Breastfeeding for me has been a hot mess since the beginning. My nipple are flat and then became dimpled. I've been using a nipple shield exclusively since day 1. I had horrible engorgement in the beginning. We were somewhat on a routine until my LO hit a growth spurt at week 5/6. All of a sudden she was hungry all the time and I knew my supply was low. I started nursing her and then giving her a bottle of formula (about 2 oz) per our pediatrician's orders. She was much happier but it was draining me. So I started to pump and give her mixed bottles. She was so happy and finally napping well and I was happy and feeling human again and felt like we were finally on a good path. A week later I was dangerously close to full blown mastitis (everything but the fever). I was on bed rest for 4 days and was back to nursing, bottle, pumping.. Taking almost 2 hours every time. I had help during that time and it was ok. Now that I don't have help I'm back to not having time to pump or eat because baby is unhappy because she isn't getting enough in a single feeding.
My mom has been supportive and told me I've tried my hardest and that sometimes it just not meant to be. My supply is crazy high now after seeing the lactation folks for my mastitis and being on a heavy nursing & pumping schedule.
i think I'm ready to wean and switch her to formula. I get upset when I think about it but I know that's what best for both of us.
Im going to call her ped and my lactation consultants for advice on how to, but would love to hear your tips and advice. And truthfully any supportive messages because I'm just a hot mess.