I got really teary eyed and started sniffling because I accidentally killed a baby spider scampering across me. I thought it was a stray hair when I wiped at it.
Note: I am typically of the no-kill persuasion when it comes to critters. Except ants in my house because they invade and cause problems.
I just cried after dropping off the registration for the daycare we chose . . . the registration!!! I'm definitely in trouble when it comes time to drop off the actual baby!
Married to DH 10/6/12
TTC since 5/14
Unexplained with (controlled) hypothyroidism and suspected ovulatory dysfunction (but, I do ovulate on my own)
Clomid 50 mg 3/15 (unmonitored) - BFN
Clomid 50 mg + metformin 4/15 (unmonitored) - BFN
First RE appt. 5/15; Natural cycle 5/15 monitored with 2 mature follicles and Pregnyl Trigger (full dose) + prometrium - BFN
6/15 HSG - clear tubes & normal uterus; great PCT test results
TI - 100 mg Clomid + prometrium (AM & PM) + vaginal estrace (AM & PM) 6-7/15 (monitored) --> no additional response and thinned lining - BFN
TI - Injectables (follistim + Gonal-F, Ganirelix, & 1/2 dose Pregnyl) + prometrium (AM & PM) 9/15 --> 3-7 mature follicles (3 definites and 4+ that could have matured due to trigger) @ O -->BFN + 5 large cysts
Prince died! My hormones in combination with being so so so sad about this is causing me to weep at my desk while listening to his albums on repeat. So sad I will never get to see him in person! RIP Prince!
just finished crying in the bathroom at work...because i hate my job and really want to quit but I know i need to tough it out for the maternity leave. I was counting down the days until i can leave....97 and also crying because i look and feel like sh*t today and my husband was annoying me with things he said last night. plus, i had a nightmare and a horrible sleep last night. woke up every 2 hrs.
@michelegong I feel you girl! I have so been there in that exact same place! Including counting the days... I'm at 56, and let me tell you, I remember 97 like it was 2 seconds ago. I'm finally at the point where I can really see the light at the end of the tunnel so things phase me less, and I know the same will happen to you! Hang in there lady, TGI[almost]F!
@michelegong me too, girl. That's pretty much a couple times a week cry for me for the past 3+ months.
I've heard the song a thousand times, but this morning on my drive to work Tim McGraw's Humble and Kind started the water works thinking about raising my little boy and all the things I hope and pray for him. And now typing this I'm tearing up again... come on hormones get it together...
Last night while we were watching a movie, my leg cramped, which at first was funny then I burst into tears (it didn't really hurt, I don't know why I was crying). Poor DH had no idea what was happening. He came and rubbed my leg and got me water, while I sat and cried.
Earlier, I had cried at a Simpsons episode. Man yesterday was a weird day.
Two of the students who graduated from my phd program flew into town this week to surprise me at my dissertation defense. Total waterworks.
Then today we were trying to finalize buying a car and it was taking forever and I was reading a book about pregnancy and babies and started to feel overwhelmed about the money we were spending and how often baby is going to breastfeed at first and we couldn't go home because the paperwork wasn't done. More tears
Married May 2014 DD born August 2016 Baby #2 due December 2017
I was talking to my sister about her wedding, and was so happy, THEN she tells me they are going to buy the crib for us.... I only added it to the registry to get the discount. We planned to buy it ourselves, and I was so happy and overwhelmed that they want to do that for us!
DH was playing a video game and I was watching, and when he did a thing that caused this bright light to fly up into the sky he made a fart noise at the exact time. I started laughing so hard that I cried. My pregnant brain is clearly 12 years old.
I thought the emotions would calm down a little after the first trimester as they have in my previous pregnancies. Nope, I still cry about everything lol. Dh now looks at me and says "Really?" with a smile on his face. He is always ready to snuggle me if I need it.
Cried my eyes out this morning because I felt so disconnected with DH. I've been having a hard time getting intimate w him since pregnant (FTM, also during first trimester, I was advised not to by MD for threatened miscarriage). At any rate, after months of not being intimate, it is very uncomfortable for me and I can't get over it mentally. I'm always tired or hungry and DH is so extremely busy at work these days. The most we connect is over eating meals while watching shows on a typical week.
I shouldn't be surprised but he's been taking care of things on his own if you know what I mean but I just broke down into tears.
I think it's a combo of getting frustrated at myself for not enjoying it if the opportunity comes around, DH focusing a lot of time and effort into work, and us just not connecting on a deeper level overall because of these circumstances. Even when we're watching shows, he's on the couch on his work email. Stress with going through change definitely doesn't help at all.
Even on our past wknd trip to NYC, we couldn't even make time to get intimate. I did nap a lot so that didn't help. It's a vicious cycle and I don't quite know how to get back on the rhythm. So I just cried my eyes out, had puffy eyes, and went on with my day meeting clients when all I wanted to do was reflect on our relationship and cry some more. #oneofthosedays
@AliKay20 I am sorry. If it's any consolation, you're not alone. DH and I are pretty much in the same boat. We've completely let the sex go due to my feeling sick/tired in the first tri, his hang-ups about doing it "near the baby," and my body image issues, back pain, and heartburn at bedtime. I want to get back on track, but it's hard now when I have this huge belly. I feel like it would be so weird for it to suddenly be there during sex, since we haven't been doing it all along. Also, as much as I hate to admit it, I want to get back on track for logical reasons (I know it's important for our marriage, I want him to have those needs met by me at least occasionally, I know we won't be able to for a while after the baby), but not due to my own desire. I have very little interest these days.
I hope you and DH kind find some way to reconnect, whatever that may be.
Thanks @Snaps816 ... hope we both can snap out of this funk soon! It's hard to ignore the belly no matter what. I understand where you're coming from completely. I'm going to see if DH and I can find ways to create more of that intimate environment naturally. Not the kind of "oh it's been this long since we did it so let's try again."
Poor DH was sick, and fell asleep early and broke a fever in bed. Sweat everywhere! While I changed the sheets, so we could go to sleep in a dry bed. I saw the sweat had gotten on my favorite blanket. Even though I have a thousand blankets, I started crying. DH was so confused, he was like, just get a different blanket? But I have trouble sleeping as it is and I wanted my favorite one! I felt bad, because I knew I was making him feel bad for something he had no control over.
I cried today because I didn't know what I wanted for dinner, and everything I did want sounded bad for one reason or another. And then I was frustrated and crying at my husband because he asked why I was so frustrated. I said "I'm sorry. I am just pregnant, ok?"
We traveled to Winnipeg, Manitoba this past weekend and when we got back yesterday I tried to add money to my sons school lunch account, and was told that my card was declined. I then got a notice from our rental company that my card was declined to pay rent. I assumed my account was flagged for fraud since I had been out of the country--even though I had sent notice before we left. I called the bank this morning and was told that one of the places I had made a purchase at had their system compromised and my card was inactivated. I now have to go to the main branch and request a new card--which will take 7 to 10 days. I broke down. I know this is simple and I am happy my account is protected, but damn I can't stop crying over little things.
I love reading these! So hilarious! Glad I'm not alone! I cried yesterday because my dogs face looked sad explaining why I was crying to my dh I started laughing because I realized how silly it was. Then I started crying again.
It took me three tries to open a bandaid up and when it finally popped out of the wrapper, it fell on the floor. I think I need more sleep...
*TW Spoiler*
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks. 10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero placenta surgery 11/2/17 Twin A & B born 11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU Benched 6 months BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
I went to get a pedicure with SIL, and normally I have to ask them to turn the temp up on my water, rub a little harder during the message, etc. but now I can hardly stand any of those things! I was ready to jump out of my seat the whole time. Everything seems to be extra sensitive, and I started crying because I LOVE pedicures but don't see myself doing one again until this little man comes out
DH and I had an argument last night about him bringing more "stuff" into our house, when we need to purge to change the "playroom" into the baby's room. I flew off the handle and screamed at him, and he said something about me not doing anything since I got pregnant. (I still work full time, do laundry, cook meals and take care of our other 2 kids when I'm at home) That really hurt my feelings, since I know I have been sleeping more and generally not feeling great. I cried myself to sleep, then woke up this morning and left him a not telling him that I was not trying to be a bitch last night, but I'm getting frustrated and stressed about changing the playroom into the baby's room, and I feel like no one cares but me. I came home from work and found the playroom gutted, Including things I wanted left in there, and the entire family room rearranged, and DS2's room rearranged! I appreciate that he was trying to help, but I'm pissed that he wouldn't even talk to me about what I want moved where. So, I'm crying again.
We live right by the elementary school in our little town, and it's totally acceptable to use their playground even when the school kids are outside. We can walk there from our house so DS and I often go there to play. Today we were there at the same time as a group of 4K kids and some little boy walked up to my shy 2.5yo and screamed right in his face! Fortunately the teacher stepped in but my son started bawling and I was in tears too! I felt a little ridiculous and was glad I was wearing sunglasses. Guess the pregnancy hormones brought out mama bear (not my normal parenting personality)!
Humans of NY posts on pediatric cancer. Hits me right in the heart. It's a whole another level of how I read & process these posts now more than ever.
Oh my god, this entire series has been brutal! Beautiful, but so hard to read. I've definitely teared up at work several times and had to stop reading. Being a first-time mom it's like a little peek into a kind of worry and fear only a parent can know... I can only imagine. The one yesterday with the woman whose son Max died was too much.
Because I just got done reading @bananers blog. And I feel ridiculously selfish that I've been feeling like shit and joking that I wish our baby girl would just get here already. Then you read about A baby that did make his appearance early and the struggles he and his family now face and you feel like a complete asshole.... her story puts alot into perspective. I used to giggle at her replies on some threads. now I worry how her baby is doing, does she even have time to take a moment for herself let alone post something to make me giggle ... aye vey these damn hormones.I .am.not.a.cryer....
Had to pronounce two kids dead at work last night. One was a co-sleeping baby, parents woke up and she wasn't breathing. The other was a teenager scheduled to graduate high school next week who just collapsed.
It's a pretty shitty part of my job on a normal day, but with pregnancy hormones flowing it was almost impossible to get through the rest of my shift. I feel like a zombie today. I can't stop hearing those parents scream. I am constantly on the verge of tears.
Re: #whymypregnantselfiscrying
Note: I am typically of the no-kill persuasion when it comes to critters. Except ants in my house because they invade and cause problems.
it's one of those days.....
I've heard the song a thousand times, but this morning on my drive to work Tim McGraw's Humble and Kind started the water works thinking about raising my little boy and all the things I hope and pray for him. And now typing this I'm tearing up again... come on hormones get it together...
Earlier, I had cried at a Simpsons episode. Man yesterday was a weird day.
Then today we were trying to finalize buying a car and it was taking forever and I was reading a book about pregnancy and babies and started to feel overwhelmed about the money we were spending and how often baby is going to breastfeed at first and we couldn't go home because the paperwork wasn't done. More tears
Married May 2014
DD born August 2016
Baby #2 due December 2017
My husband made gnocchi with the pesto sauce, not the red sauce.
I shouldn't be surprised but he's been taking care of things on his own if you know what I mean but I just broke down into tears.
I think it's a combo of getting frustrated at myself for not enjoying it if the opportunity comes around, DH focusing a lot of time and effort into work, and us just not connecting on a deeper level overall because of these circumstances. Even when we're watching shows, he's on the couch on his work email. Stress with going through change definitely doesn't help at all.
Even on our past wknd trip to NYC, we couldn't even make time to get intimate. I did nap a lot so that didn't help. It's a vicious cycle and I don't quite know how to get back on the rhythm. So I just cried my eyes out, had puffy eyes, and went on with my day meeting clients when all I wanted to do was reflect on our relationship and cry some more. #oneofthosedays
I hope you and DH kind find some way to reconnect, whatever that may be.
DD: Aug '16
10/2017: Twins confirmed with TTTS at 22 weeks.
10/10/17 Twin B passed after in utero placenta surgery
11/2/17 Twin A & B born
11/26/17: Twin A passed after 24 days fighting in the NICU
Benched 6 months
BFP: 6/28/18 MC:7/16/18 BO
BFP: 10/2/18 EDD 6/15/18
It's a pretty shitty part of my job on a normal day, but with pregnancy hormones flowing it was almost impossible to get through the rest of my shift. I feel like a zombie today. I can't stop hearing those parents scream. I am constantly on the verge of tears.