I just had my little girl 5 weeks ago. I had the "baby blues" and that finally got better. I still have a lot of anxiety though. I don't have major panic attacks or feeling like I can't go somewhere but I still have a lot of anxiety. I will get a knot in my stomach out of nowhere and everytime she cries or even makes a noise my heart races and my stomach gets knotted up. i have tried exercises, meditation, calming tea, and even getting out alone and with my husband. Even after having a day or a night out that is relaxing, the second I get home and around the baby I tense up. I feel like I am not enjoying her as much as I should. I hate being home alone with her all day and am stressed out when shes awake. I do love her and would do anything for her but I still don't feel as bonded to her as her mom. I feel like shes more of a chore right now. I feel horrible for even saying that. I told my doctor and she put me on lexapro. I have never taken any medication other than OTC stuff and I don't like the idea of something changing my mood and I am scared of all the side effects. I also do not like that you can't drink alcohol. I don't NEED it and I only do it after I have pumped milk for her, but I enjoy drinking socially and to not drink because I am on medication bums me out. Also I realy think I will feel better once shes a little older, and I am out of the house at work with other adults, and if she and I are sleeping better. SHould I wait it out a couple more weeks or take the meds? I just don't want to medicate myself if I should just stick it out longer. I am really scared I will become dependant on it and I do NOT want to be on it long term. I hate feeling this way but also hate the idea of taking meds. Anyone else have experience with lexapro and PPA?
Re: Post partum anxiety- Lexapro??