This week has been very difficult for me, first with a BFN from FET #3 and then yesterday my sister gave birth to her daughter.
It is really difficult to accept that my family is complete and that we are a family of 3. I also know that my psyche and possibly my marriage cannot take another IVF failure. Maybe other couples are more resilient but I have reached my emotional limit for disappointment.
I have one remaining frostie.I have zero confidence in my current RE and don't want to continue with him. Az far as I'm concerned he didn't do everything to prepare my uterus for transfer, dismissed having an endometrial scratch and doesn't deserve another chance with me.
I really don't know what to do right now. I do know that I cannot live in a continued state of sorrow, jealousy and resentment.
TTC since 3-08
IVF # 1 Dec 2011 BFP
DD born at 31 weeks 6-24-12
FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN
FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN
No more frosties
IVF #2. September 2014
PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts
SET November 9, 2014
Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN
Not sure where to go from here.