I can't believe I'm actually typing this, but here I am. Honestly, I'm at a loss for words, and I'm sure this will not come out as eloquently as I had hoped or planned.
Most of my background is in my siggy but in overview....I'm 30 years old and H is 41. We live in central Oklahoma and raise cattle. We just celebrated our 2nd wedding anniversary in August, and this month makes it 2 years of TTC. I suffer from PCOS and have a difficult time ovulating on my own. Irregular doesn't begin to describe my cycles. I suffered a miscarriage in May 2013 just two days before my first appointment. Following our loss I started charting, which did alot to save my sanity with my forever long cycles. We tried three medicated cycles thru my OB that all ended in failure or were cancelled. We scheduled an appt with a RE, but I cancelled it last minute bc I wasn't emotionally ready. Over the summer, we began discussing adoption and while on vacation in early August, we agreed on focusing our efforts on adoption. As it turned out, somehow I ovulated on my own on cd42 at the end of Aug, which is only the 4th time is 2 years. I got my BFP yesterday morning (15dpo) at 4am (apparently my bladder couldn't stand the suspense any longer lol).
I think that about covers it. I honestly never thought I'd been joining this side. I've been a frequent dirty lurker and stalker of my fellow TTCALers that have moved on. And now as make my move over here, all I can ask is to please hold me tight. @-)
To my TCCAL lovelies, I have debated and debated posting a farewell on the board. I just can't bring myself to do it. The fear of possibly hurting any beautiful lady with my BFP is just too much for me to risk it. I respect and love all of you too much to do that! You ladies have been there for me when it seemed like no one else was. You've held me when I was heartbroken; you've consoled me when I was disappointed; you've drank with me whenever the hell we felt like it. I truly don't know where I would be without all of you. I was in such a bad place when I joined you almost 1.5 years ago. I have met so many incredible ladies and made some very dear friends. I want to thank each and every one of you for what you have done for me!!! I don't know how I'm gonna quit you so you can bet I'll be lurking around. I'm hoping & praying for all of you!! >:D< :-*
To my sweet December Snow Angel ladies (past & present), I have been so honored to be your check-in leader and to have shared in your journey. You are all very special to me!! I am going to miss you dearly. I will be sending out a group PM shortly (bc I'm not sure how many of you lurk over here) to find a new check-in leader.
I want to thank @EurydiceNymph
for stepping in to take over the daily TP thread for me. Thank you again doll!!
Also want to say thank you to all the wonderful ladies who have already PMed me, both encouragingly pushing me to test and/or offering congrats. I never realized how many (chart) stalkers I had
You all rock!!! I have never felt so loved and supported. I was moved to tears on numerous occasions.
Finally, I have to say an extra special thank you to the lovely @HoldingOutHope
, who has been there for me so much & done her best to keep me sane. I know I can always count on you and consider you to be a true friend. :x