Did not see one created so I created one. If one is already out there for this week and I missed it, let me know and I'll try to change this to something silly or something.
Edit: Just realized I did not type anything lol Chalk it up to pregnancy brain!
I'm really worried about going off the progesterone. I know it sounds silly. I know that if I were going to MC it would happen regardless of if I was on progesterone. I just have this mental crutch thing that says that is what is holding the baby in. Know what I mean? So it scares me to go off of it. I'm supposed to go off of it at the end of the first trimester. I think I'm going to finish out my entire prescription first though even if it is after that time. I have read online in multiple places that it does not hurt anything to keep taking it. I'm thinking I'll do it for my piece of mind.
I keep worrying what if I go in for my NT scan in a couple of weeks and the baby has no heartbeat. I am terrified of that. My belly does not seem to be getting a bump or anything. According to The Bump pregnancy week by week, I should have the start of one by now. But I don't. Then again I'm kind of on the fat side anyway. All my fat accumulates around my belly. My belly button has gotten a lot more shallow though so maybe I am on my way to getting a bump and having that eventual outtie. Who knows. I just think that if something happens and I lose this one too, I' will lose my mind. I don't think I could take that kind of pain again. In a weird way I'm more excited about this one than I was the last one. It's kind of weird. I can't explain it. Some days I have symptoms and others I don't. Right now every morning it is waking up with super super super sore boobs lol
First Pregnancy- BFP: 01/25/2015
- EDD: 09/28/2015
- Incomplete MC: 02/28/2015
Second Pregnancy
- BFP: 09/11/2015
- EDD: 05/25/2016
Baby Born04/15/2016
PGAL
Re: PGAL Check-in 11/02/2015 - 11/07/2015
I've had a really rough week. I am crying at any mention of babies and all the cute Halloween costumes didn't help. I was so excited for DD to be a little lady bug or butterfly that that's all I could think about all day Saturday. Luckily we were out of town so I didn't have to see all the trick-or-treaters, but it was still really hard this year.
I've been thinking I need to start seeing a therapist because I don't know if I can take the emotions of such a recent loss and pregnancy all together anymore. Everyone tells me, "You are so strong. I don't know how you do it!?" Well, I don't know either. I guess I'm still numb to everything.
On the bright side, my 12 week checkup is tomorrow and I'm just looking forward to hearing that little heart flutter! I've had two early ultrasounds and everything looks great!
I also keep feeling guilty because my original due date is quickly approaching. It still makes me sad to think that I would have been 8 months pregnant and to think of that occasion. But I don't want to take anything away from this baby and how happy I am to be pregnant now and how grateful I am for this LO.