@Everycol0r, you're totally right. I should've followed up on it. And I did say that I didn't have another one done, in my OP. What do you mean re; my follicles? I did an ultrasound in between seeing these two doctors because the regular Endo ordered one. So, the RE told me I had that many follicles. Can she not see that from looking at the Ultrasound?
Or were you being funny? lol I'm so bad at reading between the lines.
Also, I didn't schedule an appointment on a Saturday morning. I said it was my plan to. And oh, then I will just go back to the RE. Thanks for that tip
I've gotten good advice here and a few swift kicks in my ass. Thank you everyone, seriously. I just needed advice and support. I got that.
With no fertility meds about 5 follicles mature each month.
I can't believe how much you're dealing with @BabyIntegers - amenorrhea, ovarian cysts, colitis, ms, ADHD and a potential pituitary tumour - with TTC on top of all that. Wow
1. Yea, I don't know either. My Mom made that decision with the doctors when I was that age.
2. Yes, I'm new to temping. I don't have any confirmation of an annovulatory cycle. That's the reason I started temping this past cycle was so that I can see if I am during my really long cycles (40-46 days).
3. Last year between May and July, during the 11th month of missing menses, RE ran Testosterone Total, AMH, and Progesterone. Regular Endo ran Free Testosterone, 17 Hydroxyprogesterone, Prolactin, LH, FSH, Estradiol, DHEA Sulfate, T3 Uptake and FTI (family history of thyroid disease--grandma and all 3 of my aunts), Comprehensive Metabolic Panel, TSH and Macroprolactin. The diagnosis from the Endo was Amenorrhea. She didn't know why I wasn't having menses. The RE didn't diagnose anything because my menses returned after blood tests showed I had just Ovulated. I had never seen either one of them before last year.
4. RE didn't mention anything about uterine lining.
When the regular Endo saw that my Prolactin levels were high and that my breast was lactating, she advised me to get an MRI. I paid $450 in cash at an offsite MRI place because it would've been a big chunk of money with coinsurance to do it at Cedars Sinai, which is where both of those doctors were located.
The report reads there is something there on my pituitary gland. The Endo first started discussing which medications I could take to shrink it and surgical options. It was scary, but then literally a week later, she emails to tell me that she had some colleague of hers take a look at my MRI and he felt that the images were grainy and said he did not feel there was a tumor at this time. She then referred me to the specialist RE because she did not know why I was not having menses.
I have not had Prolactin checked or a followup MRI since. Maybe I should?
Here was the MRI Report:
Exam Date: 06/11/2014
EXAM TYPE: MRI of the Pituitary Without and With Contrast
CLINICAL INDICATION: Evaluate for pituitary tumor.
TECHNIQUE: Multiplanar, multisequence MRI examination of the pituitary was
performed without and with IV contrast utilizing a pituitary protocol.
FINDINGS: There is a subtle focal area of hypo-enhancement involving the posterior
aspect of the pituitary gland measuring 2 mm which may represent a pituitary
microadenoma. Clinical correlation is recommended. Followup MRI imaging of the
pituitary performed without and with IV contrast in six months is recommended for
reassessment.
There are no suprasellar masses identified. The optic chiasm is unremarkable. The
pituitary stalk is midline. There is no involvement of the cavernous sinuses.
The craniocervical junction is unremarkable with no tonsillar ectopia.
There is no intracranial hemorrhage identified. There is no midline shift. The ventricles
are of normal size with no hydrocephalus.
There is a mucous retention cyst in the left maxillary sinus.
@BabyIntegers - With this much detail still here, and all the thoughtful responses and questions you got so far, it makes it extra confusing that you deleted your post. Whether or not you like any of the advice you've received, this thread is now super confusing to read without the OP.
TTC #1 --- BFP #1 5/15, loss at 5 weeks --- BFP #2 12/15, loss at 4+3 --- RE testing 3/16 normal, still trying for our rainbow
@BabyIntegers Please do get another MRI if you haven't. Especially if you have MS. It is a scary diagnosis for sure, but you have to get scans to monitor for any progression of the disease to treat it proactively. An endo cannot say for sure that it isn't a tumor without a new scan for comparison. I do Radiology for a living. Trust me. You need to get another MRI regardless of what another person says. The peace of mind it can give you is well worth the cost of the MRI. Good luck!
I deleted because I became emotional after Lady Millil's response. I shared with someone in private message (RiverSong15) that I am also ADHD and didn't tell that to anyone else. So when she posted that, I was very upset.
Also I was upset that LadyMillil said what she said in general. I don't feel it was genuine and felt hurt by that. I didn't ask to have health issues and it sucks. I do the best I can. I lead a very happy life and I'm happily married. We want to grow our family. If you want, I can put the OP back to what it was before?
Other than that, I am grateful for the advice, care and concern I received on this thread. That hasn't changed.
And I don't know who Izzy is. Are you talking about the woman who commented on my intro when I first joined?
I deleted because I became emotional after Lady Millil's response. I shared with someone in private message (RiverSong15) that I am also ADHD and didn't tell that to anyone else. So when she posted that, I was very upset.
Also I was upset that LadyMillil said what she said in general. I don't feel it was genuine and felt hurt by that. I didn't ask to have health issues and it sucks. I do the best I can. I lead a very happy life and I'm happily married. We want to grow our family. If you want, I can put the OP back to what it was before?
Other than that, I am grateful for the advice, care and concern I received on this thread. That hasn't changed.
And I don't know who Izzy is. Are you talking about the woman who commented on my intro when I first joined?
Look, lots of people have health issues. Not one person is saying you asked for them or you deserved them. But when you put it all out there, you can't dictate how others respond or how you are perceived. It just seems very fantastical that you have all these issues and yet are still TTC. Not saying you can't, it's your own life, but I'm going to take a shot in the dark here and guess that 98% of every member on TTGP has some sort of issue. I myself have a few issues I've eluded to a few instances. I don't know if it's your intent, but every issue you have is on the extreme side. Endometriosis, ADHD, Colitis, Multiple Sclerosis, Pituatary Tumor, Amenhorrea, Cysts... The list goes on, I can't remember everything & nor is it really my business what is all going on with you.
You say you work in the medical field, a CNA was it? Your intro said you research everything, so why do give us MRI reports & medical diagnosis? I know you're an intelligent person, so you know none of us can answer. Why do you not ask your nurse or doctor colleagues? Would you tell a patient to ask an online community about a report from a year ago? Where you ignore medical advice and did not have a repeat MRI? Regardless of one doctor, the radiologist's advice should have been heeded. You work in this field! You should know these things!
If you want attention & sympathy, I can't speak for anyone but myself, but I can only offer so much before my hands are tied.
And just to answer any preemptive questions, there's no set list of what you can or can't ask.
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I deleted because I became emotional after Lady Millil's response. I shared with someone in private message (RiverSong15) that I am also ADHD and didn't tell that to anyone else. So when she posted that, I was very upset.
Also I was upset that LadyMillil said what she said in general. I don't feel it was genuine and felt hurt by that. I didn't ask to have health issues and it sucks. I do the best I can. I lead a very happy life and I'm happily married. We want to grow our family. If you want, I can put the OP back to what it was before?
Other than that, I am grateful for the advice, care and concern I received on this thread. That hasn't changed.
And I don't know who Izzy is. Are you talking about the woman who commented on my intro when I first joined?
Look, lots of people have health issues. Not one person is saying you asked for them or you deserved them. But when you put it all out there, you can't dictate how others respond or how you are perceived. It just seems very fantastical that you have all these issues and yet are still TTC. Not saying you can't, it's your own life, but I'm going to take a shot in the dark here and guess that 98% of every member on TTGP has some sort of issue. I myself have a few issues I've eluded to a few instances. I don't know if it's your intent, but every issue you have is on the extreme side. Endometriosis, ADHD, Colitis, Multiple Sclerosis, Pituatary Tumor, Amenhorrea, Cysts... The list goes on, I can't remember everything & nor is it really my business what is all going on with you.
You say you work in the medical field, a CNA was it? Your intro said you research everything, so why do give us MRI reports & medical diagnosis? I know you're an intelligent person, so you know none of us can answer. Why do you not ask your nurse or doctor colleagues? Would you tell a patient to ask an online community about a report from a year ago? Where you ignore medical advice and did not have a repeat MRI? Regardless of one doctor, the radiologist's advice should have been heeded. You work in this field! You should know these things!
If you want attention & sympathy, I can't speak for anyone but myself, but I can only offer so much before my hands are tied.
And just to answer any preemptive questions, there's no set list of what you can or can't ask.
I deleted because I became emotional after Lady Millil's response. I shared with someone in private message (RiverSong15) that I am also ADHD and didn't tell that to anyone else. So when she posted that, I was very upset.
Also I was upset that LadyMillil said what she said in general. I don't feel it was genuine and felt hurt by that. I didn't ask to have health issues and it sucks. I do the best I can. I lead a very happy life and I'm happily married. We want to grow our family. If you want, I can put the OP back to what it was before?
Other than that, I am grateful for the advice, care and concern I received on this thread. That hasn't changed.
And I don't know who Izzy is. Are you talking about the woman who commented on my intro when I first joined?
Why are you still here? I thought you GBCBed.
Here's the thing, this may not be the board for you. You don't seem to fit in, and you don't seem to be winning a lot of friends around here. I know you have a lot of issues and I sympathize to an extent but at the same time I can't help but notice a pattern. They all start with you sharing way too much information about yourself, someone saying something, you getting upset and being rude to other posters, then you coming back later to apologize. Except you never really apologize, you always have an excuse.
So why bother? You are just going to end up upset, we are going to end up upset and someone is getting a warning. (I suspect in this case the warning is coming my way). I am not saying you should leave, but you have threatened GBCB... maybe you have the right idea.
@BabyIntegers I find it very difficult to believe a word your writing. Just going to throw it out there. Yes, I believe you should consult with a professional. By professional I mean a mental health professional. It seems like you are looking for sympathy from an online forum and probably don't have my friends ITL. Based on your post here i wouldn't be surprised at that. If you are by some bazaar twist telling the truth go see a professional. Although, I'm pretty sure my suspicions of all of this being complete BS is probably what's actually happening here. Stop threatening to leave and then returning. Your like a bad ex boyfriend that doesn't get the hint.
@Everycol0r Thank you for being so nice. I agree. It sounds fantastical even to myself. None of those diagnoses are definitive. My body just started going haywire 5 years ago while I was in a relationship with a Psychopath. I had some sort of an attack and my left side went numb. They thought maybe a stroke, did an MRI and found lesions. They were worried about early MS. I refused DMDs until something was definitive. At the time, it was only a possible.
A couple months later I had another attack and fell down the stairs. Another MRI and two more lesions but none of them were in the area normal for MS so it was probable. Then I started having digestive issues. Severe pain every time I are red meat and other stuff. They did a scan of my abdomen and found inflammation in my colon. So they did a colonoscopy and found inflammation. The diagnosis I got was colitis. They put me on Prednisone.
It is a really long story but I haven't followed up on anything in years because I was in denial. I've tried to manage with healthy eating, prayer and being dumb by not seeing a doctor. I just recently started seeing a rheumatologist to follow up on all of that. I have relapses and remission of symptoms. When it's bad, it's really bad and when it's good, it's really good.
That's where I am at now and just trying to come to an online community for ttc. I shouldn't have divulged so much. I just get really emotional about it all and I get this anxiety. It's traumatic for me and it's easier to talk about it in type than verbally. And because of all of that, I have become a sort of a hypochondriac, googling everything thinking I might die any day now. I admit to that but I was never like that prior. I was vibrant and healthy aside from the cysts.
Again thanks so much for being nice about it. I need to stop mixing ttc with my other drama hahaha sorry
Oh and I said my sister has Endometriosis and PCOS, not me. And the amenorrhea has gone away with the return of my menses last July.
@Everycol0r Thank you for being so nice. I agree. It sounds fantastical even to myself. None of those diagnoses are definitive. My body just started going haywire 5 years ago while I was in a relationship with a Psychopath. I had some sort of an attack and my left side went numb. They thought maybe a stroke, did an MRI and found lesions. They were worried about early MS. I refused DMDs until something was definitive. At the time, it was only a possible.
A couple months later I had another attack and fell down the stairs. Another MRI and two more lesions but none of them were in the area normal for MS so it was probable. Then I started having digestive issues. Severe pain every time I are red meat and other stuff. They did a scan of my abdomen and found inflammation in my colon. So they did a colonoscopy and found inflammation. The diagnosis I got was colitis. They put me on Prednisone.
It is a really long story but I haven't followed up on anything in years because I was in denial. I've tried to manage with healthy eating, prayer and being dumb by not seeing a doctor. I just recently started seeing a rheumatologist to follow up on all of that. I have relapses and remission of symptoms. When it's bad, it's really bad and when it's good, it's really good.
That's where I am at now and just trying to come to an online community for ttc. I shouldn't have divulged so much. I just get really emotional about it all and I get this anxiety. It's traumatic for me and it's easier to talk about it in type than verbally. And because of all of that, I have become a sort of a hypochondriac, googling everything thinking I might die any day now. I admit to that but I was never like that prior. I was vibrant and healthy aside from the cysts.
Again thanks so much for being nice about it. I need to stop mixing ttc with my other drama hahaha sorry
Oh and I said my sister has Endometriosis and PCOS, not me. And the amenorrhea has gone away with the return of my menses last July.
I deleted because I became emotional after Lady Millil's response. I shared with someone in private message (RiverSong15) that I am also ADHD and didn't tell that to anyone else. So when she posted that, I was very upset.
Also I was upset that LadyMillil said what she said in general. I don't feel it was genuine and felt hurt by that. I didn't ask to have health issues and it sucks. I do the best I can. I lead a very happy life and I'm happily married. We want to grow our family. If you want, I can put the OP back to what it was before?
Other than that, I am grateful for the advice, care and concern I received on this thread. That hasn't changed.
And I don't know who Izzy is. Are you talking about the woman who commented on my intro when I first joined?
1. Evidently I confused you with another poster. You mentioned you thought you had a learning disorder not ADHD on a TWW thread
2. You shouldn't assume tone from a written message. You have no idea with what spirit any of the messages on this board are written. Assuming tone ends up with people being butt hurt from completely innocuous or well-intentioned comments
3. You have a lot going on medically. If you do indeed have a pituitary tumour you need to follow that up with a doctor because it could be the source of the issues you are having related to your cycle, and could be a serious problem for TTC.
4. I am, frankly, offended that you seem to have some sort of problem with me. You felt the need to create a thread to call me out a few weeks ago and now you assume that I am posting comments to hurt you.
5. No one cares if posters GBCB or not, but threatening to do it and coming back less than 24 hours later suggests a need for drama and to be an AW.
Hey, so, @BabyIntegers Is it at all a possibility that instead of the probable speculations you're listing that maybe you have (severe) anxiety induced symptoms? Being involved in an abusive relationship can do incredibly destructive things to your body and your self-esteem. I would follow up with another scan/appointment for safety and piece of mind, but I would also take strides to improve your stability. I don't say that to be mean, truly. I don't follow this board enough to really know your story, but based off this thread, I am worried for you. Take care of yourself.
@BabyIntegers I would seriously rethink TTC at this point. Medical issues and anxiety issues should be handled first and foremost. I come from a place of love, not hate. I have extreme anxiety and being pregnant didn't solve my problems. It through me into awful PPD, which I would never wish on anyone. From the info you shared, I can't see how a pregnancy would improve your situation in the slightest. I understand the yearning for a child, but you need to be in a good place before intentionally bringing a LO into life.
Please please sort your issues before throwing in a pregnancy.
Alright, let me put it this way. Have you ever heard of a Mary Sue? In writing, Mary Sue's are two things, either frowned upon OR have a very specific purpose in the plot line. In general, a Mary Sue is a perfect character with no flaws, beautiful and thoroughly talented in any area she chooses. But, Mary Sue's can also be the opposite and have every known tragedy strike, always bad luck, horrifying back stories and still be a Mary Sue. They're the best of the best or the worst of the worst. (a male character is called a Gary Stu)
And they're completely not relatable.
I'm not saying you are a character nor are you writing a story, but you are on an forum where people will relate to you much like reading a book. No one loves Miss Bingley in Pride & Prejudice, they love Elizabeth. And no one cares about Theon as much as they loved Robb. Both characters (Bingley & Theon) exhibit the extreme of either perfect and beautiful or beat down and suffering beyond all measure.
TTCing isn't a competition & people begin to feel untrusting when manipulation via ailments and worst case scenarios always seems to come into play. I am in no way suggesting that is or is not your intention, but when someone always seems to try to one up you in the pain depart it can feel that way.
Just in your reply you apologize for over sharing and yet go into complete detail about 3 different issues.
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DD: 10/17/13
TTC#2 Actively: 10/14, NTNP: 01/14
Left-Sided Hydrosalpinx (cause: genetic abnormality, TREATED 11/16)
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A DD, really? You should know better than that by now. Also, not buying the GBCB.
Not everyone can breastfeed - Mammary Hypoplasia/Insufficient Glandular Tissue Awareness
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DD: 10/17/13
TTC#2 Actively: 10/14, NTNP: 01/14
Left-Sided Hydrosalpinx (cause: genetic abnormality, TREATED 11/16)
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/396b04
Not everyone can breastfeed - Mammary Hypoplasia/Insufficient Glandular Tissue Awareness
My Ovulation Chart
My Ovulation Chart
Expecting Double Trouble, April 2016
:-bd
DD1 born 11/2014
DD2 born 6/2016
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BFP 1: Aug 31, 2015
EDD 1: May 12, 2016
DD1 Emma born May 12, 2016
An Honest Account of New Motherhood (with Postpartum Anxiety, Depression, and OCD)
BFP 2: October 07, 2019
EDD 2: June 20, 2020
But peach pie sounds good. Or this peach pancake recipe.
https://www.thugkitchen.com/peach_pancakes_comic
2010: Infertility
October 2015: missed miscarriage #2 at 11 weeks (trisomy 22)
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DD: 10/17/13
TTC#2 Actively: 10/14, NTNP: 01/14
Left-Sided Hydrosalpinx (cause: genetic abnormality, TREATED 11/16)
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/396b04
Also I was upset that LadyMillil said what she said in general. I don't feel it was genuine and felt hurt by that. I didn't ask to have health issues and it sucks. I do the best I can. I lead a very happy life and I'm happily married. We want to grow our family. If you want, I can put the OP back to what it was before?
Other than that, I am grateful for the advice, care and concern I received on this thread. That hasn't changed.
And I don't know who Izzy is. Are you talking about the woman who commented on my intro when I first joined?
You say you work in the medical field, a CNA was it? Your intro said you research everything, so why do give us MRI reports & medical diagnosis? I know you're an intelligent person, so you know none of us can answer. Why do you not ask your nurse or doctor colleagues? Would you tell a patient to ask an online community about a report from a year ago? Where you ignore medical advice and did not have a repeat MRI? Regardless of one doctor, the radiologist's advice should have been heeded. You work in this field! You should know these things!
If you want attention & sympathy, I can't speak for anyone but myself, but I can only offer so much before my hands are tied.
And just to answer any preemptive questions, there's no set list of what you can or can't ask.
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DD: 10/17/13
TTC#2 Actively: 10/14, NTNP: 01/14
Left-Sided Hydrosalpinx (cause: genetic abnormality, TREATED 11/16)
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/396b04
DD1 born 11/2014
DD2 born 6/2016
Here's the thing, this may not be the board for you. You don't seem to fit in, and you don't seem to be winning a lot of friends around here. I know you have a lot of issues and I sympathize to an extent but at the same time I can't help but notice a pattern. They all start with you sharing way too much information about yourself, someone saying something, you getting upset and being rude to other posters, then you coming back later to apologize. Except you never really apologize, you always have an excuse.
So why bother? You are just going to end up upset, we are going to end up upset and someone is getting a warning. (I suspect in this case the warning is coming my way). I am not saying you should leave, but you have threatened GBCB... maybe you have the right idea.
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Just saying....
A couple months later I had another attack and fell down the stairs. Another MRI and two more lesions but none of them were in the area normal for MS so it was probable. Then I started having digestive issues. Severe pain every time I are red meat and other stuff. They did a scan of my abdomen and found inflammation in my colon. So they did a colonoscopy and found inflammation. The diagnosis I got was colitis. They put me on Prednisone.
It is a really long story but I haven't followed up on anything in years because I was in denial. I've tried to manage with healthy eating, prayer and being dumb by not seeing a doctor. I just recently started seeing a rheumatologist to follow up on all of that. I have relapses and remission of symptoms. When it's bad, it's really bad and when it's good, it's really good.
That's where I am at now and just trying to come to an online community for ttc. I shouldn't have divulged so much. I just get really emotional about it all and I get this anxiety. It's traumatic for me and it's easier to talk about it in type than verbally. And because of all of that, I have become a sort of a hypochondriac, googling everything thinking I might die any day now. I admit to that but I was never like that prior. I was vibrant and healthy aside from the cysts.
Again thanks so much for being nice about it. I need to stop mixing ttc with my other drama hahaha sorry
Oh and I said my sister has Endometriosis and PCOS, not me. And the amenorrhea has gone away with the return of my menses last July.
But I felt that others deserved a response. @LadyMillil I don't have a problem with you.
Please please sort your issues before throwing in a pregnancy.
DD1 born 11/2014
DD2 born 6/2016
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Alright, let me put it this way. Have you ever heard of a Mary Sue? In writing, Mary Sue's are two things, either frowned upon OR have a very specific purpose in the plot line. In general, a Mary Sue is a perfect character with no flaws, beautiful and thoroughly talented in any area she chooses. But, Mary Sue's can also be the opposite and have every known tragedy strike, always bad luck, horrifying back stories and still be a Mary Sue. They're the best of the best or the worst of the worst. (a male character is called a Gary Stu)
And they're completely not relatable.
I'm not saying you are a character nor are you writing a story, but you are on an forum where people will relate to you much like reading a book. No one loves Miss Bingley in Pride & Prejudice, they love Elizabeth. And no one cares about Theon as much as they loved Robb. Both characters (Bingley & Theon) exhibit the extreme of either perfect and beautiful or beat down and suffering beyond all measure.
TTCing isn't a competition & people begin to feel untrusting when manipulation via ailments and worst case scenarios always seems to come into play. I am in no way suggesting that is or is not your intention, but when someone always seems to try to one up you in the pain depart it can feel that way.
Just in your reply you apologize for over sharing and yet go into complete detail about 3 different issues.
LFAF February Siggy Challenge - "Favorite TV/Movie Couple"
DD: 10/17/13
TTC#2 Actively: 10/14, NTNP: 01/14
Left-Sided Hydrosalpinx (cause: genetic abnormality, TREATED 11/16)
http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/396b04