Update: I go under general anesthesia tomorrow to have the baby removed. They will be doing tests on the baby to see if they can discover a cause. God willing, our OB says we can start trying again in June or July. Happy and healthy 9 months to you all
So I jinxed myself with my PGAL post this week. We announced to the world on Easter Sunday after getting the all clear from our OB, last night I bled for about an hour, had a really bad feeling and went into the ER where my hubby works. Her heartbeat is gone, they refer to it as "fetal demise, unknown causes". Our baby is dead, and they have no idea why basically. I stopped bleeding after about an hour. I go into OB in about 2 hours to find out whether we are going to try to remove the baby with meds or do a D&C. My body doesn't seem to want to get rid of her. We are devastated. This is my second miscarriage in 6 months, my 4th total and 5th babe that's passed. The docs and nurses said to not worry, I have 3 healthy living kiddos and that means we should be able to do it again, but that doesn't help right now. I don't know if hubby will be ready for a while. This is his first, and while he loves my kiddos like his own, he wants a baby more than anything in this world. He cried and cried and I feel so guilty for not being able to give him his child. Plus, we just announced to everyone, so how horrible is that to have to un-tell everyone????? Ugh my worst nightmare come true, feels like. I'm just numb. Back to bed for me. Have a wonderful rest of your pregnancy and I wish every single one of you the absolute most beautiful, healthy, bouncing babies!!!
Mommy of 3 little ones, 6 losses

Re: *TW* heartbroken beyond belief UPDATE *TW*
Dating: 10/3/08 | Married: 12/27/14
TTC #1: August 2015 | BFP: 2/3/16 | EDD: 10/7/16
DD: 10/5/16
TTC #2: September 2017 | BFP: 4/28/18 | EDD: 1/7/19
DS: 1/9/19
Married 7/15
BFP #2 2/18/16
I am so sorry for your loss.
BFP #1 January 28, 2016
Felicity Joy, born September 2, 2016
My Chart
BFP #2 September 11, 2020
EDD May 23, 2021
TTC #1 - Nov '14
DS born 10/18
Married April 2014
TTC since December 2015
1st BFP: February 8, 2016; MMC at 7 weeks, 3 days; Discovered at 10 weeks; D&C March 25
2nd BFP: June 20, 2016; CP June 22, 2016
3rd BFP: August 13, 2016!! Fingers crossed!!
Me: 28 DH: 27
Me: 32 & DH: 37
BFP #2: 2/8/16 - EDD 10/20/16
IT'S A BOY!!!!
DS Born 10/16/16
Baby A (via IUI due to MFI): Sep 2016 born at 35+6
LFAF Summer 2016 Awards:
BFP #1: 7/15/15, SB: 11/14/15
Rainbow baby DS born 9/29/16!!
BFP #3 3/26/18 | Due 12/3/18
TTC#2: BFP: 8-23-15 MMC: 10-29-15
DD 2: 9-15-16
DD 3: 9-16-17