Postpartum Depression Round 3!

I have suffered from Postpartum Depression two separate time before this time. My first time suffering from PPD was after I delivered my daughter Kendall in November 2012 and instead of telling anyone i just suffered all alone. and my second time was January 2014 after my second miscarriage and I shared it my OB and she prescribed an anti depression and now I am suffering again. I am feeling so overwhelmed, I feel like everything is just coming at me, I am trying to potty training daughter while caring for my 2 month old son. I am trying to deal with it one day at a time but it is so hard because every day there is a new challenge that is bringing me down more, some days I just feel like giving up and running away, because I feel like I am all alone with raising and caring for my children and I feel like my husband doesn't find me attractive anymore. I hate the way my body looks and feels and I am so exhausted that I don't have the energy to do anything to make it look better. This passed Tuesday at a ladies prayer meeting I texted the pastors wife, Mrs. Charity how leads the ladies prayer meeting and asked her could she teach a ladies meeting on depression and ways to over come it and she said she would work on a lesson for it, because I need help with it. I am praying that with time things will get better, because I have decided not to take anti depressants.