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Emotional roller coaster that was my short pregnancy

baileyse26baileyse26 member
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I understand this pregnancy wasn't perfect from the beginning. It was a complete surprise but it didn't stop me from being completely excited after I found out. The timing wasn't ideal as I found out less than a month before my 21st birthday, but what's meant to be is meant to be. This all changed after I went in to my doctors to discuss some very minor spotting I had most likely cause after intercourse. My doctor told me she believed I had a missed miscarriage and she was so sorry for my loss. I was completely shocked and didn't know how to react any other way besides crying the rest of the day. My follow up appointment had to have been the cruelest appointment yet. I was prepared to ask for a d&c because I saw no reason to put myself throught the morning sickness and other negative pregnancy symptoms only to not be carrying a child. They ended up giving me the faintest glimmer of hope after telling me she found a very faint heartbeat. My mind should have registered the faint part, but all I heard was heartbeat. After that appointment, I made the decision to switch doctors and had my appointment today (the day before my birthday). I'm sure you all know where this is leading but this appointment ended in heartbreak yet again. The new doctor told me she didn't think this pregnancy was viable either. She didn't see any faint flicker at all. I had blood drawn to test my levels, but this is the end for me. I can't put myself through this any longer. I have my d&c scheduled for Monday.
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Re: Emotional roller coaster that was my short pregnancy

  • cherish1986cherish1986 member
    I'm sorry Hun. Hopefully it gets better. A heartbeat is a heartbeat and your baby was alive.
    Was this your first?

    Sending you prayers and hugs
    Married: August 16 2014
    EDD: July 12, 2015  MC: November 30, 2014 8weeks
    Clover Grace
     our little angel.
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  • ashleyann62215ashleyann62215 member
    I'm so sorry for your loss. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. I hope your procedure goes well on Monday. If you need anything you've come to the right place. No one should have to go through this but were all here for you. Hugs.
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  • flyoffeveflyoffeve member

    I am so sorry for your loss. (Hugs) I hope you have smooth procedure and recovery.

    Sorry it is so close to your birthday. I hope you find some way to comfort yourself tomorrow even if it is chocolate cake.

    Me: 31 DH: 36
    Dated Since ‘02, Married in ‘06
    BFP#1 05/16/06, EDD01/16/07, MC 06/12/06 at 8 weeks
    BFP #2 08/14/14, EDD 04/22/15, MC 09/17/14 at 9 weeks

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     My Chart

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  • Vampiress2die4Vampiress2die4 member
    Im sorry. I know how painful this is. But there is always support for you when you need it..
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  • stayluckystaylucky member
    I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope your d&c goes well and you can begin to heal.
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    Married 10.03.2014
    TTC the day we were married
    BFP October 2014 - Due 7/2/2015 - MMC discovered 12/1/2014 (D&C)
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  • Nikolie93Nikolie93 member
    I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's definitely a roller coaster of emotions *hug*
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



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  • bumpuser10605721bumpuser10605721 member
    Im very sorry for your loss
    Me: 29 DH: 30
    DS born 12/29/12 @ 41+1 
    TTC#2 07/2014
    BFP 10/14/14 MC 11/14/14 D&C for RT 11/18/2014 
    Given all clear 12/15/2014 - back to TTC



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  • IslandDreaminIslandDreamin member
    I am so sorry for your loss. I can relate to having to go back and forth between having some hope and then being crushed again. I hope that now you can start the healing process.
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  • mylittlegeminimylittlegemini member
    I am so sorry for your loss and that it happened right around your birthday :-( I'm also sorry you had a false glimmer of hope. I remember when that happened to me. The emerge doc said she saw a flicker, making me think it was a heartbeat and then the radiologist said there was nothing...the sac was empty. That moment changed my life. It's such an awful feeling.. Hugs to you!
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  • baileyse26baileyse26 member
    Thank you all for your support. I'm trying to start the coping process I just am still unsure how I'm feeling.
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  • cherish1986cherish1986 member
    It's a roller coaster for sure! Just keep positive thoughts and positive people around you and don't be afraid to cry either.
    Married: August 16 2014
    EDD: July 12, 2015  MC: November 30, 2014 8weeks
    Clover Grace
     our little angel.
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  • Nikolie93Nikolie93 member
    Everything that Cherish1986 said! *hug*
    I am not sure how to say this without getting a "solicitation" warning so I guess I just say that I am not longer active on THIS site. 



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