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Pregnant after a Loss
LizBlue
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Possibly in limbo (LizBlue). Need...thoughts? hugs? I don't even know.
LizBlue
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Hi all, Thank you in advance for reading this. I want nothing more to ask my TTCAL sisters about this, but I know it's not appropriate, so here I am. So-this is our second FET and I've had zero hope that it has worked. I feel nothing like I did when I was pregnant last year, I feel everything like I did the last 478 times I've gotten a BFN (cramps, irritability).
My beta is scheduled for Monday, I am 10dp5dt today. I took a wondfo, watched it be stark white for like two minutes and went back to bed. Woke up one hour later and of course, there is a line. A very faint line, but not questionable at all. I squeezed out a few more drops into a cup and used a FRER and a wondfo and waited the appropriate time. Wonfo remained stark white. FRER has a line. A super light, have to tilt it back and forth in the light, line. MH saw it too.
I know what this means right now - nothing to do but wait. I was so hopeless and sad when I thought it was over (this is our last frozen embryo and we will not be doing IVF again), but I also felt relief that it was, in fact, over. Now I feel like this is probably a CP, and I just have to wait and let it play out.
I know y'all can't tell me anything that I don't already know but good vibes, stories of success or non-success would be ok too. And maybe some hugs. Usually I ask for vodka, but I can't even use that to get through this.
Thanks for listening. I know a bunch of you, and root for every single one of you.
xo
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*I am no longer regularly posting on TB because of the fucked up debacle of Jan 2015 when administrators banned long-term members and mods with no notice and completely dismantled a community full of women who cared about each other. If you see me posting it's only to give support to a poster who needs it or to post something important enough that I need to say. I am no longer responding to anything other than issues that affect people who I care about*
37 years old, MH is 42
TTC since 2010; Dx Unexplained Infertility; possible male factor
August 2012 through June 2013: 6 IUIs with clomid and trigger shot, all BFNs
7/2013, Pregnant! Unmedicated--we were on a treatment break
8/20/13 no heart beat; 8/23/13 d&c
3/15/14 IVF #1: Lupron/Follistim/Menopur; ER 3/10 resulting in four transfer grade blastocysts, transferred one pretty blast and froze the remaining three. BFN.
Natural FET in May cancelled because the universe hates me my hormones were not cooperating.
6/24/14 FET #1: transferred two pretty embryos; BFN
8/28/14 FET #2: BFP, ended in Chemical pregnancy
Done with medical intervention and getting used to the idea of CFNBC.
All welcome
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Re: Possibly in limbo (LizBlue). Need...thoughts? hugs? I don't even know.
So a line is a line, and every pregnancy starts with low hcgs at some point. It's still early, so it makes sense to be cautious, but you should consider the possibility that you may be KU!! ;-)
***Losses mentioned.*** TTC #1 since May 2012. Me: 37, OH: 41. Ectopic August 2012 => tubal damage. :'( Stage 1 endo removed June 2013. IVF #1 Oct/Nov 2013: Long Lupron with Gonal-F. 7R, 7M, 7F. 2 txfer@3d. Nothing frozen. => M/C @ 8 wks. :'( Selected RPL panel all normal. Very hyper and brittle response to stims. IVF #2 (antagonist protocol) Feb 2014 => Converted to IUI (Perfect conditions). BFN. IVF #2.1 w/ new RE June 2014: Antagonist protocol. 33R, 31M, 30F, 19 blasts to test!!! I made it through without crashing!!
TTC #1 since January 2013
BFP #1: April 5, 2013; EDD December 11, 2013; Missed M/C May 15, 2013
BFP #2: February 17, 2014; EDD October 30, 2014; M/C March 15, 2014
BFP #3: August 1, 2014; EDD April 14, 2015 - Praying for our RAINBOW!
EDD 5/2/14, NMC 9/11/13
EDD 10/15/14, CP 2/8/14
IF Diagnosis: PCOS, MFI
Current Cycle: 5 mg Femara/1000mg Metformin + TI = BFP, EDD 4/23/15 Please be our RAINBOW
**ALL AL/IF Welcome**
My Chart
FWIW. I (faintly) turned an frer 6 days before I could turn a digital, and my first beta draw was really low, at 18.
Just wanted to offer my T&Ps to you as you face this hell that is limbo. FX for Monday's beta draw!!! ((((((HUGS)))))) >:D<
TTC since Sept 2012
M/C on 5/01/13 at 8 wks
AF finally appeared 11 wks later per Provera
Diagnosed with PCOS on 7/29/13
Three Failed Medicated Cycles, NTNP Indefinitely
BFP #2 9/14/14, EDD 5/23/14...MMC discovered @ 9w2d; D&C 10/23/14
My Chart
***** All ALers welcome *****
Married August 2003
Began trying for a baby January 2012
BFP 4.25.2013 EDD 1.3.2014 MMC 6.3.2013 D&C 6.19.2013
BFP 11.3.2013 CP 11.6.2013
BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014
The month I likely had a cp, none of my tests turned positive in the appropriate time frame. So the fact that frer did for you is a great sign imo! Also, I'm not a fan of wondfo hpts, they just suck.
With this current pg, I had no symptoms. I only tested early(10dpo) because I woke up at 4am and felt weird and thought what the hell. Also, my frer picked up a small# because when I got bw done 1-2days later, my first beta was 70-something. And my frer's didn't really darken up until about a week later.
Congrats Liz & FX this is it!!!!
BFP#4 3/17/14 - rainbow Baby BOY arrived 11/10/14 !!
DX: Uterine Septum - Resection 9/5/13 || MTHFR Hetero A1298C || My Chart
Began trying for a baby January 2012
BFP 4.25.2013 EDD 1.3.2014 MMC 6.3.2013 D&C 6.19.2013
BFP 11.3.2013 CP 11.6.2013
BFP 3.31.2014 EDD 12.10.2014 Baby boy Carlson born 12.19.2014
The next day another positive Wondfo, but no other test to confirm (10dpo), then I started reading about false positives with wondfos and made myself terrified (mind you I was in Belgium and only had the tests I brought with me and was stupid when I packed). When I got home 5 days later there was a clearly positive wondfo and CB digital!!
Here's hoping it is just early, that this is your month, and that as much as you will miss TTCAL you will come join us over here! We would be so lucky to have you!
Keep us updated on Monday!!! ((Hugs))
A line is a line, and FRER are known to be the best for picking anything up.
Lots of hugs for you. Limbo sucks... but that's why we are here!! xo
TTC since March 2012
BFP #1 1/29/13, EDD 10/9/13
BFP #3 8/11/14 EDD 4/22/14
Lots of ((((hugs))))
BFP 5/19/2013. MC 7/2/2013 (9w6d) with est. loss at 8w. Miso 7/3/2013 and emergency D & C 7/6/2013.
BFP#2 11/6/2013. CP 11/14/2013.
BFP #3 12/13/2013. Beta #1 @ 15dpo- 239. Progesterone 27. Beta #2 @17dpo - 90. CP 12/21/2013
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. -Philippians 4:6-7
All PgAL and PAL welcome.
4 Losses (2003, 2008, Apr 2012, & Oct 2012)
All RPL and IF testing with multiple REs = normal
5 IUIs = BFN
All AL are welcome
NTNP 2009-2012 TTC since 2012:
Jack has handpicked his sibling up there
My blog about IF and loss ... Kate's IF Blog
Also, I did get better test results when I was up and moving around than with FMU. There were a LOT of sticks pee-ed upon this go around, so much was learned.
***Losses mentioned.*** TTC #1 since May 2012. Me: 37, OH: 41. Ectopic August 2012 => tubal damage. :'( Stage 1 endo removed June 2013. IVF #1 Oct/Nov 2013: Long Lupron with Gonal-F. 7R, 7M, 7F. 2 txfer@3d. Nothing frozen. => M/C @ 8 wks. :'( Selected RPL panel all normal. Very hyper and brittle response to stims. IVF #2 (antagonist protocol) Feb 2014 => Converted to IUI (Perfect conditions). BFN. IVF #2.1 w/ new RE June 2014: Antagonist protocol. 33R, 31M, 30F, 19 blasts to test!!! I made it through without crashing!!
I am sending you giant hugs, my love! FX for you!!
Lots of love and (((hugs))).
The day the Bump died - Jasper is wise
DS2 born 2/22/13
MMC 5/16/14@8w2d
DD due 5/9/15 Please be our RAINBOW
BFP #2 5/7/13 EDD 1/14/2014 Ectopic discovered 5/21/13, lost left tube
Referred to RE, blood work done August 2013, AMH 0.27, all else normal, HSG clear
((hugs)) Liz. Sorry you are in limbo, but FX for you!
My Ovulation Chart
BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
Liz, I just wanted to send T&P and tell you I have everything crossed for you!!
I know you've had a rough cycle w/ the meds and all lady, so I'm sending you nothing but positive vibes and a great first beta tomorrow! ((hugs))
08/2011: Clomid 50mg, IUI --> BFN ,
10/2011: Clomid 100mg, IUI --> BFN
04/13: Clomid, IUI BFP --> MC at 6w1d
05/13: Femara 2.5mg, IUI --> BFN , 08/13: Femara 2.5mg --> BFN
03/14: Femara 5mg, IUI --> 1 follicle @ 27d --> BFP! EDD 12/02/14--> blighted ovum, missed MC 6w6d --> D&C
4/23: D&C...starting over again, with a little part of my heart broken off
7/14: Femara 5mg + brevelle + menopur + IUI --> converted to IVF, ER 7/28 --> ET cancelled due to severe OHSS.
9/20/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP--> EDD 6/6/15 --> MC at 5w3d
10/16/14: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFN
2/6/15: Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP --> MC at 5w4d
3/20/16: PGS-tested Frozen Embryo Transfer --> BFP, Living Child born 12/1/15
6/6/17: Fresh IVF Cycle --> Severe OHSS, 5 PGS-tested embryos frozen
2/23/18: PGS-tested FET --> BFN
3/30/18: Cancelled cycle due to lining 4.2mm
BFP #2 6/12/14, DD born 2/21/15
DS2 born 2/22/13
MMC 5/16/14@8w2d
DD due 5/9/15 Please be our RAINBOW
*** BFPs and Loss Mentioned ***
TTC since 08/2012
BFP 12/28/12-- EDD 9/19/13-- M/C (d&c) on 1/31/13
7/15/14 -- IVF #1
ER on 7/26/14 -- 15 R, 8F
ET on 7/31/14 -- 1 transferred (4aa); 4 frosties!!!
BFP 8/5/14-- EDD 4/18/15
Beta #1 (14dpo): 223, Beta #2 (17dpo): 898
First u/s -- 8/28/14= 1 beautiful baby with a hb of 131
10/25/14- It's a GIRL!
11/24/14- DX with Complete Placenta Previa (Stage IV)
1/12/15- Placenta Previa has moved to Marginal!! (Stage II)