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blackbird818
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Holy Shit there are 2 Lines (bb)
blackbird818
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I can't believe I'm actually typing this, but here I am. Honestly, I'm at a loss for words, and I'm sure this will not come out as eloquently as I had hoped or planned.
Most of my background is in my siggy but in overview....I'm 30 years old and H is 41. We live in central Oklahoma and raise cattle. We just celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary in August, and this month makes it 2 years of TTC. I suffer from PCOS and have a difficult time ovulating on my own. Irregular doesn't begin to describe my cycles. I suffered a miscarriage in May 2013 just two days before my first appointment. Following our loss I started charting, which did alot to save my sanity with my forever long cycles. We tried three medicated cycles thru my OB that all ended in failure or were cancelled. We scheduled an appt with a RE, but I cancelled it last minute bc I wasn't emotionally ready. Over the summer, we began discussing adoption and while on vacation in early August, we agreed on focusing our efforts on adoption. As it turned out, somehow I ovulated on my own on cd42 at the end of Aug, which is only the 4th time is 2 years. I got my BFP yesterday morning (15dpo) at 4am (apparently my bladder couldn't stand the suspense any longer lol).
I think that about covers it. I honestly never thought I'd been joining this side. I've been a frequent dirty lurker and stalker of my fellow TTCALers that have moved on. And now as make my move over here, all I can ask is to please hold me tight. @-)
To my TCCAL lovelies, I have debated and debated posting a farewell on the board. I just can't bring myself to do it. The fear of possibly hurting any beautiful lady with my BFP is just too much for me to risk it. I respect and love all of you too much to do that! You ladies have been there for me when it seemed like no one else was. You've held me when I was heartbroken; you've consoled me when I was disappointed; you've drank with me whenever the hell we felt like it. I truly don't know where I would be without all of you. I was in such a bad place when I joined you almost 1.5 years ago. I have met so many incredible ladies and made some very dear friends. I want to thank each and every one of you for what you have done for me!!! I don't know how I'm gonna quit you so you can bet I'll be lurking around. I'm hoping & praying for all of you!! >:D< :-*
To my sweet December Snow Angel ladies (past & present), I have been so honored to be your check-in leader and to have shared in your journey. You are all very special to me!! I am going to miss you dearly. I will be sending out a group PM shortly (bc I'm not sure how many of you lurk over here) to find a new check-in leader.
I want to thank @EurydiceNymph for stepping in to take over the daily TP thread for me. Thank you again doll!!
Also want to say thank you to all the wonderful ladies who have already PMed me, both encouragingly pushing me to test and/or offering congrats. I never realized how many (chart) stalkers I had
You all rock!!! I have never felt so loved and supported. I was moved to tears on numerous occasions.
Finally, I have to say an extra special thank you to the lovely @HoldingOutHope, who has been there for me so much & done her best to keep me sane. I know I can always count on you and consider you to be a true friend. :x
Most of my background is in my siggy but in overview....I'm 30 years old and H is 41. We live in central Oklahoma and raise cattle. We just celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary in August, and this month makes it 2 years of TTC. I suffer from PCOS and have a difficult time ovulating on my own. Irregular doesn't begin to describe my cycles. I suffered a miscarriage in May 2013 just two days before my first appointment. Following our loss I started charting, which did alot to save my sanity with my forever long cycles. We tried three medicated cycles thru my OB that all ended in failure or were cancelled. We scheduled an appt with a RE, but I cancelled it last minute bc I wasn't emotionally ready. Over the summer, we began discussing adoption and while on vacation in early August, we agreed on focusing our efforts on adoption. As it turned out, somehow I ovulated on my own on cd42 at the end of Aug, which is only the 4th time is 2 years. I got my BFP yesterday morning (15dpo) at 4am (apparently my bladder couldn't stand the suspense any longer lol).
I think that about covers it. I honestly never thought I'd been joining this side. I've been a frequent dirty lurker and stalker of my fellow TTCALers that have moved on. And now as make my move over here, all I can ask is to please hold me tight. @-)
To my TCCAL lovelies, I have debated and debated posting a farewell on the board. I just can't bring myself to do it. The fear of possibly hurting any beautiful lady with my BFP is just too much for me to risk it. I respect and love all of you too much to do that! You ladies have been there for me when it seemed like no one else was. You've held me when I was heartbroken; you've consoled me when I was disappointed; you've drank with me whenever the hell we felt like it. I truly don't know where I would be without all of you. I was in such a bad place when I joined you almost 1.5 years ago. I have met so many incredible ladies and made some very dear friends. I want to thank each and every one of you for what you have done for me!!! I don't know how I'm gonna quit you so you can bet I'll be lurking around. I'm hoping & praying for all of you!! >:D< :-*
To my sweet December Snow Angel ladies (past & present), I have been so honored to be your check-in leader and to have shared in your journey. You are all very special to me!! I am going to miss you dearly. I will be sending out a group PM shortly (bc I'm not sure how many of you lurk over here) to find a new check-in leader.
I want to thank @EurydiceNymph for stepping in to take over the daily TP thread for me. Thank you again doll!!
Also want to say thank you to all the wonderful ladies who have already PMed me, both encouragingly pushing me to test and/or offering congrats. I never realized how many (chart) stalkers I had
You all rock!!! I have never felt so loved and supported. I was moved to tears on numerous occasions. Finally, I have to say an extra special thank you to the lovely @HoldingOutHope, who has been there for me so much & done her best to keep me sane. I know I can always count on you and consider you to be a true friend. :x
TTC since Sept 2012
M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14
My Chart
***** All ALers welcome *****
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Re: Holy Shit there are 2 Lines (bb)
TTC since March 2012
BFP #1 1/29/13, EDD 10/9/13
BFP #3 8/11/14 EDD 4/22/14
Began trying for a baby January 2012
BFP 4.25.2013 EDD 1.3.2014 MMC 6.3.2013 D&C 6.19.2013
BFP 11.3.2013 CP 11.6.2013
BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014
Also, try not to focus on late ovulation, I ovulated cd32 this go around.
BFP#4 3/17/14 - rainbow Baby BOY arrived 11/10/14 !!
DX: Uterine Septum - Resection 9/5/13 || MTHFR Hetero A1298C || My Chart
BFP #1: 6/25/09 EDD 2/13/10 @ 6 weeks- Saw HB @ 9 weeks - DS born 2/11/10 (39w5d)
BFP #2: 2/20/13 EDD 11/4/13 - Saw HB 3/19/13 (7w2d) - MMC discovered 4/13/13 (10w5d) - Est. loss @ 9w3d - D&C 4/14/13
BFP #4: 9/10/14 (3w6d) EDD 5/21/15 - natural MC 9/23/14 @ 5w5d
BFP #5: 11/23/14 (3w3d) EDD 8/4/15 - Please be our Rainbow!
BFP 5/19/2013. MC 7/2/2013 (9w6d) with est. loss at 8w. Miso 7/3/2013 and emergency D & C 7/6/2013.
BFP#2 11/6/2013. CP 11/14/2013.
BFP #3 12/13/2013. Beta #1 @ 15dpo- 239. Progesterone 27. Beta #2 @17dpo - 90. CP 12/21/2013
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:6-7
All PgAL and PAL welcome.
:x you're too sweet!!! You toasted with a glass of wine at ~9am? That's my girl!!
Thank you so much lady!!! I'm keeping a seat saved for you. And like I already told you, here's hoping our Mexican luck rubs off on you too!! [-O<
TTC since Sept 2012
M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14
My Chart
***** All ALers welcome *****
TTC since Sept 2012
M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14
My Chart
***** All ALers welcome *****
Tearing up reading this!!!
Congratulations lovely!! I am so happy for you!
MAY '15 DEC. SIGGY CHALLENGE- FAV. CHRISTMAS MOVIE
Dating- 3/1/1999 ~ Married- 10/10/2004
DD#1- Sweet Pea ~ Born on her Due Date 3/1/2007
DD#2- Pumpkin ~ Due 9/29/2010 Arrived 10/1/2010
~ BFP: 6/12/2013 EDD: 2/21/2014 NT Scan: 8/5/2013 (11w3d) MMC D&C: 8/8/2013 ~
~BFP: 3/15/2014 EDD: 11/24/2014 CP 4 weeks 4 days ~
~BFP: 7/2/2014 EDD: 3/15/2015 CP 4 weeks ~
~BFP: 8/31/2014 EDD: 5/10/2015
*All are Welcome*
My Chart
BFP #1 - 6-2009 - edd 1-23-10 - mmc - discovered by u/s @ 13wks 2days - D&C
BFP #2 - 10-15-2010 - Baby boy born 6-11-11
BFP#3 - 6-2013 - edd 2-21-14 -mmc discovered by u/s @ 9 wks - D&C
BFP #4 - 3-10-14 - edd 11-19-14 - natural miscarriage 4-10-14
BFP #5 - 8-24-14 - edd 5-5-15 - Please be our RAINBOW!!!
U/S 9-30 - baby measuring right on track, heart rate of 155bpm
U/S 10-8 & 10-14 - baby is growing perfectly!
10-20 - 151 bpm 10-31 153 bpm
11-13 IT'S A BOY!!!!!
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
All AL are welcome
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
All AL are welcome
Married August 2003
Off BC, NTNP since June 2011
Started acupuncture/herbs July 2012
First BFP 9-8-2012,EDD 5-15-2013, heartbeat of 175 at 8w2d, mmc discovered on 10-26-12 (11w6d) Cytotec on 10/26/12
8/23/13 DX with non-IR PCOS
Second BFP 9.12.13, EDD 5.29.14, heartbeat of 114 at 6w1d, mmc discovered on 10-18-13, D&C on 10/23/13 (baby girl/Trisomy 10)
Third BFP (surprise at Beta draw after d&c) on 1/10/14 (15dpo), EDD 9.20.14 Please be our RAINBOW!
*IVF (07/2013): BFP-Natural Miscarriage @ 5 weeks*
*FET #1 (10/2013): BFN
*FET #2 (12/2013)- BFP-Missed Miscarriage at 8 weeks
*Chromosomes and Karotyping tests were both normal.We lost a healthy baby boy
*FET #3 (04/2014) was cancelled after finding Chronic Endometritis
If I could physically hold you here I would be quitting my job to fly to OK to sit on you for the next nine months.
I am beyond happy for you right now and will keep everything crossed for great betas, and two new little showmen being born next year!!
TTC Since 04/01/13
BFP #1 04/28/13 Its twins! EDD 01/08/2014 MMC confirmed 06/27/13 D&C 07/17/13
BFP#2 05/19/14 EDD 01/30/2015 Please be our rainbow!
My Ovulation Chart
*~*~* All AL Welcome*~*~*
:-O how crazy? How awesome would it be to meet up at national shows over the years?!?!
PS If you fly down here, I'm putting you to work working hair
TTC since Sept 2012
M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14
My Chart
***** All ALers welcome *****
So many congrats!
DH: 45
BFP #1 3/19/14 EDD 11/29/14 MMC D&C 4/24/14
BFP #2 12/4/14 Beta #1 218 at 12dpo Beta #2 1055 at 16dpo
Saw heartbeat 12/29. Please be a rainbow.
All welcome
BFP #2 11/3/10; BO at u/s 10w6d 12/16/10; Natural MC 1/7/11; D&C 4/21/11
BFP #3 10/27/11 Please stick, LO!! 2/6/12 It's a Girl! Alexis Grace born 6/29/12
BFP#4 4/27/14 Stick, stick, stick!! 8/11/14 It's a Boy! Evan Wesley born 1/8/15
"Patience is waiting. Not passively waiting. That is laziness. But to keep going when the going is hard and slow, that is patience." Let it Be (blog) ♥ My BFP Charts
This time I'm not leaving without you.
Congrats!!!!!! I hope you have a happy, healthy, uneventful 9 months! I'm very happy for you!
Me: 34; DH: 38; SD: 9
TTC #1 since November 2013
BFP #1: 2/4/14--EDD 10/14/14--CP 2/8/14
BFP #2: 3/1/14--EDD 11/15/14--MMC at 12w6d (baby stopped developing at 11w4d)
D&C 5/13/14; Retained Tissue Found: Cytotec 5/30/14; 2nd D&C 6/20/14
BFP #3: 12/13/14--EDD 8/27/15--MMC at 7 weeks (no fetal pole and measuring 1 1/2 weeks behind)--Cytotec 1/9/15
January 2015: Off to RE for RPL testing
Congrats lady!
Me-27 DH-29
TTC#1 January 2013
BFP February 27th 2014, MMC ended in D&C
Working on our rainbow!
Curious about my ute?
BFP#1 4/17/2013 EDD 12/25/2013, MC 5/17/2013 8 weeks 3 days D&C 5/18/2013
BFP#2 1/20/2014 EDD 9/28/2014, Baby Evie born on 9/23/2014 at 8:50pm. 6 lbs 15 oz!
Oh honey, I'm so happy for you! I will miss all your cute calf pics, but grab a sticky seat and stay awhile!
DX Endometriosis 2/2002 (lost left tube due to a cyst), PCOS 6/2010
BFP - 10/18/2012, EDD - 6/26/2013, Baby Girl lost at 22 weeks (T21), D&E 2/15/2013
BFP - 4/23/2014, EDD - 1/2/2015 Twin Boys lost at 12 weeks, M/C 6/25/2014
My chart here All ALers welcome!
BFP 6/29/2013 - EDD 3/16/14 - MMC 9/5/2013
April 2014 - - 1st ICI Cycle - BFP 5/15/14 EDD: 1/20/15
A/S 8-22-14 - Its a BOY!!
12/15 Checkup & heard his beautiful heartbeat
ALL WELCOME -
EDD 5/2/14, NMC 9/11/13
EDD 10/15/14, CP 2/8/14
IF Diagnosis: PCOS, MFI
Current Cycle: 5 mg Femara/1000mg Metformin + TI = BFP, EDD 4/23/15 Please be our RAINBOW
**ALL AL/IF Welcome**
My Chart
08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm