Hello all! I've had my account almost 10 days, and every morning I sit here and start typing my intro post and end up deleting. I've been a long time lurker, and I'm finally ready to join the community and participate but I'm scared. I also really need the support. I'm 26, married, and we've been TTC #1 since Aug 2013. At that time, I went to my OBGYN for a full checkup. She told me I should probably work on getting my weight down, but gave me the 'all clear' to go for the BFP.
It's funny, I remember after that I started buying baby clothes (clearance deals at Target, onsies and little bath robes). I couldn't contain my excitement. I even began planning the birth announcement and how we would surprise our parents. I truly believed we would be pregnant within 3 months. Month after month I went through the same emotional roller coaster that I know you all have been through countless times. The excitement of BD with DH and knowing it could lead to our baby, the horrid TWW where every cramp, hiccup and pang is a possible symptom of pregnancy, trying desperately to wait until at least 8DPO to POAS and failing horribly, which leads to a trip to Dollar Tree to re-up on 10 more tests! Getting my BFN month after month. Buying every conception book you can imagine. Tracking my period, temping and graphing, countless OPKs, eating more yams, eating more leafy greens, switching pre-natals, trying pre-seed, throwing my legs over my head, BDing in every position imaginable. IT'S EXHAUSTING! Oh, and not to mention that in addition to ALL THIS, you have mom, SIL, sister, friends, etc. all asking "are you pregnant yet?" because I was a blabbermouth in the early stages and wanted to shout "we're TTC!" from the rooftops. Watching friend after friend post FB pictures of ultrasounds, baby showers, births, and those "monthly" photos with the numbered patches everyone seems to have.
I knew it was finally time to woman-up and post here when I was actually jealous of Kim Kardashian. Seriously, what's wrong with me? I knew she was having trouble TTC for about 18 months, so poor girl was going through what all of us are, and still I thought, "SHE ALREADY HAS EVERYTHING!" As if her being successful means she doesn't deserve children? I'm a jerk, I know.
Anyway, I finally decided that enough is enough and I made my first appt with an infertility specialist for Friday. You may wonder why it has taken so long for me to do that, and the answer is that I'm an idiot. I was/am scared. I'm scared they will just look at me and say, "well, you're overweight so...." and close their books. I'm scared they will say I can't have kids. I'm scared I'll need surgery or some type of procedure we can't afford. I'm scared to death. DH is also having his sperm checked. We are both on edge this week.
So, anyway, sorry for the long rant. I can't talk to my friend's and family about this. It's too private, too raw. I promise to be more involved in this community and I can't wait to get to know the ladies here and hear their stories and advice!!
Married since Nov 2012
TTC #1 since Aug 2013
Had first infertility appt June 5, 2015, but further testing was not needed
because we miraculously fell pregnant! I am currently 6 weeks along.
Re: Intro! (Kind of long, sorry)
I always feel like doing a fist pump when someone says that they bit the bullet and made an appointment with a fertility specialist. It's a scary step but once you have done it you will feel so empowered. Getting real answers makes such a difference.
A good doctor will not turn you away based solely on your weight. For many of us, the extra weight is caused by our fertility issues and not the other way around... like PCOS and thyroid issues. You are entitled to quality care, period. Some procedures like IVF might have weight targets, but there are always options. Since extra weight does affect your medication dosages and effectiveness, it's always a good idea to work on it of course. I am battling losing weight myself and it's so freaking hard.
Anyway I'm rambling on so I'll stop here by saying I'm sorry that you have to be here but really glad that you found us.
Married for 7 years, TTC for 4 years
dx: Diminished Ovarian Reserve
2 Clomid IUI's + 4 injectable IUI's= 5 BFNs and 1 mc
TTC #1 since Aug 2013
Had first infertility appt June 5, 2015, but further testing was not needed
because we miraculously fell pregnant! I am currently 6 weeks along.
UPDATE: I had my appt this morning and it wasn't all I'd hoped it would be. They basically just talked to me and set me up for blood work on day 3 of my cycle and an ultrasound on day 21. Also DH has to have his semen tested. After these 3 tests they will evaluate and let us know if they need to do more testing or prescribe Clomid. Sigh!!
TTC #1 since Aug 2013
Had first infertility appt June 5, 2015, but further testing was not needed
because we miraculously fell pregnant! I am currently 6 weeks along.
Married for 7 years, TTC for 4 years
dx: Diminished Ovarian Reserve
2 Clomid IUI's + 4 injectable IUI's= 5 BFNs and 1 mc