Yesterday I only had time to shower off, no time to wash my hair. So I put it up in a high messy bun, and wrapped my head with a scarf to hide the horrible, greasy mess.
I got a ton of compliments on my hairstyle at work.
FFFC: I am addicted to reality TV shows. I love all of the Real Housewives, all of the Teen Moms and 16 and Pregnant shows, and any reality TV competition show. It is sad how many hours/week I waste on TV.
@rainbowsandunicorns, I have those conversations with my dog, too. Even got DH doing it! We respond for her in our "Daphne voice," which involves a lisp and sounds like her nose is stopped up. Don't know where we came up with it, but it fits her quite well.
Married to the love of my life since September 2013. TTC #1 since January 2014 Met with RE Nov 2014: Cyst on left ovary. Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy 12/3 to remove cyst, endo, polyp, and fibroid 12/14: Natural cycle = BFN 1/15: Starting Femara for IUI #1
SO from yesterdays UO: I buy children's movies when they come out on DVD under the premise that I am stocking up for future children but really I just want to take them home and drink wine while I watch them.
Also, I went to see Frozen in theater with a gal pal who has children because I wanted to see it so badly. She was super sweet though and left the kids at home to go with me. Yes we are the creepy adults in the back of children's movies. We sneaked in a defrosted freezer aisle cheesecake to munch on during the movie too. It was amazing.
Married 06/08 started TTC 08/08
BFP 9/08 Natural m/c (8w3d)
BFP 06/09 Natural m.c (5w3d)
BFP 9/09 -- Dec. 29th: Juliet Rose born at 20 wks. Love you forever.
TTC Break 1/10-8/14.
Results of physical testing = Normal
Genetic testing = Balanced translocation
IVF #1 with PGD Nov 2014 = BFN
IVF #2 with PGD Start stimming 1/6, ER scheduled 1/16, ET scheduled 1/21
Canadian Geese are mean buggers. Just throw the bread and fucking run.
I'm just going to leave this for education purposes :-)
"The age-old practice of feeding ducks and geese stale bread, pastries, cookies and various other assorted types of junk food can cause significant health problems for these birds. Even when fed fresh, these highly processed foods provide little or no nutritional value and may actually contribute to starvation among waterfowl Moldy foods can impact their health just as it does our own. Ducks and geese are far better off building their reserves by moving from location to location in search of a healthy natural diet than they are living on foods that we would never consider feeding to our children or our pets. Although all feeding is discouraged, for those who insist anyways it is far preferable to feed foods consistent with a natural diet such as cracked corn or triple duty game bird chow." source
Married 06/08 started TTC 08/08
BFP 9/08 Natural m/c (8w3d)
BFP 06/09 Natural m.c (5w3d)
BFP 9/09 -- Dec. 29th: Juliet Rose born at 20 wks. Love you forever.
TTC Break 1/10-8/14.
Results of physical testing = Normal
Genetic testing = Balanced translocation
IVF #1 with PGD Nov 2014 = BFN
IVF #2 with PGD Start stimming 1/6, ER scheduled 1/16, ET scheduled 1/21
My FFFC was actually going to be I suspect a colleague may actually be an animal abuser. It's so speculative at this point that, even if I had a clear means of recourse there's a solid chance I would be wrong. But she has told a number of stories that make me SO uncomfortable. You know when you just have a gut feeling about something? That.
"She had a lively, playful disposition, which delighted in anything ridiculous"
FFFC: I frequently scare the ducks swimming in the pond outside my balcony at night with a laser pointer, I find their terrified quacks hilarious.
Serial killers usually start off abusing animals.
I'm just saying.
Scaring ducks with a laser pointer is not the same as stalking and killing cats to disembowel them for shits and giggles.
__________
You gotta start somewhere.
Yeah, this is a huge stretch. Sure, it's not particularly nice to scare geese, but it's not hurting them. I highly doubt she is going to start abusing animals or killing people.
She said she finds, "their terrified quacks hilarious". I don't care who you are, that is some fucked up shit.
Am I the only one that compared this to people finding it hilarious when their dog/cat is scared of a frog or something? So they go out and find said thing just to videotape and laugh at the reaction?
ETA: I'm not saying that it is a good thing to do, just that YouTube is full of people doing it and that doesn't make them or her serial killers.
Married 06/08 started TTC 08/08
BFP 9/08 Natural m/c (8w3d)
BFP 06/09 Natural m.c (5w3d)
BFP 9/09 -- Dec. 29th: Juliet Rose born at 20 wks. Love you forever.
TTC Break 1/10-8/14.
Results of physical testing = Normal
Genetic testing = Balanced translocation
IVF #1 with PGD Nov 2014 = BFN
IVF #2 with PGD Start stimming 1/6, ER scheduled 1/16, ET scheduled 1/21
Yeah, so she probably won't kill animals. Is it still sick & fucking twisted she enjoys tormenting them? You bet.
Yeah, I didn't love reading that. Poor ducks. But, I can't even look at the whole fish in the seafood section when I go to Whole Foods, because they all look like they're frowning and I get sad. Do I think I'm a hypocrite that I only eat filets? Yes. But, I already gave up meat and going vegan isn't healthy for me.
I keep having dreams involving the HIMYM characters. Last night we fought hordes of zombies. There may or may not have been a grizzly bear fighting with us, and I may or may not have ridden said grizzly into battle...
I certainly got it on with Barney.
I had a sex dream about Neil Patrick Harris as his character in Gone Girl. I was super into the controlling side
I went a few years without reading a book for pleasure except while on vacation. I love to read (I was even a lit major), but during grad school I decrompressed by going out drinking or zoning out in front of the TV. After grad school I continued on that same path, and the next thing I knew, it had been years since I'd read anything. When I started to read books again, I remembered how much I love it.
FFFC: I am addicted to reality TV shows. I love all of the Real Housewives, all of the Teen Moms and 16 and Pregnant shows, and any reality TV competition show. It is sad how many hours/week I waste on TV.
FFFC: I am having a shitty TTC day/issues with my H and self-medicating by streaming the Real Housewives of OC and drinking boxed wine alone on my couch. I don't see this ending well.
Joining in spirit with you from my couch in England only I am now on Season 5 of gossip girl
FFFC: Sometimes while I'm at the store buying groceries, I'll grab a pack of Ghirardelli dark chocolate chips and hide them in the freezer where DH won't find them. Every once in a while, I'll bring out about 1/4 cup to snack on after dinner and he is always bewildered about where I'm getting them I share (sometimes...)
Edit b/c words are hard in the morning
Frozen chocolate is amazing. I freeze almost all of my candy bars.
TTC #1 since May 2014 3 failed IUI cycles Oct '15 - IVF 1 - 10R, 3M, 0F Sept '16 - IVF - 12R, 11M, 5F and 3 perfect day 5 blasts - MMC 7w5d Jan '17 - FET 1 - BFP, EDD 10/14
I talk to my dog. A lot. I'm talking full on one sided conversations.
This seems pretty normal to me. I talk to my cats. But, they talk back.
Mine talk back all the time. Our conversations usually go something like this:
Me:"no"
Her:"meow?"
Me:"no"
Her"MEOW?"
Me:"No"
Her:"MROW?"
Me:"no"
Her:"MROW!" (Which seems to mean "right now")
And the conversation is usually on repeat until we go out.
I've walked in on DH having a political debate with Hermione.
DH: I don't care what you say, Hillary Clinton would make a great president! Hermione: Meowowowowow!
And so on. Talking cats are so much fun.
I can say this is true since I'm a speech therapist. My cats are able to use inflection and prosody and meow in one- to three- syllable word phrases, depending on what they want. Meooooow is to be let out in the hallway for a walk, meow meow meow means, "I want to play," and murr meow means "thank you." For real, guise.
FFFC: Sometimes while I'm at the store buying groceries, I'll grab a pack of Ghirardelli dark chocolate chips and hide them in the freezer where DH won't find them. Every once in a while, I'll bring out about 1/4 cup to snack on after dinner and he is always bewildered about where I'm getting them I share (sometimes...)
Edit b/c words are hard in the morning
When I was a teenager, I got into an argument with my mom. I was talking to my dad when all the sudden he started rooting around in the ice box in the freezer, and produced a Kit Kat. When I looked at him like WTF but thanks, he just said "I keep a small stash in there for when your sister and mom are grouchy" LOL
FFFC: I accidentally texted my boss last night about something that happened at work and ended it with "WTF???" She didn't reply but when I realized I sent it to her, I responded and said "Woah. My phone is so messed up. I just alerted me that this message failed to send even though we talked about it earlier and it auto-corrected WHAT to WTF." She responded and said, "HA!! I didn't think it was like you to curse!!"
If she only knew.
Ha!
My boss is Mormon. I'm mindful to not bring up alcohol-centric (happy hour!!) or caffeine-centric (let's go get coffee!) social things for the lab to do. I also try to gently remind the others in my lab the same. Not that he couldn't come or something, but he's private and I've worked with him for quite awhile (>10 years!) so I know his comfort levels on things.
But, dammit... sometimes "fuck" just slips out when I'm talking to him. And I feel TERRIBLE. Every time. But, I have heard him curse a time or two so I feel a little better. But mostly not.
My graduate advisor hired me after my first meeting with him in his office. It wasn't until after I left that I remembered with a horrified gasp that I had said "It was a crazy project. Fuck. I had no idea how complicated it would be. But, I got it to work." He didn't miss a beat so I didn't even realize.
My sailor mouth must get under control at some point.
Same! My former boss was also Mormon. He moved on to another team ealier this year.
My cussing has increased approximately 174% since then.
All of our pets each have distinct 'human' voices that we not only have conversations with, but we will use the dogs to talk to each other. Like 'Tell Daddy you want to you o-u-t.' I guess the second part of that is, when H and I are not with other people, we refer to each other as Daddy and Mumma when talking with/through the dogs. Funnily enough I can't stand the term 'furbaby.'
I've decided that I might not be able to watch AHS this season. Not because it's not good, the story has me drawn in, but because, even though I don't have a previous fear of clowns, something about that character has given me some anxiety. Like, taking a shower I'm stopping and opening the shower curtain and looking around. We watched it almost in real time, so it's been 2 days and I can't get it out of my head. I'm also home alone a lot of the day, which adds to it. I rarely have this happen where I get so jumpy.
Debbie Downer of the day: I feel like a total fool because I got hopeful on a wing and a prayer. Basically H and I, once my last blood test was in the lab and I knew I'd be getting results within the day, started having unprotected sex. I wasn't monitoring anything, but had massive amounts of EWCM for the first time in a really long time. So we had sex all that weekend, mostly because we both really missed unprotected sex, but in the back of my mind was that something could be happening. My cycle's still adjusting after the surgery, it's a little longer than it was (like 35 days instead of around 30, so not that much) and I got my hopes up and thought 'it's a holiday weekend, I'll test Tuesday.' Started barely spotting this morning, but I know what that means. I shouldn't be sad because we weren't really trying and it would have been an incredible long shot, but it would have been nice to have some crazy luck. Wah-wah.
TTC #1 since 11/2012 Me-31, H-27 **Loss 1-Cycle 7(June 2013) at 5w6d-CP**Loss 2-Cycle 11(October 2013) at 5w4d-CP** **Loss 3-Cycle 14 (January-February 2014)-M/C dx 2/10, EP dx 2/24, MTX 2/25** Beta Hell--hCG finally down to 0 - 6/20/14 SA normal. Genetic testing normal. Hormonal testing normal. HSG 6/30/14 - found blocked left tube and 2 'bubbles' on uterine wall. Hysteroscopy/Lap--8/4/14 - Tubes unblocked. Polyps removed from uterine wall. Septum removed. 9/30/14--Off the bench! Unmedicated TI through December 2014 BFP 12/14/14!!! Beta #1, 12/16: 990 Beta #2, 12/18: Over 2000! Beta #3, 12/22: over 8000! U/S #1, 12/23: gestational sac, possible heartbeat U/S #2, 12/30: HEARTBEAT! 128bpm, measuring right on at 7w EDD: 8/19/2015 U/S #3, 1/9: BPM in the 180s, IT'S HAPPENING!!!
I watch an unholy amount of infomercials. Where do I audition to be one of those frustrated actors?
As a child, I couldn't wait to grow up and buy a Ron Popiel Pasta Maker or a PaintStick (attachment to can so paint can be pulled right into the handle and smushed out the roller). I lurved them. Saturday morning cartoons? No, no. Where's my pal Ron?
My sister and I were obsessed with this. Chocolate pasta!
January Siggy Challenge: Happy Dance
BFP #1: 10-25-11, MC: 11-1-11 @ 5w5d BFP#2: 12-29-11, DS born September 2012 TFAS: July 2014, BFP#3: 12-29-14, EDD 9-9-15
Re: FFFC
Married 6/21/14 Baby:6/24/15
TTC Since 6/2013 Early Loss: 9/2013 MFI Diagnosis: 12/2014
TTC #1 since January 2014
Met with RE Nov 2014: Cyst on left ovary. Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy 12/3 to remove cyst, endo, polyp, and fibroid
12/14: Natural cycle = BFN
1/15: Starting Femara for IUI #1
Chart Stalk Me
TTGP January Siggy Challenge: Workout Fails
SO from yesterdays UO: I buy children's movies when they come out on DVD under the premise that I am stocking up for future children but really I just want to take them home and drink wine while I watch them.
Also, I went to see Frozen in theater with a gal pal who has children because I wanted to see it so badly. She was super sweet though and left the kids at home to go with me. Yes we are the creepy adults in the back of children's movies. We sneaked in a defrosted freezer aisle cheesecake to munch on during the movie too. It was amazing.
But, I laughed. If it had been Canadian Geese I might have even LT'd it. Geese are assholes.
3 failed IUI cycles
Oct '15 - IVF 1 - 10R, 3M, 0F
Sept '16 - IVF - 12R, 11M, 5F and 3 perfect day 5 blasts - MMC 7w5d
Jan '17 - FET 1 - BFP, EDD 10/14
I'm just saying.
__________
You gotta start somewhere.
My FFFC was actually going to be I suspect a colleague may actually be an animal abuser. It's so speculative at this point that, even if I had a clear means of recourse there's a solid chance I would be wrong. But she has told a number of stories that make me SO uncomfortable. You know when you just have a gut feeling about something? That.
ETA: I'm not saying that it is a good thing to do, just that YouTube is full of people doing it and that doesn't make them or her serial killers.
I enjoy reality tv, true crime stories, lime-a-ritas, and pizza..
FFFC: I let fear stop me from doing too many things. I'm working on it.
Surprise BFP Feb 2008 MC at 6w2d
BFP! 10/28/14 EDD 7/5/15
3 failed IUI cycles
Oct '15 - IVF 1 - 10R, 3M, 0F
Sept '16 - IVF - 12R, 11M, 5F and 3 perfect day 5 blasts - MMC 7w5d
Jan '17 - FET 1 - BFP, EDD 10/14
Less flashy and obnoxious would be good too, but at least smaller.
Oh shit. Is it huge? I did it on my iPad and didn't realize. I'll fix it.
I enjoy reality tv, true crime stories, lime-a-ritas, and pizza..
My boss is Mormon. I'm mindful to not bring up alcohol-centric (happy hour!!) or caffeine-centric (let's go get coffee!) social things for the lab to do. I also try to gently remind the others in my lab the same. Not that he couldn't come or something, but he's private and I've worked with him for quite awhile (>10 years!) so I know his comfort levels on things.
But, dammit... sometimes "fuck" just slips out when I'm talking to him. And I feel TERRIBLE. Every time. But, I have heard him curse a time or two so I feel a little better. But mostly not.
My graduate advisor hired me after my first meeting with him in his office. It wasn't until after I left that I remembered with a horrified gasp that I had said "It was a crazy project. Fuck. I had no idea how complicated it would be. But, I got it to work." He didn't miss a beat so I didn't even realize.
My sailor mouth must get under control at some point.
Same! My former boss was also Mormon. He moved on to another team ealier this year.
My cussing has increased approximately 174% since then.
I've decided that I might not be able to watch AHS this season. Not because it's not good, the story has me drawn in, but because, even though I don't have a previous fear of clowns, something about that character has given me some anxiety. Like, taking a shower I'm stopping and opening the shower curtain and looking around. We watched it almost in real time, so it's been 2 days and I can't get it out of my head. I'm also home alone a lot of the day, which adds to it. I rarely have this happen where I get so jumpy.
Debbie Downer of the day: I feel like a total fool because I got hopeful on a wing and a prayer. Basically H and I, once my last blood test was in the lab and I knew I'd be getting results within the day, started having unprotected sex. I wasn't monitoring anything, but had massive amounts of EWCM for the first time in a really long time. So we had sex all that weekend, mostly because we both really missed unprotected sex, but in the back of my mind was that something could be happening. My cycle's still adjusting after the surgery, it's a little longer than it was (like 35 days instead of around 30, so not that much) and I got my hopes up and thought 'it's a holiday weekend, I'll test Tuesday.' Started barely spotting this morning, but I know what that means. I shouldn't be sad because we weren't really trying and it would have been an incredible long shot, but it would have been nice to have some crazy luck. Wah-wah.
Me-31, H-27
**Loss 1-Cycle 7(June 2013) at 5w6d-CP**Loss 2-Cycle 11(October 2013) at 5w4d-CP**
**Loss 3-Cycle 14 (January-February 2014)-M/C dx 2/10, EP dx 2/24, MTX 2/25**
Beta Hell--hCG finally down to 0 - 6/20/14
SA normal. Genetic testing normal. Hormonal testing normal.
HSG 6/30/14 - found blocked left tube and 2 'bubbles' on uterine wall.
Hysteroscopy/Lap--8/4/14 - Tubes unblocked. Polyps removed from uterine wall. Septum removed.
9/30/14--Off the bench! Unmedicated TI through December 2014
BFP 12/14/14!!! Beta #1, 12/16: 990 Beta #2, 12/18: Over 2000! Beta #3, 12/22: over 8000!
U/S #1, 12/23: gestational sac, possible heartbeat
U/S #2, 12/30: HEARTBEAT! 128bpm, measuring right on at 7w EDD: 8/19/2015
U/S #3, 1/9: BPM in the 180s, IT'S HAPPENING!!!
BFP #1: 10-25-11, MC: 11-1-11 @ 5w5d
BFP#2: 12-29-11, DS born September 2012
TFAS: July 2014, BFP#3: 12-29-14, EDD 9-9-15
And, DH and I are going to a wedding tonight. I so want to pull the m/c card, sit in my sweats/filth, and stuff my face with ice cream and chocolate.
3 failed IUI cycles
Oct '15 - IVF 1 - 10R, 3M, 0F
Sept '16 - IVF - 12R, 11M, 5F and 3 perfect day 5 blasts - MMC 7w5d
Jan '17 - FET 1 - BFP, EDD 10/14