TTC>35 weekly check-in 10/1

tlc35 · October 2014

This check in is for anyone on this board to participate in and will occur every Wednesday. If you are new here and haven't made a separate intro on the main board please do so before checking in so we can "meet" you! It's easy to do just click the new discussion button in the top right and post away.

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?

3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww?

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?

Feel free to add any vents or shout outs.

sonpetitlapin · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.

Melissa Florida

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?

Cycle #2 My 4th his 3rd our 1st

3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?

See how it goes.

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww?

Still in the never ending AF....Almost 2 weeks. My AF has been wacky since my loss back in May. UGH

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)

If I ever get off AF, I may get hopeful.

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?

No goal or anything I am looking forward to. Hoping October is less eventful and less stressful. September was a dozy.

Feel free to add any vents or shout outs.

FX and Good luck to those testing this week. BFP!!!!

lcwed · October 2014

1.lcwed, tx

2. #2 since January

3. Temping/charting and trying SPERM plan.

4. CD8

5. I would love to get pregnant this month. We could announce at Christmas which would be cool as we found out DD sex on Christmas eve, all major appts would fall in break times, I could keep it hidden from school until after the break, and our anniversary is this month so it would make a great gift. Of course, this will probably ensure it doesn't happen, but the hope is still there.

QOTW: Make it to the gym 4 out of 5 week days and get my fall decorations up.

Shout out to @siennamom for talking about Sperm meet egg plan. I had never heard of it but got inspired by it.

tlc35 · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.
tlc35

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?
TTC#1 since March with 1 loss

3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?
Temping and charting, etc

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww?
WTO, I am CD 7 today.

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)
Pretty pessimistic. Not sure if we will get to try or not. DH had his hernia surgery on friday and his doc said sex was ok in a week or 2 if he feels up to it. I hope he is up to it by next week but I don't want to push it.

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?
Really, I am just looking forward to my RE appointment in 3 weeks.

Feel free to add any vents or shout outs.
I am keeping everything crossed for @Jimbobcooter for your beta and for @Lesliem0901 for your next ultrasound and that you just have a slow starter in there.

Also sending a shout out to @URmysunshine77 for just being awesome!

URMySunshine77 · October 2014

@ABabyMaybe4Us: I'm sorry about your never-ending period. I hope that you can move on soon!

@lcwed: I love your thoughts about a Christmas announcement.

@tlc35: We've been trying for the same length of time. I hope that you get some answers/positive plans at your RE appointment. Bear hug to you!

@Lesliem0901: I also want to echo @tlc35 that I hope that your next ultrasound provides some positive news.

@JimBobCooter: I'm on pins and needles for your beta!

---------------

1. URMySunshine77 from Northern California

2. TTC#2 for seven months, six cycles now

3. Temping, using OPKs, acupuncture, decaf green tea before O, water, reduced caffeine, no alcohol. I just got blood drawn for my AMH/FSH and all of those related tests yesterday. I'll do the progesterone testing on 7DPO.

4. I'm on CD4.

(child mentioned below)

5. I still feel hopeful. My first two or three postpartum cycles were a little wonky, and I feel like my body is just getting back to normal.

QOTW: I love Halloween, so I am looking forward to finding a costume for DS and carving our first pumpkin as a family. I'm not sure that we'll put one on our porch because someone might steal it. Someone stole our stroller the other day (left it out too long). :-(

Shout-out to @TAT2MAMI for always being so cheerful and sweet. Oh, and @lcwed for awesome GIFs that fit all occasions.

wannabmama23 · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from. Wannabmama23 MA

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.? #1, cycle 3

3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE? Chart and temp. Second month temping and feel like I'm much better at it this time around!

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww? WTO, cd 9

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc) I'm with @lcwed and would love love love if this were our month. I know it will be when it will be but I do have my hopes set a little higher this month.

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)? I really hate my job...but it's obviously not good timing to try to find something else. However, I'm trying to find goals for an eventual exit strategy and so am working on those!

@URMysunshine your name and avatar bring back awesome memories for me--my mom used to sing me that song and the lyrics are hanging on our wall in the living room. It's a great sentiment

@lcwed I hadn't even thought of the Christmas announcement but now I want it to work out even more--I have an awesome idea of how I'd spill the beans to my parents around Christmas!

obscurereference · October 2014

Hi ladies! I hope everyone has had a good week thus far. As always, I'm hoping for the best for everyone and I want to see some BFPs this month on this board!

1. obscurereference, FL

2. TTC #3, cycle 2.

3. Temping and OPKs. We also decided to try sperm meets egg this month, which is more sex than we usually do and I am worn out!

4. I think FF will give me crosshairs tomorrow for CD18. My temps are not as pretty as last month, but when I looked back at my charts from TTC DS apparently my temp did this a lot. Not sure if that's good or bad lol. I'm CD20 right now and probably 2 DPO so I guess I'm in my 2WW. I feel nothing, just relief that the baby-making sex is over!

5. I also think this would be a great month for us to get pregnant. It would spread out the birthdays a bit and we can continue our tradition of announcing at Christmas. If FF says I ovulated when I think it will, our timing was perfect so I'm glad that we at least gave it our best shot.

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)? My birthday month! And Halloween! I'm starting a gluten-free (well, I'm never perfect with it, but close) diet next week and actually keeping track of my weight in an attempt to get healthier so that's exciting. I'm having issues trying to find time to get exercise in, which is really what I want to do.

WinoGrrl · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.

WinoGrrl - Wisconsin

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?
TTC #1 Cycle 3

3. What are you doing this cycle?

Charting / Temping

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc)

Waiting for AF to finish so I can then wait to O

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)
I'm hopeful. Past being breezy about this and wanting to graduate already!!

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?

Getting the house ready to sell and finding a new house to buy.Getting back on track with workouts

pinkishrabbit · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.

PinkishRabbit from New Mexico

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?

TTC #1 for a few months now

3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?

Charting & testing

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww?

AF... blah

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)

Going to try and have a better attitude than I do today!

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?

I'd like to exercise more, and I also am considering a new job. I had a crappy boss who quit, but she was replaced with someone even worse. I'm on the fence due to the great benefits, but the stress just may not be worth it.

siennamom · October 2014

Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from. SiennaMom, TX

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.? TTC#3, cycle 2

3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE? learning to chart, OPKs

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww? 2ww, testing on Sunday

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc) anxious, I hate waiting, and trying not to get my hopes up too much

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)? a lot of work stress should be coming to an end this month, so really looking forward to that. DH and I have an 80s Halloween party coming up, so need to think of costumes...

@lcwed - thanks for the shout out! if it doesn't happen on the sperm/egg plan, it's not for a lack of trying

shout outs to all of ladies posting about temping, i'm really learning a lot!!

boymamaco · October 2014

This is my first check in on this thread. I did an intro several weeks ago.

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.

lucyspeople / CO
2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?

TTC #2; still waiting on first PP period so can't really say how long we've been trying yet. I was hoping I'd be one of "those" people that gets knocked up before their first period. ha!
3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?

Going to a fertility acupuncturist, nutritionist and will be seeing an RE on the 16th.
4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww?

Still waiting to get PP period.
5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)... Annoyed!

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?

I was doing super well with my nutrition throughout August and the first half of September. The second half of Sept was a disaster so I'm hoping to just get back on track. I'm working on balancing my blood sugars.

UCONNHuskies · October 2014

Maria/ct Ttc #2, 5 months Had my levels checked to make sure I'm doing what I need to do. 2ww I'm feeling cautiously optimistic. #babydust

meredithcarole · October 2014

1. Meredith from FL

2. TTC#1 since Nov. 2013 with a loss in March. 5th cycle post mc.

3. Charting and temping. Tried EPO (aka "herbaceous lube") and PreSeed (now apparently known as "astro lube" - DH thinks he's cute)

4. 2WW - I think. I haven't gotten crosshairs yet, but I seem to be on a slow rise. Not sure if that is good, bad, or indifferent.

5. It depends on when FF thinks O occurred. Not great though.

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?
I'm going to "out" myself on FB on the 15th about my loss in the hopes of being able to support someone else in the future. It is kind of a scary step, but I think it is important.

Feel free to add any vents or shout outs.

@lcwed I hope this is your cycle

@tlc35‌ I hope H feels up to trying, but I am glad you have your RE appt. just in case.

@URMySunshine77‌ you really are awesome!

FX for all of you! Maybe we will all be able to have great Christmas surprises.

vh2014 · October 2014

I'm late again. Busy day at work yesterday!.

Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.
vh2014, Virginia

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.? #3 for me #1 for him, 1st month after a 9 month break...

3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?
Lots of BD... I see lots of people trying SME... we are trying Sperm overpowers Egg. AF was short this time so we've been practicing alot haha... we've been together for years, but the newlywed bug has hit us.

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww?
CD7
5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)
Hopeful.. I am going to have to test a day early (unless AF shows early) because I have a conference to go to and want to know before I leave. Glad that if it is a BFN I'll have a few days that are packed so I can think about it less and DH isn't going to this one so I'll have a room to myself to be disappointed in... hopefully that plan ensures a BFP. haha
QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?
Just getting back to healthy habits. I already started at the end of September. The last month or so I haven't been in the gym as much and we've been eating out too much. Not pushing the gym as hard (I read that excessive will decrease chances of TTC) but still a healthy amount and cooking at home again (hello crockpot I missed you LOL)
Feel free to add any vents or shout outs.

GL to everyone this week. I'm ready for us all to graduate and move to the other board together! And yes, I know I just got here... love the company but ready to take the party elsewhere.

smd1225 · October 2014

1-Marie from Chicago
2-TTC#1 since June 2013
3-charting tempting opk
4-cd1
5- feeling very sad. I was really setting my hopes up that this was our month...similar to what others mentioned, timing would have been ideal! Temp plummetted yesterday and got a bfn, then AF graced me with her presence first thing this morning. So I'm out.
Good luck to everyone! Hoping this is your month!!!!

WinoGrrl · October 2014

@smd1225 hugs! Hopefully this is the month for all of us!

tlc35 · October 2014

@meredithcarole I am thinking about outing myself on FB for October 15th too but I need to see what my H thinks. He is pretty private, especially on FB.

kelley72 · October 2014

Best wishes to those testing soon! Hopeful we have a productive cycle ladies!

1. Kelley in Georgia
2. Cycle 6 ttc #6
3. On our own, I chart temp, cp and cf. Might do opk's this go round still haven't decided
4. cd7
5. I'm feeling a little down, like others the timing would be so ideal for us to conceive this month. If we go one more month without conception I'll be 43 before delivery. That makes me feel anxious and sad and with hitting the 6 month mark I'm sad that we cannot afford RE assistance.

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)? Having good quality family time this fall, we are so busy with sports (football and soccer) that the weeknights seem so rushed, I hope to do a few fun outdoor family activities.

verdongirl · October 2014

Posted on the wrong thread before...probably won't be a regular poster, but I'm always down for a hello:

1. Verdongirl, in SoCal

2. Cycle 1 ttc #1

3. I chart, temp and do vitamins. The hubs does FertilAid... Might try OPK next month.

4. cd27

5. meh...

QOTW: Goals?

I'd like to eat a little healthier. I'd like to give myself a little more grace...

Best of luck to you guys.

flyliceandcoffee · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.
flyliceandcoffee - CO

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?
TTC #2, since June with loss in August

3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?
Charting, opks and keeping track of temps for the first time.

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww?
I "think" we're getting close to ovulation. My temps have been all over the place, but I finally got a peak and a positive on my tests this morning.

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)
More than likely we're out this cycle. I'm on a work trip until tomorrow and although we dtd on Saturday before I went out of town, that's stretching the life of his little swimmers.

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?
I'm excited to dress S up in a costume and maybe try to take her trick or treating for the first time. I think she's still fitting the one from last year though...

Davie813 · October 2014

1. Davie813, Chicago

2. TTC #2 since January

3. Maybe IUI #3? DH really wants to give it one more try before moving on to IVF in December (IVF freaks him out), but I would kind of like a break from hormones, herbs, pills, needles, and doctor's appointments. I think we'll see what the CD3 bloodwork looks like and go from there?

4. CD1. >:P

5. I'm full of mopey rage this morning, if that makes sense, enjoying the post-medicated cycle progesterone crash in all its glory. I think my health is just too poor for any of this to work, and I'm (already!) sick of it.

6. Our first Halloween as a family (DD was only 4 months old last year), and trying to get healthier. I got up early and took a three mile walk yesterday (a walk--not one step of running--and I was literally limping the rest of the day. Not really sure how to turn things around from such a low starting point, to be honest.)

Obviously hoping for good news for @Lesliem0901 and great betas for @JimBobCooter. Hugs to @smd1225, @kelley72, and anyone else who's feeling discouraged.

SillySally24 · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.
SillySally24 - SE PA

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?
TTC #1 since beginning of year
3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?

IVF#1 was converted to IUI on Sunday

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww? In the 2WW

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc) I'm trying to stay hopeful, but already thinking about donor eggs

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)? Dreading dress shopping for a wedding next weekend, and dreading the wedding. Oh - looking forward to - nothing special going on this month.

Feel free to add any vents or shout outs. @JimBobCooter - for an awesome beta!

lcwed · October 2014

@meredithcarole @tlc35, any particular reason on October 15? Is that a national loss day?

tlc35 · October 2014

Yes, it is Pregnancy and Infant loss remembrance day

https://forums.thebump.com/discussion/12453285/awareness-campaign#latest

emsmama15 · October 2014

Hi everyone! --Heather from MN -- TTC #2 since March 2014 -- STILL on BCPs. Ultrasound again next Friday. My husband is coming with (he's missed most because I do them on my way to work or on weekends when he needs to stay with our DD). I'm glad he's coming because I will probably completely lose my shit if the cyst is still there over two months later. -- I'm feeling hopeful for next cycle but still get weepy sometimes.

sonpetitlapin · October 2014

URMySunshine77 Thank you. She finally left today. Geesh!! Now onto practicing with the BD waiting for O!!!

northernkhaleesi · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.
Northern Khaleesi from the great, wild north (aka Canada)

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?
#3 for me, #1 for DH, TTC since April with a loss in September.
3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?

Temping/charting... now I have to go research Sperm Meets Egg...

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww?

CD7, so I'm just hanging out and having fun...

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)

Always optimistic!

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?

Always the obvious! Getting back on track with eating better, and getting my step counts back up to where they should be. I'm trying not to work out too hard, but I'm trying to get back into the swing of things so it will be easier to maintain once I get pregnant again (see that optimism?!?!)

Other than that, I'm looking forward to pumpkin everything, and starting rehearsals for the community musical.

TAT2MAMI · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.
TAT2MAMI from Northern Cal

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?
TTC #2 since March/April 2014

3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?
Charting. Going to try OPK's this month. Also have an appt w/my OB on Monday.

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww?
CD 9

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)
Feeling hopeful. I would love to get a BFP this month. That would mean a late June/early July baby. AND .. Chinese calendar predicts it would be a boy!

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?
Not a whole lot going on for this month. Halloween is a fun time. DD is dressing up as Madeline Hatter (Ever After High series). She's the daughter of the Mad Hatter.
We usually get invited to a Halloween party as well so I have to start thinking of costumes for me and DH.

Feel free to add any vents or shout outs.
Thank you for the shout out @UrMySunshine77 .. I agree with PP.. YOU are awesome!
Best of luck to all of us on here for great tests and BFP's!!

wannabmama23 · October 2014

@davie813 (I think my tags aren't working on mobile...boo) 3 miles of walking is awesome! Just do what you can. Everyone starts somewhere and the best shape I was ever in, in my life, was from walking a lot. Don't get discouraged...sometimes it's easier to add some little things (park farther from the store, walk up stairs, etc.) than to "workout" in big chunks. I'm struggling a lot with weight and stress so I know it's frustrating! Hugs!

Davie813 · October 2014

wannabmama23 said:

@davie813 (I think my tags aren't working on mobile...boo) 3 miles of walking is awesome! Just do what you can. Everyone starts somewhere and the best shape I was ever in, in my life, was from walking a lot. Don't get discouraged...sometimes it's easier to add some little things (park farther from the store, walk up stairs, etc.) than to "workout" in big chunks. I'm struggling a lot with weight and stress so I know it's frustrating! Hugs!

Aaaw--thanks! I'm having a hard time because I don't really know how to handle my body anymore! I used to run quite a lot, but the combination of the weight I've gained and the interesting things pregnancy does to your joints even if you don't gain an assload (so to speak) means I injure myself all the time. I'm not sure what to do. Strength training might help, but joining a gym really isn't an option, schedule-wise.

I think you're right about the small steps, though. Good luck to both of us!

Ready4one · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from. Monee' - Nevada

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.? We have been TTC for 22 months. I am TTC #1 DH #2

3. What are you doing this cycle? We are doing IVF #2 in Nov but I will be starting meds before I even know it lol like less than 2 weeks from now eeekkk

4. Where are you in your cycle? BCP :-/

5. How do you feel about this cycle? Nov. is going to be my lucky cycle ;-)

QOTW: I hope to stop eating everything and the kitchen sink ... I can't seem to get on track during all of this, but it will all be worth it :-)

tmorash · October 2014

1. tmorash, from Canada

2. TTC#1 for 2 cycles now (NTNP a while before that).

3. Charting and temping; think I'll use OPKs this next cycle.

4. CD1. And to be more specific, and I'm sorry about the piteous tone, in the bathroom weeping. Even though I only just started temping, I've been charting for years, and I've only had one cycle that was longer than this last one. So as I crept up to 29 and 30 days and my temp seemed okay, with just a dip at 9dpo, I guess I allowed too much hope in. I tried really hard not to but I did. I involuntarily did all the stuff that I knew I shouldn't. The BF's birthday dinner is tonight so I thought I would tell him then -- he would be so so happy. (Canadian) Thanksgiving is next week so I could surprise my parents with the news. I had a HPT all ready to go this morning and instead I woke up to cramps and a temp drop.

I want to be super positive and all "next cycle it is, then! I've learned more about my body at least!" but it just sucks right now. And I'm so new in comparison and I have to say again how much I admire the resilience of everyone here who is keeping it up.

5. Maybe I'll feel hopeful in a few days. Right now I want to curl up. Intellectually I know I shouldn't be surpised, and I've been trying to prepare for this basically every bathroom visit over the last few days. But emotionally, it's just awful. I know you ladies know -- some far more deeply than me.

QOTW: Keep up the exercise regimen I guess. Try to find some way to decrease the BF's performance anxiety so we can up our chances this cycle.

Shout out to all the ladies at the beginning of their cycles. It's pretty rough but we're probably stronger than we think.

verdongirl · October 2014

@tmorash: I'm sorry you feel gutted today.I know it doesn't mean much to say, "stay hopeful." But, reading these boards, there sure seem to be a lot of success stories if you stick with it.

There is no shame in being hopeful.

I'm pretty new to this journey, too. My mileage hasn't been in the child loss department (although I had a chemical pregnancy once), but in losing my Mom, Dad, ex-husband and other family members to early deaths. For some reason, I almost don't want to TTC, because of that road I've been on. I feel fragile.

On a lighter note, I wish I lived in Canada. I am fully jealous.

Davie813 · October 2014

@tmorash, I'm sorry. Big hugs to you.

tmorash · October 2014

@verdongirl Thanks for the kind words @verdongirl. I've never lived anywhere but Canada, but I think it's a great place to be, especially my far-east end. In fact, plenty of people here hardly consider themselves Canadian (we joined the country with some controversy, and recently enough that people my parents' age weren't even born Canadian).

I probably should have waited a few hours to post rather than vent fresh spleen on everyone here -- especially considering how unexceptional my disappointment is, relatively speaking. I had an unexpected cry in front of the BF before work when he asked if everyhing was okay...so now he knows too, and blames himself because of the performance anxiety issues that've cropped up since we started TTC.

BUT: it's Friday, and we are going to go out for delicious Vietnamese food tonight to celebrate his birthday, and I'm going to drink all the wine, and we're going to have a great time. So there.

vh2014 · October 2014

@tmorash Have fun tonight! No shame in disappointment. Every cycle we start with "this is it!" and the dream builds. It's ok to mourn that month's dream and then start a new dream the next month. Hang in there and big hugs to you!

tmorash · October 2014

@Davie813 Thanks for the hugs; they really do help a lot!

tlc35 · October 2014

tmorash said:

@verdongirl Thanks for the kind words @verdongirl. I've never lived anywhere but Canada, but I think it's a great place to be, especially my far-east end. In fact, plenty of people here hardly consider themselves Canadian (we joined the country with some controversy, and recently enough that people my parents' age weren't even born Canadian).
I probably should have waited a few hours to post rather than vent fresh spleen on everyone here -- especially considering how unexceptional my disappointment is, relatively speaking. I had an unexpected cry in front of the BF before work when he asked if everyhing was okay...so now he knows too, and blames himself because of the performance anxiety issues that've cropped up since we started TTC.
BUT: it's Friday, and we are going to go out for delicious Vietnamese food tonight to celebrate his birthday, and I'm going to drink all the wine, and we're going to have a great time. So there.

No need to apologize for the vent. This is the place to do it and we have all gotten our hopes up only to have them dashed.

WinoGrrl · October 2014

@tmorash hugs! enjoy the wine!!

SchruteBucks · October 2014

1. Your Name or Screen Name (not full names) and State you are from.

SchruteBucks in Oregon

2. How long have you been TTC? Are you TTC #1,#2,#3, etc.?

Second cycle TTC #4

3. What are you doing this cycle? Are you seeking help with a fertility specialist (RE)? If so, what stage are you in? Charting/temping? Testing? Medicated cycles? IUI? IVF? DE?

Charting, OPKs and lots of sex (the 'Sperm Meets Egg' method this month)

4. Where are you in your cycle? (Waiting to O, 2WW etc) If in the 2ww when will you test? Experiencing any weird "phantom" symptoms ladies in your 2ww?

Waiting to O, cd 15. I usually ovulate around the 19th or 20th and so far all signs post to that being the same this month.

5. How do you feel about this cycle? (Are you hopeful, anxious... etc)

Good. Lots of EWCM, lots of sex.

QOTW: October is a new month. Any goals or things you are looking forward to (besides the obvious)?

No goals, but I love the Fall and love October. Looking forward to going to the pumpkin patch, carving pumpkins, decorating for Halloween, eating candy, etc. Also looking forward to my first eggnog latte of the season!

tmorash · October 2014

tlc35 said:

No need to apologize for the vent. This is the place to do it and we have all gotten our hopes up only to have them dashed.

Thanks @tlc35‌ I was feeling like I had over-vented, and I really do appreciate the support.

Want a personalized experience?

TTC>35 weekly check-in 10/1

Re: TTC>35 weekly check-in 10/1

Choose Another Board

Search Boards

Want a personalized experience?

TTC>35 weekly check-in 10/1

Re: TTC&gt;35 weekly check-in 10/1

Choose Another Board

Search Boards

Re: TTC>35 weekly check-in 10/1