I have this irrational but persistent fear that I am not actually pregnant. I am convinced that I am going to go for my ultrasound on Monday and they are going to tell me there's nothing in there, and everyone is going to look at me like I faked the whole thing on purpose or I'm some kind of idiot.
I think it's because this baby is such an abstraction right now- the only evidence of it's existence is a line on a pregnancy test (okay, 5 or 6 of them) and my symptoms (which are subjective and not visible to anyone else.) I also have a number of friends who have experienced losses, one very recently, and so I've been very acutely aware of how tenuous the whole situation is and how it could all end at any moment. I feel like I can't start to plan for this or buy anything or think about this baby as a reality until I have more proof that it is.
It just doesn't seem real. And I'm scared that it actually isn't.
I'm totally with you on this. It feels like I could be stupid or just fooling myself because I really don't know how I'm supposed to feel. And these DAMN doctors that don't see you until 10 fucking weeks makes me crazy. What if there's something wrong?! What if I'm not really pregnant, but there's something bigger happening?
DH made an appointment for next Thursday because he couldn't stand waiting until 10 weeks either. I'll be 6 weeks and hopefully the doctor can offer a confirmation.
my boobs are playing peek a boo the top button of my blouse just prefers to be open today. Annnnd I'm currently laying on the couch at work because that's what I feel like doing until 5:30pm!
Fffc: anyone that proclaims themselves a Christian gets on a post it.
*edited due to poor context: didn't mean this as a blanket statement. I have no problems with Christians, just people with holier than thou attitudes. Lately this board has been getting a lot of "well I'm a Christian and I know the proper way to treat people, and all of you are meanies." I don't like that shit.
I totally judge people from my class that graduated college and still can't write the right form of your/you're and their/there/they're. It really bothers me.
A colleague just walked into my office and asked if he could have one of the two thousand clementines I have sitting in a bowl on my desk. I said no, because I really am planning to eat every goddamn last one of them.
I totally judge people from my class that graduated college and still can't write the right form of your/you're and their/there/they're. It really bothers me.
Me: 30; DH: 32
Married since 3/15/08.
Pregnancy 1: BFP on 1/24/11 - Molly born on 10/6/11!
Pregnancy 2: BFP on 11/5/14 - Baby #2 due on 7/17/15!
In between pregnancies, I've grown to love my "other" baby. The "carb baby", that's taken permanent residence in my belly, thanks to my overzealous love of bread, pasta and pastries. Hence my name.
I am sitting at my desk wondering when I can leave, I have no desire to be here right now and would rather go home sit on the couch in my PJ's watch trashy tv and eat a big ol bowl of pasta...
Don't judge me
:-S
There is a new resturant popping up around here called Noodles & Company and I am struggling to not go every day and eat my weight in delicious carb filled amazing pasta... AAAHHHH! Google them and see if you have one near you... you're welcome.
We had one of those here near Philly and the ONE time me and some coworkers went for lunch... a SWAT team swarmed the restaurant. Obviously they were selling more than just noodles. lol
They closed shortly after... but man they were good. I love me some pasta.
Got food poisoning from a Noodles&Co once Now I just can't. But I used to be involved in a long-term relationship with their potstickers and that crack sauce that comes with them. They also get a giant bonus from me because they're one of the only restaurants I know about that has rice krispie treats, the homemade kind, in addition to brownies and lame cookies. I will knife a bitch for a homemade rice krispie treat.
Fffc: anyone that proclaims themselves a Christian gets on a post it.
Well this is a bunch of shit. I know lots of Christians on TB, and many of them don't deserve post its. Assholes deserve post its.
I think she meant those who are all high and mighty like proclaiming they are a Christian therefore they act better tha others (like the poster in the why you gotta be so rude thread)
Exactly. Proclaiming being a Christian to tell people they are behaving badly. People can be religious, just don't bring it up to tell others how to behave.
My confession is that I have been sitting at work all day... doing nothing...waiting impatiently for my lunch break so I can go home and poop cuz my gas is so bad, I can't bear to do this at work!!
Also, (not to stir the pot, but whatever) I'm a Christian and I'm pretty sure I'm not an a**hole....wondering why Christians are being bashed on the board?
Fffc: anyone that proclaims themselves a Christian gets on a post it.
Well this is a bunch of shit. I know lots of Christians on TB, and many of them don't deserve post its. Assholes deserve post its.
I think she meant those who are all high and mighty like proclaiming they are a Christian therefore they act better tha others (like the poster in the why you gotta be so rude thread)
Also, that is part of what pisses me off. Thank you for bringing that up, @CrazyCornball. Every religion and culture values being polite and good to one another. Being a Christian doesn't give you a special ability to be kinder than the rest of us. You never hear someone say "Well as a Muslim, we should be kinder to one another", it's always "As a Christian". That's dumb.
*edited to add: I'm sorry to anyone who was offended and thought it WAS a blanket statement. It wasn't You do you, Christians, and everyone else.
@OctoberStars so you were referring to someone or something specific? Ok, that makes more sense and is 100% fine....but I'm kinda new here, so when I read your first post, I was like "whaaat?!?" I didn't even know there was a "rude thread"... ....I need out get out more....
I'm so hungry but someone cooked tuna in the lunch room (like legit heated a can of tuna) and I can't go in there!!!!
EWWWWW TUNA.
Me: 30; DH: 32
Married since 3/15/08.
Pregnancy 1: BFP on 1/24/11 - Molly born on 10/6/11!
Pregnancy 2: BFP on 11/5/14 - Baby #2 due on 7/17/15!
In between pregnancies, I've grown to love my "other" baby. The "carb baby", that's taken permanent residence in my belly, thanks to my overzealous love of bread, pasta and pastries. Hence my name.
I'm taking an extra long lunch today because it's Friday and I'm over it. I should've gone back to my cubicle 15 minutes ago. The worst part is I had a 4 day weekend so this is only my 3rd day of work this week. Having too many days off in a row really makes me a lazy worker.
I feel like I need to cry but haven't been able to for days. I'm "working" from home today. Anyone have any suggestions for a sure-fire tearjerker to watch?
Dogs greeting their military owners back from deployment gets me.
--- I have one of those videos from when DH came back from deployment! I still tear up when I watch it sometimes.
Confession* broke down, left work, put my pjs on and made a huge pot of chicken Alfredo..... I put it in a bowl, I thought I needed to have some self control and not it out of the pot.
I'm so hungry but someone cooked tuna in the lunch room (like legit heated a can of tuna) and I can't go in there!!!!
EWWWWW TUNA.
----edited because of quote fail----
oh dear god the thought of hot tuna makes me want to die right now. why, person, WHY??
My office is right across from the break room with a microwave. I legit think that if somebody tried to nuke some fish right now I would throw up on them, and then I would drive to their house and throw up on their bed.
My husband decided to work from home today on coding some algorithm to solve RNA and DNA structures. He has been talking structures in my ear all day. I just smile and nod.
My husband decided to work from home today on coding some algorithm to solve RNA and DNA structures. He has been talking structures in my ear all day. I just smile and nod.
I'm irrationally jealous of these early US appointments. Mine isn't until Dec 10 and I'm pouting hardcore.
ugh, me too! december 5th. My friend who just gave birth confessed that she lied and told her OB she was spotting to get in sooner. I'm all for lying but I don't think I could bring myself to do that. Time is going soooo slow. I just want to give birth already-and I'm only 6 weeks!
Re: Flame Free Friday Confessions
I also now need: qdoba, chick-fil-a, noodles, fast food hashbrowns and bacon. I need ALL the food. Yikes!
Uhhh... I get one at 20 weeks sometime in February.
On the bump if you say someone's name is getting on a post it, it means you are permanently giving them the side eye.
A colleague just walked into my office and asked if he could have one of the two thousand clementines I have sitting in a bowl on my desk. I said no, because I really am planning to eat every goddamn last one of them.
Got food poisoning from a Noodles&Co once
Now I just can't. But I used to be involved in a long-term relationship with their potstickers and that crack sauce that comes with them. They also get a giant bonus from me because they're one of the only restaurants I know about that has rice krispie treats, the homemade kind, in addition to brownies and lame cookies. I will knife a bitch for a homemade rice krispie treat.
*Might be hungry.
Mentioning it at some point if it comes up? Not post it worthy.
@OctoberStars correct me if I'm wrong please
Exactly. Proclaiming being a Christian to tell people they are behaving badly. People can be religious, just don't bring it up to tell others how to behave.
Also, (not to stir the pot, but whatever) I'm a Christian and I'm pretty sure I'm not an a**hole....wondering why Christians are being bashed on the board?
I truly don't understand....
Oh cool, now we're going to be mad about a misinterpretation of my post. Didn't mean it that way.
I didn't even know there was a "rude thread"...
....I need out get out more....
#:-S
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I have one of those videos from when DH came back from deployment! I still tear up when I watch it sometimes.
I was just thinking about KFC today. Like a lot. Just for the mashed potatoes and Mac n cheese. Yumm.
Also, I just ate lunch and I'm dying to eat again. Going to start packing 2 lunches.
Please don't judge. I have plenty come on over
Me too @amc2511
I forsee crackers and ginger ale for dinner. And maybe some chicken broth if I get adventurous.
Surprise BFP Feb 2008 MC at 6w2d
BFP! 10/28/14 EDD 7/5/15