TWW Crazies

AshleySparkle720 · April 2016

I'm 1dpo and already driving myself crazy. Thankfully this next month is going to be so busy and that'll keep me from peeing on every test in sight. I just want this to happen so bad this cycle!

Knottie1459524222 · April 2016

I'm 1 dpo also! Praying for the best for both of us!! @AshleySparkle720

ThePax89 · April 2016

I'm joining the 2ww club! 1 dpo now. I keep checking my chart like it's going to turn into a baby. This might be a long one.

fivetimesnoluck · April 2016

@BaylieGirl I'm sorry! Did AF show up? She's such a bitch.

@AshleySparkle720 @ThePax89 @Knottie1459524222 fingers crossed for you ladies! It usually feels like way longer than two weeks for me!

I'm traveling for work and just not in a good mood. I thought being busy would be a good distraction but instead since I'm so crabby, I ditched my work peeps, just ordered room service and am debating walking to a drug store and buying a test. It's ALL I can think about. Am I or aren't I?

As far as SS goes, I've been having very vivid dreams. (Last night's was funny: apparently my DH had my legs tattooed without me knowing. And when I saw the finished product, I was disappointed he didn't get my approval first. I thought, "I guess I can't ever wear another dress to work." - WTF?!)

I have been in tune to every molecule that has moved in my abdomen for 10 days, and some make me feel like YES! And other times, I'm like that's probably just gas. I'm emotional, but aren't we all?! Aside from the dreams, I can't point to a sure sign. Haven't been constipated or had sore boobs yet. I did have the tiniest twinge of nausea/queasiness yesterday morning and that was weird. Probably from one of my drugs. I know it's too early for actual morning sickness.

I really wanted to just wait it out, but I may cave.

Beta is Friday. Ugh!

mylittleversailles · April 2016

I'm currently 7 DPO and totally, completely, entirely serene. It's not like me at all and it's honestly a bit creepy. Who is this pod person I've been replaced with?

FX for everyone in their tww right now!

fivetimesnoluck · April 2016

Impressed by your serenity, @reneeannemm ! If you could bottle that and send some to the southeastern US, that'd be great! Seriously though, I'm so glad you're feeling better. I know last week was tough on you.

I'm so glad I found you all.

Edited because 1/2 my post keeps disappearing.

mylittleversailles · April 2016

@fivetimesnoluck I wish I knew what it was so I could share some kind of zen wisdom. My fingers are especially crossed for you and I hope the rest of your tww is merciful and swift.

fivetimesnoluck · April 2016

Many thanks, @reneeannemm! I woke up today in a much better mood.

Had a wonderful dream about getting a BFP and honestly, I feel more even-keeled about it all today.

Then, I found out I won an Apple Watch at the conference I'm attending. I am totally taking it as a sign the my luck this week is GOOD!!

ThePax89 · April 2016

@reneeannemm serenity is my #1 sign of being pregnant. I don't feel pregnant, just calm, and happy. Then I POAS and bam.

mylittleversailles · April 2016

@ThePax89 Oh shiiiiiii

We'll see soon enough, I guess.

Image: https://us.v-cdn.net/5020794/uploads/editor/j5/g0spl6t4cv3h.gif

^actual footage of me right now

rainbowturtles · April 2016

I'm wondering if maybe I can join in here a little bit? We suffered an early loss feb 25th (and I had one about ten years ago, too). We're technically waiting until September to TTC (due to moving and me having some GI problems) but because of my losses and because we're only using the pull-out method, every month I still go crazy in my TWW and every month I still WANT to be pregnant

I've posted on the TTA/benched post in TTGP but would love a place to post my TWWs where people understand what it's like after losses. If this is offensive to you ladies, I do apologize and will continue just reading until my TTCAL time comes, but I thought it couldn't hurt to ask

mylittleversailles · April 2016

@rainbowturtles You are most definitely welcome here. I'm very sorry for losses and I hope you'll stick around and chat with us.

rainbowturtles · April 2016

@reneeannemmThank you so much! PHEW! I'm in tears cuz I thought you all might think I was just insane lol

I'm currently CD 27, around 12dpo...always so hard when I get to this point and I just feel rotten today. Proud of myself for not testing yet lol

Thanks again for welcoming me!

fivetimesnoluck · April 2016

Welcome, @rainbowturtles. (I love your user name.) You're definitely "allowed" here! I'm sorry for your previous losses. I totally understand wanting a place where people get it. We are in a special club that no one should ever have to join.... But here we are.

mylittleversailles · April 2016

@rainbowturtles Like @fivetimesnoluck says, this is a great club that no one should have to be a part of. The whole TTCAL process, benched times included, is so murky and stressful and crazy-making, we do what we have to do to survive. For example, I made more than a hundred perogies today because my energy has got to go somewhere! They're all in the freezer and you're all invited for dinner.

Image: https://24.media.tumblr.com/3e6807d93863903f761ab73c94529917/tumblr_mrnq73JSBk1qmt5mvo1_500.gif

rainbowturtles · April 2016

@fivetimesnoluck that is so so sadly true

Do any of you get afraid to SS? Or to admit to them anyways? Ha

What I mean is, I have a horrible headache and I'm super nauseous and emotional but I almost feel like sharing that with you all is somehow "jinxing" it! Does that make sense? Like I pretend to ignore the symptoms all the while obviously fully noticing them all but wanting badly to be in that serenity that someone else mentioned where I'm like "there's not a chance I can be pregnant", in hopes that THAT'S when it will happen lol

rainbowturtles · April 2016

@reneeannemm mmmmm perogies!!! I have celiac disease but will be trying my hand at gluten free perogies soon

I just haven't been able to eat much because of my tummy troubles. But cooking is one of my favourite distractions, and Pinteresting recipes!!!

catiecatp · April 2016

@rainbowturtles - first you are welcome here - second I have (unofficially diagnosed) Celiac too - I've got a recipe that worked decently and would have worked better if I was more patient (I'm more of a cookie/cake person). If you'd like I could share the recipe for when you feel up to it.

@reneeannemm - OMG - I didn't realize you made that many - that is awesome!

mylittleversailles · April 2016

@rainbowturtles I'm a food blogger and I test all my recipes with gluten and without - perogies are totally easy without gluten. King Arthur Flour's website has the best mix for everything except yeast breads, just use brown rice flour for the rice part. I've made hundreds of things with it and no one ever knows it's gluten-free.

@catiecatp Yeahhh, I'll be stuffing them tomorrow, too. I think there will be an even higher count once I get through all the fillings! It's good, though, they freeze perfectly and I can give them away to everyone I know.

ThePax89 · April 2016

Yes! @rainbowturtles exactly.
with all of my BFPs my main symptoms were "no symptoms, calm, and not feeling pregnant" so I always try and talk myself out of symptoms. Haha

mylittleversailles · April 2016

@rainbowturtles I just plug them all into FF so I can have that proof next cycle of how crazy I truly am.

Woke up a little less zen, but I didn't have a restful sleep. Still feeling all right. 9 DPO (totally tested this early- BFN). I'm running out of cheapies, so I need to take it easy and get back into a good head space. Taking this as a sign I need to keep real busy today. The housekeeper's coming, so I'll clean up, haha. Make a few dozen more perogies and figure out a menu for our guests tonight.

dpjennifer · April 2016

@reneeannem PIEROGIES!!!!

Sorry, I'm like cd 6 and nowhere near my tww right now, but OMG, periogies!

catiecatp · April 2016

@reneeannemm - if you end up sharing the recipe on your blog I'll be sure to try it out. Especially if you say they can freeze...

rainbowturtles · April 2016

@reneeannemm I live in Canada, so King Arthur isn't available here and the extra shipping costs are just NOT in my budget lol But I do have my eye on a couple recipes that I think I will try soon

I've been mostly on a liquid diet the past week so haven't been doing much cooking/baking lol Hoping my flexible sigmoidoscopy tomorrow will have some answers because I need to eat! Oh...and I think I will test tomorrow, even tho there's no sedation....just in case?

And yes, I've been plugging my symptoms in, too, so I can see what a dork I am lol

rainbowturtles · April 2016

Also @catiecatp by all means share the recipe! I am the worst when it comes to doughs, too! I get impatient and annoyed...gluten free doughs in particular can be brutal lol

mylittleversailles · April 2016

@rainbowturtles I'm in Toronto, we don't have it either.

It's a recipe on this website, using several gluten-free starches and flours mixed together into magic. I was wrong it wasn't even King Arthur Flour's recipe. Definitely don't order in any premixed gluten-free flour blends - never, ever worth it.

Hope your procedure goes well!

@catiecatp I think I will blog this one eventually. Not much in the mood to write up recipes and do layouts lately, but sometime I will. I freeze them as soon as they're made - flat so they don't stick and then they're ready to go whenever.

rainbowturtles · April 2016

@reneeannemm ooohhhhh! Okay, that's better, then

And yes, I recently picked up a bunch of white rice flour, tapioca starch/flour, and even almond flour (but darn it's pricey!). I have plans! lol It's a pain in the butt to blend flours but pre-blends are usually only good for a few specific recipes

fivetimesnoluck · April 2016

So, I have to admit I don't think I've ever had a pierogi. I feel like I'm missing out! Must find a friend to make me some.

As for me... The crazies hit me on the long solo car ride back home today. I got in town and pulled up to acupuncture appointment about 20 mins early. There's a grocery store next door to the office complex. I go in and buy some hpts. I took one at the office. At 5pm after drinking a large (decaf) Americano and a bunch of water all day. (Of course) It was negative. (13 dp trigger, not positive about O date.)
I'm still not sure why I did that. But, it got me thinking more than I had been about a BFN. So, while at acupuncture I just meditated on the fact that I will be ok either way. We have a plan. And we are seriously working with the best doctor for my condition as we could possibly hope for. I'm pretty happy with myself for turning that around.

Also: acupuncture is awesome.

rainbowturtles · April 2016

@fivetimesnoluck I can't believe you've never had a perogy!!!

I'm sorry for your BFN and that the crazies hit but my fingers are still crossed for you and I'm glad you were able to meditate on it

My crazies and hormones are in full force and I'm almost losing it on DH

I'm just super cranky so every little thing is bothering me. And then I don't feel like I can even share with him everything I'm feeling. I'll be so much happier when he's in this with me but I think he needs the time so I try not to talk about it much in the meantime. GIVE ME STRENGTH!!!

catiecatp · April 2016

@rainbowturtles - I use this recipe for flour - I often can use it one-for-one...

https://glutenfreegirl.com/2010/12/gluten-free-holiday-baking-2010/

I'll dig up the pierogi recipe tomorrow.

catiecatp · April 2016

@reneeannemm - please do post it - I'll test it for you quick like a bunny with GF flours...

silentP · April 2016

Mmmm, pierogies.

So, another TWW begins. Yesterday, I went so far as rescheduling my annual Obgyn appointment until late June because I really hope for a BFP by then and I want to be poked and prodded as little as possible!

mylittleversailles · April 2016

So +1 for perogies.

Ehhh, pretty sure I'm out. I have some cramping, which feels suspiciously like a period on its way. BFN this morning - still early, but I know these cramps so well. Onward and upward, I guess.

Spartanrd4 · April 2016

@fivetimesnoluck You need to try pierogies....My family is part polish and I married my Russian/German DH so I have had them a lot! My favorites are the cheese and potatoes or one with sauerkraut. Also must be eaten with sour cream...this is a must.

MWoodside · April 2016

@fivetimesnoluck, I've been thinking of you all morning knowing you have a beta draw today. I'm hoping this is your month.

I'm over here now for 2.5 weeks (long luteal phase here). O'd last night or today. Got in as much BD as we could. Here's to hoping!

I find I always do great the first week to ten days of 2ww, then I begin to unravel. I am hoping I can keep that in check a bit better this month. It adds to my stress to be thinking about it 24/7.

fivetimesnoluck · April 2016

Thank you, @MWoodside ! Unfortunately for me, the RE just called to confirm what the HPT showed this am... a BFN. I am super disappointed. DH and I are both so tired and sad. We'll pick up and move forward, but we will probably spend the weekend sulking a bit. This shit has been going on for far too long.

FX this is your cycle!

ThePax89 · April 2016

@reneeannemm uteri (uteruses?) are strange turds. Remind me, how many dpo are you? And have you struggled with a short luteal phase?

mylittleversailles · April 2016

@ThePax89 No, never short, luckily. 13 or 14 days. I'm 10 DPO; I know it's really early but I also know this pain.

AshleySparkle720 · April 2016

reneeannemm said:

I'm currently 7 DPO and totally, completely, entirely serene. It's not like me at all and it's honestly a bit creepy. Who is this pod person I've been replaced with?

FX for everyone in their tww right now!

This is me too! I'm like uneasy because of how relaxed I am.

rainbowturtles · April 2016

Sorry for @fivetimesnoluck and @reneeannemm

i had a BFN this morning, too, and a sort of less than positive chat with DH last night and now I'm sitting in the hospital waiting for them to stick a camera up my bum so I'm feeling pretty low and just want to go back to bed

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