I've been exploring this site for a long time. I always thought that not getting pregnant would never happen to me. I am surrounded by kids. I love them and want one as my own. I always told myself that I would have a baby once I got settled. I was settled in life and 25. No baby. I have been irregular since middle school. Everyone always told me it was phase and that I would grow out of it. I've had numerous tests done and all my levels are normal. I have been convincing myself for the past couple years that I don't really want children because I wouldnt be able to do half the things that I do now. But as I reach 30 in a few months I realize that all the adventures I go on I am usually with one of my friends who has children. And here I am still without child. I have been TTC for several years. I just never wanted to admit that something was seriously wrong. I am falling apart because I think that being 30 is old! I know its not but I see all these other people with babies in their early to mid 20s and if I have a baby than all their kids will be way older than mine!
sorry for the vent.. Im just having a really rough time coming to terms with the fact that I may never have children!
Re: Finally willing to admit defeat!
SA for DH pending.
DS: 9/18/12 - 40w5d // DD: 05/17/16 - 40w
TTC #2 again: July 2017
2010: Infertility
October 2015: missed miscarriage #2 at 11 weeks (trisomy 22)