November 2013 Moms
Mum2Be28
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Life update, loss mentioned
Mum2Be28
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Hi ladies.
I'm sorry I haven't been around lately. Life is crazy with a one year old (as y'all know) and I was really sick first tri with baby #2.
We found out Friday at our 16 week appointment that there was no heartbeat. An ultrasound confirmed the loss was around 13 weeks, 1 day- we just didn't know since the appointments are so spread out. I'm heartbroken and I'm scared that at any moment I will start bleeding before they can perform the D and C next week.
I didn't sense this coming at all. I haven't had any bleeding, I'm still sick, my tummy is bigger. I just wish I had known sooner. I feel so far along, and it couldn't be worse timing with it being a holiday week. I don't want to see anyone. I feel embarrassed- like I've let everyone down and I'm just a reminder of something that was good and now it's sadness.
I'm just so sad. I want it back so bad. And I'm scared of how I will feel after the procedure when I won't be pregnant anymore. Will it be easier or worse?
I know I have to be strong for my son, but it's so hard to supress all my feelings and smile and play.
I just want it back.
I'm sorry I haven't been around lately. Life is crazy with a one year old (as y'all know) and I was really sick first tri with baby #2.
We found out Friday at our 16 week appointment that there was no heartbeat. An ultrasound confirmed the loss was around 13 weeks, 1 day- we just didn't know since the appointments are so spread out. I'm heartbroken and I'm scared that at any moment I will start bleeding before they can perform the D and C next week.
I didn't sense this coming at all. I haven't had any bleeding, I'm still sick, my tummy is bigger. I just wish I had known sooner. I feel so far along, and it couldn't be worse timing with it being a holiday week. I don't want to see anyone. I feel embarrassed- like I've let everyone down and I'm just a reminder of something that was good and now it's sadness.
I'm just so sad. I want it back so bad. And I'm scared of how I will feel after the procedure when I won't be pregnant anymore. Will it be easier or worse?
I know I have to be strong for my son, but it's so hard to supress all my feelings and smile and play.
I just want it back.
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Re: Life update, loss mentioned
I'm so sorry for anyone that has ever had to experience this or any kind of loss. It's just the worst feeling I've ever experienced.
Life began when I saw your face
I.J.C. born 11.3.13
I had the D&C yesterday and everything went smoothly and I haven't needed any pain medication since I left the hospital.
It has been cold and rainy here which has been hard because I can't get out and do normal things with DS as a distraction (park, barn, walks). I'm looking forward to tomorrow and the weekend when we get together with family and doing some other activities.
Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers. I hope y'all have a Happy Thanksgiving!
MMC 01/26/12
MC 12/25/12, D&C 01/05/13
BFP 03/05/13, EDD 11/12/13. HB 175 @ 9w2d. Its a Girl!
DX with EA/TEF Type C & Tracheomalaysia
MC @ 13wks 01/15/15
BFP 1/11/18, EDD 9/21/18