It sounds trivial at this point but I'm kind of freaking out about the timing of all this. DD's original due date was Jan 24, 2011 but she was born early by c-section on Dec 30, 2010 due to preterm labor, double kidney infection, and being breech. I really struggle with the fact that she is born so close to Christmas and there are 2 other family birthdays in December, one of which is the day after hers. I am always depressed in December and have a hard time coping with the craziness of life around that time. Everyone is always sick and exhausted after all the holiday stuff. I never want her to feel like her birthday is not special or important.
So here we are now, hoping to be pregnant soon which will put our due date somewhere in December if the FET works next month. I know that so many things go into it and we might not even get pregnant soon but even if it doesn't work next month and works in April, we could have a repeat early birth in December anyway. I really don't want to put getting pregnant off any longer but I'm really stressing over this. Someone tell me it will be okay. Someone tell me that I'm just hormonal and freaking out. I know that I want another baby so badly that this shouldn't matter but I still feel guilty about my daughter's birth date four years later.
Clomid/IUI #1 Feb 2010- BFN
Clomid/IUI #2 Mar 2010 - BFP April 2010 DD born Dec 2010 :-)
Started TTC #2 Dec 2011
IUI #3-5 Aug thru Oct 2014 - BFN
HSG revealed one blocked tube but was unblocked during procedure
IUI #6 and 7 Nov/Dec 2014 - BFN
IVF #1 Feb 2015 - 19 eggs retrieved, ZERO fertilized initially, 2 fertilized with rescue ICSI, then 2 more then following day, all 4 frozen
FET #1 planned for mid-March