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Hi all I'm new to these boards I've been looking through for a couple of days .. I'll tell you some of my story so I'm around 5-6 weeks pregnant .. We have a 7 year old and a 6 month old that sadly passed away due to extreme premiturity both girls.. Now that I am again pregnant I am feeling very anxious & scared the reasons I had DD2 early was due to the fact I have APS (blood disorder) that I had no idea about until I ended up in ICU from having multiple strokes... After that episode they put me on clexane everything went well for a little bit until I then got server pre eclampsia I was then hospitalised again where I had to have a c-section.. So now I'm on clexane early and I hope everything goes ok but I'm not as excited and it makes me feel guilty... Then when I see a glimmer of excitement I then feel guilt for my baby angel..
Well that's me

H&H 9 months to all