Can I sound off about my U/S tech today just for a minute? I need to get these feelings out because they have been giving me anxiety all day. This was a very painful transvaginal ultrasound due to the infection and the last time I had an ultrasound it was the worst day of my life.
First, after hearing what happened and getting a history she said "yeah, I'm sure you guys will be more cautious in sharing your pregnancy so early next time" Uhm. I was 11 weeks. We had heard a heartbeat. But even if I was 5 weeks it wouldn't have made a difference. I am so happy have I have joyous memories of this baby, and am so glad I have a support system rallied around me right now. Instead of just remembering the moment when my baby passed, I have memories of how thrilled my dad was when he found out he was going to have a second grandchild. I remember the tears running down my mom's face from excitement. The surprise from our friends and family. The fact that this baby was SO LOVED just in the short time he or she was here gives me so much joy. So no, I wouldn't do anything different.
Second, she said "yeah, they had to call me in to do your ultrasound. They apologized for calling my in on a Sunday, but I just live down the road and I make so much more money when I'm called in so it's all good" Uh, sorry I'm an inconvenience? Glad you're making bank off of my tragedy?
Third, she said "I've never been through this myself, but I know people who have. You know, God just has a purpose in everything. Your baby was just too beautiful for earth" WHAT IS WITH THE TOO BEAUTIFUL FOR EARTH BULLSHIT? Do people actually believe that? Is that supposed to be comforting in any way? WT actual F?
Re: D/C Thursday, Uterine infection today, traumatizing transvaginal ultrasound.
DD1 - BFP 7/23/15 (EDD 3/31/16). "We believe in you rainbow" DOB 4/2/16
DD2 - BFP 2/9/18 (EDD 10/19/18). "Grow baby grow!" DOB 10/24/18
BFP 11/16/20 (EDD 7/31/21). "Round 3 FIGHT!"