I hear birds chirping and choirs singing. Thanks to the humidifier, saline drops and a good nasal aspirator,y LO just went 4 hours between nursing for the first time in a week. Of course, I wasn't sleeping that whole time, but 2.45 hours is still spiffy!! Maybe the curse of the cold is lifting?!?
DH actually woke up when LO did in the MOTN and asked if I was tagging in. he did her last feeding before bed but was on the struggle bus with changing her diaper so she cried and woke me up. I'm getting payback today, I'm kicking him and LO out of the house so I can scrapbook. I want uninterrupted me time and when they are both home it doesn't happen. He's taking her to see GMIL (so glad I'm missing that one) and then to the ILs to watch football. I'm just excited to have the house to myself.
My parents came up this weekend... They were only here an hour last night before my mom was driving me crazy. She drinks way too much (and it was evident she had been drinking) so she kept asking and saying the same things over and over.
She also wants DS constantly. Don't get me wrong I am so glad he's loved, but maybe my dad would like to hold him too? And when he's obviously hungry maybe you can not take 5 min to give him to me? I told her she was a baby hog (sounded half kidding but wasn't really) and I think it hurt her feelings. I also told her we were going to have to work on boundaries. She won't remember any of it this morning though... We will have to have a heart to heart talk about her drinking because she will not be left alone with him as long as she keeps this up... It's been a problem for over 10 years.
She also wouldn't leave me along while I was trying to nurse DS. She asked if she could rub his back while he ate... No leave him alone. Today I'm not even going to let her in the nursery which I'm sure will hurt her feelings but she stresses me out. I feel like DS wasn't getting as much because I couldn't relax with her there.
.... And she wants to come see him every single weekend
*TW*
Me:35 DH:35 Dx: PCOS DS1 born 11/2014 DS2 born 11/2018 3 previous losses Rainbow babydue 12/2021 - Team Green
Tomorrow is my first day back to work (I'm a teacher), and I was dreaming last night that I went back and my kids were HORRIBLE! They weren't listening and super talkative which made me scream at them. That's making me even more scared to go back now!
@zengal - Rocky road pancakes?! Do share the recipe!
Yesterday was hell on earth. LO basically cried from 9 AM until 9 PM. He refused to nap all day long. I'd finally calm him down and he'd doze off for 10 minutes only to wake up screaming again. The only saving grace is that he slept from 10 to 3:30 - our longest stretch of sleep to date! And it was about 7 hours between feedings. It gives me a small ray of hope that he can sleep through the night. Of course with the good sleep comes problems of my own. I haven't been setting an alarm overnight to wake up and pump bc LO is up at least every 3 hours. Well I went 5.5 hours this time and holy rock hard boobies! 50 minutes of pumping later and I got 13 ounces and my boobs feel like normal again.
I also had an awful dream. Although mine was about DH. Apparently he had fallen in love with a yoga instructor who lived up the street and convinced me in the dream that he could be with both of us. With me because I was his family and she was his fun. I woke up crying. I know DH wouldn't ever do that but I felt so crummy and insecure in the dream. I woke up feeling like that. I just realized I have been wearing yoga pants and tanks for the past week. I think I get the dream now. Today I am going to put on real pants!
TTC Since 2009
BFP 1: Nov 2010 MMC at 5 Weeks
BFP 2: June 2010 First Round of Clomid Blighted Ovum at 7 weeks
Surprise BFP 3: Feb 2014, Healthy Baby Boy Due October 27th 2014. OB thinks this is it!
Tomorrow is my first day back to work (I'm a teacher), and I was dreaming last night that I went back and my kids were HORRIBLE! They weren't listening and super talkative which made me scream at them. That's making me even more scared to go back now!
I've had those dreams where the kids are horrible and I'm super mean to them...SO stressful! I'm always afraid I'm going to snap and be like that in real life.
I've had these dreams and I still don't go back until Feb. I think it's because my students have seen me at church and they let me know they miss me and then share all the things they've been doing with the sub that I don't let them do.
H sneezed really loud twice. LO pulled off, pouty lip, and cried. I told him his daddy was okay. Still crying. I told H to tell LO that he was okay. H said "I'm okay. I just sneezed." Crying stopped, eating resumed.
Lol too cute!! I love the pouty face, how do they know to do that!! Lol
We got a few pics of LO doing that during his 4D ultrasound. Precious!!
On another note I am thinking of leaving DH with a pumped bottle and going to get a mani/pedi today during the first football game. Just to be a dick. DH pissed me off yesterday by sleeping until he had to start getting ready to leave. He is usually pretty great but sometimes I don't think any man really "gets" it. Maybe this will help him understand why I need more help. Besides, they can put the game on for me at the salon.
Hmm... watching the game while getting your feet rubbed sitting in a massage chair? Hells yeah, count me in!
I also love the pouty face. I can't help but giggle every time Beckham pokes his lip out!
I start work back tomorrow. Of course Beckham has his 2 month shots tomorrow too. So, I will have 3 kids and one very fussy baby. I'm starting to get really nervouse! Luckily the nanny mom isn't traveling for a solid week so she will be there just in case!
Uh oh wife fail. I just woke up DH to check out the sunrise (it was a really pretty fluorescent orange) and he was like, "Do you need help? Time to swaddle?"
I guess a pretty sunrise doesn't warrant waking the beast! I enjoyed it though
Tomorrow LO starts daycare. These overly anxious fears of my LO getting sick and getting no attention makes me want to smack myself! I'm normally the laid back, it will help build their immunity type person. I think now I just need tomorrow to get here so it will be over and done with so I can move on from fretting about it.
My LO slept from 11-5 last night! I feel energized. It was amazing. I hope we can do this every night because I go back to work next week and that's the schedule we need to be on.
@dmo1371 -I'm so sorry you have to deal with this on top of taking care of a newborn. I think it is a great idea to set those boundaries now before LO gets older and it becomes more difficult. Maybe her grandchild is the motivation she needs to change?? Ten years of drinking is a long time and must be very hard on you. Big hugs >:D<
Why do I have to tell FIL 5 times that LO is hungry? I know he's not screaming, but his "coos" are cues and he's rooting, not cutely holding his head up! So either start lactating, or give me my baby!
I hate when people do that. Especially when it gets to the point of LO crying. Wtf is wrong with people?
*TW*
Me:35 DH:35 Dx: PCOS DS1 born 11/2014 DS2 born 11/2018 3 previous losses Rainbow babydue 12/2021 - Team Green
Idk what I ate yesterday or today that has LOs gas smelling deadly!! Smells like sulfur, that horrible rotten egg smell. And he just keeps passing gas. Dairy that I accidentally ate, eggs for breakfast, or oatmeal... Hmmm lol
ETA: his usual gas tears up my eyes. Like methane or cutting an onion or something. He's a grown little man.
Side note: does anyone else underarm hurts when LO is nursing? Wtf nerve is that right there. More annoying than painful but ouch...
I have this too. It is like a painful itch though. Ouch.
Parker was suppose to come yesterday but he didn't because it was raining. Ok. Whatever.
He was then suppose to come this morning but didn't because he didn't wake up. Ok. Cool.
He is now saying he isn't coming because he doesn't feel good. Ok. Wow.
You can't check out as a parent because you don't feel good. What do we do when we are sick?? We are still there for our babies.
So I have to go to another doctors appt with Beckham by myself. His 2 month is tomorrow and I start work right after. I was kind of hoping Parker would watch him while I work because I know he will need extra attention. Guess not.
I'm sorry @smboswell1. I'd come help if I was closer. Have you had a chance to talk about stuff with him yet?
I know you would! And kind of. I brought up how he needs to be here more and how he needs to be paying for stuff too. He didn't say much. He just said he was trying. I see no effort. He isn't willing to move here and he isn't spending enough time with Beckham. He can bail on me all he wants, but he sure as hell can't bail on Beckham.
@smboswell1 I'm sorry you're dealing with this. We have to be completely selfless as Moms pretty much all of the time (and we do it with a happy heart most days).
A lady at the grocery store offered to help me load my car last week when it was raining and I had LO. I was dragging the cart of groceries and pushing the baby in another, I politely declined and she replied, "We're Moms, we do what we gotta do." How true is that and now I'm almost in tears. It was so kind of her to offer and as moms we sacrifice so much for our babies (not saying Dads don't).
All of that just to say hang in there, you're doing awesome and you have us to vent to anytime!!
I spoke with the pediatrician, while I was snuggling Isaac to my shoulder, I smelled something kind of foul. I look over and see a shiny red spot under his neck fold. I lift it up and see there is white stuff and it is raw. He cried when I wiped the area. He doesn't have a temp, they said to keep it as dry as possible and sometimes diaper cream can help. If it doesn't get better by tomorrow I have to call. Tomorrow is my first day back at work. Praying it gets better. Poor little bear :-(
TTC Since 2009
BFP 1: Nov 2010 MMC at 5 Weeks
BFP 2: June 2010 First Round of Clomid Blighted Ovum at 7 weeks
Surprise BFP 3: Feb 2014, Healthy Baby Boy Due October 27th 2014. OB thinks this is it!
@smboswell1 ugh guys suck! He needs to get his shit together and realize that you don't get to pick and choose when you see your child like he is.
So we went out last night and the kids did great, besides the fact they were both WIDE awake when we came home at 1:30am. It was nice getting out with friends and hubs without any kids for the first time in practically a year!
Being a mom is hard enough as it is without being constantly questioned and second guessed. Every decision or action I make is wrong. I don't feed G enough, she's starving obviously because she's a skinny baby. She isn't bathed enough. She sleeps too much. She's too fussy. I'm a bad mom.
Oh, did I mention that all of this is done by my 6yr old step daughter? Sigh.
And the baby talk. Omg the baby talk. "Wats da matter wit dat whittle G?" Nothing. She's asleep. Get out of her face and keep your hands off her.
Today is my last day off. Back to work tomorrow. I am so scared.....LO is no where near ready to let me go to sleep on time. I wonder how long I can physically function on 3-4 hours of sleep per night.
Nov. '14 January Siggy : Work Sucks!
Me 32-DH 38
Married July 14, 2007 ----- TTC # 1 October 1, 2013 BFP March 7, 2014 ----- EDD November 17, 2014 ---- Baby boy born November 16, 2014
@smboswell1 - big hugs to you >:D< That must have been very hard to do. Hopefully it will be a wake up call for him to grow up.
@ClrkKntismyAE - omg. You must have been so freaked out! So glad they were able to come out quickly and unlock the door. Please don't beat yourself up. You were resourceful and handled the crisis. If it makes you feel any better when I was younger my mom locked herself out of the car with my sister and brother in it while the car was running. They survived to tell the tale.
@Ineedmorecoffee I'm almost at the end of rope and I know I shouldn't be. But I'm so tired of having every single thing I do with LO questioned by a child. This morning she told me I had put G in her car seat wrong. She wants to give her kisses and pet her when I'm nursing. And she's constantly comparing herself to G and telling me how she was a better baby for her mommy and daddy. She didn't ever cry when getting her diaper changed. Oh! And she thinks my daughters name is stupid. Sigh... This too shall pass.... Right?
@ClrkKntismyAE one time my mom locked my baby brother in the car and the fire dept didn't get there for almost 2 hours. Hugs to you
@smboswell1 I hope it works out for you and you get the support you need. I want to add I'm proud of you for standing up for you and Beckham, its seems to be hard for many women do what you just did.
@ClrkKntismyAE I'm glad there was someone to help you get back inside to the kiddos. That would have been so scary.
@AngelaL814 I wish you patiences as your SD continues to give advice. I think you win for the worst person giving you advice. I can eye roll at adults who give way to much advice but would become purturbed when a child keeps letting me know what I'm doing wrong.
I had a great afternoon working on DD's scrapbook alone in the house. Kicking DH out and having him take DD with him so I could have my me time was wonderful. Even DH commented on much happier I seemed when he got home. It was nice to be home and working on my hobby without feeling like I should be working on the chore list or worrying about DD everytime she makes a noise.
@angelal814 from my 8 yr old SD I get "is he getting a dipey change?" Duh "is he eating?" Duh like why state the obvious?
She also says, he eats too much, and he cries way too much. I didn't cry that much. You should take him to the dr and see why he cries. (He cries maybe a minute before he's either changed or stuck on my boob.. He doesn't cry that much)
Re: Sunday randoms
She also wants DS constantly. Don't get me wrong I am so glad he's loved, but maybe my dad would like to hold him too? And when he's obviously hungry maybe you can not take 5 min to give him to me? I told her she was a baby hog (sounded half kidding but wasn't really) and I think it hurt her feelings. I also told her we were going to have to work on boundaries. She won't remember any of it this morning though... We will have to have a heart to heart talk about her drinking because she will not be left alone with him as long as she keeps this up... It's been a problem for over 10 years.
She also wouldn't leave me along while I was trying to nurse DS. She asked if she could rub his back while he ate... No leave him alone. Today I'm not even going to let her in the nursery which I'm sure will hurt her feelings but she stresses me out. I feel like DS wasn't getting as much because I couldn't relax with her there.
.... And she wants to come see him every single weekend
Dx: PCOS
DS1 born 11/2014
DS2 born 11/2018
3 previous losses
Rainbow baby due 12/2021 - Team Green
Yesterday was hell on earth. LO basically cried from 9 AM until 9 PM. He refused to nap all day long. I'd finally calm him down and he'd doze off for 10 minutes only to wake up screaming again. The only saving grace is that he slept from 10 to 3:30 - our longest stretch of sleep to date! And it was about 7 hours between feedings. It gives me a small ray of hope that he can sleep through the night. Of course with the good sleep comes problems of my own. I haven't been setting an alarm overnight to wake up and pump bc LO is up at least every 3 hours. Well I went 5.5 hours this time and holy rock hard boobies! 50 minutes of pumping later and I got 13 ounces and my boobs feel like normal again.
I also had an awful dream. Although mine was about DH. Apparently he had fallen in love with a yoga instructor who lived up the street and convinced me in the dream that he could be with both of us. With me because I was his family and she was his fun. I woke up crying. I know DH wouldn't ever do that but I felt so crummy and insecure in the dream. I woke up feeling like that. I just realized I have been wearing yoga pants and tanks for the past week. I think I get the dream now. Today I am going to put on real pants!
I start work back tomorrow. Of course Beckham has his 2 month shots tomorrow too. So, I will have 3 kids and one very fussy baby. I'm starting to get really nervouse! Luckily the nanny mom isn't traveling for a solid week so she will be there just in case!
I guess a pretty sunrise doesn't warrant waking the beast! I enjoyed it though
We finally have my moms side of the family's Christmas party today. I am mostly excited for the food
@dmo1371 -I'm so sorry you have to deal with this on top of taking care of a newborn. I think it is a great idea to set those boundaries now before LO gets older and it becomes more difficult. Maybe her grandchild is the motivation she needs to change?? Ten years of drinking is a long time and must be very hard on you. Big hugs >:D<
Dx: PCOS
DS1 born 11/2014
DS2 born 11/2018
3 previous losses
Rainbow baby due 12/2021 - Team Green
Parker was suppose to come yesterday but he didn't because it was raining. Ok. Whatever.
He was then suppose to come this morning but didn't because he didn't wake up. Ok. Cool.
He is now saying he isn't coming because he doesn't feel good. Ok. Wow.
You can't check out as a parent because you don't feel good. What do we do when we are sick?? We are still there for our babies.
So I have to go to another doctors appt with Beckham by myself. His 2 month is tomorrow and I start work right after. I was kind of hoping Parker would watch him while I work because I know he will need extra attention. Guess not.
A lady at the grocery store offered to help me load my car last week when it was raining and I had LO. I was dragging the cart of groceries and pushing the baby in another, I politely declined and she replied, "We're Moms, we do what we gotta do." How true is that and now I'm almost in tears. It was so kind of her to offer and as moms we sacrifice so much for our babies (not saying Dads don't).
All of that just to say hang in there, you're doing awesome and you have us to vent to anytime!!
@smboswell1 ugh guys suck! He needs to get his shit together and realize that you don't get to pick and choose when you see your child like he is.
So we went out last night and the kids did great, besides the fact they were both WIDE awake when we came home at 1:30am. It was nice getting out with friends and hubs without any kids for the first time in practically a year!
Brycen is 2 months today!! Time is flying ya'll!
Oh, did I mention that all of this is done by my 6yr old step daughter? Sigh.
And the baby talk. Omg the baby talk. "Wats da matter wit dat whittle G?" Nothing. She's asleep. Get out of her face and keep your hands off her.
I need wine.
Nov. '14 January Siggy : Work Sucks!
Me 32-DH 38
Married July 14, 2007 ----- TTC # 1 October 1, 2013
BFP March 7, 2014 ----- EDD November 17, 2014 ---- Baby boy born November 16, 2014
Hugs @smboswell1 you and Beckham deserve the best and if Parker can't do that then he doesn't deserve to be in your lives
@ClrkKntismyAE - omg. You must have been so freaked out! So glad they were able to come out quickly and unlock the door. Please don't beat yourself up. You were resourceful and handled the crisis. If it makes you feel any better when I was younger my mom locked herself out of the car with my sister and brother in it while the car was running. They survived to tell the tale.
@ClrkKntismyAE one time my mom locked my baby brother in the car and the fire dept didn't get there for almost 2 hours. Hugs to you
@ClrkKntismyAE I'm glad there was someone to help you get back inside to the kiddos. That would have been so scary.
@AngelaL814 I wish you patiences as your SD continues to give advice. I think you win for the worst person giving you advice. I can eye roll at adults who give way to much advice but would become purturbed when a child keeps letting me know what I'm doing wrong.
I had a great afternoon working on DD's scrapbook alone in the house. Kicking DH out and having him take DD with him so I could have my me time was wonderful. Even DH commented on much happier I seemed when he got home. It was nice to be home and working on my hobby without feeling like I should be working on the chore list or worrying about DD everytime she makes a noise.
She also says, he eats too much, and he cries way too much. I didn't cry that much. You should take him to the dr and see why he cries. (He cries maybe a minute before he's either changed or stuck on my boob.. He doesn't cry that much)
Kids just think they know it all