I was so exhausted the other day I jumped up in the middle of the night and DS wasn't n his bassinet. I immediately start to panic. I look behind me and there he was in my bed 8-} I didn't even remember moving him.
I can't read or help the random "help me my baby is crying" posts because it's hard to explain soothing techniques past reading Happiest Baby on the Block and also I just get really sad thinking about screaming upset infants.
My house is a mess ..... and it makes me depressed. No lie. I also dont want to admit to DH that it was a bad idea to get white tufted couches last year. And the fancy white/black/gray turkish rugs.
I can't read or help the random "help me my baby is crying" posts because it's hard to explain soothing techniques past reading Happiest Baby on the Block and also I just get really sad thinking about screaming upset infants.
Yesterday broke my heart when I was doing everything I could to soothe LO and I saw her first actual tear come out of her eye. I lost it. Thats when I finally had striped her down and took my shirt off and just held her tight until she stopped and passed out on my chest. Her sweet sleeping breathing made me so happy for her.
We do the cash envelope system and I took money out of the gas envelope to buy Starbucks yesterday even though we have regular coffee at home. I got a Venti iced white mocha with raspberry. Go big or go home right?
DH worked really late last night and I was stressed. So I lied to DS1. At 7:30 I told him it was bedtime (8:00) so I could get a break. As soon as he was out I sat on the couch and just vegged out for an hour.
DS ran around the amusement park yesterday yelling "I can ride the roller coaster cause I'm 3!!" Really really excited. Confession #1 - he's not 3. He's 2. I taught my 2 year old to lie to get on a ride. Confession #2 - I taught DD the same lie when she was 2.... Confession #3 - I taught DD to stand on her toes when getting measured to get on rides.
DS2 is still sick with diarrhea/throwing up. I believe LO has it & she threw up all down my chest at 5 this morning. It even managed to get underneath my boobs :-? I still haven't showered because I've been to busy cleaning throw up/poop messes & disinfecting everything :-& Will be taking them both to the doctors today as this sickness is just out of control. Some t&p's would be appreciated for both of my LO'S.
Just about three weeks out and gonna let my husband feed LO a bottle this evening. Even though I'll have to pump to supplement the feeding my boobs need a break from the sucking! :-S
Also, I dread nighttime! The waking and cluster feeding....I can't.
Today was DS's first day of preschool. I thought it started at 9:30 but it started at 9:15. I bawled my eyes out because we were late. I am never late. We were ready at 8:55 and spent 20 min killing time this morning. I blamed DH because he went to the orientation meeting and didn't tell me anything about the school when he got home.
We got a house showing request for today and tomorrow. I wanted to decline then but them DH would be mad at me so I agreed. Now I get to be the one who is mad and crabby. We haven't had a showing in 35 days and I have asked him 20x to take it off the market.
TTC#1 for 19 months with PCOS and MFI IUI#3 + injectables = BFP!!!! Beta#1-134(13dpiui) Beta #2-392(15dpiui) #1 born December 2011
TTC#2 - Beta #1 -51@10dpo Beta#2 -1353 @16dpo #2 born May 2013
TTC # 3 June 2014 BFP 12-1-14
#3 born August 2015 #4!!!!!!! due June 2017
DS2 is still sick with diarrhea/throwing up. I believe LO has it & she threw up all down my chest at 5 this morning. It even managed to get underneath my boobs :-? I still haven't showered because I've been to busy cleaning throw up/poop messes & disinfecting everything :-& Will be taking them both to the doctors today as this sickness is just out of control. Some t&p's would be appreciated for both of my LO'S.
Praying for both your littles...hope the dr can figure something out for them.
@SashaDenn25 I hope you didn't think I meant you! If I could do anything more for you I would (creepy internet hugs)! Babies are so tough! I meant that random people who I don't know on the bump that ask for random advice. You're doing amazing and I hope I didn't make you feel bad for asking for support. I've had many many days of being completely worn out mentally by my tiny person that I love dearly. Hang in there!! It will pass I promise. Keep doing skin to skin and watch a chick flick or have a Netflix marathon of something distracting that you love until it passes!
@SashaDenn25 I hope you didn't think I meant you! If I could do anything more for you I would (creepy internet hugs)! Babies are so tough! I meant that random people who I don't know on the bump that ask for random advice. You're doing amazing and I hope I didn't make you feel bad for asking for support. I've had many many days of being completely worn out mentally by my tiny person that I love dearly. Hang in there!! It will pass I promise. Keep doing skin to skin and watch a chick flick or have a Netflix marathon of something distracting that you love until it passes!
No no no! I didnt think that at all. You were really supportive yesterday when I was asking about her sleeping! Im sorry you thought that was what I meant by that at all!! We did skin to skin again today!! Working like a charm for LO to remain calm! Thank goodness, her poor little tears make me so sad!
Edited to say that I think this momma has needed the skin to skin just as much as her. Something about falling asleep together on the couch like this is so comforting for me as well.
We are on a really tight budget. I fully intend to put a new shirt on the credit card today for family photos this weekend. These photos will be treasured and I want to look/feel good. I'm just going to have to work it in the budget somehow.
A couple days ago was the first time I've washed my bra since I had Evelyn and she will be two months old tomorrow. I only got around to buying one nursing bra so I wear it 24/7. It was covered in milk and nipple cream and sweat, soooo gross.
I have another one, completely not baby or kid related.
I've had the same two best friends for 15+ years. The three of us have been through it all. Well about 6 months ago, one of them decided to stop talking to me and the other one. The reasons were completely separate but the timing of it coincided. There was a lot of drama and she just decided she needed a break. So even though it really wasn't, it seemed like a very "us vs her" thing for me and the other BFF.
Now while I think her not talking to us and holding a grudge for so damn long is completely ridiculous, I wasn't going to let such a long friendship just end over something so small. So this week me and her had dinner and talked about everything and while it will take a while to get back to where we used to be, we're both working on it.
The confession is that I haven't told the other BFF yet and I kind of don't want to. Mostly because their "fight" was a little more serious and part of me doesn't think they'll ever work it out.
While riding in the car after a toddler meltdown and an infant scream fest in the grocery store....I heard some Drake (I love his twerk music), turned it up a bit and had a dance fest in my car. I'm sure people where looking at me like "What is she doing?" and I don't care. Shit.....I'm feeling more like myself today
MIL offered to quit her job and stay home with DS for $200 a week. I found a daycare that has an opening and will only cost $175. I am THRILLED that daycare is cheaper than "grandma care". Yup, I'd rather pay a stranger to watch my baby then her. Added bonus of state mandated everything (I live in MA and they control everything possible) so I know he's in a clean safe home and will be eating healthy when that time comes!
Edited to add - @CaliforniaDream87 Drake always invokes a dance fest in my car! And Sean Paul....
I thoroughly enjoy getting to use DD as an excuse to screen phone calls and as an out for any social events that I don't want to attend. 3 weeks old and I'm already blaming things on her.
I just left the house by myself with the babe for the first time today... And she's 5 weeks old. Sad, I know. I was having serious anxiety about it but we totally kicked ass (thanks to her sleeping a ton today).
The second we got home she started fussing. I ate a brownie before I took her out of her carseat. My rationale was that she was awake so she was safe in there for an extra minute. Really, I just wanted that brownie bad.
I have another one. I told DS tonight that his mashed potatoes were cupcake icing and he ate all of them and said "hmmmm delicious mom". Bahahaha. I am seriously winning at this parenting thing.
TTC#1 for 19 months with PCOS and MFI IUI#3 + injectables = BFP!!!! Beta#1-134(13dpiui) Beta #2-392(15dpiui) #1 born December 2011
TTC#2 - Beta #1 -51@10dpo Beta#2 -1353 @16dpo #2 born May 2013
TTC # 3 June 2014 BFP 12-1-14
#3 born August 2015 #4!!!!!!! due June 2017
I have another one. I told DS tonight that his mashed potatoes were cupcake icing and he ate all of them and said "hmmmm delicious mom". Bahahaha. I am seriously winning at this parenting thing.
The dog has been driving me crazy getting too close to the baby and running around... so I put him outside. When DH got home and asked how long he had been out I said 30 minutes. It was really two hours. I knew he'd be annoyed at that because it's a bit warm outside (he had water though... And shade!).
My confession: I had this gut feeling that I'm being cheated on. It's happened in the past before DH so whenever I get that feeling, paranoia takes over me. I went through DHs phone and wallet. Found out he got a speeding ticket on 8/6, that he didn't tell me about. Then also found him texting a girl who he saved under the name Glen. Nothing inappropriate but why hide it? Yep. Shits about to get real.
Do I feel bad for letting paranoia get the better f me? Yes, but my fear of abandonment and that gut feeling never let me down in the past. We will see.
Re: **FFFC**
"I only like to let out poop explosions when mommy takes my diaper off. Then I stick my hands in it."
FFFC - every day I drive past a Drummond St and think of @drummondst . Too much time on the bump??
Confession #1 - he's not 3. He's 2. I taught my 2 year old to lie to get on a ride.
Confession #2 - I taught DD the same lie when she was 2....
Confession #3 - I taught DD to stand on her toes when getting measured to get on rides.
Mom of the year, right??
Also, I dread nighttime! The waking and cluster feeding....I can't.
We got a house showing request for today and tomorrow. I wanted to decline then but them DH would be mad at me so I agreed. Now I get to be the one who is mad and crabby. We haven't had a showing in 35 days and I have asked him 20x to take it off the market.
TTC#1 for 19 months with PCOS and MFI IUI#3 + injectables = BFP!!!! Beta#1-134(13dpiui) Beta #2-392(15dpiui)
#1 born December 2011
TTC#2 - Beta #1 -51@10dpo Beta#2 -1353 @16dpo
#2 born May 2013
TTC # 3 June 2014 BFP 12-1-14
#3 born August 2015
#4!!!!!!! due June 2017
Edited to say that I think this momma has needed the skin to skin just as much as her. Something about falling asleep together on the couch like this is so comforting for me as well.
I've had the same two best friends for 15+ years. The three of us have been through it all. Well about 6 months ago, one of them decided to stop talking to me and the other one. The reasons were completely separate but the timing of it coincided. There was a lot of drama and she just decided she needed a break. So even though it really wasn't, it seemed like a very "us vs her" thing for me and the other BFF.
Now while I think her not talking to us and holding a grudge for so damn long is completely ridiculous, I wasn't going to let such a long friendship just end over something so small. So this week me and her had dinner and talked about everything and while it will take a while to get back to where we used to be, we're both working on it.
The confession is that I haven't told the other BFF yet and I kind of don't want to. Mostly because their "fight" was a little more serious and part of me doesn't think they'll ever work it out.
Edited to add - @CaliforniaDream87 Drake always invokes a dance fest in my car! And Sean Paul....
I just can't help it.
The second we got home she started fussing. I ate a brownie before I took her out of her carseat. My rationale was that she was awake so she was safe in there for an extra minute. Really, I just wanted that brownie bad.
TTC#1 for 19 months with PCOS and MFI IUI#3 + injectables = BFP!!!! Beta#1-134(13dpiui) Beta #2-392(15dpiui)
#1 born December 2011
TTC#2 - Beta #1 -51@10dpo Beta#2 -1353 @16dpo
#2 born May 2013
TTC # 3 June 2014 BFP 12-1-14
#3 born August 2015
#4!!!!!!! due June 2017
Then also found him texting a girl who he saved under the name Glen. Nothing inappropriate but why hide it? Yep. Shits about to get real.
Do I feel bad for letting paranoia get the better f me? Yes, but my fear of abandonment and that gut feeling never let me down in the past. We will see.