I'm not sure if this is okay to ask about or post here, so let me know if this is not okay.
Conner and Benjamin's first birthday is this Saturday. I am anxiously awaiting it and I am not sure how I feel about it. I keep getting flashbacks on what it was like to say hello to them, say goodbye, and leave the hospital without my babies. I know so many of us have gone through this major milestone before and many are close to their baby's first birthday, so I know that many of you know what I am talking about.
My husband and I have chosen to see our boys as the biggest blessings of our lives. Their birthday, also the day they went to heaven, was easily the best and worst day we have ever had. But I do not want their legacy to be pain and sadness, so we are doing Random Acts of Kindness in their names this weekend.