How is your/your partner's TTC journey progressing, where are you at, and what's next?
*Reminder - If you have a BFP to announce, please do so by creating a new thread for everyone on the board to see. Thank you!
QOTW: What's your favourite film to watch at this time of year? Do you have a tradition?
Re: TTC Check-in (12/15)
I debated about checking in since I am feeling pestamistic but you all have been so supportive of me that it wouldn't be right to not check in. Also I need to climb out of the dark space I've been living in the past few days. Where did my zen speech go????
I'm 5dp5dt, and feel nothing. I know all to well how symptoms present or not present can mean nothing, it's just that I thought I would feel something. There are moments were I am so busy I even forget we did it. I have already cried over it not working and I haven't even tested yet. I know I feel this way for many reasons. The first being that we've been done this road too long and know how long it can take to actually get a baby. Secondly, we only transfered 1 which makes me think ours chances of sucess are less likely and thirdly, I'm not confident the stars have aligned for us on this try.
I've been dining alone at my pity party table because my wife is being positive about the whole thing, which for some reason is aggravating me. I just want to test and then drink some wine and move on.
@channe9, Good luck!!! Managing expectations for IVF is tricky. On the one hand you know that there is at least an embroyo in there, it just needs to implant. On the other hand, there are no gaurantees. With that being said I personaly will never do another IUI ever again. 12 was enough for us
I'm sorry I'm being a grinch about all of this.
@karlamo, The emotions that go along with TTC are quite real and very intense, more so than I prepared myself for in the beginning. When I got my BFP last month, I didn't feel anything at all until I was right around 12 DPO, and even then my symptoms were minimal. FX and GL that this is your lucky cycle as well!
So, as we head into our first try after last month's cp, we are doing our absolute best not to put too much pressure on ourselves. I am just entering my FW and having to share this time frame with another recipient has me a little on edge. Our donor will be flying out to make an IUI donation today or tomorrow, so until we know exactly when that will be taking place, we are hanging onto the hope that it doesn't conflict with our goal of -2, -1 & O inseminations. My journal is getting lots of use in helping to keep my concerns out rather than pent up, and we are just focusing on being as positive as possible.
Married: 10/4/2013
TTC Since September 2014
BFP 11/30/2014 ~ EDD 8/13/2015 ~ CP 12/5/2014
BFP #2 12/30/2014 ~ EDD 9/13/2015 Stick bean stick!
This whole process is a tricky thing when it doesn't work. It truly is a roller coaster of emotions. You're excited to cycle and for the chance of it producing a take home baby and then if it doesn't work, you're upset, angry, disappointed, devestated, etc. Then you have to gear up to try again - if you choose.
I'm having a hard time not getting excited for this fresh cycle that we're heading into now. The closer we get to stimming, the more excited I'm getting. I didn't want to, but with all of the pills and shots, I have to have some positive in this. My frozen cycle was barely tolerable because I was still depressed from the fresh cycle failure. Feel free to ask IVF questions to the whole board - there are many of us who have done it and we all have very different experiences.
@Karlamo - I'm sorry you're feeling the way you are. After all that you have been through, it's understandable. I hope that your feeling about it not working is wrong. We're always here when you need to vent!
@sdfonz619 - I hope all of the timing works out for you this cycle. Journaling is a great idea!
Me: 30 DW (aka C): 29
Together since 2/15/11 ~ Legally married in NY on 9/29/12
***CP mentioned***
We've been working on baby #1 since July 2013 using Open ID donor sperm. 8 IUI attempts with 5 actual IUIs and one chemical pregnancy. We have one fresh IVF cycle under our belts as well as a FET. I have endometriosis and a uterine septum that was corrected via surgery in November 2013.
11/14/14 - Second HSG shows that tubes are still clear and ute is looking good.
12/6/14 - Started BCPs in prep for IVF #2
12/22/14 - Saline u/s and endometrial scratch (All was clear and OUCH!)
1/2/15 - Began stimming for IVF #2
****All Welcome!****
We are Mommas to four fur babies - 3 dogs and 1 cat.
Thanks @sdfonz619
@StacyLH24, I'm happy to hear you are getting excited for stimming and trying again in general. It means you have hope and you're not ready to give up. At least that's how I always saw it. I knew if me or my wife ever went into a cycle feeling like what's the point, then that was our clue it's time to stop trying.
@stringy813 - FX for a BFP! It sounds like things did align for you, hopefully that's a great sign!
Ok...here's my update -
I am continuing on BCPs until 12/29, which means refilling my script to take just two extra pills. I'm guessing maybe it has to do with timing around the New Year? I'm not really sure. Also, I started an antibiotic on Friday (and now I want a glass of wine more than anything!). I'm on that up to transfer I think. I'm up to 9 pills a day at this point and I'm going to be adding in Vitamin E as well. Right before transfer I'll also be taking Benadryl daily and another medication that I need to pick up. I have zero tolerance for Benadryl type drugs, so I'm going to need to figure out the timing for that one so that I can still function clearly every day.
We go up next Monday for the saline u/s, mock transfer and endometrial scratch. The blood work and ultrasound fun starts in full on 12/30, stimming starts on 1/2 if all goes well before that. The nurse estimated that ER would be the week of 1/12. Last time I stimmed for 13 days I think. She said that I'll be starting with 450 iu of Gonal-F which will mean two injections per night since my pens don't go that high. My official calendar should be in the mail. It will be nice to see it all in writing instead of trying to keep it straight in my head right now.
I still need to reorder my Ganirelix, Ovidrel and PIO....holy meds batman! Not to mention the Valium for transfer and pain meds for after ER. This is one heck of a medicated cycle!
QOTW: I don't really have a favorite holiday movie or tradition. I used to watch the Wizard of Oz when that was on. I can't remember if it was Thanksgiving Day or Christmas Day that it used to be on tv. I didn't see it on for Thanksgiving this year.
Me: 30 DW (aka C): 29
Together since 2/15/11 ~ Legally married in NY on 9/29/12
***CP mentioned***
We've been working on baby #1 since July 2013 using Open ID donor sperm. 8 IUI attempts with 5 actual IUIs and one chemical pregnancy. We have one fresh IVF cycle under our belts as well as a FET. I have endometriosis and a uterine septum that was corrected via surgery in November 2013.
11/14/14 - Second HSG shows that tubes are still clear and ute is looking good.
12/6/14 - Started BCPs in prep for IVF #2
12/22/14 - Saline u/s and endometrial scratch (All was clear and OUCH!)
1/2/15 - Began stimming for IVF #2
****All Welcome!****
We are Mommas to four fur babies - 3 dogs and 1 cat.
Me: 30 DW (aka C): 29
Together since 2/15/11 ~ Legally married in NY on 9/29/12
***CP mentioned***
We've been working on baby #1 since July 2013 using Open ID donor sperm. 8 IUI attempts with 5 actual IUIs and one chemical pregnancy. We have one fresh IVF cycle under our belts as well as a FET. I have endometriosis and a uterine septum that was corrected via surgery in November 2013.
11/14/14 - Second HSG shows that tubes are still clear and ute is looking good.
12/6/14 - Started BCPs in prep for IVF #2
12/22/14 - Saline u/s and endometrial scratch (All was clear and OUCH!)
1/2/15 - Began stimming for IVF #2
****All Welcome!****
We are Mommas to four fur babies - 3 dogs and 1 cat.
Me: 30 DW (aka C): 29
Together since 2/15/11 ~ Legally married in NY on 9/29/12
***CP mentioned***
We've been working on baby #1 since July 2013 using Open ID donor sperm. 8 IUI attempts with 5 actual IUIs and one chemical pregnancy. We have one fresh IVF cycle under our belts as well as a FET. I have endometriosis and a uterine septum that was corrected via surgery in November 2013.
11/14/14 - Second HSG shows that tubes are still clear and ute is looking good.
12/6/14 - Started BCPs in prep for IVF #2
12/22/14 - Saline u/s and endometrial scratch (All was clear and OUCH!)
1/2/15 - Began stimming for IVF #2
****All Welcome!****
We are Mommas to four fur babies - 3 dogs and 1 cat.
Hey folks. I don't know if I'm ready to be back but we are cycling for our first FET (frozen embryo transfer) and it feels really weird not to have this check-in. So I'm popping in; maybe I'm staying, maybe I'm not. I hope that's ok.
For those who don't know me, my partner (Manada) and I lost our twin daughters Tavin and Casey at 21 weeks gestation to premature birth this summer and have been grieving and taking time away from the board.
M has diminished ovarian reserve and I have stage IV severe endometriosis and had to have both Fallopian tubes removed. After 7 IUIs with M, we moved on to IVF with my eggs and M's uterus. We got 3 day 3 embryos, put 2 in, and got our twins! It was a miracle after a long road with infertility and then we lost them.
We are now trying again. We still have one embryo left (Rocky 3) and will be transferring it to me on Friday. I have been taking estrace, did an intralipid infusion last Wednesday, and I start PIO, medrol, and doxycycline tomorrow.
We haven't told the specific timing to anyone in our "real" lives (except a couple people in our loss group).
If this doesn't work (which, of course, chances are it won't) then we plan to start a fresh IVF cycle in the new year.
It feels both good and bad to see some familiar names on this check-in. I'm so sorry you're still here but it feels more like home to have you here.
We're queer. I'm 33, have severe stage 4 endo, and had both fallopian tubes removed. My love ("Manada" on the boards, 32) was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve. We did Partner IVF (my eggs, her uterus). We lost our twins Tavin and Casey at 21 weeks gestation.
Our IUIs
with @Manada: IUI# 1-7 (December 2012- September 2013) all BFN. Tried natural, femara, clomid, puregon/follistim, clomid and menopur combo, both the ovidrel and HCG triggers.
Our IVFs:
IVF #1 my eggs November/December 2013: Cancelled IVF due to poor response
IVF #2 my eggs/Manada's uterus January/February 2014
BCPs and lupron overlap Stimmed: 1/22-2/2: Bravelle and Menopur (dosage ranged from B300 and M150 to B375 and M150 to B300 and M225)
2/4 retrieved 10 eggs. Endo was much worse than expected. Only 3 eggs fertilized; February 7 transferred two day 3 embryos, froze one. All great condition.
BFP eve of 6dp3dt; Beta 1 (11dp3dt): 110; Beta 2 (13dp3dt): 175; Beta 3 (15dp3dt): 348; Beta 4 (19dp3dt): 2222; Beta 5 (21dp3dt): 4255
1st ultrasound (3/6 6w 1d): TWINS!!!! Twin A measuring 6w1d with a heartbeat of 118bpm. Twin B measuring 6w0d with a heartbeat of 113bpm.
***July 18, 2014 we lost our beautiful babies at 21 weeks gestation. They were born too early. Tavin Sara T. and Casey Elizabeth T. are beautiful and precious and we will love them and miss them forever.***
FET #1 December 2014
Me: 30 DW (aka C): 29
Together since 2/15/11 ~ Legally married in NY on 9/29/12
***CP mentioned***
We've been working on baby #1 since July 2013 using Open ID donor sperm. 8 IUI attempts with 5 actual IUIs and one chemical pregnancy. We have one fresh IVF cycle under our belts as well as a FET. I have endometriosis and a uterine septum that was corrected via surgery in November 2013.
11/14/14 - Second HSG shows that tubes are still clear and ute is looking good.
12/6/14 - Started BCPs in prep for IVF #2
12/22/14 - Saline u/s and endometrial scratch (All was clear and OUCH!)
1/2/15 - Began stimming for IVF #2
****All Welcome!****
We are Mommas to four fur babies - 3 dogs and 1 cat.
Me: 30 DP: 30
TTC#1
IUI#1 9/26/13 BFN
IUI#2 10/26/13 BFP beta #1 99 #2 456
2/20/2014 Brynlee Madeline is taken too soon at 19weeks she was perfect
IUI#3 6/10/14 BFP beta #1 276 beta #2 722 20w A/S shows we are having a girl
We're queer. I'm 33, have severe stage 4 endo, and had both fallopian tubes removed. My love ("Manada" on the boards, 32) was diagnosed with diminished ovarian reserve. We did Partner IVF (my eggs, her uterus). We lost our twins Tavin and Casey at 21 weeks gestation.
Our IUIs
with @Manada: IUI# 1-7 (December 2012- September 2013) all BFN. Tried natural, femara, clomid, puregon/follistim, clomid and menopur combo, both the ovidrel and HCG triggers.
Our IVFs:
IVF #1 my eggs November/December 2013: Cancelled IVF due to poor response
IVF #2 my eggs/Manada's uterus January/February 2014
BCPs and lupron overlap Stimmed: 1/22-2/2: Bravelle and Menopur (dosage ranged from B300 and M150 to B375 and M150 to B300 and M225)
2/4 retrieved 10 eggs. Endo was much worse than expected. Only 3 eggs fertilized; February 7 transferred two day 3 embryos, froze one. All great condition.
BFP eve of 6dp3dt; Beta 1 (11dp3dt): 110; Beta 2 (13dp3dt): 175; Beta 3 (15dp3dt): 348; Beta 4 (19dp3dt): 2222; Beta 5 (21dp3dt): 4255
1st ultrasound (3/6 6w 1d): TWINS!!!! Twin A measuring 6w1d with a heartbeat of 118bpm. Twin B measuring 6w0d with a heartbeat of 113bpm.
***July 18, 2014 we lost our beautiful babies at 21 weeks gestation. They were born too early. Tavin Sara T. and Casey Elizabeth T. are beautiful and precious and we will love them and miss them forever.***
FET #1 December 2014
@stringy813, I feel like this is a good omen for you!!!
@healz413, I'm sorry you have to be back here but I am glad to see that you are continuing your dream of having a baby. Good luck to you.
I just did a FET last week. I did the whole before/after acupunture, pineapple core, and meditations. For the day of and the day after the transfer I tried only eating warm/hot foods and liquids, to help blood flow to the uterus. I have no idea if any of this helped but it gave me something to do.
The support and outboarding of love from this board after our loss is something that we think of often -- we were just looking at the book made for us from the photos/messages from the vigil for Tavin & Casey the other week.
I just gave @healz413 her first PIO shot this morning, and being on the other end of that plunger is a totally different experience, it's brutal knowing what it feels like to get those shots and then to be the one giving them and knowing everything you're doing wrong that makes it sting more!
queer couple - 32 (me) & 33 (my love) years old - donor sperm,
Our IF/TTC journey since Nov 2012.
Me: dx of DOR in Nov. 2012. Low AMH, AFC - 6, Normal FSH, SS-A (RO) Antibodies (Autoimmune issues), tubes clear, Sono (November 2013) NORMAL! <p>
7 IUI's - December 2012-September 2013. Medicated, Injected, Triggered.... all BFN.
My Love: (the amazing @Healz413)
Normal AMH & FSH, AFC ~27, blocked tube dx'd via HSG in 2012. Hydrosalpinx & ovarian cyst dx'd in May 2013.
dx of Stage IV Endo & bilateral salpinectomy in June 2013.
Partner IVF#1a- December 2013 - H's eggs, my Ute - CANCELLED due to low response
Partner IVF #1b - February 2014 - H's eggs, my Ute - ER February 4 (10 retrieved, 3 fertilized), Transfer Feb 7 of one Grade 1 and one Grade 2 day 3 embryos. 1 - Day 3, Grade 1 frosty saved. BFP - 6dp3dt via FRER, Beta #1 - 110, Beta #2 175, Beta #3 - 348, Beta #4 - 2222!, Beta #5 - 4255. Ultrasound (6w1d) - 2 heartbearts!
We lost our beautiful Twin baby girls on June 18, 2014. Tavin Sara and Casey Elizabeth were born at 21 weeks gestation and were absolutely beautiful, precious, amazing babies. We miss our daughters every day and love them with all our hearts.
I am heading into my 6th IUI. Tomorrow I go for another sonogram, Sunday I had 6 follicles all in the high teens. If tomorrow I have at least one at a 22 I will take the trigger shot tomorrow night and insemination will occur on Friday and Saturday morning. Hoping my 6th one is my lucky one. I've notice the further I get in this process the less excited I am. Mainly because of the negatives that have come along with the 5 other IUI's. The idea moving to IVF that costs $13,500, makes my stomach hurt. I would much rather the IUI work:)
My wife and I always watch National Lampoons Christmas Vacation and decorate the tree together. Christmas is my favorite holiday!
We inseminated on Sunday after a positive OPK and all the body signs, but DW told me this morning her temp hasn't risen. Perhaps her post-miscarriage body is doing everything to ovulate, but isn't. Or, perhaps the temp was wrong. Or perhaps it's coming tomorrow. But, it's so defeating to not have that obvious, "yep, we timed that right" and feel like we're robbed of 2 weeks of hope which would have been so helpful right now.
I'm sending all of you a virtual hug for the various frustrations/hopes/griefs/anxieties each of you is dealing with right now. I wish I could snap my fingers and make it perfect for each of us. I really, really do. Take care in the meantime to all of you!