I reminded DS1 about DH twice while he was in the bathroom. I'm so over these 20 min bathroom trips multiple times during a day and never during nap. The first time DH forgot to lock the door so DS1 walked in on him.
I'v discovered the trick of just cleaning the focal point of a room. Takes 30 seconds to clear all the junk off and stuff it in a corner, but it makes it look like I've spent hours cleaning.
My LO tasted peanut butter yesterday. It was an accident. I was chasing her sister around trying to get her to eat her peanut butter sandwhich. I had a piece in my fingers and in a moment of distraction popped it in the first open mouth which happened to be LO's. Took a few seconds for me to realize what I had done. Then I had to try and pry it out of her mouth. She didn't want to give it up. Kept licking her lips after. Here I was freaking out (on the inside) and she was all smiles.
I'm having a a hard time watching my peer get promoted. It's into a position I don't even want because I don't want to give any more to my career right now than I have to, but it's the first time in my life that I haven't gone full tilt at school/work and it makes me sad. I know it's the right thing so that I can give my family the attention it needs right now, but damn its harder than I thought.
I let Sullivan chill out awake in his crib for a half hour this morning since he was making happy singing sounds and playing with his wubanub. Now after a bottle and diaper he's just as happy playing independently in the "baby jail" while my coffee brews and I take some Tylenol. Migraines make for a lame mommy.
I love not working!! I left my job of 8 years to be a SAHM and I was so worried that I would regret it. I've never been unemployed and had zero kid experience prior to LOs arrival. I don't miss it for a second! Adult interaction- you mean listening to my coworkers constantly bitch, gossip and chew? Clients prefacing conversations with "Well you people..." - no thanks.
There is this woman in my mommy group that has a 8 week old. The woman doesn't even look like she had a baby. She always shows up showered, with makeup on. I irrationally hate her. She says she is a SAHM mom but she has a nanny. Bitch. On a positive note, her son is fugly!!!! Makes me feel better.
I feel embarrassed to go out in public with my husband.
People think he looks like Ryan gosling and here I am this ugly oaf walking around w him.
Ugh it's making me panic just thinking about it. I wish I didn't find myself so repulsive. It causes a lot of stress and anxiety.
I get this completely. My husband doesn't look like a particular celebrity, though. People who have known me for a while that meet him for the first time always comment, "wow, he's really good looking!" They sound shocked. I know they're really trying to say: how did someone who looks like you end up with someone who looks like him? !
My 12 year old, declawed, indoor cat escaped last night. I've tried to catch him. I am worried that he will get hit or eaten by something (I live in the sticks). I not nearly as panicked as I should be, nor am I making as much as an effort to catch him as I should.
Last night we were having subs for dinner and I was baking them in the over. As I was taking them out, one fell off the tray.... I picked it up, put it back on the tray and didn't say anything.
~ Leah, Rachel and Gabriel were born on May 27, 2013 (23 weeks) ~
@JWest07 ugh sorry you feel the same I hate being so insecure! I have a daughter I need to be a good role model for- feeling this way makes me feel like such a fail sometimes (pitty party for 1 over here!)
I hide my insecurity as best I can because it's such an annoying quality. Hoping to get my confidence back soon!
Um, @Holljade if that's you in your avitar pic, you have nothing to worry about. Very pretty.
And, if you still can't get on board, try this one: maybe they look at you, think he's way more attractive, and then assume you must be dynamite in bed.
I love Disney movies. I play Disney Pandora in an effort to get Edolie accustomed to the songs that way she'll hopefully grow up loving them as much as I do.
THERE I SAID IT!
February Siggy Challenge: Favorite TV couple ~ Jim & Pam
^^ DH just ordered Cars, Cars II, Planes, and Nemo. We have a 3 yo and and are bracing ourselves to be stuck inside this winter. Im not sure she has the attention span for it, but it'll be an option.
I think I accidentally killed a lizard this morning. I opened the door to get him safely out of the house, and I think I closed the door too quickly. I can't bear to look
I've worn the same night shirt 3 days in a row. If I go out I'll put a clean shirt on, but when I get home I put my dirty baggy shirt back on. I feel bad for DH because I've been a waste of space lately, but he did this to me!!! Ha way overdramatic, but I do feel gross. Maybe I'll just steal on of his shirts now.
@Holljade - you truly look like you're beautiful. I'm sure you have nothing to worry about! I think being a new mom sometimes messes with our brains and definitely our body image. I understand how you feel, though. My DH is in AMAZING shape. He has a perfect body. Lately, with my mommy "curves", I don't feel worthy and a bit embarrassed. I know he still thinks I'm pretty somehow, even if I don't agree.
I don't like my husband. I love him, he's my best friend. But he's not the same person that I married. He's a corporate finance attorney and always has "to close a big deal" And I don't know what the hell that even means other than he has to work late and on the weekends and it makes him always anxious and in a shitty mood. For example, our garage door sometimes doesn't work and he got so frusterated that he threw it out the window. Seriously, what the actual fuck? He has major road rage and just hates anyone who is a person or an animal. He snaps at all of us and is generally awful to be around (if he is at all). I get zero help and he throws a tantrum if the dishwasher isn't unloaded and there's dirty bottles in the sink because I obviously left it for him (not because I didn't have time to do it). He leaves before the baby wakes up and often comes home after she's gone to bed. He makes himself something to eat and doesn't clean up after himself and I get to clean the kitchen a second time. Then he has to recheck the kids homework because I may have checked it incorrectly because I'm stupid and rips my son apart if he gets a B on his report card. I know he loves me and thinks I'm the greatest person on earth, except for the things I could probably to better. This might be more like a rant, but my FFFC is that I just don't like my husband and it makes me so sad when you guys talk about how great yours are. I wish I had at least married someone who was funny.
@Holljade - you truly look like you're beautiful. I'm sure you have nothing to worry about! I think being a new mom sometimes messes with our brains and definitely our body image. I understand how you feel, though. My DH is in AMAZING shape. He has a perfect body. Lately, with my mommy "curves", I don't feel worthy and a bit embarrassed. I know he still thinks I'm pretty somehow, even if I don't agree.
@steph1977 yea this time around I feel a lot worse. The weight is coming off slower and I shower a lot less. I'm hoping I get back to my normal sell soon! I think breastfeeding has taken a lot of it away- hoping I get back to normal once I'm done!
I don't like my husband. I love him, he's my best friend. But he's not the same person that I married. He's a corporate finance attorney and always has "to close a big deal" And I don't know what the hell that even means other than he has to work late and on the weekends and it makes him always anxious and in a shitty mood. For example, our garage door sometimes doesn't work and he got so frusterated that he threw it out the window. Seriously, what the actual fuck? He has major road rage and just hates anyone who is a person or an animal. He snaps at all of us and is generally awful to be around (if he is at all). I get zero help and he throws a tantrum if the dishwasher isn't unloaded and there's dirty bottles in the sink because I obviously left it for him (not because I didn't have time to do it). He leaves before the baby wakes up and often comes home after she's gone to bed. He makes himself something to eat and doesn't clean up after himself and I get to clean the kitchen a second time. Then he has to recheck the kids homework because I may have checked it incorrectly because I'm stupid and rips my son apart if he gets a B on his report card. I know he loves me and thinks I'm the greatest person on earth, except for the things I could probably to better. This might be more like a rant, but my FFFC is that I just don't like my husband and it makes me so sad when you guys talk about how great yours are. I wish I had at least married someone who was funny.
I totally understand how you feel and so glad that I am not the only one. My husbands family used to be well off, they owned a construction company in Florida. So at 30 years old, DH went from being able to do anything to having to live in a tight budget sometimes. I did not marry him for money, but he is a completely different person than who I fell in love with. I see bits of that person sometimes which is why I stay but I miss the man I married. ( even before dd)
I have an irrational fear of DS having autism. He's not rolling, so I think... Is he autistic? On days he doesn't smile as much... I wonder if he is autistic. So on and so on. I think it stems from me taking Lexapro during my first tri and now while breastfeeding... But I also think having an autistic child would be so, so hard. I almost googled when early signs start but I stopped myself.
I have a friend who is not yet 37 weeks pregnant, she wants to be induced next week so her son comes before family arrives. She's even spoken to her doctor about inducement. I secretly hopes she's overdue.
I have an irrational fear of DS having autism. He's not rolling, so I think... Is he autistic? On days he doesn't smile as much... I wonder if he is autistic. So on and so on. I think it stems from me taking Lexapro during my first tri and now while breastfeeding... But I also think having an autistic child would be so, so hard. I almost googled when early signs start but I stopped myself.
I've done this before too! But those things are normal. I see 5 month old babies sitting up and rolling over both ways and I'm all WHATS WRONG WITH MY BABY???
@Ashleypixie I understand how you feel. Hubs and I went through a really tough time at one point (actually we've had quite a few pa and downs but this time in particular was the hardest for me, we just fought SO MUCH about everything)
It got really bad I told him I felt like someone had died bc it just wasn't the same- i felt like he was a completely different person and I lost the man I loved for good, as if he had died. It was tough. He said when I told him that it really affected him. Things didn't get better immediately but they started to change.
People change and grow as time goes by and it's tough when that change doesn't happen in the way we want or need it to.
@Ashleypixie I took a class in college called Christian Marriage (catholic university, heard great things about the class, took it with now DH, etc.) and the one thing I remember the most from that class is something the professor said about loving our spouse and liking them. He said 'love' and 'like' are two different things. Love is more of a choice, and like is not. On bad days we can chose to love our spouse, but we may not like who they are at the time. On those days, it's OK to say "I love you, but I don't like who you are right now."
I've had a lot of those love not like days in the past six months. ((Hugs)) You're not alone, and you're doing awesome at this!
I told a mom that I don't know that she could bring her kids to my daycare just for one day because she needed help. I regret my decision...these two little girls are super busy and clingy. I thought bathroom time was cut short with DS around but holy jumpin's these girls stand at the door and knock.
I told a mom that I don't know that she could bring her kids to my daycare just for one day because she needed help. I regret my decision...these two little girls are super busy and clingy. I thought bathroom time was cut short with DS around but holy jumpin's these girls stand at the door and knock.
This is my daughter to a T. Super hyper and super clingy. It's fun.
Re: FFFC
"Sorry LO, this would be faster if they had put prices on these items!"
"I guess nobody contains their dogs in this neighbourhood, eh LO?"
People think he looks like Ryan gosling and here I am this ugly oaf walking around w him.
Ugh it's making me panic just thinking about it. I wish I didn't find myself so repulsive. It causes a lot of stress and anxiety.
I left my job of 8 years to be a SAHM and I was so worried that I would regret it. I've never been unemployed and had zero kid experience prior to LOs arrival. I don't miss it for a second! Adult interaction- you mean listening to my coworkers constantly bitch, gossip and chew? Clients prefacing conversations with "Well you people..." - no thanks.
People who have known me for a while that meet him for the first time always comment, "wow, he's really good looking!" They sound shocked. I know they're really trying to say: how did someone who looks like you end up with someone who looks like him? !
I not nearly as panicked as I should be, nor am I making as much as an effort to catch him as I should.
I hide my insecurity as best I can because it's such an annoying quality. Hoping to get my confidence back soon!
Thanks for the sweet comments @dani+california and @mommyofmac
And, if you still can't get on board, try this one: maybe they look at you, think he's way more attractive, and then assume you must be dynamite in bed.
Nope.
Instant hate.
THERE I SAID IT!
Eli's room is Disney themed with *gasp* decals on the walls.
I've done this before too! But those things are normal. I see 5 month old babies sitting up and rolling over both ways and I'm all WHATS WRONG WITH MY BABY???
It got really bad I told him I felt like someone had died bc it just wasn't the same- i felt like he was a completely different person and I lost the man I loved for good, as if he had died. It was tough. He said when I told him that it really affected him. Things didn't get better immediately but they started to change.
People change and grow as time goes by and it's tough when that change doesn't happen in the way we want or need it to.
I hope things turn around for you. ::hugs::