I cried.
And then I found a box of Wheat Thins in my desk. And cried again. TGIF.
DD born 7.27.2014
BFP 09.2015 - m/c 10.21.2015
i have no idea why this got to me.
i haven't seen this movie in years and not sure why I was even thinking about it.
but yes, me totally welling at the memory. Of a dumb movie!
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Diagnosed w/ PCOS 4/9/15 - R/E recommended lifestyle change
BFP 4/10/16 - DS born 12/16/2016
SURPRISE! BFP 3/8/18
DD woke up screaming bloody murder around 430 then again around 6 so I slammed the bedroom door and brought her downstairs after getting only a few hrs of sleep myself. I anticipated that my H would hear and come to relieve me but wound up passing back out. Anyway, while he was blissfully unaware and getting in his 8 hours, I was crying on the living room floor cleaning up DDs diarrhea that exploded out of her diaper and on to the new carpet.. And then the ungodly amount of urine that also managed to explode out of her diaper and on to my leg and couch and throw pillow...
As I sat there crying, 2 year old DD came over to stroke my face, hug me and say "love you, momma." So, cue more crying.
My H felt awful, but little does he know the poop diaper is sitting in the bathroom waiting for him to dunk and swish (cloth diapers).
Also, the movie Suffragettes, and a clip on the news of cattle struggling in the flood waters in TX.
DD- 11/2016
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Me: 33 H: 36
Married: 12/14/13 DS: 1/29/09
BFP2: 10/9/15 MMC: 11/12/15
BFP3: 4/6/16 DD: 12/12/16
Side note: I got my wrap but gagged because the inside of the chicken looked weird.