Im absolutely freaking out about having this c section! It's not the fact that I having a operation per say as I have had many over the years! It's the fact that I will be awake and knowing that behind the sheet is my blood and guts hanging outside my body!!!! I'm also worried about having an epidural put in while I'm awake....I don't trust myself to stay still! I'm also concerned about my stress levels causing harm and stress to the baby! Any advice?