Hello, I gave birth to my beautiful little boy 8 weeks ago. I love him more than anything in the world but lately I'm starting to feel overwhelmed and trapped. I'm not depressed, just very tired and out of ideas. Apparently, I didn't get the memo that you're suppose to put baby in the crib as soon as you bring him home. I was just so happy to have him home because we thought he'd have to stay in NICU a little longer (small congenital heart defect). Whether this would've made a difference, I don't know, but he won't sleep in a crib, bassinet, swing, rock n play, car seat, etc...only my arms. For that matter, I can't put him down at...ever... For more than 15 minutes without him crying. They say not to CIO but I've let him go a little bit just out of desperation. The sling works sometimes but my back is killing me. Every night we spend hours just getting him to stay asleep in his bassinet just to get 1.5-2 hours of sleep. When we are holding him we have to have him on our shoulder and walking around. We sit or try to cradle him and he cries. We're so worn out. I feel like my body, my mind has been sucked dry and I'm a walking zombie. I feel horrible too, like I'm a bad mom. This doesn't seem normal and I can't make my baby happy and I have a hard time knowing that eveytime I nap with him in my arms that I put him in harms way but I'm sooooooo exhausted. It doesn't make matter better that I worry about him constantly, thinking his ASD (a heart defect, which his is minor) is going to cause him problems. His pediatrician says to "just keep trying to put him down". He does have very minor reflux, but he sleeps fine (for hours) on his back in my arms and has no trouble eating... I've ranted.. I just feel helpless... Not hopeless... But helpless. I need something to give... Desperately.