I found out I was preg a few days before we left for 2.5 weeks overseas visiting relatives. I can't get my head in the game, trying to figure out how to be patient, flexible, friendly is impossible. There's rising panic anytime I need to pee, need water or need food, because everything is so much harder to coordinate when you're in an unfamiliar environment with freaking incessant chatty relatives who have no idea. I miss wine. I'm jet lagged and preg tired, which is a really bad combo as it turns out. Sigh.
I'm tired all the freaking time. All I want to do is sleep, sleep, sleep! Still live at home with my parents and don't know when to tell them. I'm a FTM and my bf is acting like a child and has been more bitchy than me lately. I'm always hungry but barely have an appetite. I feel like I wanna gag when I eat. My parents forbid me on moving in with my bf until we are married (very religious). My bf isn't happy about that because he wants us all to be a family. Not ready to marry him because he has a lot of growing up to do first. My mom keep asking me to do things such as clean up with cleaners that are horrible to my nose and lift heavy things and I can't tell her that I'm pregnant because my bf wants me to be a little further along. I go to get a U/S tomorrow (6w 3d) so I'm nervous about that. I have no energy to do anything!! And I'm always frustrated (
@juneandboo After my mc in Dec we went to Australia for a week (3 days after d&c) to meet my fiance's ENTIRE family. Horrible. Game. FACE. I Leave for Nyc today then to texas, south carolina, and nashville for the next week and a half. Barf....then Australia in June again. Double barf.
I made a mistake at work so minor fixed it before the order went out and I bursted into tears which is not like me at all. I'm so tired I don't want to wait for June 1st for my appointment and I wish I was in bed cuddling with my little boy (my kitten)
I'm not exaggerating when I say I do everything at my job. I'm the Assistant Manager and take on all the tasks of the Branch Manager and my own so he gets go out and schmooze with our business clients.
Yesterday he told me I don't do enough. I wanted to punch him, but all I could do is cry because I'm so hormonal. I'm sure this will just further assure him that women can't handle themselves in the workplace.
I'm trying to eat healthier, and of course the office ordered in a half dozen Round Table Pizzas today. I'm trying to work while I wait for everyone else to eat the kinds I like so the temptation will pass...
I am reluctantly at work today. I have an US this afternoon because of my shitty hcg levels. YAY so I have been reading and have already diagnosed myself with an ectopic. I'm pretty certain this will be my last day with you lovely ladies....and now I'm choking back tears!
On top of that my co-worker is being a total B! She just refused to add an equipment to the computer system because she "doesn't get paid enough" and "someone else can deal with it" This comes after my boss telling me I need to keep her busy because she said she doesn't stay busy enough and wants to drop her hours.
And out of nowhere my lower back around my pelvis feels like it's going to break into a million pieces. That's a new one!
We are in the same situation. Beta hell. Since my u/s yesterday showed just a sac they send me for more bloodwork today. #5. My arms are so bruised. Fx for good results at your u/s. How far along are you?
I keep dropping things. Got back from the grocery store and I dropped the milk, which then spilled all over the driveway. Then made myself a huge salad for lunch that I was finally wanting to eat. Yup dropped the entire thing carrying it outside to have a picnic with DS. (
I am reluctantly at work today. I have an US this afternoon because of my shitty hcg levels. YAY so I have been reading and have already diagnosed myself with an ectopic. I'm pretty certain this will be my last day with you lovely ladies....and now I'm choking back tears!
On top of that my co-worker is being a total B! She just refused to add an equipment to the computer system because she "doesn't get paid enough" and "someone else can deal with it" This comes after my boss telling me I need to keep her busy because she said she doesn't stay busy enough and wants to drop her hours.
And out of nowhere my lower back around my pelvis feels like it's going to break into a million pieces. That's a new one!
We are in the same situation. Beta hell. Since my u/s yesterday showed just a sac they send me for more bloodwork today. #5. My arms are so bruised. Fx for good results at your u/s. How far along are you?
I am 5+2 today. How far along are you? I don't think they will see anything aside from placement but going for an US in a bit. Guess they just want to check for ectopic.
I don't know exactly but my guess is 5w 4 or 5 days. They were concerned about ectopic with me also. Luckily that's not the issue with me but the sac they found in my uterus is measuring 5w1d. Couldn't see anything in it. At this point I just want to know if it's over. Limbo is the devil and I'm so frustrated. I'm sure you are too! I'm sorry you're going through this as well.
@andrea0418 5 weeks seems soon to be finding anything more than a sac, but that's my opinion LOL and I CLEARLY didn't go to medical school L-) I mean so much changes in just a couple of days, I could see them being concerned if it was closer to 6 weeks. Agreed, the wait is killer. When will they have your lab results?
Yea that's what they said too. For 5 weeks that's normal to only see a sac. The issue is just that my hcg isn't increasing enough. 5/7 91 5/9 235 Doubled! Seemed good. Told me to have it done in 1wk then once it's over 2,000 they would schedule an u/s to rule out ectopic because of my history. I only have 1 tube and ovary. Went back 5/16 1,359 Not doubling every 48hrs 5/18 1,829 Really slowing down. So now I don't know what to think. Hopefully they call with today's results before the end of the day.
Yea that's what they said too. For 5 weeks that's normal to only see a sac. The issue is just that my hcg isn't increasing enough. 5/7 91 5/9 235 Doubled! Seemed good. Told me to have it done in 1wk then once it's over 2,000 they would schedule an u/s to rule out ectopic because of my history. I only have 1 tube and ovary. Went back 5/16 1,359 Not doubling every 48hrs 5/18 1,829 Really slowing down. So now I don't know what to think. Hopefully they call with today's results before the end of the day.
It didn't double, but it still went up by almost 60%! I'm still have highly hopes for you! Keep us updated!
@SullyN, I did the same freaking thing. Dropped my Tupperware full of rice today, and it exploded all over my classroom floor. If I didn't have a class full of kids, I think I would have cried.
Yea that's what they said too. For 5 weeks that's normal to only see a sac. The issue is just that my hcg isn't increasing enough. 5/7 91 5/9 235 Doubled! Seemed good. Told me to have it done in 1wk then once it's over 2,000 they would schedule an u/s to rule out ectopic because of my history. I only have 1 tube and ovary. Went back 5/16 1,359 Not doubling every 48hrs 5/18 1,829 Really slowing down. So now I don't know what to think. Hopefully they call with today's results before the end of the day.
It didn't double but those are still high numbers. My Sono showed pretty much nothing! A little itty bitty something which he hopes will grow. And he couldn't rule out an ectopic so I'm not sure why he had me come for a Sono. Back to the waiting!
I got four hours of sleep last night because DH and I had a fight that left me so upset it was really hard to calm down. I feel like I'm alone because he's being totally emotionally unsupportive right now. I'm on an emotional roller coster that I can't get off of: emotional, sad, scared, happy, and crying too much at random things.
@SBH041815 my DH is being the same. He's always had trouble understanding me when I'm emotional because he's very logical and is able to set his emotions aside very easily, which I admire because he's always been able to stay strong and get us through hardships. But lately Ive been feeling so alone because he can't empathize at all. He tries but this is not his forte and so he ends up frustrated when I'm constantly demanding more, and then his frustration makes me feel as if I'm burdening him and I cry and blah blah blah. I hate these mood swings
Last night my *brilliant* husband called on his way home from work and asked me if I wanted anything from the store. I asked for caffeine-free coke and if they didn't have that then sprite or root beer.
He came home with Diet Fucking Coke. It is almost 24 hours later and I am still enraged.
Sigh... I have to come in and recant my bitching about DH.... He came home with a watermelon, did the dinner dishes, is putting the kids to bed, and we discussed his party and that we would supply hotdogs only and everyone had to bring their own anything the fuck else they want. I guess he was just going to invite 2 people, but more just kind of joined in. As long as I don't have to deal with shit and can sit here eating my melon, I'm fine.
@SullyN, I did the same freaking thing. Dropped my Tupperware full of rice today, and it exploded all over my classroom floor. If I didn't have a class full of kids, I think I would have cried.
To all of the ladies in beta hell...FX for you!!
I was so ready to cry but my son had a friend over and they were both staring at me like "what's wrong with you?" HA!
I told DH when he got home from work to which he said "so yeah stop dropping things." Thanks Captain obvious!
@SBH041815 my DH is being the same. He's always had trouble understanding me when I'm emotional because he's very logical and is able to set his emotions aside very easily, which I admire because he's always been able to stay strong and get us through hardships. But lately Ive been feeling so alone because he can't empathize at all. He tries but this is not his forte and so he ends up frustrated when I'm constantly demanding more, and then his frustration makes me feel as if I'm burdening him and I cry and blah blah blah. I hate these mood swings
I feel for you! Mine keeps telling me to calm down and just discuss everything rationally and that just makes me madder than I was...it's a vicious cycle right now!
I realize it's the Fri before a long wknd, so I shouldn't complain, but... My nausea is so bad today and my almost 1 year old won't stop pooping!! She's like a twice a week pooper and she's gone 3 times today!!! It smells so bad, and I almost puke on her every time I change her diaper... Ugh - gross!!! Sorry this post is nasty. That is all.
Don't you just love when DH points out how lazy you've been due to morning sickness? This is my first pregnancy and Idk how normal it is to vomit everyday all day with morning sickness but I'm definitely not exaggerating. My DH has seen me at my worst and still complains that the house is a mess and theres no clean laundry! That there are so many pregnant women out there that can do it all. Hmmm okay, do you not see my face buried in the waste basket all day? Do you not have two hands of your own and a capable brain? Do you want me to rip your face off? I already feel bad that MS is getting the best of me with out him whining about how much of a mess the house is and how I'm over exaggerating. I would love to be catered to and cared for right now, but the likelihood of that ever happening, probably slim to none. I just wish I had a more sympathetic spouse. ( okay *bitchy rant over*
I can't stand my coworkers. I'm praying I can get early pregnancy disability leave so I won't have to deal with them until the second trimester (or never, I'm ok with never). One coworker is pregnant too and she had the nerve to ask me if my pregnancy was planned or an accident. Lady, I tried to conceive for 5 goddamn years how dare you!!! And she's constantly leaving work 2 hours early every other day since I started working which leaves us understaffed and overworked (I'm a preschool teacher). Yet I'm expected to be at work on time for my shift no matter how bad my all day morning sickness or round ligament pain which consists of intense cramping that knocks the wind out of me is. No thanks. And my morning sickness consists of such bad nausea all I can do is close my eyes until it passes or until I can eat which it's hard and unsanitary to eat during work hours so I stay sick. Finally my SO is being a spoiled brat right now with his food cravings and extreme fatigue, lol. I can't look to him for emotional support and all I hear from my family is to not stress out or else the baby will be stressed too.
Re: Wednesday morning bitchfest
Danny hormones
End rant
Yesterday he told me I don't do enough. I wanted to punch him, but all I could do is cry because I'm so hormonal. I'm sure this will just further assure him that women can't handle themselves in the workplace.
/endrant
I'm impressed with my own will power though!
They were concerned about ectopic with me also. Luckily that's not the issue with me but the sac they found in my uterus is measuring 5w1d. Couldn't see anything in it.
At this point I just want to know if it's over. Limbo is the devil and I'm so frustrated. I'm sure you are too!
I'm sorry you're going through this as well.
5/7 91
5/9 235
Doubled! Seemed good. Told me to have it done in 1wk then once it's over 2,000 they would schedule an u/s to rule out ectopic because of my history. I only have 1 tube and ovary.
Went back
5/16 1,359
Not doubling every 48hrs
5/18 1,829
Really slowing down.
So now I don't know what to think.
Hopefully they call with today's results before the end of the day.
To all of the ladies in beta hell...FX for you!!
He came home with a watermelon, did the dinner dishes, is putting the kids to bed, and we discussed his party and that we would supply hotdogs only and everyone had to bring their own anything the fuck else they want. I guess he was just going to invite 2 people, but more just kind of joined in.
As long as I don't have to deal with shit and can sit here eating my melon, I'm fine.
I told DH when he got home from work to which he said "so yeah stop dropping things." Thanks Captain obvious!
My nausea is so bad today and my almost 1 year old won't stop pooping!! She's like a twice a week pooper and she's gone 3 times today!!! It smells so bad, and I almost puke on her every time I change her diaper... Ugh - gross!!! Sorry this post is nasty. That is all.