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Miscarriage/Pregnancy Loss
Pennilyn Novus
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Lurker finally introducing myself, unfortunately
Pennilyn Novus
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I've lurked for a few days but I figured I should introduce myself.
This is my third miscarriage, second missed miscarriage. I heard the heartbeat, strong in the 160s, at 11 weeks. I went in a week and a half later for the NT scan, and discovered my baby had died. I had a D&C the next day. In the following days, I had too much bleeding, a med to stop the bleeding that gave me horrifying cramps, a 10 hour trip to the emergency room for abdominal pain where I found I had a UTI and retained tissue, and would need a repeat D&C. Thankfully the next day all of what remained came out and I thought I could finally start to grieve. But then I got blood clots in my leg, so I had to give myself twice daily blood thinner shots, and the bloodwork came back with a possible Antiphospholipid Antibody Syndrome, which is just a fancy way of saying my blood clots when it shouldn't, and that I may have gotten a clot in my placenta that killed my baby. And if I'd been on aspirin it might not have happened.
So now I'm finally in a place where I can start to grieve and I feel frozen in anger at the world. I waited a year to get off a med so I could get pregnant, and then we managed it the first month, and I made it 12 weeks with everything fine. I'm 35, so I know time is of the essence, and I'm so scared it won't happen again, that I'll just keep miscarrying.
This is my third miscarriage, second missed miscarriage. I heard the heartbeat, strong in the 160s, at 11 weeks. I went in a week and a half later for the NT scan, and discovered my baby had died. I had a D&C the next day. In the following days, I had too much bleeding, a med to stop the bleeding that gave me horrifying cramps, a 10 hour trip to the emergency room for abdominal pain where I found I had a UTI and retained tissue, and would need a repeat D&C. Thankfully the next day all of what remained came out and I thought I could finally start to grieve. But then I got blood clots in my leg, so I had to give myself twice daily blood thinner shots, and the bloodwork came back with a possible Antiphospholipid Antibody Syndrome, which is just a fancy way of saying my blood clots when it shouldn't, and that I may have gotten a clot in my placenta that killed my baby. And if I'd been on aspirin it might not have happened.
So now I'm finally in a place where I can start to grieve and I feel frozen in anger at the world. I waited a year to get off a med so I could get pregnant, and then we managed it the first month, and I made it 12 weeks with everything fine. I'm 35, so I know time is of the essence, and I'm so scared it won't happen again, that I'll just keep miscarrying.
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Re: Lurker finally introducing myself, unfortunately
Me:36, DH:37
DS born 11/2012
BFP 7/26/14, Missed M/C at 8 weeks, discovered at 10 wks, 6 days, D&C 9/22/14, Dx: Partial molar pregnancy
Huge hugs to you all.