I love that there is a high risk thread on here! I am considered high risk due to my CML (chronic myeloid leukemia). I have had to stop taking my daily targeted chemo pill that I really on, and it's terrifying. I am very nervous about my cancer coming back (which they expect will) and having to deal with the "baby-safe", and highly unpleasant, chemo I would be facing should that occur at a high rate. I will visit my oncologist monthly to keep an eye on my levels. To keep my sanity, my goal is to try and only deal with 'what is' and not 'what could be'. There was a long period of time where I didn't think this would be possible so I want to be as thankful as possible for every step of this adventure (good and bad). I will be keeping you all in my thoughts! Be brave ladies
Sending tons of prayers your way!!! Unfortunately we lost my Dad in December to GBM (brain cancer) and my mom is currently going through her third... If there is proof that you can get cancer & still live a full life, it is my mom. She has already beat both breast and lung cancer (2000 then 2007.) chemo stinks & I hope you don't have to do it pregnant but I know you can do this & im sending tons of prayers and positive vibes your way!
Update: went to the ob yesterday. Had another ultrasound (5th). All the others the baby measured two days ahead. Yesterday baby measured one week ahead!!! I was 10w1d and measured 11w1d! Little one is growing and wiggling like crazy! It was so amazing to see the long legs just kicking and arms going crazy! I want so bad to be excited but the fact is I have to make it through the CVS test to be excited and know everything is going to be ok. Just keep praying ladies! God is in control and knows what he is doing!
I can't tell you what a comfort it is to find this thread.
This is my 13th pregnancy. I am high risk due to my past pregnancy history, my bicorn/septate uterus, and now I'm considered AMA (I'll be 37 by delivery).
Our first pg was a missed m/c at 11/12 weeks. Being that it was my first pg, the office didn't bring me in until 12 weeks and there we found out that the baby had passed away and I was taken for a D&C that same day.
With my 2nd, things were going well, but I started having fluid retention so I had to quit my job and go on bedrest. At 28 weeks, our son was stillborn. He was really active in utero and twisted his cord till it kinked up.
My 3rd started off much the same way. I ended up with fluid retention again in the 2nd trimester, but this time my Dr started doing NSTs at 24 weeks. I was put on moderate bed rest and went in every week for the NST. At 30 weeks they started doing the NSTs twice a week. I went in at 34 weeks for a normal scheduled NST and DS had a low heart-rate so they pulled out the buzzer to see if he would react. He didn't. So they sent me to the lunch room and had me drink a huge thing of orange juice and walk around. Came back and things were still not looking good. The nurse who was with me never let on just how bad things were. She was so calm and sweet the whole time. She very calmly told me "honey, I'm going to call your Dr and then I'm going to get you checked into the hospital. You are going to have this baby today." So our oldest DS1 was born via emergency c/s. He too was tangled up in his cord. He was in the NICU for a bit because he had a hard time maintaining his O2 levels and he had some jaundice.
When DS1 was a year old we wanted to start ttc again. I kept having m/c after m/c ( a total of 6). All of them were missed m/c and between 7-12 weeks. They did genetic testing on the babies and there was never any chromosomal issues with any of them. So my sent me in for the genetic testing and nothing came back on any of my labs. My Dr still believes I have some sort of clotting issue, but it's not one of the "common" ones that they can test for. So he told me to start taking extra folic acid and baby asprin in addition to the progesterone I was already taking each time I found I was pg.
After that, I was pg again and the betas were going up, but not doubling. I had a few u/s but they never could see anything. I started bleeding and passing clots so I figured that I was m/c at home. It stopped after two weeks and I figured it was all done. We had a trip to visit ILs a week later and the day were were leaving to come home, I didn't feel well. I started bleeding again and I just felt off. I got an apt with the office when I got back home and my levels had dropped and they did another u/s. Still nothing, so my Dr thought it was retained tissue and they gave me the shot. That was in the morning, and that afternoon I was in the ER because I had fainted and I was vomiting. Turns out, I had an ectopic that wasn't caught and it ruptured and that put me in the hospital for a week due to the complications and the blood loss.
A few years later, with DS2, my Dr was being extra cautious and I was given the progesterone shots and then the supositories and I was on the baby asprin and extra folic acid. With DS2, I had blood clots, and he had placental issues and low amniotic fluid, so I was put on strict bedrest for the 3rd trimester, except to come in for NSTs and fluid checks. They wouldn't even let me drive. He was born via c/s at 37 weeks because his fluid levels were too low and they didnt' feel comfortable keeping him in any longer.
With DD, her pg was pretty much a miracle. I had a few blood clots in the 1st/2nd trimester but they were absorbed by the time she was 20 weeks. She passed all of her NSTs with flying colors and had great fluid levels. I only had minor fluid retention with her.
Last year we had our surprise bfp (I figured we weren't ever going to get pg again, since it had been so many years). I had lots of bleeding almost from the time I got my BFP. Betas were good and I was taking all of the medicines, but then I went in at 8 weeks and was told the baby had passed. I was already bleeding and passing clots at that point, so I opted to just m/c at home. A few days later I was having excessive amounts of bleeding and I was faint and sick. My hubby took me to the ER and they did an emergency D&C. I had to stay in the hospital for a couple of days because I had lost quite a bit of blood again.
So,here we are with another miracle BFP and I'm feeling so anxious. DH has already said this is our last shot, so I hope that this LO decides to stick it out with us.
@reneetsu Wow! That's amazing that LO is measuring a whole week ahead! Praying that the CVS goes well!!!
@memorylayne78 you certainly have been through a lot. I admire the way you are approaching this pregnancy with optimism and the fact that you have been willing and ready to try again despite your losses. Praying everything works out for you this time.
I can relate somewhat, as this is our 9th pregnancy, but we do have a chromosome issue we are up against. My pregnancies have ended in either 1st trimester miscarriage or pre-term delivery and infant loss due to their chromosomes. 6 m/c and 2 infants. We were ready to move on to donor sperm, for several years now, and we get a surprise bfp every time we get the ball rolling.... I'm just exhausted at this point. Ready to say, if this isn't our miracle I'm done. I don't know if I will try for donor after this if it's not our miracle... But I have a feeling I won't feel up to it. I am trying to be hopeful for this one, and take it one day at a time. Who knows, maybe I won't even have to think about if I want to go with donor sperm or not, and this will be our healthy take home baby. But after the complications following my 2nd delivery, and d&c the following year, I'm just not sure how much more my body can take. It was 89 days of bleeding after the delivery, and 87 after the d&c, and my cycles never returned to "normal" after either one. I just felt like my body was telling me to take a break... and then oooopsy here we are again.
I'm with MFM bc I'm high risk, and so is my baby. I was born with a congenital heart defect, and even with a prior open heart surgery I still have some moderate valve leakage. I passed my stress test so was approved to get pregnant, but can't predict what will happen for sure. Also have to get extra testing, including an echo of baby's heart about halfway through to find out if I passed on the defect. My baby has about 3x the average risk of having a defect, and they want to know early if s/he does. I will also almost certainly have to be induced a little early, if not have a c/s, to reduce the stress on my and baby's heart. On top of that, I need to have the baby at a time when my cardiologist is available since he's the only one in the area that specializes in congenital defects. So I have to wait ever so (im)patiently for about 20 weeks before I find out if my baby will be ok from that aspect, I'm only 9w2d today.
I am so sorry to hear about your dad. Brain cancer can be so devestating and aggressive. I do the brain cancer walk in Seattle every year in support of a coworker we lost and friends that are fighting. I hope the research they are doing will find a cure in the near future. My dad also has cancer and my mom has had a brain tumor which was thankfully benign. Your mom sounds like a force to be reckoned with! Cancer can change you but it can also make you stronger! Love all of the support on here. It's always good to see you are not alone. Lots of support to all!
hugs to you as well. I have a group of women who I "met" almost 12 years ago on the old SK PAL/PAML boards. They've been my rock all these years and one of the gals has gone thru something similar to you and last year they had their miracle daughter. It just makes me so happy when I know that people who have struggled so hard and have lost so much are finally blessed with those miracles.
I hope your LO is your miracle and everything goes smoothly for you.
I know it's probably crazy to most of the world what so many of us have gone through and are still willing to put up with more so we can have those LOs in our arms. Not to say that each baby isn't a miracle and that they aren't special to their families, but I think with each of my kids I just felt a little bit more gratitude that they made it and I was able to hold them.
I'm a bit late to this "party" but my care is being taken over by mfm next week. I have type 1 von willebrand's (bleeding disorder)... with my first I was only slightly higher risk (consulted with mfm but mostly consulted with my hematologist). This time I'm pregnant with twins (9 weeks today) & the increased chance of c section makes this go round much trickier.
I'm blessed that my issues don't really threaten the peanuts but I have to be closely monitored 2 weeks after delivery for bleeding & 4+ weeks after if I have a c section.
My only real issue with all of it is that I can't deliver at the hospital of my choice but will have deliver 1.5 hours away ...
@themrsbird I'm with you, can't deliver at the hospital 7 minutes from my home, have to go to one thats 1-1.5 hours away. {two lane rd so time varies depending on how much farm equipment or school busses we end up behind LOL} Ugh, I made that drive in labor in 2012 and we have these bridges to go across, that are several miles long and they go hump hump hump {super high for large large large boats to pass under} I was about to flip my lid if we didn't get off that bridge FAST. ugh.... not looking forward to that. I also have to make that trip for ALL of my high risk dr's appts. So depending on how many of those I end up with....
Hello ladies, I love this group already. It is so hard being high risk, and being a survivor of repeated loss and infertility, its amazing to find others going through pregnancies that aren't just happy, joyous and naive and still we are doing our best to be happy an as joyful and positive as we can. I appreciate everyone's opens and care for others.
This is our miracle! My Dr. Told me that I am basically high risk for every reason down the list. Which I knew I would be if I was ever to become pregnant again. Here is why I am high risk: 1. High blood pressure, kidney disorder, blood clotting disorder, my favorite: "advanced maternal age". I'm 41 for crying out loud! You'd think I would need a Paleontologist, not an OB! ;-) 2.On paper I am a horrible retched term chronic aborted, which means I miscarry - a lot. - sorry, sorry here Is where it gets long and sorta sad - BUT THEN IT GETS AWESOME! So stick with me. ♡
I have been pregnant 9 times. I have 2 children. They They are both in their teens now and from my first marriage when I was very young. They are my world. I got remarried over 7 years ago when they were still little, got pregnant right away. We lost lost hat quickly as it was an ectopic. I did not lose a tube nor need surgery, but was given methotrexate and many blood drawings for weeks and painful tests over the next 6 months to make sure I was clear. Got pregnant right away abt 7 months later and lost it at 6 weeks spontaneously. 2 months later we were pregnant again. Things were glorious, except for for the barfing which was normal. As soon as I felt "comfortable", on my 16 week check there was no longer a heartbeat. We were devastated. Had a D&C and much testing. Discovered I had Hyperhomocysteinemia. Started my now life long regiment of 81 aspirin and folic acid. I didn't get pregnant again for about a year as we needed time to heal, but never used any prevention. Began to see fertility specialists. Clomid, IUI's, months of blood blood draws d ultrasounds, finally we were pregnant again. We lost that one at 9 weeks. This time I was just plain ole pissed off. More fertility treatments, pregnant again, only to loose again acid 12 weeks..again no heartbeat and another D&C. So we hung it up bc I just couldn't survive anymore. It had changed me. I had not only become this sad, broken women, but I was now the woman who couldn't have children and was quickly nearing dinosaur age in reproductive yeats. A yr or so later I got a job where IVF was actually covered. We were excited. Scared still, bc now not only was my trouble getting pregnant but no guarantee that once they got me pregnant I would stay that way. Long story, a bit shorter, after all the thousands we did put out and all the needle sticks and injections, they only gave me one try on the meds and decided decided that I did not respond to them. So there there was nothing else they could do for me. My options were to get get a a donor egg, or consider adoption. I got he same opinion from a second fertility specialist in the area. Both stating that while in theory (in regard to me ever getting pregnant on my own without aid) "stranger things have happened", but they wouldn't say to hold holdout hope. That I was in very early onset Menopause. Menopause!!! At 40! Talk about a self-esteem booster. :-? So once again, I cried, battled depression for a good month or two, felt worthless and all that. Then i accepted and moved on. You know, I have 2. I adore them like like moons and the stars stars and I am fulfilled. But my husband, who is younger than me...yeah that happened, he has no biological childRen and has always wanted them. Anyway, so all of a sudden a few weeks ago I asked him to to clean th3 pan I'd used to take bacon for 3 teenagers that morning. When he moved the grease around the pan I gagged and ran to the bathroom to throw up. :-& :-/ so of course I figured I guess I will take a test and see. BFP!!! and I mean like faster than I ran to that bathroom to puke, that line showed up. I was in shock!! Do the next day I took 4 more. Hahahahaha! This ia our miracle. I am now 9 weeks, passing 3 milestones of thw past. I have a fetal doppler so I can listen to the heartbeat, but I have rules. I only do it when he is home, only during hours the Dr office is open. This way if I no longer find it, I can get to the Dr., he can drive, and help me not lose my mind entirely.
I am praying everyday. I am even grateful for my aching boobs, head, all the puking, and we'll not grateful that I'm not sleeping but I will sure take it if it means I actually get to birth a live baby. I will be going back in 2 weeks for more testing, then to see a MFM Dr. And find out their plan for my care. I I will be taking the aspiring probably the whole time until we know when i will deliver. Doc saI'd he and I will both be happy if I make it to 35 weeks, and likely they will schedule me for delivery. In all of this I I am grateful for all those beautiful souls chosing me as their vessel for their short journey onto their next, for the growth it has caused, for the gift of helping others get through their journey of loss and hope, and most of all to appreciate appreciate miracle of reproduction for the amazing gift that it is. I'm not are I would be here today if I had suffered what some of you have. My heart is with joy and hope, and may we all get there!!! :x
Update - my cancer is already back. I knew it would come back within the pregnancy but I really hoped that I would have more time. I wont need to start treatment now but I'm still really upset. The risk I chose to take is huge and I knew what I would facing if my leukemia came back. I just need to process this and I will get back to bring optimistic but it's hard to accept the loss of my undetectable status. I know how worth it this is and I am so grateful to be pregnant but I can't help but be afraid. I want a family so badly. I know stress isn't good for either one of us. Any other ladies out there currently struggling with cancer?
@twointow83 I'm so sorry for your loss. If you unclick the star next to this thread it should unfavorite it for you. You may still get notifications because it's a thread you've commented on (I'm not positive tho). Honestly after my last loss I deleted the whole app and made a new name the next time around because it was too hard to bear but I hope you just unfavoriting it is enough to make them stop! Best wishes for you
Yeah, I did that a couple weeks ago. Guess I am just going to have to keep ignoring the notifications. Fortunately, this is the only thread I get notifications from on this board. Best wishes to you too @koala1107
Kristie
Mom to 2 earth angels (2006,2010) and 2 angels in heaven (2009- 20w 5d; cause unknown, 2015- 7w4d; trisomy 22).
@twointow83, I'm so sorry for your loss. Have you switched your profile in settings? It might help with the notifications. Hugs and prayers for healing and peace.
Update - my cancer is already back. I knew it would come back within the pregnancy but I really hoped that I would have more time. I wont need to start treatment now but I'm still really upset. The risk I chose to take is huge and I knew what I would facing if my leukemia came back. I just need to process this and I will get back to bring optimistic but it's hard to accept the loss of my undetectable status. I know how worth it this is and I am so grateful to be pregnant but I can't help but be afraid. I want a family so badly. I know stress isn't good for either one of us. Any other ladies out there currently struggling with cancer?
I'm so sorry to hear this! And I am so very sorry that you're going through this. I wish that I could do more to help, but if you ever want to private message me, please feel free to do so. I'm happy to lend an ear anytime you would like. I'll be praying for you!
@twointow83 I am so sorry for your loss! If you have tried all of the other methods, I would suggest that you log onto theknot.com and contact their administration. Hopefully that should help you. Again I am sorry for your loss and I hope that you get your rainbow baby soon.
I'm getting a surprise ultrasound tomorrow at 13w5d. I had my first/last at 6w2d and my dr immediately put in for my level 2 ultrasound & amnio at 16 weeks, so he wasn't going to do another ultrasound, unless something came up, like spotting/bleeding. Well I haven't had any this pregnancy, which is completely out of the ordinary for my last 4 pregnancies. But I did start hearing what *could* be two heartbeats on my home doppler recently. After getting several other mommy & a few OB nurse friend 2nd opinions, they all agree, it's possible. Not definite of course. But with my high risk status, it's best to get checked out, since carrying twins could change some of my medial protocol.
I hope I get an ultrasound at my 12 week on Tuesday! I had a 7 week.... Plus everyone has been talking about finding out the sex at 12 weeks, which would rock! Not holding my breath though.
We're currently team green,so I'm not too worried about finding out the sex, BUT I'm hoping they switch me to u/s every appt, because this 4week wait is nonsense! How am I supposed to wait that long?!?!? And just a heartrate? Nonsense!!
We're currently team green,so I'm not too worried about finding out the sex, BUT I'm hoping they switch me to u/s every appt, because this 4week wait is nonsense! How am I supposed to wait that long?!?!? And just a heartrate? Nonsense!!
Tell me about it... my dr went a little crazy this time around, and has only given me an u/s at 6 weeks. Until I started suspecting twins I wasn't getting another u/s until 16 weeks!!!! Crazy...
Well there is only 1 little camera shy wiggle worm in there!!! It is definitely a relief honestly. I mean I would LOVE twins... if I weren't high risk and all. With that in mind, 1 baby at a time please and thank you. Now just hoping for a HEALTHY little babe. Amnio on the 18th, results in 2-4 weeks. GAH that's sooooo freaking far away. I want to scream.
Anyways, how about some u/s cuteness?? 13w5d - measured 14w5d
So cute! Look at that little hand!! Do you have the Ovia app? It has the cutest little section that shows how big baby's hand is. Precious!! I'm hoping I don't require an amnio. The twins were genetically perfect and right on track when they were born, they were just too darn young to make it. I'm going to the genetic counselor on the 9th, but I worry about the risk of the cvs or amnio and preterm labor. In other news... I'm now dying of what I think might be bubonic plague... Or maybe just a viral cold thing, whatever. I just want to take some NyQuil and sleep until it's gone, but I guess I'll have to settle for Benedryl, hot tea and the Neti pot.
Just got home from 12 wk appt, met my new OB. No ultrasound but she found the heartbeat super fast, 155! She told me I can try VBAC, but doesn't want to let me go full term... I squawked about how that's antiquated for diabetic moms and she said we can talk about it again later.... Holding out hope for going into labor naturally vs my induction hell from before.
1st time around I started having contractions at 6w. I had Hyperemesis Gravardum and lost 30# in the 1st tri. I have CKD so the dehydration put me into renal failure 2nd tri 2 cerclage, complete bedrest the whole time, hospitalized at 18w. My twin DD's were born at 26.5w. My dr is keeping an eye on me and will start giving me progesterone and steroid shots at 16w, we've planned my c-section for 37w and hopefully I can make it that far! Oddly enough, this time I haven't had any nausea, only a couple days here and there of exhaustion, but I have to take a zantac everey morning vefore I get out of bed because the heartburn is really bad (started at 4w). The heartburn is the only reason the dr didn't put me on progesterone from the start. She said if my levels were high enough to cause the heartburn I didn't need it. I'm hoping for a totally normal pregnancy this time around and besides the cyst that ruptured at 7w I am getting it! Always planning for the absolute worst because those are normally my odds, but this feels totally different than my girls 10 years ago.
****CVS udate**** I received the results from the CVS test today and I am so relieved that all the chromosomes came back normal!!! And it's another boy! I kinda wanted a girl because we already have a boy, but it sure will be cheaper seeing as I saved all my baby stuff!
Update: thought I was 11 weeks on Wednesday, but baby measuring 11w4d. So that's good!! I'm down 15 lbs due to all the nausea and vomitting, but baby is fine. Did the blood draw for the Counsyl test, see Dr again in 4 weeks (uugghhh) and will be contacted in the next few days for my 1st appt with the MFM Dr. Still putting forth faith and prayers and hoping this baby continues to grow and thrive. Begging actually. ♡♡
Just found this group. Sending positive thoughts to all of you for healthy babies!! I will be seeing a high risk dr because I'm pregnant with twins, my age (39), and my mother took DES when she was pregnant with me, which is linked to second trimester miscarriages & preterm labor in daughters. I am glad I will be seeing a MFM becaus I've had a hard time convincing dr's to take the DES exposure seriously. I was born in 1976 and DES was supposedly no longer prescribed for pregnant women after 1971. However, it was still available and my mom's OB was old school, so he prescribed it for her for 8 months of her pregnancy to prevent miscarriage. Hopefully everything will be ok but it's nice to have another set of eyes on everything!
Me (38) & DH (48). Married since 5/5/13, TTC since then!
Hello ladies! Im 12w4d and high risk because i have type1 diabetes and currently on a insulin pump. Just saw my perinatologist today and so far everything looks good. Babys heart beat was 160. Sending positive thoughts for all you ladies.
I just got caught back up on this board, and I want to say that you ladies are truly inspirational. Everyone here is going through so much, but I will say that this is by far the most positive and uplifting of any of the boards I've been on. It's great to see so many ladies lifting one another up instead of tearing each other down. I wish each and every one of you the absolute best of luck with your pregnancy endeavors this go around.
I had my 12 week ultrasound and first visit with MFM this week. Baby is doing very well, he/she was even sucking their thumb and wiggling a ton. We got to hear a strong little heartbeat, too. MFM is monitoring an underlying kidney issue (scarring in kidney filters) which is causing high blood pressure. I had pre-eclampsia with my DS in 2013, so we're trying to get the BP under control early this time. I go in 2 weeks to have an EKG and echocardiogram just to ensure that the high BP isn't affecting my heart in any way. He has put me on a higher BP med, changed my thyroid med to non-generic due to headaches, and started baby aspirin daily to try and cut the risk of pre-eclampsia. I'm also in love with my diclegis for morning sickness, because without it I'm a nauseous pukey mess...lol. I'm so excited for baby in December! I'm just hoping this time around it will be a healthier 9 months getting there. I go for a gestational diabetes test this week as well, and due to a 3 week lapse in insurance coverage (UGH!!!) due to changing jobs, I will have my gender scan on July 22nd. I am not patient...ha! I will be over the moon happy either way, I'm just nosey and want to know!
Sending happy thoughts to all of you!
Dx with PCOS in 2004; TTC #1 since 2006. 6 failed rounds of Clomid, 1 failed round of injectibles, innumerable failed cycles of herbs, accupuncture, etc.
FINALLY got BFP on 10/4/2012 after 2 rounds of Femara
Can't wait to be a mommy!
I'm high risk because I have early gestational diabetes and I'm also being watched due to leep procedures from recurrent pre-cancerous cells I had on my cervix. Since I've had 3 leeps my dr says I'm at higher risk to have incompetent cervix from scar tissue which means I have ultrasounds every other week to measure my cervix and make sure it's not thinning. On top of it I had vanishing twin syndrome, to sum it up I was pregnant with twins but lost one at around 6 weeks along. I'm 14 weeks now. Needless to say This pregnancy is way different than when I had my son. I had no complications with him. Just hoping I get a healthy baby at the end of all of this!
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Hey ladies.... this post has gotten quite lost on our board. Should we start a new post each week for check in, like the PGAL and appt thread???
I have my level ii anatomy scan an amnio tomorrow. I could use all the good vibes and healthy baby thoughts you've got. We really need this to be our miracle baby!!! We won't have the amnio results back for a few weeks, but we had an idea that our other 2 children were not healthy just from the scan alone. {Son's showed hyperplastic left heart and daughters showed polycystic kidneys, both are part of the possible side effects from the chromosome abnormality they may inherit.... so we weren't quite as blind sided when we got the bad news from the amnio}. Oh and I hope babe cooperates and shows us their bits too!!! hehehehe I'm kind of worried that it won't be good news tomorrow since the baby was already measuring a week ahead at my last ultrasound.... and overgrowth is also part of their chromosomes. Son was 6lbs 13oz at 35 weeks and daughter was 7lbs 3oz at 32 weeks. So I've been trying to be mentally prepared for bad news again, but I just don't want to accept it. I. can. not. go through losing a 3rd infant. Please be healthy, just big.... I can totally live with that. My husband was a large baby at 9lbs something... so it may not be bad news yet.... Ok, I'm rambling now, gonna go and clean something LOL
@imfunsizeniki I hope everything with the amino turns out with no problems! I too have a chromosome disorder that runs in my husbands family. I know how scary it is, the fear of the unknown! Thoughts and prayers!
We found out its a boy. But we chose not to do the amnio at all since we could tell from the ultrasound that he's not healthy. No point in a needle in my belly to tell me what we already know. Heart defect of some sort and kidney issues again.... Belly is already huge....
Re: Calling all high risk mamas.
@memorylayne78 you certainly have been through a lot. I admire the way you are approaching this pregnancy with optimism and the fact that you have been willing and ready to try again despite your losses. Praying everything works out for you this time.
I'm blessed that my issues don't really threaten the peanuts but I have to be closely monitored 2 weeks after delivery for bleeding & 4+ weeks after if I have a c section.
My only real issue with all of it is that I can't deliver at the hospital of my choice but will have deliver 1.5 hours away ...
I love this group already. It is so hard being high risk, and being a survivor of repeated loss and infertility, its amazing to find others going through pregnancies that aren't just happy, joyous and naive and still we are doing our best to be happy an as joyful and positive as we can. I appreciate everyone's opens and care for others.
This is our miracle! My Dr. Told me that I am basically high risk for every reason down the list. Which I knew I would be if I was ever to become pregnant again. Here is why I am high risk:
1. High blood pressure, kidney disorder, blood clotting disorder, my favorite: "advanced maternal age". I'm 41 for crying out loud! You'd think I would need a Paleontologist, not an OB! ;-)
2.On paper I am a horrible retched term chronic aborted, which means I miscarry - a lot. - sorry, sorry here Is where it gets long and sorta sad - BUT THEN IT GETS AWESOME! So stick with me. ♡
I have been pregnant 9 times. I have 2 children. They They are both in their teens now and from my first marriage when I was very young. They are my world. I got remarried over 7 years ago when they were still little, got pregnant right away. We lost lost hat quickly as it was an ectopic. I did not lose a tube nor need surgery, but was given methotrexate and many blood drawings for weeks and painful tests over the next 6 months to make sure I was clear. Got pregnant right away abt 7 months later and lost it at 6 weeks spontaneously. 2 months later we were pregnant again. Things were glorious, except for for the barfing which was normal. As soon as I felt "comfortable", on my 16 week check there was no longer a heartbeat. We were devastated. Had a D&C and much testing. Discovered I had Hyperhomocysteinemia. Started my now life long regiment of 81 aspirin and folic acid. I didn't get pregnant again for about a year as we needed time to heal, but never used any prevention. Began to see fertility specialists. Clomid, IUI's, months of blood blood draws d ultrasounds, finally we were pregnant again. We lost that one at 9 weeks. This time I was just plain ole pissed off. More fertility treatments, pregnant again, only to loose again acid 12 weeks..again no heartbeat and another D&C. So we hung it up bc I just couldn't survive anymore. It had changed me. I had not only become this sad, broken women, but I was now the woman who couldn't have children and was quickly nearing dinosaur age in reproductive yeats.
A yr or so later I got a job where IVF was actually covered. We were excited. Scared still, bc now not only was my trouble getting pregnant but no guarantee that once they got me pregnant I would stay that way. Long story, a bit shorter, after all the thousands we did put out and all the needle sticks and injections, they only gave me one try on the meds and decided decided that I did not respond to them. So there there was nothing else they could do for me. My options were to get get a a donor egg, or consider adoption. I got he same opinion from a second fertility specialist in the area. Both stating that while in theory (in regard to me ever getting pregnant on my own without aid) "stranger things have happened", but they wouldn't say to hold holdout hope. That I was in very early onset Menopause. Menopause!!! At 40! Talk about a self-esteem booster.
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So once again, I cried, battled depression for a good month or two, felt worthless and all that. Then i accepted and moved on. You know, I have 2. I adore them like like moons and the stars stars and I am fulfilled. But my husband, who is younger than me...yeah that happened, he has no biological childRen and has always wanted them.
Anyway, so all of a sudden a few weeks ago I asked him to to clean th3 pan I'd used to take bacon for 3 teenagers that morning. When he moved the grease around the pan I gagged and ran to the bathroom to throw up. :-& :-/ so of course I figured I guess I will take a test and see. BFP!!! and I mean like faster than I ran to that bathroom to puke, that line showed up. I was in shock!! Do the next day I took 4 more. Hahahahaha!
This ia our miracle. I am now 9 weeks, passing 3 milestones of thw past. I have a fetal doppler so I can listen to the heartbeat, but I have rules. I only do it when he is home, only during hours the Dr office is open. This way if I no longer find it, I can get to the Dr., he can drive, and help me not lose my mind entirely.
I am praying everyday. I am even grateful for my aching boobs, head, all the puking, and we'll not grateful that I'm not sleeping but I will sure take it if it means I actually get to birth a live baby. I will be going back in 2 weeks for more testing, then to see a MFM Dr. And find out their plan for my care. I I will be taking the aspiring probably the whole time until we know when i will deliver. Doc saI'd he and I will both be happy if I make it to 35 weeks, and likely they will schedule me for delivery.
In all of this I I am grateful for all those beautiful souls chosing me as their vessel for their short journey onto their next, for the growth it has caused, for the gift of helping others get through their journey of loss and hope, and most of all to appreciate appreciate miracle of reproduction for the amazing gift that it is. I'm not are I would be here today if I had suffered what some of you have. My heart is with joy and hope, and may we all get there!!! :x
@FaithHopeMiracle Congrats!! Sending you all the sticky vibes for your rainbow baby!
Hugs and prayers for healing and peace.
@twointow83 I am so sorry for your loss! If you have tried all of the other methods, I would suggest that you log onto theknot.com and contact their administration. Hopefully that should help you. Again I am sorry for your loss and I hope that you get your rainbow baby soon.
I'm hoping I don't require an amnio. The twins were genetically perfect and right on track when they were born, they were just too darn young to make it. I'm going to the genetic counselor on the 9th, but I worry about the risk of the cvs or amnio and preterm labor.
In other news...
I'm now dying of what I think might be bubonic plague... Or maybe just a viral cold thing, whatever. I just want to take some NyQuil and sleep until it's gone, but I guess I'll have to settle for Benedryl, hot tea and the Neti pot.
I received the results from the CVS test today and I am so relieved that all the chromosomes came back normal!!! And it's another boy! I kinda wanted a girl because we already have a boy, but it sure will be cheaper seeing as I saved all my baby stuff!
Did the blood draw for the Counsyl test, see Dr again in 4 weeks (uugghhh) and will be contacted in the next few days for my 1st appt with the MFM Dr.
Still putting forth faith and prayers and hoping this baby continues to grow and thrive. Begging actually. ♡♡
Me (38) & DH (48). Married since 5/5/13, TTC since then!
MFI - low counts, low motility
IUI #1: 6/28/14
I had my 12 week ultrasound and first visit with MFM this week. Baby is doing very well, he/she was even sucking their thumb and wiggling a ton. We got to hear a strong little heartbeat, too. MFM is monitoring an underlying kidney issue (scarring in kidney filters) which is causing high blood pressure. I had pre-eclampsia with my DS in 2013, so we're trying to get the BP under control early this time. I go in 2 weeks to have an EKG and echocardiogram just to ensure that the high BP isn't affecting my heart in any way. He has put me on a higher BP med, changed my thyroid med to non-generic due to headaches, and started baby aspirin daily to try and cut the risk of pre-eclampsia. I'm also in love with my diclegis for morning sickness, because without it I'm a nauseous pukey mess...lol. I'm so excited for baby in December! I'm just hoping this time around it will be a healthier 9 months getting there. I go for a gestational diabetes test this week as well, and due to a 3 week lapse in insurance coverage (UGH!!!) due to changing jobs, I will have my gender scan on July 22nd. I am not patient...ha! I will be over the moon happy either way, I'm just nosey and want to know!
Sending happy thoughts to all of you!