First off, I know I haven't been actively posting on thebump for very long, so I am breaking the rules mentioning a BFP when I don't have close bumpie friends. I also apologize if this isn't the right board for the topic. I wasn't sure where to go and this is the board I have been hanging out in the most. If you think this topic is suited for a better board, let me know as I couldn't decide what category it fell into.
Brief intro - We have been trying to conceive since July 2013 and I have never been pregnant before. After treatments of Clomid, a uterine septum diagnosis, surgery, and being benched for recovery, we had our first Letrozole, HCG trigger, TI cycle.
I thought this cycle was a bust as I took 3 pregnancy tests on my 14 dpo and got faint evap lines for all. I know they were evap because within the 10 minutes there was nothing. After the 10 minutes there were clear lines that DH could even see. I chalked it up to another failed cycle. Since I was on progesterone tablets, I decided to call the RE to see if I should continue them or not. I even posted questions about that in a previous post.
The RE said to keep taking them and come in for an HCG blood test just to be sure. I got my results on Friday and my HCG was a 5 which is on the border of pregnant and non pregnant. The nurse called with the results and said I am probably having a Chemical Pregnancy and to repeat the HCG test on Monday.
Well Tuesday I looked at my online chart and my HCG was a 56!!! I was so excited I called my husband. The nurse then called again and said unfortunately that was still extremely low for how far I should be and I should expect to miscarry. They ordered another test for this Thursday with a progesterone level added to it.
In my opinion, the fact that it rose over 11 times what it was on Friday is a good sign. Is there any hope for this bean? Certain charts I have found online said I am within normal range, but I guess the fact that I started at a 5 was a bad sign for the doctors. They keep saying "unlikely" and "unfortunately" and it breaks my heart. Does anyone have a similar experience? This TTC journey has been a rollercoaster and I finally thought I got good news
I had a cute and creative way to tell my husband when I finally got pregnant, but now that is out the window because I couldn't hold in the fact that I was PG AND it probably wasn't going to make it. I'm a total mess. Thanks for reading my long post and listening....
Re: HCG Levels *BFP and Possible Loss mentioned*
TTC since May 2012
HSG- all clear
March 2014 - RE appt.
April 2014- Saline sono all's good, terrible SA results - 8 sperm found all abnormal
May 2014- Fert Urology- Bilateral varicoceles, recommend Donor Sperm
12/2014- Surprise natural BFP EDD 7/31/15 Plan: Starting foster to adoption, natural cycles
I don't have any advice for you, but I wanted to say I am so sorry you are going through this.
I hope you get some better answers soon.
My husband is a silent griever, so I have a hard time getting him to open up about his feelings.
When I went in for my first follie ultrasound, they barely had responded to the letrozole. My second one had an 18mm follie so I triggered. Maybe I was slower to respond to the HCG shot too? I keep holding on to a little piece of hope that the doctors are wrong.
Thanks again for being there for me from afar and I will keep you posted
TTC since July 2013
September 2013 period still hasn't started since getting off BC
October 2013 OBGYN prescribed 4 months of unmonitored Clomid
3 Months of Clomid, ovulated once
Opted to not do 4th cycle without proper testing found new OBGYN
January 2014 new OBGYN diagnosed me with PCOS ordered ultrasound
January 2014 Ultrasound found possible uterine septum
February 2014 MRI confirmed uterine septum, referral to RE
March 2014 RE scheduled septum removal for late June
Benched due to possible miscarriages if falling pregnant, back on BC
June 2014 Septum Removal surgery, hysteroscopy/laparascopy
Laparascopy revealed mild endometriosis
Benched until September 2014 for recovery and healing
October 2014 - First letrozole, HCG trigger, TI cycle, 18mm follie
November 2014 - BFP - loss at 6 weeks
January 2015 - Green light to try again 18mm follie, letrozole, HCG trigger
January 2015 - BFP - two ultrasounds and strong heartbeat found on Doppler!!!
Husband: 26 SA: normal
Me: 23 Low AMH and damaged ovaries due to chemotherapy.
No AF or O in 3 years. HSG showed a slight T shaped uterus.
High Risk OB 9/29- got the ok to get pregnant.
RE Appt: 10/28/ U/S showed follicles, but also small damaged ovaries.
B/W results CD0: all normal except low AMH at 1.3
Cycle 1-November (TI)- Femera 2.5mg, 2mg Estradoil, and Trigger=BFN
Cycle 2-December (TI)- Femera 2.5 mg ,4mg Estradoil, and Trigger= No O
Cycle 3-January (TI)- Femera 5 mg, 2mg Estradoil, and Trigger=
I bought some dollar store hpts to test for fun. For the past 15 months of pregnancy tests, I never got to see a true positive. I finally got to see one yesterday and I almost didn't believe it!!
TTC since July 2013
September 2013 period still hasn't started since getting off BC
October 2013 OBGYN prescribed 4 months of unmonitored Clomid
3 Months of Clomid, ovulated once
Opted to not do 4th cycle without proper testing found new OBGYN
January 2014 new OBGYN diagnosed me with PCOS ordered ultrasound
January 2014 Ultrasound found possible uterine septum
February 2014 MRI confirmed uterine septum, referral to RE
March 2014 RE scheduled septum removal for late June
Benched due to possible miscarriages if falling pregnant, back on BC
June 2014 Septum Removal surgery, hysteroscopy/laparascopy
Laparascopy revealed mild endometriosis
Benched until September 2014 for recovery and healing
October 2014 - First letrozole, HCG trigger, TI cycle, 18mm follie
November 2014 - BFP - loss at 6 weeks
January 2015 - Green light to try again 18mm follie, letrozole, HCG trigger
January 2015 - BFP - two ultrasounds and strong heartbeat found on Doppler!!!
Thank you for all the support and kind words. It seems I have been getting the worst luck in all of this TTC journey. I never thought miscarriage would be something that could happen to me, but I have found life does not always go as we planned. It is kind of a relief to not be in limbo anymore. It was making me crazy.
I busted into uncontrollable tears in front of my bosses at work on Monday. Totally embarrassed but at least they are very compassionate. Thanks again for giving me this opportunity to seek answers and advice. You ladies are the best and I hope for baby dust for all of you
TTC since July 2013
September 2013 period still hasn't started since getting off BC
October 2013 OBGYN prescribed 4 months of unmonitored Clomid
3 Months of Clomid, ovulated once
Opted to not do 4th cycle without proper testing found new OBGYN
January 2014 new OBGYN diagnosed me with PCOS ordered ultrasound
January 2014 Ultrasound found possible uterine septum
February 2014 MRI confirmed uterine septum, referral to RE
March 2014 RE scheduled septum removal for late June
Benched due to possible miscarriages if falling pregnant, back on BC
June 2014 Septum Removal surgery, hysteroscopy/laparascopy
Laparascopy revealed mild endometriosis
Benched until September 2014 for recovery and healing
October 2014 - First letrozole, HCG trigger, TI cycle, 18mm follie
November 2014 - BFP - loss at 6 weeks
January 2015 - Green light to try again 18mm follie, letrozole, HCG trigger
January 2015 - BFP - two ultrasounds and strong heartbeat found on Doppler!!!
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
@CandST2014 and @hrushka - I'm so glad you two said something. I saw this and had to take myself away from TB for a second to regroup.
@RositaRae - I wish we could just delete the comment from that person. That is NOT what you need right now. I'm so sorry.
@BryelleSullivan - This is not the place for you to "comfort" anybody. Your blatant disregard for reading all comments/updates from OP is not only obvious and tactless, but this is downright rude, offensive and hurtful. I was just blown away by this horrible, half-witted attempt to inject yourself in a community that is not appropriate for you.
Me: 28 MH:35
Married September 2012. TTC since September 2013
June 2014 - Dx w/ significant PCOS and referred to RE.
July/August 2014 - Testing complete: Testosterone & AMH very high, FSH slightly high, Vitamin D low, tubes and lining all lovely. DH SA: A+
Cycle 1 (Nov 2014): 2.5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI = BFN
Cycle 2 (Dec 2014): 5 mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
Cycle 3 (Jan 2015): 5mg Letrozole/Ovidrel/TI - BFN
WTF consult scheduled for 1/29
@RositaRae I am so sorry for what you're going through. Please be extra kind to yourself and take whatever time you need.
I will not even mention the horrible evil troll because she does not deserve my acknowledgement.
***SIGGY WARNING***
Me (26) & DH (26)
Dog Momma to 2 amazing furbabies
Started dating: May 6, 2005 & Married: August 4, 2012
Diagnosis: PCOS
September 2013 - January 2014: Not trying but not preventing
February 2014: Officially TTC (BBT, OPKs, etc)
February-August 2014: Irregular Cycles, U/S showed Fibroids/Cysts, Provera required to get AF, BFNs
September & October 2014: Testing Months with Reproductive Endocrinologist!
DH's SA: Normal (116.4 million sperm, 97% motility, 36% morphology) - WHO criteria
DH's Repeat SA: Poss. Low Morph. (138 million sperm, 73% motility, 8% morphology) - Kruger criteria
HSG and SIS: Normal (tubes clear)
Medicated Cycle: 5mg Letrozole + Trigger Injection + TI = BFP!!
ESTIMATED DUE DATE: AUGUST 13, 2015
Beta #1: 12/8 - 1,040 Beta #2: 12/10 - 2,902 Beta #3: 12/16 - 19,321
Ultrasound #1: 12/12 (5 weeks 1 day) - Gestational sac and yolk sac present
Ultrasound #2: 12/18 (6 weeks 0 days) - Measuring good, heart rate 99
Ultrasound #3: 12/26 (7 weeks 1 day) - Measuring good, heart rate 150
Official diagnosis: Unexplained IF. I am 32. I have low ovarian reserve (low AMH), and poor egg quality. I've also been diagnosed with mild glandular developmental arrest (lining problems, detected with EFT).
We are using open ID donor sperm. IUIs #1-7=BFN. IVF September 2014 antagonist protocol, 8R,5M,3F, 5 day transfer of 1 morula = BFN. IVF#2 planned for January 2015 (antagonist protocol + HGH).
TTC since May 2013
Me: 31, blocked tube
DH: 35, azoospermia
IUI #1 (50 mg Clomid, Ovidrel) on 9/7/2014: BFN
IUI #2 (100 mg Clomid, Ovidrel) on 10/3/2014: BFN
IUI #3 (100 mg Clomid, Ovidrel, Estradiol) on 11/1/2014: BFN
First RE appt. on 11/11/2014
November 2014: Benched due to cyst
IUI #4 (5 mg Letrozole, Follistim, Ovidrel, Crinone) on 12/26/2014: BFP!!!
Beta 1 (1/9/2015): 292 Beta 2 (1/12/2015): 843
My husband has been telling friends and family and that helps. I don't want to pretend to be okay around them but I also don't want to tell them myself. Every time I talk about it I sob.
It's so hard not to dwell and blame myself right now. I wish I had been healthier and stressed less about work. I really hope RE doesn't bench me too long after this. I feel like I lost so much time as it is. I get yet another HCG to confirm the loss today. My arm looks like I shoot up drugs with all the bruises on it.
I should probably move to one of the loss boards, but I do like it here. Thanks again your sympathies and hugs! It has really helped me cope more than you know.
TTC since July 2013
September 2013 period still hasn't started since getting off BC
October 2013 OBGYN prescribed 4 months of unmonitored Clomid
3 Months of Clomid, ovulated once
Opted to not do 4th cycle without proper testing found new OBGYN
January 2014 new OBGYN diagnosed me with PCOS ordered ultrasound
January 2014 Ultrasound found possible uterine septum
February 2014 MRI confirmed uterine septum, referral to RE
March 2014 RE scheduled septum removal for late June
Benched due to possible miscarriages if falling pregnant, back on BC
June 2014 Septum Removal surgery, hysteroscopy/laparascopy
Laparascopy revealed mild endometriosis
Benched until September 2014 for recovery and healing
October 2014 - First letrozole, HCG trigger, TI cycle, 18mm follie
November 2014 - BFP - loss at 6 weeks
January 2015 - Green light to try again 18mm follie, letrozole, HCG trigger
January 2015 - BFP - two ultrasounds and strong heartbeat found on Doppler!!!