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October 2015 Moms
kaseyhunter85
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Anybody else on this crazy train?
kaseyhunter85
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*Disclaimer: Not trying to upset or offend anyone that has gone through something tragic or make light of mental illness just trying to get the thoughts in the open and hopefully out of my head and I tend to deal w/most things through humor so while the subject matter is serious I try to see the comedy in having these messed up thoughts to get past them.
I consider myself a fairly sane but tend to get morbid thoughts in my head randomly and particularly surrounding big life events
Example: The day I drove back home for our wedding I was terrified of getting in an accident and thinking of how tragic the headline would be "bride to be dies on her way to wedding" and the pictures of my car mangled and all my last minute decorations/dress strung out on the road....
I've had various bouts of similar thoughts throughout my pregnancy. Tonight my husband is going to Thursday Night Football Chiefs vs. Broncos. I am so excited for him to go and know that he needs to go have fun. But...I can't get these thoughts out of my head about something happening to him and again picturing the headlines of "Expectant father dies tragically at football game" etc...
I've also done this after leaving a drive thru with food and thinking of how sad that would look to have french fries scattered everywhere (guilt maybe?)
Why do I do this to myself...please tell me other people picture morbid news headlines too?
Re: Anybody else on this crazy train?
Someone did warn me that if they become more vivid or lead to anything similar to panic attacks or if I can't get them out of my head to talk to someone about it. The same hormones that cause post pardum depression can also cause past pardum anxiety. And those things actually can start late in pregnancy, not just after you have the baby. If it starts preventing you from living your daily lives or going about normal actvities, make sure you let someone know.
Fast forward a couple years and I do this every time I am anxious about anything. HS graduation, college graduation, first day at a new job, wedding, all through my first pregnancy, heading to the hospital to have my first son... I have it daily when I get in the car to take DS to school. And I really think this is why I am so anxious to get LO born. I have daily anxiety sessions where I may have just finished a kick count but swear that the baby has died because I can't feel his movements. I know that it is just my subconscious playing games and that everything will be just fine. I've spoken to both my PCP and OB regarding my thoughts, and since they don't overpower the rational part of my brain, we just keep an eye on them. I'm high risk enough that I don't need to add an anxiety medicine in the mix, too.
Definitely let your physician know that you have this anxiety, as only they can determine if treatment is needed. And, of course, make sure you talk it out! If you ever need someone to just bounce your irrational fears off of, let me know.
Definitely keep an eye on yourself PP, and do NOT be afraid to ask for help. I had PPD and anxiety really bad, and they were able to give me a med compatible with BF.
Noticed your reference to the football game, do you live in the Kansas City area? I do, live in Liberty, work in KC.
Ridiculous!!!
On a different note, DH knows a guy from college who was actually killed in a car accident a couple of hours before his wedding. People showed up to the church ready for the wedding and were greeted with the terrible news. I didn't even know the couple and I cried for days for them.