My second trimester energy is long gone. I turned into a slug the moment I entered the third trimester. How am I going to get my freezer meals together?!
1. My glucose test isn't till 10:45. It's 7:44 right now. I'm starving. 'nuff said.
2. My electric bill for the period of June 15 - July 15 is $185. It was $108 the previous month, and it's usually around $50. Even in December with our Christmas tree lit all the time, we don't pay more than $60. It's all because of the AC. We keep the AC at 78 and turn it off if it's not unbearably hot and any time we're gone for more than an hour or two. It's just the least energy-efficient AC unit ever. I'm dreading the bill for the month of August.
1) Combative posters who think we are a bunch of meen gurlz 2) My desire to eat an entire domino's cheesy crust pizza for breakfast 3) The fact that I am extraordinarily far behind on LO's nursery
I just feel completely overwhelmed. Work is stressful right now. Especially because my husband no longer has a salary to contribute to our monthly income. I feel so tired and am functioning at such a low level mentally and physically that I am genuinely concerned with my ability to successfully complete this contract year, as well as get rehired for the next year. Because now that's necessary. Which also means I won't get more than 8 weeks, tops, of maternity leave.
House projects are never done, no matter how much time I spend on them on weekends. Also, my in-laws are just insane. My MIL is narcissistic and just emotionally draining. I have failed to make this pregnancy enough about her, and my husband constantly fails to validate her as the ultimate authority on our lives, so we will be paying for these sins indefinitely, apparently.
I'm sorry for this whiny post. It's like I've all of a sudden hit this wall, and stopped functioning at my normal level. And right now I just don't have time to suck. I need to get it together.
*Edit* In the throes of my rant, I forgot to mention the actual reason I started the post (possibly an example of my new level of functionality?).
A few months ago, my husband agreed to let two of his childhood friends use our house as their wedding venue. They are getting married at the end of November. Originally this was going to be a 50-60 guest wedding. It's now closer to 100. And the couple is still long distance for another month, so we have been the proxy for the vendors when they come to our house (caterers, planners, etc.). Besides the chaos of a wedding 6-8 weeks PP, I am terrified of having so many strangers around my tiny baby. This of course never dawned on DH when he enthusiastically agreed to play host. So there is basically nothing I can do about it. I just have to be gracious and deal. But if DH ever agrees to something like this again without at least a run-by through me, he and our couch will have time to develop a really intimate relationship.
1. It's Monday, I'm awake and about to head into work. Uggggghhhhhhhhhh
2. DH kept me up most of the night snoring.
3. It's the beginning of the month, and I work in property management. Too any people paying rent wanting to blab and comment on how there's "not much time left now." Same ones who have said it the last three months. *eye roll*.
I've been pretty fortunate not to be too emotional through this pregnancy so far. However, the closer I get to my due date, the more I find myself crying over the drop of a hat. I don't want to work. I just want to rest and work on getting things in order for baby.
@CaitLewis15 I'm sending you the biggest hugs possible. Sorry things are so tough right now.
My Monday moan - I'm incredibly tired and unable to sleep. Why was I awake from 2 am until 5 am?? Sigh. On the plus side, it's a holiday Monday here and while I have an insane to do list, at least it can include a nap.
I have no idea how I got any sleep last night. Between the RLS, heartburn and sweet dd1 waking up at 5:45 and being brought to our bed (my choice as dh had fallen asleep in the living room and I just wanted more sleep) and then deciding she had to be glued to my side to fall back asleep at 6:15 (so I couldn't move for the hour we were "sleeping") it was tough. My back is constantly hurting now (idk if it's pregnancy or the bed but ugh) and I'm just ready to get some good sleep (which won't happen for like 12 more years I know!).
I'm also feeling totally overwhelmed. I'm traveling to Baltimore for a conference for a week on Friday. I have to get a manuscript ready for submission and a poster made before then. When I get back I have two weeks to process all of the samples from an experiment I did this summer and put together a seminar talk. On top of all that, our nursery looks like a baby bomb went off. We have so many little projects to complete. My midwife keeps giving me shit for not exercising enough and I want to smack her. Also, I can no longer sleep.
Got out of the shower yesterday to notice tiny red veins all over my butt. EVERYWHERE. and my butt looks like a garbage bag filled with cottage cheese. Long gone are the days of my firm bubble booty. I cried. I told my boyfriend I didn't want to have sex because I felt nauseated. What I didn't tell him was that I feel so nauseated by my own body. Ugh. I worked my ass off to get to a good place mentally after struggling with anorexia and yesterday brought me back to a really shitty place. (
@millette2015 thank you I will manage to pull on my (ever enlarging) big girl panties and get through this. I really appreciate having a place to vent, and feel this much support
Got out of the shower yesterday to notice tiny red veins all over my butt. EVERYWHERE. and my butt looks like a garbage bag filled with cottage cheese. Long gone are the days of my firm bubble booty. I cried. I told my boyfriend I didn't want to have sex because I felt nauseated. What I didn't tell him was that I feel so nauseated by my own body. Ugh. I worked my ass off to get to a good place mentally after struggling with anorexia and yesterday brought me back to a really shitty place. (
It's hard. I had one of those moments myself. I had a complete meltdown when I saw the first stretch marks appear on my belly. Try to remember this is temporary. Easier said than done but with hard work and determination you will get your body back.
Woke up from my hour of sleep to a dog dry heaving in our bed.
After vowing not to speak to him, my father wore me down with his calls and texts and I finally talked to him. He took no responsibility for his actions and all I got from him was "Don't worry, I'd never kill myself." On top of that, he's decided to sell his belongings, quit his job, break up with his girlfriend, and move cross country to Washington. He doesn't even have a lease for an apartment. He's just going to stay in an extended stay motel in WA until he "finds something" (read: until he asks us to let him move in with us). I'm torn between keeping the peace with him since I'll have to physically deal with him after he moves up here, and confronting him with how much anxiety this gives me. He's a bag of crazy that I just can't deal with right now.
I'm going to jump in on being overwhelmed too. I feel like I am just a huge ball of anxiety. Work is the worst, I hate it. We are going through new management and I am losing hope that it will be any better. The work has been thin and I am struggling to get hours in (I am salaried so this is even more annoying). There is no communication at work, with anyone. I dread going in every day. I literally hide in the bathroom to get a few tears out.
Then I feel like the house is never going to be done and we are never going to pay off the big purchases we have had to make lately.
I am also starting to get really nervous about labor and delivery. I have no idea what to expect. Our first birth class is this week. I am hoping that helps me feel less stressed about one less thing.
So after complaining a week or so ago about someone messing up my license plate cover on my new car....I end up causing a wreck myself over the weekend! Was leaving work on Friday and waited for an SUV before I went straight and did not see the motorcycle behind. I felt so awful! I'm a huge advocate of looking out for riders and I have never caused a wreck in my life! Luckily he wasn't really hurt (Just a knick on his face) and luckily the speed zone was 20. So my moan is now having to fork over the $500 deductible and taking my car around for estimates. Suck!
After a 4 day weekend ,I still am miserable to be going back to work ! Eff you Monday! I'm already super late as well but chick fil a stop was a must . Sorry to all the overwhelmed ladies . (Hugs to all)
I'm nervous to take the 1-hr glucose test tomorrow morning...my dr said to eat normal so that is good at least (I'll probably just eat a bagel with PB before, no fruit just in case that sugar will skew it!) I'm also annoyed because since I'm doing it in the morning (I read its better to do it in the morning..??) I can't workout!
I'm also bummed because I bought FOUR paint samples this weekend for our son's nursery...and none of them are right. NONE! They are all "perfect" on the swatch but on the wall...ugh!
I'm an accountant and we have to close the books for July, so that is always stressful too.
Wah boo can I go back to the pool and pretend its the weekend?!
@DeeGreer I'm sorry your body image issues are being triggered right now. Try not to look in the mirror and examine yourself even though the impulse to do so is strong. This is all temporary and you'll work really hard to get back to a place where you're comfortable with your body after October. Are you able to share this stuff with your boyfriend? He might be a good person to boost your confidence. Hugs!
@Birdee212@CaitLewis15@DeeGreer Girls! I want to hug all of you! I wish we could all just go eat a shit load of pancakes and clink mocktails. I love you guys. I hope you feel better soon.
Well this is more from last night but still bugging me this morning even though I know it shouldn't.
I'm 30 weeks and have gained 20lbs, so all in all on track from what my dr says. But ya can't help but still feel chubby.
Last night my 9 year old nephew was over and when I walked in the room I saw him looking in our candy jar that takes us all year to eat from Halloween and all the good candy was gone months ago so really only my husband picks at what is left. The jar is looking pretty low so i said, "wow looks like we need to restock on candy. " my nephew stuffs a chocolate bar in his mouth and says "Yea but you can't have anymore because you're fat and your gonna get a fat baby."
I literally almost broke into tears. I know he is only 9 and bla bla bla but with all the emotions lately I just really couldn't handle it. I hid in my bedroom crying for a good 20 min and when dinner was ready I didn't even eat because I just couldn't get over it.
I feel foolish this morning for letting the words of a 9 year old bring me down but damn..... Kids can be rude!
So this is my Monday moan, I feel like I've gotten super emotional in this last trimester. thanks for reading bumpies.
1. My chicken coop is infested with mice. I put poison out for them over the weekend and have found 15+ dead ones. I love my chickens but I REALLY HATE MICE!!!!
2. My mother in law showed up yesterday for a surprise visit. And hubby wonders why I hate surprises?!
I had a really lovely weekend... and now I am just bummed and distracted back at work. To boot, I work in a non-profit that works with education, so my email has been really quiet over the summer (horray!) and today's Monday Inbox brought back the reality that school is starting soon, and with that, crazy time for work. I am not ready for the days of 25-30 new emails at 8am! I'm starting to feel the anxiety of all that I have left to schedule and plan for my schools before I'm gone and I feel like it's gonna start to spiral soon.
It also feels as though my belly has tripled in weight in the last week. I know I ate a serious amount of Cheese Balls last week, but holy smokes! (@DeeGreer, thanks to your post, I bought Capt'n Crunch yesterday and have eaten almost the whole box already. Delicious!)
@anorthro - You're headed to my 'hood! Let me know if you need any recommendations of restaurants or anything if you have some down time during your conference!
I'm right there with you girls on feeling overwhelmed right now. My baby shower was yesterday and while everything was so beautiful my mom who threw it for me was obviously feeling overwhelmed herself and was at times snappy with my guests (mainly members of my husbands family). She has never been one to handle stress well and you can see it all over her face every time but yet wouldn't take no for an answer about hosting and she wouldn't let me help with anything. I'm so thankful for all the hard work she put in to the shower but seeing her stress just caused me stress. Plus she was so busy playing host she didn't have time to really enjoy the shower herself so know I just feel bad.
On another note all the baby items currently occupying my living room are just reminders that our house is too small and I still have a lot of organizing to do before the baby arrives. I have no energy these days though and literally just want to lay in bed with my feet up any chance I get.
Our laptop crashed and it has all of the pictures from the moment DD was born til now. I'm just sick about it. That computer is barely 2 years old. Taking it to a tech this week to see if they can recover anything for me.
My moan is I really don't want to go into work today. I close and haven't fully recouped from a closing shift followed by an opening shift and then a birthday party. My legs hurt, my feet hurt, and my belly feels like it's about to tear apart. I'm sure tomorrow or the next day I'm going to appear bigger (seems to be my routine) but today I'm just cranky. Not to mention I just want to curl in a ball and watch a sappy movie and get all the tears out.
1) DD1 has pink eye. She's only 2.5, and the medication is ointment that has to be applied twice a day. She screams and cries because she doesn't like the feeling of it going in her eye. On top of having to fight with her every time I need to administerthe medicine, I also have to try and protect DD2 from getting sick. The two of them are close and don't understand why they can't hug and kiss and play like they're used to doing. Mommy is not their favorite right now (
2) DH had a busy weekend, and wasn't home much, so as a result he ate pretty crappy. Now he is in bed sick with no appetite, and I'm playing nurse. I don't know if it's a bug or food poisoning but he is pretty miserable. My poor family!!!
I spent the weekend at my in laws. My mother in law and her advices/talks from yesterday are annoying me and ruining my Monday! She's a judgemental hypocrite and maybe it's my hormones but I wanted to stab her in the eye with a #2 pencil yesterday!!!!
Oh man, mine feels silly compared to all of you who are having such a rough day! Thinking of all of you.
Mine is just that I stupidly wore heels at my shower on Saturday and now my back is so sore that I can't stand it! No more heels for the rest of this pregnancy. In fact, I think I'll invest in some old lady support shoes!
I woke up at seven and got ready for work with no problem. Now that I'm here I feel like I'm going to fall over. I am exhausted. The girls at work even made comments haha. Can I go home and nap?
Oh man, mine feels silly compared to all of you who are having such a rough day! Thinking of all of you.
Mine is just that I stupidly wore heels at my shower on Saturday and now my back is so sore that I can't stand it! No more heels for the rest of this pregnancy. In fact, I think I'll invest in some old lady support shoes!
I quit trying to wear heels weeks ago!! One of my ongoing pregnancy symptoms is feet swelling. I tried to put some heels on recently and didn't last more than 45 mins, lol. I can't even wear most of my regular cute flats. I have been downsized to a few pair of flats that have some give. This is moan-worthy!
@MariahOBrien Thank you for being a friend
And yeah, what the fug is going on in that toy thread?!
ETA: I'm a little scared to comment on that post because it's so hostile and venomous.
Who knew a discussion in baby toys would bring out the worst in people. I'm over here like REALLY?
@MariahOBrien Thank you for being a friend
And yeah, what the fug is going on in that toy thread?!
ETA: I'm a little scared to comment on that post because it's so hostile and venomous.
Holy hostility, Batman! I just checked it out, Loved Titted a few comments, and then was all:
I dont log into the Bump very frequently on the weekends due to the hectic 2 days of catch after a week of work (ugh) so I will spend the rest of the morning catching up (and checking up on said Toy thread...)
Yesterday morning I briefly read the thread about having 2 months left and cried. I've been feeling SO LOW about how large I've been getting. Saturday morning I spent all morning trying on dresses that fit last week and don't fit this week. I went to get my hair "trimmed" and she totally cut an inch off.... and inch I've been trying to grow since January!!!
Today, I'm wearing a dress that is too short due to my big belly (oh well) hopefully I can sit at my desk all day and not get up. I'm hungry every 2 hours, if that, and it's driving me mad.
I had to remove my wedding ring this weekend... it was way too tight but my mom gave me her wedding band! The one that she gave birth to ME in. that was a definitely highlight of feeling so crappy about myself.
@elmann1 -- That is so cool your mama gave you her ring! Super sentimental - I love that!
Anyone else with desk jobs thinking it's getting tougher and tougher to reach the keyboard? I have such long arms that I keep my laptop far back at my desk so my elbows don't hang, but now I'm squishing my belly against the edge of the desk! So now, everything on my desk is slowly but surely scooting closer...
@elmann1 -- That is so cool your mama gave you her ring! Super sentimental - I love that!
Anyone else with desk jobs thinking it's getting tougher and tougher to reach the keyboard? I have such long arms that I keep my laptop far back at my desk so my elbows don't hang, but now I'm squishing my belly against the edge of the desk! So now, everything on my desk is slowly but surely scooting closer...
Ha! Yes. Thankfully, I keep my laptop on a dock and use a wireless keyboard and mouse. It makes life much easier!
I dont log into the Bump very frequently on the weekends due to the hectic 2 days of catch after a week of work (ugh) so I will spend the rest of the morning catching up (and checking up on said Toy thread...)
Yesterday morning I briefly read the thread about having 2 months left and cried. I've been feeling SO LOW about how large I've been getting. Saturday morning I spent all morning trying on dresses that fit last week and don't fit this week. I went to get my hair "trimmed" and she totally cut an inch off.... and inch I've been trying to grow since January!!!
Today, I'm wearing a dress that is too short due to my big belly (oh well) hopefully I can sit at my desk all day and not get up. I'm hungry every 2 hours, if that, and it's driving me mad.
I had to remove my wedding ring this weekend... it was way too tight but my mom gave me her wedding band! The one that she gave birth to ME in. that was a definitely highlight of feeling so crappy about myself.
Girl, I've seen your HDBD pictures, you look fab.
I'm sorry you're feeling so low, though. It's definitely weird watching our bodies go through so many drastic changes so fast. Feel better soon, mumma! :x
Re: Monday Moans
1. My glucose test isn't till 10:45. It's 7:44 right now. I'm starving. 'nuff said.
2. My electric bill for the period of June 15 - July 15 is $185. It was $108 the previous month, and it's usually around $50. Even in December with our Christmas tree lit all the time, we don't pay more than $60. It's all because of the AC. We keep the AC at 78 and turn it off if it's not unbearably hot and any time we're gone for more than an hour or two. It's just the least energy-efficient AC unit ever. I'm dreading the bill for the month of August.
1) Combative posters who think we are a bunch of meen gurlz
2) My desire to eat an entire domino's cheesy crust pizza for breakfast
3) The fact that I am extraordinarily far behind on LO's nursery
2. DH kept me up most of the night snoring.
3. It's the beginning of the month, and I work in property management. Too any people paying rent wanting to blab and comment on how there's "not much time left now." Same ones who have said it the last three months. *eye roll*.
My Monday moan - I'm incredibly tired and unable to sleep. Why was I awake from 2 am until 5 am?? Sigh. On the plus side, it's a holiday Monday here and while I have an insane to do list, at least it can include a nap.
After vowing not to speak to him, my father wore me down with his calls and texts and I finally talked to him. He took no responsibility for his actions and all I got from him was "Don't worry, I'd never kill myself." On top of that, he's decided to sell his belongings, quit his job, break up with his girlfriend, and move cross country to Washington. He doesn't even have a lease for an apartment. He's just going to stay in an extended stay motel in WA until he "finds something" (read: until he asks us to let him move in with us). I'm torn between keeping the peace with him since I'll have to physically deal with him after he moves up here, and confronting him with how much anxiety this gives me. He's a bag of crazy that I just can't deal with right now.
Then I feel like the house is never going to be done and we are never going to pay off the big purchases we have had to make lately.
I am also starting to get really nervous about labor and delivery. I have no idea what to expect. Our first birth class is this week. I am hoping that helps me feel less stressed about one less thing.
Oi.
I'm 30 weeks and have gained 20lbs, so all in all on track from what my dr says. But ya can't help but still feel chubby.
Last night my 9 year old nephew was over and when I walked in the room I saw him looking in our candy jar that takes us all year to eat from Halloween and all the good candy was gone months ago so really only my husband picks at what is left. The jar is looking pretty low so i said, "wow looks like we need to restock on candy. " my nephew stuffs a chocolate bar in his mouth and says "Yea but you can't have anymore because you're fat and your gonna get a fat baby."
I literally almost broke into tears. I know he is only 9 and bla bla bla but with all the emotions lately I just really couldn't handle it. I hid in my bedroom crying for a good 20 min and when dinner was ready I didn't even eat because I just couldn't get over it.
I feel foolish this morning for letting the words of a 9 year old bring me down but damn..... Kids can be rude!
So this is my Monday moan, I feel like I've gotten super emotional in this last trimester. thanks for reading bumpies.
2. My mother in law showed up yesterday for a surprise visit. And hubby wonders why I hate surprises?!
On another note all the baby items currently occupying my living room are just reminders that our house is too small and I still have a lot of organizing to do before the baby arrives. I have no energy these days though and literally just want to lay in bed with my feet up any chance I get.
And yeah, what the fug is going on in that toy thread?!
ETA: I'm a little scared to comment on that post because it's so hostile and venomous.
1) DD1 has pink eye. She's only 2.5, and the medication is ointment that has to be applied twice a day. She screams and cries because she doesn't like the feeling of it going in her eye. On top of having to fight with her every time I need to administerthe medicine, I also have to try and protect DD2 from getting sick. The two of them are close and don't understand why they can't hug and kiss and play like they're used to doing. Mommy is not their favorite right now
2) DH had a busy weekend, and wasn't home much, so as a result he ate pretty crappy. Now he is in bed sick with no appetite, and I'm playing nurse. I don't know if it's a bug or food poisoning but he is pretty miserable. My poor family!!!
Married: 05/14/2011
DS Was Born: 02/10/2013
EDD: 10/19/2015
Mine is just that I stupidly wore heels at my shower on Saturday and now my back is so sore that I can't stand it! No more heels for the rest of this pregnancy. In fact, I think I'll invest in some old lady support shoes!
Today, I'm wearing a dress that is too short due to my big belly (oh well) hopefully I can sit at my desk all day and not get up. I'm hungry every 2 hours, if that, and it's driving me mad.
I had to remove my wedding ring this weekend... it was way too tight
Girl, I've seen your HDBD pictures, you look fab.
I'm sorry you're feeling so low, though. It's definitely weird watching our bodies go through so many drastic changes so fast. Feel better soon, mumma!
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