So I think my time here is coming to an end. I'm 98% sure we will not be pursuing IVF. Our insurance doesn't cover IVF, so we'd be OOP and we just don't have that. With the blood clotting issue, and 3 previous c-sections, my OB is not thrilled with us pursuing IVF. It's just a lot to go through physically and financially with no guarantee. We're heavily considering foster to adopt. It's a mixture of emotions...grief for the end of biological children, fear for all the unknowns and things we'd have no control of, but also excitement to welcome a little one into our family. We've always talked about adopting someday...I think the time has come to pursue that.
Thank you all so much for your support and encouragement during my short time here. Please know each of you are in my prayers, that you would be blessed with a miracle...or miracleS very soon and be surrounded by support and encouragement during this difficult time!!!
I'm sorry you're at the end of this journey before you have a baby in your arms. But it sounds like you're in a good place. I wish you the best with your new journey and I know so many adoptive parents who look back on their history and know they never would have made it to that child had it not been for all the heartache and closed doors along the way. And they are glad to be where they are now. So, I hope the same becomes true for you in the very near future.
Happily Mrs. C
start ttc #1 in Jan 2009
dx PCOS in May 2010, begin metformin
Two failed clomid cycles (made lining too thin)
Started acupuncture while saving for IVF in Sept 2011
Add herbal infusions to the mix in Dec 2011
Hoping holistic approach works!!!
BFP on April 2012 at 11dpo
Meepy Man born on Jan 2013 - Hip Hip Hurray!
Ready to start ttc #2 April 2013, but plan to be an extended BF'er
Back on metformin Aug 2013
Restart herbal infusions Sept 2013 - currently drinking nettle, oatstraw,and red raspberry leaf
DS weaned in April 2014
Taking a break from herbs and just riding the healthy train.
Planning medicated cycle end of summer. FX I get KU before then!!!
I'm so sorry. I know that must be a hard place to be. I know you will be a wonderful mother and a wonderful family for whatever baby comes to you, biological or otherwise. ((hugs))
i think your decision is right because it's what works for you and your family. i can imagine how hard it was to come to that decision. i wish you the best of luck and hope you get your little one soon. take care.
BFP #4 2/18/14. EDD 10/30/14... Ruptured ectopic with L tube removed & D&C 3/7/14.
BFP #5 7/27/14. EDD 4/9/15... m/c @ 5w4d.
IVF #1 Oct 2014 - antagonist protocol: 9R, 7M, 5F. 3dt of 3 Grade 2 embies. BFN.
IVF #2 Jan 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle. Converted to IUI #1. BFFN
IVF #2.1 March 2015 cancelled due to dominant follicle.
BFP #6 (SUPRISE!) 3/19/15. EDD 11/30/15... CP at 4w2d.
IUI #2: Clomid + Follistim = 3 follies. BFN.
IVF #2.2 May 2015 - horrible response to micro lupron flare protocol: 3R, 3M, 3F. 3dt of 2 Grade 3 embies. BFFN.
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are
overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you."
-lastsliverofhope
I hope you are all able to come to peace with your decision and good luck with all that that brings.
Kid #1 - 09/03/12
Kid #2 - maybe???
Diagnosed with Severe Ashermans Hysteroscopy #10 - scar tissue grew back reblocking my right tube #11 or IVF with scarring still inside? 1 lone embryo from September 2016 retreival, dx with Trisomy 16, starting fresh
I'm so sorry, but I'm happy to see you are in a peaceful place right now. Miracles happen everyday, and like I keep telling DH, a baby is a blessing no matter how they come into your life. Biological or not. A blessing.
Sept 2013 started TTC#2 (never got PP period so hoping for the first egg to drop)
Jan 2014 - diagnosed POF (Premature Ovarian Failure) and told pregnancy not possible without egg donor because my ovaries would never function again with my hormone levels (FSH 136, LH 98.6, AMH <.03, estradiol 0, HCG 7) - using acupuncture, chiropractic care and TCM herbs / supplements
March 11, 2014 ovulated despite every doctors prognosis!!!
Oct 2014 hormones (FSH 48, Estradiol 89, HCG 1) not good, but heckuva lot better!
Nov. 16, 2015 FET of single adopted 5AA embryo - BFN
Re: I think I'm permanently out of the game.
Best of luck moving forward. IVF is not an option for us either. A good friend of mine just adopted an adorable baby- success stories are out there!
TTC #2 since 1/1/13
Rainbow Surprise Baby due 05/26/2017
BFP #7 (beyond surprised again!) 4/26/16. EDD 1/5/17. beautiful betas!!!! and then near-fatal hemorrhagic corpus luteum. turns out baby was ectopic after all; another lap 5/6 (@24dpo).
the universe can fuck off.
"You are overly paranoid and delusional that every one is out to get you." -lastsliverofhope
PCOS and MF
Two failed rounds IUI in 2010
IVF #1 in 2011 - BFP 8/5/11 - Our IVF miracle was born 4/8/12
FET 9/23/13; BFP -Twins-10/3/13; EDD 6/10/14; MC 11/1/13; D&C 11/4/13
FET 3/28/14; BFN - 4/7/14
IVF #2 - Transfer 2 embryos 11/14/14; BFP 11/24/14 - Beta 265;
11/26/14 - Beta 612; 11/28/14 - Beta 1263; 12/1/14 - Beta 3571;
12/3/14 - first u/s - two gestational sacs; 12/17/14 - two healthy heartbeats (132 and 134)
Our IVF miracles were born 7/16/15
FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN
FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN
No more frosties
IVF #2. September 2014
PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts
SET November 9, 2014
Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN
Not sure where to go from here.
Kid #1 - 09/03/12
Hysteroscopy #10 - scar tissue grew back reblocking my right tube
#11 or IVF with scarring still inside?
1 lone embryo from September 2016 retreival, dx with Trisomy 16, starting fresh