I just put my kid down in the crib to try to nap after she's already tried and failed today. Because I have an important skype call that I don't want her interrupting.
DH and I got in an ice cream throwing level fight over stroller options last night. It was weird and I'm so embarrassed. The looks that neighbor kid was giving us.
DS will be doing yard work, cleaning his room, vacuuming and cleaning the bathroom this weekend. That's what you get when act like a jerk toward your pregnant (or non-pregnant) teacher, poke a kid with a pencil and throw things across the room.
Also, I hate doing yard work, but weeds don't seem to understand that and continue to grow. Plus, I'm pregnant. Way to go me for finding an excuse to make my kids do it. (DD will be helping to earn money for Girl Scout dues.)
I've been spending an irrational time at work watching my dog on our nest cam. Watching her sneak into my closet and take socks as if she's going to get in trouble by someone is the cutest. I may or may not need help.
I've left work early this entire week. Not too early so that people won't talk but early enough so that I feel naughty doing it.
This is irrational but when people "check in" on Facebook at the airport saying where they are traveling to it pisses me off. I'm not sure why it annoys me but it does.
Someone who doesn't know I am pregnant asked me if I was pregnant yesterday. It was the first time. I didn't know whether to feel happy that someone noticed but scared that I looked fat or something.
My confession: I judge people who say they're not really into reading. (I understand why people with reading difficulties or disabilities may not like it. I'm not a TOTAL asshole.)
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@mom2adoodle- sounds like you look pregnant, not fat Most people (at least those with an ounce of intelligence) won't say anything unless it's obvious that someone is showing, and not just full on lunch!
I am getting chickens this weekend and have spent an embarrassing portion of today looking at chickens in costumes. I'm maybe not as embarrassed about this as I should be...
Natural M/C 03.26.2012 at 10w2d Charlotte born at 28w3d due to severe IUGR on 12.24.2012 Merry Christmas! Missed M/C discovered 12.22.2014 at 8w1d measuring 6w3d 2015 was a year to test strength of both body and character, but it led us to this... BFP 01.26.2016 EDD 9.30.2016
I was my MIL's favorite until younger BIL got married. Now his wife is the favorite because younger BIL is the favorite son. There are three sons and MIL/FIL have never hidden that he's the favorite. (This is despite the fact that he's a total loser...think 28 years old, no job, still lives at home loser.) Luckily my husband is awesome and doesn't let it get to him.
@Cricket Bug - I love it! Feel no shame. I spent some time the other day trying to convince a friend that I was going to get a chicken and teach it to love me (See below) She couldn't be convinced.
I have a REAL confession... and I totally understand if it's not flame-free. Today, I was driving home from lunch with my mom, and my son flipped around and looked at me over the back of his carseat and said, "Hi, Mama!" Which means he wasn't buckled. I immediately freaked out and pulled the car over as soon as I could and burst into tears. As I buckled him up, sobbing and kissing him like crazy, he said, "It's OK, Mama. Don't worry about me. I'm your best friend!"
But UGHHHH... how could I not buckle him?? I've been flighty this pregnancy but I never imagined I could be THAT flighty. I felt like one of the moms who forgets her kid in a hot car. I remember putting him in the carseat, then I gave him a new toy to play with and my mom was talking and talking and talking to me, so I guess I just closed the door without buckling. I've basically been berating myself in my head ever since.
My husband is an only child, I am therefore the most favorite and least favorite daughter-in-law all the time. I am maybe most favorite because I am the vessel of grandchildren, and will forever be the least favorite because I am not Jewish and don't want to be BFFs with MIL.
I need to adult and be somewhere in an hour and I am still in bed in my PJs well into the afternoon... I've taken two naps today and had all my meals in bed. Love me some fridays!
@schuberta don't beat yourself up!!! I forgot one time when LO was itty bitty and had blankets covering him bc it was cold out. I know how you feel though!
schuberta It sucks, I'm sure, but it happens. Story time. When i was four-ish I was riding unbuckled in the van with my mom and I couldn't wait for her to fully stop the car so I opened the door while it was in motion and was dangling from the door handle until she stopped. I was like "weee that was fun!" but I'm pretty sure my mom had a heart attack. At least that didn't happen.
You didn't do that. You're human and you made a mistake and fortunately you corrected it as soon as you could.
@UnwritteN12@mom2adoodle I appreciate the support! lol This started as DD's daycare doing a chick hatch for Easter, and has become me buying a coop and picking 4 thoroughly toddler mauled chicks to be our new backyard friends! I totally believe chickens could be great hug-able friends!!
ETA: None of this is meant to explain or justify my new extracurricular activity, just some back story. I think there may be a chickens in dress calendar in my future. And possibly heavily *bleeped* YouTube videos of the process...
Natural M/C 03.26.2012 at 10w2d Charlotte born at 28w3d due to severe IUGR on 12.24.2012 Merry Christmas! Missed M/C discovered 12.22.2014 at 8w1d measuring 6w3d 2015 was a year to test strength of both body and character, but it led us to this... BFP 01.26.2016 EDD 9.30.2016
My FFFC is I ate enough taco salad at lunch to feed the 5 people I was eating with today at work. They stared in awe how I scarfed down that enormous bowl of rice and spicy beef deliciousness.
Thanks, @PSUBecky23 and @RedMar. I'm so, so thankful nothing happened during that car ride. It was a long time before I noticed because he was so quiet and calmly playing with his new toy!
@schuberta- when my little guy was really tiny I loosened his carseat straps while we were shopping incase he woke up and wanted a little wiggle room while in his carseat in the shopping cart. I then clicked the seat into the base and drove part way home before realizing I hadn't tightened the straps. I, too, had a panic - though luckily nothing had happened.
Breathe. Learn from it, slow down a bit, and move on!
@schuberta I've been there done that as a nanny driving down a busy road in Chicago! It's absolutely terrifying and I was in tears too, but it happens! His response would have made me cry even more - so sweet!
@mom2adoodle The airport thing bothers me, too, because all you are doing is announcing to the world that you house will be vacant for the length of your vacation. That and bragging, which I generally don't love. If you want to show off your photos, that's one thing, because at least people might be interested in seeing them. The airport announcement is just make the point that you are doing something they aren't.
@schuberta - similar to @RedMar I did it to one of the kids too. I went to visit work while on maternity leave, someone unbuckled one of the kids and, when they put them back into the infant seat, didn't buckle them back in but covered them with their blankets. I didn't think to check and, when I got home and went to unbuckle said child, noticed that they had not been buckled at all during our trip home. At least everyone is ok. It's a learning experience.
@RedMar - I'm impressed and can't blame you. I say scarf away!
I have a REAL confession... and I totally understand if it's not flame-free. Today, I was driving home from lunch with my mom, and my son flipped around and looked at me over the back of his carseat and said, "Hi, Mama!" Which means he wasn't buckled. I immediately freaked out and pulled the car over as soon as I could and burst into tears. As I buckled him up, sobbing and kissing him like crazy, he said, "It's OK, Mama. Don't worry about me. I'm your best friend!"
But UGHHHH... how could I not buckle him?? I've been flighty this pregnancy but I never imagined I could be THAT flighty. I felt like one of the moms who forgets her kid in a hot car. I remember putting him in the carseat, then I gave him a new toy to play with and my mom was talking and talking and talking to me, so I guess I just closed the door without buckling. I've basically been berating myself in my head ever since.
No flame here. I have done that, when my daughter was younger. I put her in the seat after picking her up from daycare, pulled out, got s block away before she yelled, "Mama! I'm not buckled in!"
i I cried too.
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@RedMar This was me today, but with breakfast for lunch. Yes, douchebags, I DO want two extra pancakes with my eggs/hash browns/sausage and you can suck it.
September '16 - May Signature Challenge Awkward Family Fun
I'm going to dine out for the third meal of the day. Epitome of laziness. And unhealthiness. Hubby and I planned breakfast out. I was shopping for nursery all day and had lunch out. But I can't muster the strength / desire to make dinner tonight. So we're going for pizza.
The other day my aunt dropped off cheesy potatoes for us. I ate them all and didn't tell my husband we even had them. The only regret I have is that I have no more.
I have a REAL confession... and I totally understand if it's not flame-free. Today, I was driving home from lunch with my mom, and my son flipped around and looked at me over the back of his carseat and said, "Hi, Mama!" Which means he wasn't buckled. I immediately freaked out and pulled the car over as soon as I could and burst into tears. As I buckled him up, sobbing and kissing him like crazy, he said, "It's OK, Mama. Don't worry about me. I'm your best friend!"
But UGHHHH... how could I not buckle him?? I've been flighty this pregnancy but I never imagined I could be THAT flighty. I felt like one of the moms who forgets her kid in a hot car. I remember putting him in the carseat, then I gave him a new toy to play with and my mom was talking and talking and talking to me, so I guess I just closed the door without buckling. I've basically been berating myself in my head ever since.
Anyone who hasn't done something like this, just hasn't done it YET. When my first was still in an infant seat, I thought I'd clicked it in, but I heard it *actually* click in once we hit the bump between the our driveway in the street. So I didn't make it out of the driveway without her properly fastened, but if I'd driving some place else that wouldn't have been the case. Don't beat yourself up.
DH was home from work today so cleaned out the pantry and fridge and made a grocery list of everything we needed. I told him I was then going shopping (automatically thinking I was going food shopping). Instead, I trolled the aisles of target and tj maxx and came home with some nice little decorative pieces and maybe a lamp or two.
His is response when he helped me unpack was "where is all the food" oooppss I will go tomorrow
Confession 2: My mood is shit this pregnancy. I was always so happy with my daughter. I feel so different this time. I feel like I can't do anything right at work, I can't pull my weight with housework, nobody includes me in fun things anymore. I am taking everything personally and I know it, but I just can't help but feel really bad about myself. Even tonight, when my daughter said she wanted to go to my mother in law's for our weekly Girls Night instead of go somewhere with me, I felt like I was punched in the gut. I cried the whole way driving there. I had sunglasses on so she didn't see me, but it still really hurt my feelings.
i feel so fragile and emotional. I hate feeling like this. I am NOT usually a mopey, distracted, forgetful person but that's 100% what I've been the last three months. Ugh.
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@schuberta as others have said, try not to beat yourself up about it!! I'm sure that has happened to so many moms out there-- we're only human, after all!
@Cricket Bugawesome!!! I wish we could have chickens. Fresh eggs are just so good!
@runningisrad I'm sorry to hear that-- that's a really crappy feeling. Can you take some time to do something nice for yourself? Might help to boost your spirits a little bit.
*sorry in advance this might be kind of long* I am 2 days away from being offically finished all of my theory and practice requirements for my RN program (yay me!). I landed a job on the unit I have done my 3rd and 4th year practice placements on, it's my dream unit to work on and I cried like a baby when I got the job offer and actually hugged my nursing manager.
There are 2 other students in my class who got hired on that floor as well. As a new hire in my health authority, there are lots of inservices and courses you have to do as part of your new employee orientation. For new grads, the generally like to get everyone's done at once for the hospital I'm at, it's more convenient. I was under the impression we would be starting as soon as our provisional licenses came in (the license you get when you graduate that is good until you pass your board exams/NCLEX and then you get a full license), which is usually 2 weeks after you graduate. That would have me working by mid/end of May, which is awesome for 2 reason. 1) We are solely living on DH's salary which is not great, the remnants of our tax returns and my mothers generosity. Saying we are broke doesn't even cover it; we had to decide last month whether we get groceries or pay the electric bill. 2.) If I'm being optimistic, I only have until MAYBE the end of August to work as an RN before I start my maternity leave, and I'm only taking 6 months instead of the year I'm entitled to in Canada (DH will take the other 6 months) because I don't want to be out of practice for that long. So that gives me like 3 months to work.
The other students hired for this floor talked to each other decided that they didn't want to start until the end of June so they would have 2 months to study for our boards, and our hiring manager agreed and decided June 27 is our start day... wait what? No one asked me. And they both know the situation I'm in, we're quite close. I felt like I was totally left out of the loop. My hiring manager knows I'm pregnant, and knows my plan was to leave for mat leave at the end of August, health permitting. I can't start actually working until we do our orientation courses. So now I have to sit down with both of them and our hiring manager and explain why I want to start earlier and hopefully get everyone to change their mind about start dates. Don't get me wrong, 2 months off to study sounds great in theory, but I don't learn by solely reading, I learn by doing. And I won't be able to afford the prep materials I need unless I'm working, and those things are expensive. Stressed does not begin to cover this... FML
Re: FFFC 4-15
Also, I hate doing yard work, but weeds don't seem to understand that and continue to grow. Plus, I'm pregnant. Way to go me for finding an excuse to make my kids do it. (DD will be helping to earn money for Girl Scout dues.)
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I've left work early this entire week. Not too early so that people won't talk but early enough so that I feel naughty doing it.
This is irrational but when people "check in" on Facebook at the airport saying where they are traveling to it pisses me off. I'm not sure why it annoys me but it does.
Someone who doesn't know I am pregnant asked me if I was pregnant yesterday. It was the first time. I didn't know whether to feel happy that someone noticed but scared that I looked fat or something.
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I'm maybe not as embarrassed about this as I should be...
Charlotte born at 28w3d due to severe IUGR on 12.24.2012 Merry Christmas!
Missed M/C discovered 12.22.2014 at 8w1d measuring 6w3d
2015 was a year to test strength of both body and character, but it led us to this... BFP 01.26.2016 EDD 9.30.2016
But UGHHHH... how could I not buckle him?? I've been flighty this pregnancy but I never imagined I could be THAT flighty. I felt like one of the moms who forgets her kid in a hot car. I remember putting him in the carseat, then I gave him a new toy to play with and my mom was talking and talking and talking to me, so I guess I just closed the door without buckling. I've basically been berating myself in my head ever since.
You didn't do that. You're human and you made a mistake and fortunately you corrected it as soon as you could.
ETA: None of this is meant to explain or justify my new extracurricular activity, just some back story. I think there may be a chickens in dress calendar in my future. And possibly heavily *bleeped* YouTube videos of the process...
Charlotte born at 28w3d due to severe IUGR on 12.24.2012 Merry Christmas!
Missed M/C discovered 12.22.2014 at 8w1d measuring 6w3d
2015 was a year to test strength of both body and character, but it led us to this... BFP 01.26.2016 EDD 9.30.2016
Breathe. Learn from it, slow down a bit, and move on!
@RedMar - I'm impressed and can't blame you. I say scarf away!
i I cried too.
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Awkward Family Fun
@RedMar At least it was taco SALAD. Anything with salad in the name has no calories, so I think you're good
His is response when he helped me unpack was "where is all the food" oooppss I will go tomorrow
at least one of the lamps was for the nursery!
DD #1 3/26/13
Mo/Mo twins MMC 3/31/14
DD #2 3/31/15
DD #3 8/25/16
i feel so fragile and emotional. I hate feeling like this. I am NOT usually a mopey, distracted, forgetful person but that's 100% what I've been the last three months. Ugh.
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@Cricket Bug awesome!!! I wish we could have chickens. Fresh eggs are just so good!
There are 2 other students in my class who got hired on that floor as well. As a new hire in my health authority, there are lots of inservices and courses you have to do as part of your new employee orientation. For new grads, the generally like to get everyone's done at once for the hospital I'm at, it's more convenient. I was under the impression we would be starting as soon as our provisional licenses came in (the license you get when you graduate that is good until you pass your board exams/NCLEX and then you get a full license), which is usually 2 weeks after you graduate. That would have me working by mid/end of May, which is awesome for 2 reason. 1) We are solely living on DH's salary which is not great, the remnants of our tax returns and my mothers generosity. Saying we are broke doesn't even cover it; we had to decide last month whether we get groceries or pay the electric bill. 2.) If I'm being optimistic, I only have until MAYBE the end of August to work as an RN before I start my maternity leave, and I'm only taking 6 months instead of the year I'm entitled to in Canada (DH will take the other 6 months) because I don't want to be out of practice for that long. So that gives me like 3 months to work.
The other students hired for this floor talked to each other decided that they didn't want to start until the end of June so they would have 2 months to study for our boards, and our hiring manager agreed and decided June 27 is our start day... wait what? No one asked me. And they both know the situation I'm in, we're quite close. I felt like I was totally left out of the loop. My hiring manager knows I'm pregnant, and knows my plan was to leave for mat leave at the end of August, health permitting. I can't start actually working until we do our orientation courses. So now I have to sit down with both of them and our hiring manager and explain why I want to start earlier and hopefully get everyone to change their mind about start dates. Don't get me wrong, 2 months off to study sounds great in theory, but I don't learn by solely reading, I learn by doing. And I won't be able to afford the prep materials I need unless I'm working, and those things are expensive. Stressed does not begin to cover this... FML