Thank you ladies. I've been busy with Lamaze and work, so I wasn't able to respond until now. I thank you all for you comments. @groovylocks, thank you for sharing your story. You did read a lot into my story and you are correct. There are more layers to this, both good and bad. When my husband and I were good we were amazing. We had so many good, loving, and happy moments. But when he started to pull this he also turned verbally abusive and mean. Deep down I knew what he was doing, for God's sake I have advised some of my patients not to put up with men like this, I actually helped one of my patients get into a Domestic Violence Safehouse yesterday at work. While my husbands verbal abuse was thankfully not even a quarter as bad as what my poor patient was going through, it was still abuse and I wanna kick myself for putting up with it when it started a couple of months ago. It should have made me at least suspect that he was cheating. He became so distant and self involved. All the signs were there, but I was in such a happy, pregnant, "we're starting a family together" bliss that I put up with shit I didn't deserve. Plus the good times even then were so good that I kept rationalizing his mistreatment. It's so hard to notice it and act rational when you are in it and in love and so happy because of baby. And I do realize now that I need to work on my self esteem, this has hurt it deeply. And for everyone else, I am trying to keep a positive attitude about the future. I am scared about the possibility of a negative outlook, even before less positive comments were added to this thread. But I know (especially on a good day) that it's not rational to think of them as the only possibility, and it is especially helpful when others like @loveymay share their stories of other children of divorcees that grow up to have happy love filled lives. Thank you.
You're welcome and listen, you probably know this yourself, it is SO much easier to rationalize the best course of action when it's not you living it. I know Also, pregnancy, at least in my case, has put this "this is fine. Everything is fine. Nothing bothers me" coating over my reactions to everything. It's not me INSISTING that fires are not burning. It's literally like a drug. I see signs that certain things could use a spit-shine and i just smile and glaze over them. This is one of the dear few pregnancy side effects i'd like to keep post-partum.
You don't need to explain yourself at all but feel free to say whatever you need to, know what i mean?
Re: My husband cheated on me, I'm a blur
You don't need to explain yourself at all but feel free to say whatever you need to, know what i mean?