This is for those of us moms who are pregnant after loss. If you have not participated on the weekly thread yet introduce yourself first.
Weeks:
Next milestone/appointment?
Rant/Rave/Anything else:
Questions?
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC?
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TTC#1 July 2015
- BFP: 9/16/15 — MC: 11/8/15 Blighted Ovum
- BFP: 3/10/16 — Baby Girl born 11/20/16
TTC#2 April 2019
- BFP: 9/12/19 — EDD 5/15/20
Re: PGAL Check-In 3/21
Rant/Rave/Anything else: Going live with a huge project at work tomorrow, and my mind is absolutely not on work. I can't freaking wait for Friday. I just need reassurance that baby is still there and growing.
Questions? For STMs that had morning sickness, when did it go away? After 2 weeks of bad MS, it seems to be diminishing a little bit. It's still lurking around, though.
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? Windows, mostly because if familiarity.
Married: October 2014
Began TTC: April 2015
BFP #1: 9/18/15. EDD 5/18/16. MC 10/26/15. (9w)
BFP #2: 2/27/16. EDD 11/7/16. MC/D&E 4/20/16 (11w)
BFP #3: 9/22/16. EDD 5/29/17. DS born 4/24/17
BFP #4: 5/20/18. EDD 1/23/19.
rant/rave
All over the place!!
Saturday I felt amazing, symptoms were gone, boobs felt so goooood, with every jiggle there was no pain and I decided not to worry and to make the most of it as who knows what was going to happen next.
Sunday I was oh so tired and felt sick, boobs ached with a vengeance I almost regretted feeling so good on saturday
Today!!! Well today, ive thrown up three times (first bout of proper morning sickness weeheeexx) am tired and the ladies are hurting, i have some back ache too.
Rants/Raves/Questions:
Tmi time
I had some brown mucus when I wiped this morning, it qas just a blob no big deal but I was wondering what this could be? I had sex on saturday and we used lube (organic), and am wondering if it's old fluids? Anyone else experienced this?
Weeks: 5
Next milestone/appointment? ultrasound on April 12. My loss milestone isn't until May 1st
Rant/Rave/Anything else: even though my symptoms are few right now, I still just have a good feeling about this one. I would like some symptoms back for reassurance though.
Questions? nope
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? Mac all the way. We have a desktop/laptop/phones/iPad/and an old iPod. Also for my job macs are better.
- BFP: 3/10/16 — Baby Girl born 11/20/16
TTC#2 April 2019Next milestone/appointment? I just want to get past 4 weeks. My OBGYN told me I could come in today for a "confirmation of pregnancy" but i'm scared the test will be negative because I'm so early and my strongest lines are in the AM and my Appt is in the PM.
Rant/Rave/Anything else: Just completely anxiety ridden. Dr. Google says that faint positives can mean an ectopic pregnancy so I am even more panicked. I'm scared of missing more work and debating if I should at least tell my boss whats going on.
Questions? Is there anything you ladies do to deal with anxiety? also, is it unreasonable to ask (insist) on beta testing since I had a previous CP and am on progesterone, so if anything goes wrong I won't know.
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? PC all the way
HSG - All clear, ectopic kidney didn't affect uterus (yay!)
CT Adrenal Scan - no tumors!
SA - sperm count excellent, 2% Morphology
March/April IUI scheduled - surprise BFP w/ help of Progesterone - 3/18/2016
Beta #1 @ 11dpo - 45.7 #2 @ 14dpo - 163 #3 @ 18dpo - 997 #4 @ 21dpo - 3799
EDD 12/1 based on O, 11/28 per Ob/Gyn (but he's wrong lol).
*TEAM BLUE!*
Weeks: 5 weeks, 2 days
Next milestone/appointment? Ultrasound on 4/4 at 7 weeks, 2 days
Rant/Rave/Anything else: I've been having chills every night this week, but no fever. I'm worried this could be a sign of my thyroid acting up. I had my TSH levels tested after my loss and they were 2.466. My Dr didn't seem concerned, but I've read they want them under 2.5 during 1st trimester of pregnancy. I'm sure that they probably have gone up, so I sent an email to my Dr to get them tested.
Also I wish my symptoms would come in stronger. I've had a few hours of slight nausea after eating a lot and I've been tired here and there, but everything is coming and going still.
Questions? none right now
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? PC for computers, but I uses apple products for my phone and tablets.
Weeks: 7+6
Next milestone/appointment? Appointment with a doctor in the genetics department to test for Zika on Wednesday. I'll be getting an ultrasound as well just because that's protocol when meeting with a doctor in genetics. Not sure how I'm feeling about my first ultrasound. Excited to see the little one but scared something will be wrong.
Rant/Rave/Anything else: Got a baby shower invite from our best couple friend today. They live 6 hours from us since we moved so we won't be able to attend. They even included a sweet note saying of course they didn't expect us to come but they wanted us to feel included.
Questions? Not really.
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? While I have Apple everything I can not figure out Macs. My Husband loves Mac but I can't figure out anything on it. Technology isn't my strong strength.
Next milestone/appointment? First appointment on Thursday afternoon. Really hoping everything goes well.
Rant/Rave/Anything else: A skunk sprayed right outside our house yesterday and it woke me up in the middle of the night because the smell was so bad. DH barely smells anything (hello pregnancy nose!). I spent all day yesterday trying to air out the house but I still smell it in some places. It's awful and really not helping the nausea.
Questions? Not at the moment.
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? PC all the way.
Next milestone/appointment? -Hearing the heartbeat! Seeing my family doc tomorrow, still waiting on the OB appointment.
Rant/Rave/Anything else: I've never been this pregnant before...it feels nice to have my loss milestone behind me, but I'm still anxious to get out of the first tri and into theoretical relative safety. DH said last night he really feels like we're going to bring home twins, makes me feel good that he's optimistic!
Questions? Nope!
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? - My actual laptop is Windows, and I've only ever had Windows computers...but the only devices I use now are my iPad and iPhone so kinda both I guess? Haha
@juliehollz13 - I think most of us have some level of anxiety around here, being PGAL will do that to you! As for betas, you could ask for them but they may end up causing you more stress if they don't behave exactly right. You're so early that they're likely going to be low (FYI that's also likely why your tests are so light...retest in a week and it'll likely get darker), mine at 3w4d were only 30. I did request betas since my first pregnancy had non-doubling betas despite normal ultrasounds; and they didn't really help me much since they were done early and I only had betas done later on in my loss so I didn't trust that things would continue normally. So I mean...this isn't super helpful I guess, if you feel like betas would help you feel better, you can ask for them but proceed with caution since they may not give you what you want.
@chloe97 - are you on levothyroxine? Ideal TSH is below 2.5 during the first tri as you know and pregnancy really increases your body's demand on your thyroid. I had a total thyroidectomy almost a year ago and the moment I got a positive I was told by my endo to increase my dose of levothyroxine and we're checking my TSH every two weeks. Definitely push to get checked and get the actual number, not just an "it's fine" since some docs still go by less than 5 in pregnancy (old school, has now been shown to impair neurocognitive development). Good luck! Thyroid issues suck.
FX for you @EmmieAnn22 - I hope your ultrasound goes well! So sweet of your friends to invite you to the shower, even knowing you weren't able to go
Next milestone/appointment? April 1st
Rant/Rave/Anything else: I'm freaking the F out about my job. Today marks the beginning of only my fourth week there, and I'm feeling overwhelmed. I've been working in this industry for the past 4+ years, but I've never been an account manager, and people are coming at me right and left saying how they can't wait to dump their clients on me. I haven't had enough training yet, and I'm so uncomfortable with this situation. To top it all off, I'm going to be having client meetings over 2 hours away (without traffic, so in reality, I'm thinking like 3+ hour drives away), and I'm uncomfortable being so far from my doctors in case of another loss. This is hopefully going to be my first kid, so I'm sure I'm overreacting a bit, but I know ya'll know what loss does to your thought patterns. I've told DH that maybe I should just quit so I can take this pregnancy easy... I don't know what to do. I think I need to talk to my manager and tell her the situation, even though it's still so early and I haven't even had a scan yet...
Questions? I'm just hoping someone will tell me what to do about my job situation (see above).
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? I can use both, but I really dislike the iPhone. I need widgets. #Android4Lyfe
*internet hugs*
Weeks: 7 today
Next milestone/appointment? Ultrasound on April 6th, I'll be 9+2
Rant/Rave/Anything else: My son got better but then went downhill again so he's home with me today. I love having extra time to spend with him but I have a LOT to do today and he's very needy when he's sick.
Questions? Nah, I'm good.
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? I use both, and also Linux. My current primary computer is a Microsoft Surface Pro and I am surprised by how much I love it.
Son, K, 9 | Daughter, C, 5 | Daughter, M, expected November 7, 2016
BFP 3.8.16 EDD 11.20.16
Next milestone/appointment? I have my first appt on Wednesday. But it's just a group appt with the nurse practitioner. I cannot wait to make my first appt with the OB so I know when the ultrasound will be. Waiting is so hard.
Rant/Rave/Anything else: My symptoms have decreased significantly, and even though I know it means nothing, I wish I had more.
Questions? Nope
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? I was always a Mac person, but H is a PC guy and cares much more than I do, so I've changed.
BFP 3.8.16 EDD 11.20.16
Next milestone/appointment? Milestone isn't until 5/30... First appt. and u/s are scheduled for 4/4- 2 weeks and counting!
Rant/Rave/Anything else: I REALLY need this cold to go away. The fact it's exacerbated by my asthma doesn't help either. Every time I cough, it sounds (and feels) like I'm hacking up a lung and I feel like it cannot be good for the baby. I've had 3 doctors tell me they PROMISE it won't hurt anything though. I had a cold/cough during the pPROM in Dec. and this cough has me terrified that something else will happen. I keep trying to think that it's early enough and the baby/sac are tiny enough that they're not being affected (which is what my doctors have said)-- all easier said than believed.
Questions? None for now.
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? Mac(book pro). iDevices for everything else.
Married: September 2012
Began TTC: September 2015
BFP #1: 10/12/16, EDD: 06/23/15,
(pPROM, 16 wks + emergency D&E 12/31/15)
BFP #2: 03/09/16, EDD: 11/16/16
Next milestone/appointment? April 7 Ultrasound, still so far away!
Rant/Rave/Anything else: I may be a bit obsessed with getting HCG tested. I've had three so far (Tu, Th, and Sa last week) and I plan to get three this week as well (M, W, F). The first 2 came back good, I haven't gotten the results for Saturday yet, but I'm a little nervous I'm going to jinx it by getting so many tests done and I wont like the results. Its my PGAL brain taking over, plus I'm a facts kind of person. I need to know but on the same note its driving me a little nuts too.
Questions? nope
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? Windows for work (can't function with a mac when you need to use excel extensively). But a Mac would be col for home I think.
Next milestone/appointment? 1st appointment w/OB is April 5th. My second loss milestone is this week. I've been looking forward to getting that one over with and will be relieved once I get past 8+4.
Rant/Rave/Anything else: Still dealing with sore boobs and throwing up. Constipation was new this week and it's making me super uncomfortable. The gas pains and bloating are brutal.
Questions? Is anyone else dealing with constipation? Any suggestions or advice?
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? Mac
Next Milestone Appointment: I had my first beta & progesterone drawn today & go back Thursday for a repeat. I suspect it will be weekly visits. US will get added in the mix once by beta is >1500.
Rant/Rave/Anything else: I was told basically I'm on pelvic rest until further notice. No strenuous exercise, lifting or orgasms. I guess I'll be walking the dogs instead of Crossfit for a while. A small price to pay for a take home LO, but I really need to make sure my eating is in check.
Questions?: The nurse today told me that they leave taking progesterone (oral prometrium) supplements up to the patients, I guess because I am an RPL. Now I don't know what to do. I took them last time with no side effects, but needed them. This time if the value is >20 IDK what I am going to do. Part of me feels like I should just take it so I have nothing to point to that I didn't do to make it stick. Anyone else have this option?
GTKY: I was always a PC gal, but DH is all about the Mac. Our home computer is Mac, my work one is PC. I still don't feel super savvy with the Mac, but I try!
Me: 39 DH: 40
Married: 12/6/2014
BFP#2: 10/28/15 MC: 11/24/15
BFP#3: 3/20/16 MC: 4/26/16
BFP#4: 7/15/16 DD: 3/18/17
BFP#5: 5/1/18 EDD: 1/12/19
4w5d
Next milestone/appointment?
Appt next Wednesday. Milestone, I guess around 8 weeks because that's when I saw baby's heart had stopped
Rant/Rave/Anything else:
Still very calm! I did EMDR with my therapist after my MC to help with the anxiety I knew I'd feel when I got pregnant again and it seems to have worked very well! I'm so happy to not be the basket case I thought I would be (and so is DH!)
Questions?
None today
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC?
Windows! I've been using a PC since I was 2 years old. I don't mind Mac, but I'm so much better on a PC
@m6agua I'm looking forward to getting symptoms too. It'll be a nice reassurance to actually feel pregnant.
@juliehollz13 I would highly recommend EMDR if there's someone who does it in your area. It's been a huge help for me in the past with anxiety related to PTSD and has put me in a really good mind state with this pregnancy
break is over, back to work. More responses later! I'm so happy to be here!!!
Married 9/27/14
TTC #1 since 8/15/15
BFP: 1/2/16, EDD 9/13/16 - MMC 2/10/16
BFP: 3/17, EDD 11/23/16
November 2016 April Siggy Challenge - April Showers
Next milestone/appointment: Friday is my loss milestone, and then I have another ultrasound on 3/31. Hopefully we'll see a happy little heartbeat and everything will be swell.
Rant/Rave/Anything else: I'm starting to get excited about this pregnancy. I can't help myself, so I'm giving in to it. I figure I might as well be happy now, since there's nothing concrete to suggest it won't be okay.
That being said, I'm throwing a baby shower for my best friend in June and in the back of my mind I'm still afraid that if I have a loss I'll ruin her joy. She's a FTM and she started TTC at the same as I did for this little one. She got pregnant right away and she was so supportive as I waited for my BFP.
Questions?: not really
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? Just switched from my Mac to a Lenovo because my Mac got really shitty and slow and the track pad stopped working. My husband is a PC guy because they're way better for all his work software so I thought it would be easier for us to have the same stuff. My only complaint is that I really miss the easy volume control buttons on my Mac. I know that seems like a little thing but it's really been bugging me. I do have an iPhone & iPad also though.
@kns1988 m/s is different for every pregnancy, so no way to know unfortunately. With my daughter I had intermittent nausea for the first tri and then it got worse at 12 weeks, right when it's *supposed* to get better. Fx that doesn't happen this time around...
@juliehollz13 light normal when it's so early, they don't mean ectopic necessarily. I didn't get a dark positive until the middle of week 4. Dr Google is a worry factory. I hope your appointment goes well!
@chloe97 I hope you get super nauseous (and I mean that in the nicest way possible). I always feel better when I'm super symptomatic too. I'll take vomiting over worrying any day.
Also yes light HPT is totally normal prior to week 4, but the test they do at the Dr apt should be able to detect even small amounts of HCG and confirm your pregnancy even if its early.
BFP 3.8.16 EDD 11.20.16
@comealongponds- Thanks for your suggestions. I definitely will try a few and see if they help.
@EmmieAnn22- Thanks! I do eat a lot of veggies, but maybe I'll add even more into my diet.
I've never dealt with constipation before, I'm usually quite regular. This has been so frustrating!
UPDATE: Got my 1st beta back and it's 45.7 @ 11dpo!
HSG - All clear, ectopic kidney didn't affect uterus (yay!)
CT Adrenal Scan - no tumors!
SA - sperm count excellent, 2% Morphology
March/April IUI scheduled - surprise BFP w/ help of Progesterone - 3/18/2016
Beta #1 @ 11dpo - 45.7 #2 @ 14dpo - 163 #3 @ 18dpo - 997 #4 @ 21dpo - 3799
EDD 12/1 based on O, 11/28 per Ob/Gyn (but he's wrong lol).
*TEAM BLUE!*
Now the agonizing wait until Thursday to see if it is doubling appropriately.
Me: 39 DH: 40
Married: 12/6/2014
BFP#2: 10/28/15 MC: 11/24/15
BFP#3: 3/20/16 MC: 4/26/16
BFP#4: 7/15/16 DD: 3/18/17
BFP#5: 5/1/18 EDD: 1/12/19
Next milestone/appointment? Second ultrasound a week from tomorrow!
Rant/Rave/Anything else: I know my RE is just being cautious, but I'm still on progesterone suppositories and I only had my progesterone checked at 14dpiui. So I've been on it for 3 1/2 weeks (will be 4 1/2 weeks by my next appointment) with no follow up bloodwork.
Questions? Those of you on progesterone suppositories, are you having your levels checked regularly?
GTKY: Mac or Windows/PC? Windows computer but iPhone forever!!
Awesome Kid #2: Due November 2016!
Also as a PSA- Wondfos don't get the 2nd line right away even when your HCG levels are in the 1000s. That's freaked me out every time. They eventually darken up, but no initial line like the FRERs and other tests.
milestone/appt: our loss milestone won't be until the end of May, but at this point I'm dreading our due date in June more. 1st appt is April 5th.
rant/rave/anything else: I'm not having a lot of symptoms either. Just very fatigued, sore boobs every now and then, and the slightest nausea occasionally. Oh and crazy dreams! It makes me nervous not to feel more pregnant. Anybody else get really cold for no reason? It happens every evening.
mac or Windows/PC? PC all the way! And Android
Speaking of Android i don't think i can tag people on my tablet but wanted to reply some of you.
I've had good luck with Citrucel for constipation, it's not as gassy as Metimucil (tmi lol)
To those who got good news on test results, yay!!!
@missameliapond like others have said, I'd talk to your manager. If you are seriously considering leaving, they'd probably appreciate the chance to fix things. And hopefully they can make it better so you feel comfortable staying. I'm sorry that it's an added stress to an already stressful time. :-/
TTC 6/15 - Positive Test 7/30/15 - MC 8/4/15
Positive 10/1/15 - MC 12/28/15
Positive 3/3/16 - EDD 11/11/16
TTC 6/15 - Positive Test 7/30/15 - MC 8/4/15
Positive 10/1/15 - MC 12/28/15
Positive 3/3/16 - EDD 11/11/16
@chloe97 I wish I'd had time to take a break today, but it was kind of crazy busy.
@Randerson42 Thanks, yeah I think I'm going to try to talk to her more tomorrow. Hopefully she's in the office tomorrow.
@juliehollz13 Ah, I wouldn't track the darkness of the HPTs. I took my first tests with 3rdMU (13dpo) and got pretty dark lines, and tested again the next morning with FMU thinking I would get blazing dark lines, and they were a tick lighter than the 13dpo tests. My betas were 361 at 13dpo and 1935 at 17dpo, so please don't depend on the darkness of the tests to tell you "how pregnant" you are. The only time to worry is if you go from positive back to completely negative. I also recommend not charting your temp etc anymore (if you're still doing that) it will only make you over-analyze everything and just generally stress you out every day.
Update---I got my TSH levels back and they are 3.4. The Dr is starting me on Synthroid today. If you haven't had your TSH levels checked, I'd do that soon.
@missameliapond Yay due date twin! I also had some sort of weird acne situation around my mouth of all places. I thought it was a cold sore at first, but this is a huge whitehead zit taking up my upper lip. It's so gross. I want to pop it so bad.
Well ladies, this is the end of the line for me. Ultrasound did not go well today. I was supposed to be 7+2, and the sac and yolk sac were measuring at 6 weeks. They saw a possible fetal pole, but nothing else. I'm now just waiting to start bleeding, and trying to decide what to do depending on how long that takes. H and I are devastated and defeated and generally feeling hopeless about our chances to be parents. Of course, my MIL is here for the next two weeks and has already said some unintentional but still insensitive things.
I appreciate all the kind words and support I got here during my short time on the board, and I wish you all H&H 9 months. I hope no one else on this board has to go through this again.
- BFP: 3/10/16 — Baby Girl born 11/20/16
TTC#2 April 2019Married 9/27/14
TTC #1 since 8/15/15
BFP: 1/2/16, EDD 9/13/16 - MMC 2/10/16
BFP: 3/17, EDD 11/23/16
November 2016 April Siggy Challenge - April Showers