So I had lost all of my symptoms over the weekend after an ultrasound Thursday showing my little doozers were pretty far behind with low heartbeats. Had spotting yesterday.
And then last night, out of nowhere, I had the most horrific pain of my life. It basically felt like my whole abdomen had been shoved into a vice and squeezed super hard. Couldn't walk, was so doubled over in pain that I just started throwing up like crazy.
Ultrasound this morning confirmed that they hadn't grow since the Thursday ultrasound, no heart beats, and the doctor told me they were not viable. Given how much pain I was in, he recommended doing the D&C then so... yeah.
What's crazy is that... I never wanted to be a mom before this and my boyfriend didn't want to be a dad. But man, I grew so crazy attached to these guys that that really changed my whole outlook on life. So I really hope to be back here soon! And I hope the rest of you have beautiful, healthy, happy babies.
Re: Smell ya later (trigger warning: loss mentioned)
Married 6/22/2012
Oh, I'm so sorry. After my miscarriage, I felt similar to how you described in your post. I didn't feel at all ready to be a parent and wasn't sure I even wanted kids at all. But you'd better believe I was crushed beyond belief when I lost the LO. I feel differently now and this pregnancy was planned, but I can so relate to how you're feeling. Please take care of yourself. Hugs.
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BFP 12/31/14, EDD 9/08/14 ~ Natural M/C 2/21/14 at 11.5 weeks
BFP 5/24/15 - EDD 2/4/16
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DS1 Jan 2012
DS2 July 2013
DS3 February 2016
Married since 8/7/10
Me: 32 Hubby: 31
Married 12/29/12
Started TTC July 2014
Miscarriage August 2014
Emmett born February 2016
Expecting Baby #2 in August 2017
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I'm a big believer in "everything happens for a reason."
Good luck and hang in there.