Since we started trying .. it will be two years in October things have changed drastically. I mean we already had stress on us from family and financial issues but nothing prepared us for the stress of infertility. I had a miscarriage in Jan 15 and it just worse every day after that.. My h had issues performing which was so frustrating. Finally we found out I needed a tube blocked and now we are finally having our transfer in june.. but it has all put a toll on us. I gained 35 pounds which hasn't helped my self esteem or mood. He is more distant. We are in counseling but we seem to be so angry at each other over every little thing now. The other day he told me he thinks its because sex turned into making a baby and that was the one thing that made him feel close to me. I feel like trying just ruined everything.. why does sex have to play such a crucial role anyway? I mean if u take away sex and we are this way what does that say about us? ?
Re: Marital issues since trying? anyone else
I would encourage you to look up the Five Love Languages book. If your DH feels that sex is his only real way of connecting with you, it may help to identify how you would like to be connected with and another way that he can feel loved.
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TTC since April 2013
Two cancelled IUIs in Aug and Sept '15 due to low motility/count
IVF round 1: January 2016
ER: February 17, 2016; 9 retrieved, 7 mature, 7 fertilized
Day 5 Blastocysts: 5 BB, 1 AB, all normal from PGS
FET date: May 11, '16; transferred 1 AB embryo
First beta: May 23, '16: 998!! Second: May 25, '16: 1648
EDD: January 27, 2017
TI for 4 cycles: 1 round of femara; 2 rounds femara/ injectables: all ended in BFN.
3 IUI Cycles: letrozole/Follistim with HCG Trigger,all resulted in BFN.
FET #1: Baseline appt 4/28/16, Gonal-F/Menopur stims, Centrotide 5/4/16, ER 5/11/16; 6/8/16 ET, BFN
FET #2: Baseline appt 6/22/16, Estrace/PIO shots: 7/12/16 ET, 1st beta 7/21/16: 83 BFP, 2nd beta 7/23/16: 315. 1st U/S: 8/4/16 empty sac. 2nd U/S: 8/10/16 yolk sac appeared, everything stopped growing. Office D&C: 8/11/16, MC.
FET #3: Baseline appt 12/28/16, Estrace/PIO shots: 1/17/17 ET, 1st beta 1/27/17: 146 BFP, 2nd beta 1/29/17: 336, 1st U/S: 2/16/17, 2 healthy twin babies measuring 7w0d. EDD: 10/5/17
Me: DOR, poor egg quality, MTHFR
DH: MFI
TTC since 3/2014
2015: 3 IUI's-BFN
12/2015: 1st IVF cycle-(9 follicles retrieved, 5 mature, 3 fertilized w/ICSI, transferred 1 excellent and 1 good embryo on day 3)-chemical pregnancy
3/2016: 2nd IVF cycle- canceled (3 follicles retrieved, 3 mature, all fertilized w/ICSI, 1 fragmented, 2 arrested)
3/2016: RE suggested donor eggs- taking an ivf break and to supplement
9/2016: 3rd ivf cycle-cancelled due to early ovulation
Oct./Nov 2016: 4th ivf cycle- EPP-AFC:5, retrieved 10, 10 mature, 8 fertilized with ICSI, 6 blastocysts biopsied and frozen. 3 CCS normal embryos
1/18/17: beta #1-104
1/20/17: beta #2-174
2/2/17: first u/s, heartbeat of 107 at 6w1d
7/20/17: baby boy born at 30+3 via emergency c-section
I'm so sorry you're going through this. You're definitely not alone. We experienced a loss and then struggled to get pregnant again on our own. We eventually turned to ivf and suffered a twin loss. It was hell on our marriage. We saw a counselor for a while to really try and understand where the other was coming from and it helped us fully open up about our true feelings of hurt and resentment. It helped immensely, so I think you're doing the right thing.
After our twin loss, I physically and medically needed to take a break for my body to reset. For those months, we did not mention trying to get pregnant. We just went back to being a couple and it was amazing. We went on dates, flirted a lot and finally, had sex for fun! By the time our FET came around, we were a strong couple again. I did my medications, we knew our schedule, and that's all we really discussed. We wanted it to be a more calm, less stressful transfer to keep the pressure off.
We were very blessed and ended up getting pregnant with both embryos, who are now 5 months old. I think the break was a good thing for my body and my mind. It allowed me to refocus and allowed us to really see each other again.
I wish you lots of luck!
TTC since Oct 2013
IVF round 1 January 2016 (w/ ICSI)
ER: February 17, 2016; 15 eggs retrieved, 14 mature, 11 fertilized
Day 5 Blastocysts: 8 sent for PGS - 5 Normal
FET date: April 12, 2016 - DS born Dec 7, 2016
IVF round 2: FET : Oct 4 - 1st Beta 188!
TI for 4 cycles: 1 round of femara; 2 rounds femara/ injectables: all ended in BFN.
3 IUI Cycles: letrozole/Follistim with HCG Trigger,all resulted in BFN.
FET #1: Baseline appt 4/28/16, Gonal-F/Menopur stims, Centrotide 5/4/16, ER 5/11/16; 6/8/16 ET, BFN
FET #2: Baseline appt 6/22/16, Estrace/PIO shots: 7/12/16 ET, 1st beta 7/21/16: 83 BFP, 2nd beta 7/23/16: 315. 1st U/S: 8/4/16 empty sac. 2nd U/S: 8/10/16 yolk sac appeared, everything stopped growing. Office D&C: 8/11/16, MC.
FET #3: Baseline appt 12/28/16, Estrace/PIO shots: 1/17/17 ET, 1st beta 1/27/17: 146 BFP, 2nd beta 1/29/17: 336, 1st U/S: 2/16/17, 2 healthy twin babies measuring 7w0d. EDD: 10/5/17