I am up because I am very upset. I passed out on the couch with Beckham and he rolled off. I have never hated myself more. I have been so exhausted, so I guess that is why I wasn't alert? I nap with beck on my chest all of the time and I have never had a problem.
Parker is staying up with him so I can get some sleep! Yay.
I just got your text!! I'm so sorry!! I'm sure he will be fine and even though it's easier said than done, don't be upset. You're a GREAT mom and he has his dad there to help take care of him!! The good news is he will never remember it.
@smboswell1 this happens to the best moms, he's all right.
I'm up with a baby with tummy problems because she got more formula from dad earlier tonight. Thanks dad! Additionally, dad left me literally two bites of ice cream in the container. Thanksssss daddddd
Don't feel bad @smboswell1, we've all been there. I'm sure he's okay and just keep an eye on him. Babies are resilient. I half dropped DS1 when he was a few months old and once carried him upside down through the house on accident in a middle if the night exhausted spell.
I've fed DS2 twice in the last 3 hours and now he's up again with gas. Poor thing was squirming and farting over and over in the cosleeper until he woke himself up. Now he's almost back to sleep...see how long this lasts.
Y'all, I'm the absolute worst doggie mom. I forgot Talli Mae's birthday!!! Someone asked me how old she was and I casually said, "Oh, she'll be two on 11/16..." Cue tears when I realized it was PAST that date!!! My poor Talli Mae. (
@smboswell1 This happened to us earlier this week! I was sitting on the other end of the couch and LO was sleeping on H's chest. He started squirming and next thing I knew I was watching him slide to the floor! I leapt up and kind of grabbed his sleep sack and slowed the fall but couldnt fully catch him. We were both super upset but he had a relatively soft landing (right on his face, poor thing) and has been behaving normally (no big change in sleep, eating, or crying).
My best friend is a pediatrician and I ran it by her, she said practically every infant is dropped at some point and babies are more resilient than we think. Also, given the many ways they could be dropped, sliding off the couch is on the lower end of the danger zone. She said to just take it as a warning to be a little more careful, and not to beat ourselves up about it. (H is still working on that part, he now puts LO in the RnP the second he gets tired because he doesn't want a repeat)
Sorry that was so long, I just want you to know you are not the only one and it definitely doesn't take away from what an awesome mommy you are!
Hugs to all you mommies up- were on night three home from the hospital and boy is this hard! Maddie is just not wanting to sleep tonight- I haven't slept at all, good thing she is cute.
Hugs to all you mommies up- were on night three home from the hospital and boy is this hard! Maddie is just not wanting to sleep tonight- I haven't slept at all, good thing she is cute.
This is what I keep telling myself in the difficult moments--good thing he's cute
So today will be the first day I will be alone with DS1 and DS2 all day because DH has to work and DS1's daycare is closed. DS2 must have known this and wants to make it impossible for me as its 5 AM and I've only had 2 hours of sleep. He's either screaming, wide awake, or restlessly sleeping. I feel like I'm failing on nights like this. It's been almost a month and nothing is better.
Up nursing and checked my email to find out that one of the faculty members in my department passed away. She had been fighting cancer for nearly a year now but I thought the treatments were working. I am so incredibly sad. She was an amazing woman. My heart breaks for her husband (also a retired prof). They were such a team. wow.
TTC 3/2012; IUI 2/26/14; EDD 11/23/14; DD born 11/21/14!!!
Up nursing and checked my email to find out that one of the faculty members in my department passed away. She had been fighting cancer for nearly a year now but I thought the treatments were working. I am so incredibly sad. She was an amazing woman. My heart breaks for her husband (also a retired prof). They were such a team. wow.
Not much sleep here last night, woke up thinking LO was on my chest and he wasn't there. Scared the crap out of me. Thank god I had put him in his bassinet but I was too delirious to remember that. H hurt his back yesterday and the doctor doped him up so much he's been unconscious sense we left the hospital. No help from him. I need sleep and at 3 wks old LO seems to now be mixed up on his days and night
Rough night last night. I think something I ate made Emmy gassy, and she just couldn't get comfy. After a few gas drops, and sleeping in the pack n play in the living room instead of rnp in the bedroom, we finally got some sleep at 4:30. Now we're up eating. I'm exhausted and my back is killing me!
Mama to sweet baby girl, Emerson Rose, born November 7th, 2014
Guys, I need your happy thoughts and prayers. I had another episode with that intense pain in my chest and back. Only this time it is not going away. I went to the ER. It turns out that I have pancreatitis and need to have my gallbladder removed. My pancreas is very inflamed and they are keeping me for a few days to monitor. I am so scared. DH will be getting help from my sisters for DS. They Also Said I Could pump for him but I am so worried about being away and scared about surgery. I can't believe this is happening.
TTC Since 2009
BFP 1: Nov 2010 MMC at 5 Weeks
BFP 2: June 2010 First Round of Clomid Blighted Ovum at 7 weeks
Surprise BFP 3: Feb 2014, Healthy Baby Boy Due October 27th 2014. OB thinks this is it!
@songbirdsinging55 I'm so sorry this is happening and at such a bad time. FX everything goes smoothly and you'll be home, healthy, and back with your LO asap.
Guys, I need your happy thoughts and prayers. I had another episode with that intense pain in my chest and back. Only this time it is not going away. I went to the ER. It turns out that I have pancreatitis and need to have my gallbladder removed. My pancreas is very inflamed and they are keeping me for a few days to monitor. I am so scared. DH will be getting help from my sisters for DS. They Also Said I Could pump for him but I am so worried about being away and scared about surgery. I can't believe this is happening.
I had my gallbladder out a couple weeks before BFP, it will make you feel 100% better. Im sorry that you have to be away from LO though, thats tough. T&P headed your way for a speedy recovery!
@sweetbabyrahe I think we have the same baby. She'll have a couple of decent days but then we will be right back to screaming, fussy, not sleeping. And she is 7 weeks old. It doesn't help that my sister in law's baby who is 10 weeks old has been sleeping through the night for a while now. I feel like the ultimate failure.
Just got home from my first PP appointment - it was to check on the incision from my C-Section. They gave me a PPD test and I apparently failed miserably. The doctor has prescribed me Zoloft and asked me to see a therapist. I'm feeling like such a failure. It was bad enough feeling this way, but now it's out there for everyone to see. Ugh.
Just got home from my first PP appointment - it was to check on the incision from my C-Section. They gave me a PPD test and I apparently failed miserably. The doctor has prescribed me Zoloft and asked me to see a therapist. I'm feeling like such a failure. It was bad enough feeling this way, but now it's out there for everyone to see. Ugh.
You are absolutely NOT a failure! This is so common and beyond your control! Look at this from a positive perspective: hopefully the Zoloft makes your life easier and all these negative feelings will go away. You're a great mama working her butt off and getting on these drugs will make this more clear! You have a lucky LO!
@Stephaniegiboney it sucks but I'm glad to hear that I'm not the only one. We aren't failures...we just have higher maintenance babies I guess...or at least unpredictable. I've tried to analyze good days vs bad to see what I can change...and I can't find a pattern, so just continue to trudge through it I guess
at 3 wks old LO seems to now be confusing days and nights... ugh how do I fix this. If I try to make him stay up during the day he is miserable and cries non stop
Just got home from my first PP appointment - it was to check on the incision from my C-Section. They gave me a PPD test and I apparently failed miserably. The doctor has prescribed me Zoloft and asked me to see a therapist. I'm feeling like such a failure. It was bad enough feeling this way, but now it's out there for everyone to see. Ugh.
You are not a failure. Pregnancy and giving birth do so much to our bodies. It nothing you have any control over and so much better it was discovered sooner than later. Keep your head up.
@sweetbabyrahe It seems like something will work once and then not again. Frustrating. I'm barely scraping by, but it does seem like as soon as I feel like I'm at my breaking point she sleeps a four hour stretch. So I'll live for that for now!
Just got home from my first PP appointment - it was to check on the incision from my C-Section. They gave me a PPD test and I apparently failed miserably. The doctor has prescribed me Zoloft and asked me to see a therapist. I'm feeling like such a failure. It was bad enough feeling this way, but now it's out there for everyone to see. Ugh.
You aren't failing, it's better to get treated and it under control before it's really bad! I hope things get better!!
Thank you so much for your kind words. The hospital staff has been amazing. I cannot express my thanks to them enough. They managed to get me a private room and even brought in a bassinet and cot so DH and DS could stay with me.
TTC Since 2009
BFP 1: Nov 2010 MMC at 5 Weeks
BFP 2: June 2010 First Round of Clomid Blighted Ovum at 7 weeks
Surprise BFP 3: Feb 2014, Healthy Baby Boy Due October 27th 2014. OB thinks this is it!
Will is officially out of newborn sleepers! They're all too short and he can't stretch his legs. I swear they fit on Sunday and today they're tiny. I'm excited for all the cute 0-3 clothes that will start to fit, but I'm kind of sad that my tiny little man is growing up so quickly. Silly, right?
@bethas I know exactly what you mean. My grandmother shared my Facebook album that is titled Family Only (I removed my grandmother from the list of people who could view album). I get excitement but I don't want a bunch people I don't know seeing my photos.
My MIL is sharing my photos from FB. I know she means well, but they're *my* kids.
Totally get it. I don't post a lot on FB and I'm really particular about how many photos of Will are online. I sent a photo to MIL by text the other day and suddenly step-FIL was posting it on FB!
I try to remind myself that they only have about 10 friends on FB so hopefully not that many people are seeing them.
@carafern I'm sorry for your loss. I suddenly and tragically lost a former coworker and friend on Wednesday, and I still can't wrap my head around it. I'm in shock, and can't process that it's real. He was so vibrant, caring, and funny. My heart broke thinking of his family, but most especially his poor mom on Thanksgiving yesterday. He was only 29.
I'm so sorry to hear this. It's tragic when anyone passes but I can't imagine what his family is going through.
@uncharted01 You are not a failure. This is medicine that will make you feel better (although you may experience side effects at first). I was on Zoloft in my 20s and it made a world of difference. It helped me over a very bad period. Please try to see it this way. Hugs to you.
TTC 3/2012; IUI 2/26/14; EDD 11/23/14; DD born 11/21/14!!!
Thank you so much for all of the support ladies. I feel like I'm constantly reaching out for help here and the responses have been so wonderful. I'm hopeful that the medicine will help me.
My MIL is sharing my photos from FB. I know she means well, but they're *my* kids.
I totally agree with this, when we announced we were pregnant to just the family she wanted to tell everyone! I was so annoyed this was H and my news to share when we were ready. During my pregnancy this continued, I made it clear to her and the rest of the family that no one is to post anything to FB or share anything on any type of social media. She got the hint
I was up from 1-5 AM last night with Mikayla crying, feeding, burping, repeat...and DH slept through pretty much most of it. I've successfully yelled at everyone in my family today and all they are doing is trying to help and keep me company... just yelled at my grandma and feel like shit. Sitting here bumping while I pump and crying...hope tomorrow is better! But I fear I'll be a mess tomorrow as well because my mom and grandma leave tomorrow and then I'll "be on my own". I hate that I even wrote that because DH is actually extremely helpful... ugh...trying to keep it together...unsuccessfully!
I have a breastfeeding AW, after 2 weeks of pumping around the clock and taking supplements due to a low supply, I just froze my first 2oz of breastmilk because I had more than I need I'm so excited, it's like winning the lottery!
TTC since Sept 2011, Unexplained IF Oct 12 - Jan 14: 3 clomid/TI cycles, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 IUIs, 1 BFP (MMC @ 12w), 2 more IUIs Feb 14: Gonal-f + IUI #5 = BFP! (EDD 11/4/14) Baby boy arrived 11/13/14!
Re: Friday randoms!
Parker is staying up with him so I can get some sleep! Yay.
I'm up with a baby with tummy problems because she got more formula from dad earlier tonight. Thanks dad! Additionally, dad left me literally two bites of ice cream in the container. Thanksssss daddddd
I've fed DS2 twice in the last 3 hours and now he's up again with gas. Poor thing was squirming and farting over and over in the cosleeper until he woke himself up. Now he's almost back to sleep...see how long this lasts.
My best friend is a pediatrician and I ran it by her, she said practically every infant is dropped at some point and babies are more resilient than we think. Also, given the many ways they could be dropped, sliding off the couch is on the lower end of the danger zone. She said to just take it as a warning to be a little more careful, and not to beat ourselves up about it. (H is still working on that part, he now puts LO in the RnP the second he gets tired because he doesn't want a repeat)
Sorry that was so long, I just want you to know you are not the only one and it definitely doesn't take away from what an awesome mommy you are!
H hurt his back yesterday and the doctor doped him up so much he's been unconscious sense we left the hospital. No help from him.
I need sleep and at 3 wks old LO seems to now be mixed up on his days and night
Mama to sweet baby girl, Emerson Rose, born November 7th, 2014
Mama to sweet baby girl, Emerson Rose, born November 7th, 2014
I try to remind myself that they only have about 10 friends on FB so hopefully not that many people are seeing them.
ET 9/10 - transferred 1 perfect 5AA blast
7dp5dt BFP ~~ Beta on 9/19 - 77.4 Beta #2 on 9/21 - 357
Low heartbeat on 10/7 86, lower heartbeat on 10/11 76, no heartbeat 10/14/13. D&C 10/15/13
Tests revealed MTHFR c677t mutation, put on Folgard.
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FET #1 1/6/14 - 4BB blast - BFN
I have a breastfeeding AW, after 2 weeks of pumping around the clock and taking supplements due to a low supply, I just froze my first 2oz of breastmilk because I had more than I need
TTC since Sept 2011, Unexplained IF
Oct 12 - Jan 14: 3 clomid/TI cycles, 2 hysteroscopies, 2 IUIs, 1 BFP (MMC @ 12w), 2 more IUIs
Feb 14: Gonal-f + IUI #5 = BFP! (EDD 11/4/14)
Baby boy arrived 11/13/14!